Jesus, be strong in my weakness.

Jesus, be strong in my weakness.

words can't come out the way they're supposed to
no one can help me like old friends do
where is help when i need you
just let me go
to the loo

hahahaha actually when i first started the poem i was kinda angsty and when i tried to rhyme the words, it cracked me up and reminded me of jillian and mrs han's poem. i shouldn't wallow in self pity here and write ten paragraphs about my feelings, i should just stick to studying shouldn't i.

ruiyi i love you
you appear to be a fool
but stick to me like glue
come to me like you always do
and stay with me in the zoo

OMG HAHAHHAHAHA I CAN WIN ANY POEM COMPETITION WITH THIS POEM. But ruiyi, you know which sentence is true and which isn't :) love you special, i owe you today's happiness.

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God will make a way when there seems to be no way

The more the mooncakes, the happier i am.

The more the mooncakes, the happier i am.

MY UNCLE JUST SENT MOONCAKES TO MY HOUSE! Whoa God-send. The box is damn damn nice, it's smells damn damn nice and i am damn damn happy haha i just told darsh that :) beammmmmmmms the best thing- it's snowskin! 3 boxes of snowskin! XOMG EXHILARATING.

Gonna take pictures of all the boxes soon gosh i think when it comes to mooncake selling, it all boils down to the battle of boxes (packaging).

It's a happy day and i thank God for my mooncakes (read: it's a happy day and i thank God for the weather) i just changed the lyrics of a christian song :\

I see the world has folded in your heart.

I see the world has folded in your heart.

My fridge has two boxes of mooncake. Let me tell you the story of the 2 boxes of mooncake. My mum bought the first box back grand city okay but it sucked, it's like green bean! Bleargh. I told her straight in her face that i didn't like it and in fact i hated it, she got upset... (no i wasn't being a brat, it was really gross!) Next day she came back with another box xomg (ry has zomg ive xomg! ;)) IT'S THE BEST. Come on it's peach blossoms man. It's choc rochelle truffle x) i tell you it's drop dead good, i can't stop eating it. Oh btw they're all snowskin i'm gonna have quadruple chin soon yay ultimate cuteness. I want more boxes! More boxes! More boxes!

English compo was stupid today, i can't wait to get it back and read what shit i wrote. I chose the superhero one, haha mr lee kuan yew and my parents were in it so go figureeeeee. My formal letter wasn't complete but i still signed off hahaha. Chinese was great, i finished at 101, suppose to stop at 102 haha well i proved people wrong! Everyone thought i wouldn't finish my paper, evil friends... Ytd's oral was embarrassing.

Btw chu lu is on every thurs and fri at 11pm XOMG, it's the repeat but who cares it's the best spore chinese drama ive ever seen in my whole life and the theme song totally enhances the depth of my singing HA HA HA.

I haven't bathed and i've dumped sleeping time for internet. I'm gonna try studying without afternoon nap for the first time later. Math tuition tmr at 10am O_O Hope mummy comes home with more mooncake! Muaha i can't wait for geog and lit, hcl and ss, math and bio, eng and chem, f&n, and biochem mcq papers. Yes i've mixed feelings towards eoys. One moment i'm saying i'm dying, the next moment i can't wait for eoys wowie.

Today's a great day, how's yours :)



i can be your hero baby

I will not forsake; I am still enchanted,

I will not forsake;
I am still enchanted.

Typical scenario- Candice hears sounds similar to fireworks but dismisses the thought of them because WHY WOULD THEY HAVE FIREWORKS NOW. So she thinks it's thunder from afar, then it continues for 20 secs. -runs to balcony to check, sees colours in the sky and screams in delight and informs the whole family as well as people staying above and below her. Hahahaha.

I think my neighbours must have thought i'm crazy over fireworks or smtg. Not denying it, i think my ears are most sensitive to the sound of fireworks :0 Yes fireworks today again, for the last night of IMF thingy and apparently the pictures are nicer this time so good for me and you! After eoys im gonna do a compilation of all the fireworks so watch this space baby.


Cuteness.








Going back to my ss book, stained tests and black inked notes now. Everything's gonna end damn soon, everything's gonna end damn soon, everything's gonna end damn soon. Keeping my fingers crossed for my f&n paper because i'm taking a huge risk by studying it one day before the paper hahahaha i'm anticipating that day, quite challenging i must say. And i actually have the faith that i'd finish studying everything in time... my sleeping time will suffer of course but what to do, it's my choice.

and if the night runs over
and if the day won't last
and if your way should falter
along this stony pass

it's just a moment
this time will pass

For instance...

For instance...

I just came online to do two stupid quizzes haha the two damn stupid ones.

7 RANDOM facts about me:
1) I don't comb my hair
2) I use olay total effects hahaha
3) My name is candice ho ming zhen
4) I use dove cream shower
5) I use lux super rich shampoo
6) I use pantene hair conditioner
7) I used to have a pet bird but it flew away -_-

7 things that scare me:
1) Failing english
2) Failing chinese
3) Failing comb sci
4) Failing comb humans
5) Failing lit
6) Failing f&n
7) Getting A1 for math HAHA

7 favourite songs:
1) I DON'T WANNA MISS A THING - AEROSMITH
2) Many christian songs
3) National day songs haaaa
4) Why (Are We Still Friends) - 98 Degrees
5) Only One - Yellowcard (RY i'd never forget how we sang it :))
6) Hero - Chad Kroeger
7) The Blower's Daughter - Damien Rice

