No mess no study.

Here's a sneak preview of my sty, you'll have come my house for the premiere ;)

Starting with the awesome!!!!!! bed:

Normal but do you notice it's two different bedsheets hahahaha by the time i finished changing the bolster + pillow + comforter, i got so tired i didn't want to continue with the bed. So it stayed that way, TILL NOW AND COUNTING.


The bag area which is right @ my door. See THE SEXY CRUMPLER and winnie the pooh slippers and shoe bag and another bag below it and some eastpak shit and with all the wires hanging so prominently, no wonder i'm always tempted to strangle myself with them HAHA.


The walkway which isn't really one. THAT MAT IS A KILLER MAT. It's damn slippery, everytime i step on it (esp when i wake up at >7 for school), it feels like i'm on a surfboard. Ahh that's the bedding for the comforter on the floor, at least it isn't there now.


>>> zzzoom!


This is where all my books reside with the 2 loveliest banners/boards EVER heehee. My beanbag has hereby evolved into an offload station cum dumping ground (Y) KEWL i think i can come up with 101 ways on how to effectively use your beanbag. That's renfred, darren and paul twohill on the floor hahahahah.


>>> zzzoom!!!!!!


AHHHHHHHHHH the ever faithful study table and the super disgusting bio tys fys whatever which i've never gone past the first chapter (cells?) for open ended.


And you wonder why it isn't messy BUT PINK, EVEN (haha).

Braveheart.

HI!!!!!!!!!!! ONE MORE IMPT PAPER TO GO ON MONDAY BEFORE
PRETTYLIMS (HAHA COURTESY OF MARYANNE SEE I DONT COPY WITHOUT TELLING SOMEONE) END. TUESDAY CHINESE, WED SCI MCQ SO QUITE ~~~~ WHATEVER.

Still angry with the school for not arranging chinese tgt with english before sept hols. WHY. I'm sooooooo proud of myself i came out of prelims unscathed hahaha, really gave it my best shot AND THIS CAN DEFINITELY BE COMPARED TO LAST YEAR'S EOY. Because last year i was so scared i'd retain so i really chionged to the max and that was the first time i tried my best. Yes first time. Glad history repeated. And it will for O'S and every other thing :)

The strength never came from within, instead I borrowed my strength from Him. I hate it when it's only times like these, I spend so much time with Him, trusting and placing everything in His hands, knowing He'll provide and make a way. It's just so amazing I am overwhelmed.

Now my sleeping hours are absolutely screwed, cos my optimum studying time at 11PM/MIDNIGHT ONWARDS HAHA and then sleep for 0.5/1h before going to school. My sleeping hours are from 2pm-6pm and then do useless stuff in between after that like trying to rmb
acid + metal = hydrogen HAHA KIDDING OKAY KIDDING. And then i sleep again from 10-11 then full force till morning. Tried to change the pattern before but failed miserably. I will attempt again HEE.

The time now is 405am hahaha wtheck. I WATCHED DISTURBIA TODAY WOOHOO FINALLY ON THE MOVIE WEBSITE, DAMN THRILLING YOU HAVE TO KNOW I'VE A WEAK HEART, i did what i do best- covering my eyes with my hands that had finger spaces in between haha. After the adrenaline (which is produced by the adrenal medulla HAHA) faded away, my heart rate and blood pressure decreased, my hair muscles also relaxed = no goose pimples soooo IN OTHER WORDS I WAS READY FOR SLEEP-OF-THE-WEEK. Didn't wake up in time for ch8 7pm show! I woke up @8, when it ended -_- quite zun ehhh.

Fryday is the most boring day ever (read: tv programmes are dismal) when Flyday is supposed to be THE DAY urgh. Anyway i love the "Who wants to be a superhero?" show on AXN every thurs 10-11 DAMN STUPID AND HILARIOUS = SUPER ENTERTAINING = LAUGH LIKE SIAO. Plus plus new season of My Super Sweet 16 on MTV every thursday 10-1030. I get my life back when i watch them having lives haha. Yeah i watched both yesterday when today was math p2 and bio (Y) love myself.

Okay battery meter's hitting a low yet again, shall go recharge and upload pictures later on YIPPEE YAY YAY. Shit i am hungry. Yesterday, i ate macs at 330am. Bye.

The life of 2441/0205.

There's always two sides to a coin and now, i see things with a different light. Not vulnerable anymore, i feel stronger now how kewl izzzzzat (STRONGER THAN YTD (CLAP CLAP) NOW IT'S NTG BUT MY WAYYYYYYYYY~~~).

I need to do well, to make her happy. I need to do well, to take his money (FYRB). OMG NO INTENTION TO RHYME THE TWO HAHAHA THIS JUST MEANS THEY'RE OUGHT TO BE THIS WAY FOREVER AND EVER. It's spurring me on so much i can't contain it. God's grace shining throughhhhhh and it's *filling me from crown to toe, top-full (with direst cruelty) hahaha LADY MACBETH RULES.

Three papers down, p lit socials and math p1. All good but i finished neither hahahah, pure lit sense of belonging, i left the last question blank. Socials i left usefulness blank (sorry miss poon HAHA WTH) Not completing papers is in my nature, WORKING ON IT WORKING ON IT. Mid years was worse so i'm taking it well. Mid years i left the whole seq blank hahahahahahahaha funniest shit what i studied (SUSTAINABILITY and some other shit like the one that starts with C and sounds like cornflakes haha!) didn't come out so i gave up and focused on sbq, by right i should get highest in class for sbq since all my 1h30mins was spent on it, IN THE END ANNA BEAT ME BY ONE MARK WAHLAOOOOOOOOOO I WAS DAMN ANGRY.

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO THIS TIME I STUDIED SUSTANABILITY AGAIN (I REALLY LIKE IT DAMN A LOT) PLUS GOOD GOV, BOTH CAME OUT AND I HYPERVENTILATED UPON SEEING THEM. I spotted sustain, good gov, and conflict. All three came out, just that conflict was the sri lanka one and i spotted the fish and the border and the cold war one. Maryanne blew me kisses while waiting for our papers to be collected, awww now why don't i feel loved on other occasions HAHA i'm such a friend with benefits.

I'm not gonna let geog pull my socials down, NO ROOM FOR THAT. Chinese is like in the way tmr. The only numbers i can rmb is 2441/0205 now, all my papers are without dates cos i don't keep up with them ahaha all i know is it's september now HAHA.

Can't wait for next wednesday, Round 1 of liberation = ratatouille + movie marathon + more sleep HAHAHAHA NO HARM TAKING A BREAK. Then next next monday, will be Part 2 of 2441/0205 's conquest for THUMBS UP RESULTS.

Woohoo time for geog.

Love, 2441/0205. HAHAHAHA.

A different side of me.

So i went mad on Tuesday. On Wednesday i became emotional, doubted my abilites and felt that everything was out of reach and felt stupid (like i said, feeling stupid is the worst feeling ever). On Thursday, i finally pulled myself tgt and just when i recovered my original state of being powered up, motivated and optimistic and thought i could conquer the world, i got freaking slammed by a massive blow at night. Thank God for super good tennis matches cos they calm me down by leaps and bounds and they act as a solace/ hideout for me to temporarily rescue myself from all the downside emotions.

You said "We've cut off everything alr." You have no idea how much i wanna believe yet it's attached with this doubt that comes along with it. (wow 2-in-1, double the pain, double the hurt). You know i want to tell you so badly that whatever happened 5 years ago, still replays vividly, image by image in chronological order, in the back of my mind whenever i think about it and that it has since become "my fondest memory" as a child. I hate that sorry and remorseful expression of yours, to me the greatest form of repentance will always be tears. Come on ntg pwns tears. Too bad i can't feel any tinge of your so called i'm sorry-ness. As much as i want to forget, it is sox1000000000^100000000 impossible. I'm not even talking about choices here for it has metamorphosed into a permanent memory. As much as i want to forgive, there's so many strings attached to it. I don't know how i got through these 6 years but it must have been true genuine heartfelt warm-blooded love that made up for all the hurt.

With every love comes hate and whenever there's sunshine, there will always be a shadow. If you're thinking about that one question to pop to me at this instant, my reply is "I'm not okay now" (emeline now you know why i wanted to talk to you so badly but you wanted me to sleep instead? maybe sleeping was better afterall) but i know i will get out of this shithole soon (I HAVE TO), that's what i've been doing for the past 6 years anyway and i've been nothing but strong :) *all in the name of God, Your strength is made perfect when i am weak. 3 days to prelims and i cannot afford to let this hinder me, yet i'm not in control and i simply cannot help feeling vulnerable, beaten/ defeated, weak/ feeble (this time it's 5-in-1).

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And my scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel
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I wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
'Bout a home I'll never see

It may sound absurd
But don't be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed
But won't you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream
And it's not easy to be me

I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
Men weren't meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

The only consolation now is that i finally see stars in tonight's sky.

Candice goes mad. (episode 457252463)

HI BLOGGING IS FOREIGN. I JUST HAD AWESOME TIME WATCHING HSM 2 ON YOUTUBE OMG 1000X NICER THAN HSM 1 WHEN HSM 1 IS ALREADY SO NICE. CANNOT TAKE IT. AT THE MOMENT, I THINK ZAC EFRON AND VANESSA HUDGENS IS THE "PERFECT COUPLE", SOOOOOOOO SWEEEEEEEET I USED TO THINK ZAC EFRON'S GAY HAHAHAH EVERYONE'S GAY IN MY EYES. IN THE PAST, MY IDEA OF "PERFECT COUPLES" USED TO BE JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE AND BRITNEY SPEARS, TOM CRUISE AND NICOLE KIDMAN (!!!!!!), BRAD PITT AND JENNIFER ANISTON (!!!!!!!!!) SO SAD, LOOK AT THEM NOW. WHY IS IT ALWAYS THE GUY WHO GETS HITCHED FIRST AFTER A DIVORCE WHYWHYWHY. THIS IS SO SENSELESS AND STUPID I AM SO SENSELESS AND STUPID.

THE TIME NOW IS 4AM BTW. ZONKING OUT ALREADY, DON'T KNOW IF I SHOULD GO DO SOME REVISION OR LIKE WATCH ANOTHER MOVIE HAHAHHAHAA, EME WATCHING SIMPSONS PLS. OKAY I AM INSANE, I SHOULD GO CATCH A WINK (MILLIONS OF IT).

FIRST YOU SAY YOU WON'T THEN YOU SAY YOU WILL. AND NOWWWWW NOWWWWW THAT YOU'RE NEAR, THERE'S NTG MORE WITHOUT YOU, WITHOUT YOU HERE. YESTERDAY, I WAITED FOR YOUR FRIENDS TO WALK AWAY SO I COULD SAY JUST WHAT I MEAN. COULD IT BE THAT MAYBE IT'S OUR FIRST MISTAKE AND BABY THAT'S ALL RIGHT. BUT TIME IS NOT ENOUGH THAT'S THE REASON WHY WHEN YOU'RE YOUNG YOU FALL IN LOVE. MAYBE WE'RE TRYING, TRYING TOO HARD. MAYBE WE'RE TORN APART. MAYBE THE TIMING IS BEATING OUR HEARTS. WE'RE EMPTY. COULD IT BE THAT NOTHING'S GONNA CHANGE COS TIME HAS GOT A WAY OF TAKING BACK EVERYTHING YOU THOUGHT YOU HAD.

OMG THIS LOOKS LIKE ONE WHOLE SONG, EVEN IF IT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE. AM I MAKING SENSE?

DON'T YOU KNOW THAT I'LL BE HERE FOREVER, EVEN IF YOU LEAVE. YOUR VOICE WAS THE SOUNDTRACK OF MY SUMMER, DO YOU KNOW YOU'RE UNLIKE ANY OTHER, YOU'LL ALWAYS BE MY THUNDER AND I SAID YOUR EYES ARE THE BRIGHTEST OF ALL THE COLOURS, I DON'T WANNA EVER LOVE ANOTHER, YOU'LL ALWAYS BE MY THUNDER SO BRING ON THE RAIN AND BRING ON THE THUNDER.

SLEEP TIGHT DONT LET THE MONSTERS BITE I HOPE I WILL REVERT BACK TO MY CHARMING + SOPHISTICATED + CAPTIVATING + MESMERIZING = NORMAL SELF SOON. YOU KNOW, EVERYTHING TAKES TIME, EVEN WHEN I DON'T HAVE ENOUGH OF IT. NOW THAT MADE SENSE. RIGHT RIGHT RIGHT? TO THE LEFT TO THE LEFT EVERYTHING YOU OWN IN A BOX TO THE LEFT.

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REDBULL GIVES ME WINGS!!!!!!!!!!!!