7 things i like most:
1) SINGING
2) Listening to music
3) EPL
4) Manchester United
5) Rockstar
6) Math even though i fail 3/4 of the time
7) Eating bananas
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Name twenty people you can think of right now.
Don't read the question(s)until you've named the 20 people.
DONT WANT TO RANK PEOPLE SO I USED MY LINKS :D

1) Hui En (anna)
2) Shu Yi (clara)
3) Yue Xin (eme)
4) Yew Yi (eve)
5) Si Mun (faith)
6) Ying Hwee (julia)
7) Zi Ying (jillian)
8) Mei Yan (lizard)
9) Hui Min (mary)
10) Tse Chi (paddy)
11) En Chze (philicia)
12) Richa
13) Rui Yi
14) Yu Zi (sheree)
15) Shue Ying (sophil)
16) Swen (suann)
17) See Mun (tanny)
18) Shi Qi (vanessa)
19) Sherrie
20) MYSELF

1. How did you meet #14(sheree)?
Through maryanne?

2. What would happen to you if you didn't meet #1(anna)?
i would have 2 dollars more to spend haha some world cup bet that i lost and i wouldn't get hooked on to sexy back. i wouldn't have a chicky husband/ wife, I WOULDN'T GET CAUGHT TALKING DURING LESSONS SO OFTEN. and i wouldn't get so many kisses daily hahaha.

3. What if #9(mary) and #20(MYSELF) dated?
OMGGGGGGGGG THIS IS FUNNY i can't love mary in that way. it's.... difficult hahahahhaha i can't stop laughing i think my face is red.

4. Did you ever like 19(sherrie)?
hahaha yes i used to peep at her during every lesson back in sec 2 ;)

5. Would 6(julia) and 17(tanny) make a good couple?
haha they can try.

6. Describe 3(eme).
aww she's my honey, she kisses and hugs me very often, she loves taking pictures of herself, she's crazy and abusive, she's understanding, super easy to talk to :)

7. Do you think 8(lizard) is attractive?
THIS IS THE FUNNIEST. yes la yes la i think her legs are quite sexy lol and she has pineapple hair.

8. Tell me something about 7(jillian).
she has a lot of white hair!

9. Do you know any of 12's(richa) family?
nope but i think they're as crazy as her.

10. What's 8's(lizard) favourite?
wth why lizard again err spending money hahaha.

11. What would you do if 18(vanessa) just confessed he/she likes you?
ACCEPT HER STRAIGHT AWAY.

12. What language does 15(sophil) speak?
she speaks random english haha.

13. Who is 9(mary) going out with now?
she's at home now, she's gg out with me and eve on tuesday :D don't you just love my answers ;)

14. How old is 16(suann) now?
15!

15. When's the last time you talked to 13(ry)?
hmm thursday?

16. What is 2's(clara) favourite band/singer?
CANDICE HO MINGZHEN.

17. Would you ever date 4(eve)?
omg i think she's a dangerous lover! she's my heart lover btw :)

18. Would you ever date 7(jillian)?
hell yeah!

19. Is 15(sophil) single?
yup.

20. What's 10's(paddy) full name?
paddy tay tse chi damn cute right :)

21. Would you ever be in a serious relationship with 11(phil)?
no she's my marmie hahaha i'd be commiting incest man!

22. What school does 3(eme) goes to?
PL! :D

23. Where does 6(julia) live?
i forgot whether is it highland or lowland road ahaha but i know how to go there.

24. What's your favourite thing about 5(faith)?
her n73 handphone HAHA.

25. Have you seen number 1(anna) naked?
nope i think seeing anyone naked is the grossest thing ever ya including myself hahahaha.

If you can hold on, hold on.

If you can hold on, hold on.

I had a mega day today :) cept for the report books, the stupid 2nd overall mark was redundant and it caused a blemish on my term 3 slip damn you. Wanna know how bad it was, my term 3 L1R5 and the 2nd overall mark was a difference of TEN POINTS. K i counted everything alr and i've to get at least a B3 for every final year paper but for f&n, A2 ARGH STILL RMB I GOT 6/100 FOR TERM 1 HAHAHAHA 20% OF THAT IS 1.2 (?!?!?!) it's all too late for why's.

Those you know me well, i don't get sad for verrrrrryyyyyyy long so i was fine by the end of english lesson, which is... the end of school hahaha. Thanks to simin's funny version of the oral picture and convo omg she kept laughing and she gave me screwed up answers (i was the 'teacher') but it really cheered me up :-) thinking back now, the picture was screwed also la, it's so suggestive haha ;)

Then it was f&n pract exam happiness to the maxXxXxxXxXx it went really well, my dishes were edible, it wasn't the last time hahaha can't wait to get the pictures! Shall compare term 2 pract pic and term 3's one when i get it, youre in for a shock cos term 2 pract was UTTERLY gross my dishes weren't even cooked LOL k i shall leave you in suspense wait up for the pics in this space!

okay it's rockstar results now i couldnt take it so i just wenta check who won (live was in the morning)... ... LUKAS MY MAN luckily dilana or magni didn't win if not there goes the supernova album- out of my hands. Since i'm talking about rockstar now, it makes me think about jon leong. There's a similarity between the latter and rockstar, i don't know if it's coincidence or what but he happened to sing a number of songs which the rockstar contestants sang as well. Eg last night he sang in the air tonight by phil collins, ryan star sang it before and plush by stone temple pilots a few weeks ago, toby sang it too. Some food for thought. I bet he watches rockstar though.

K i digressed so much but anyway i don't wanna go back to talking about f&n practical it's tedious EVERYTHING ABOUT F&N IS TEDIOUS oh yeah i think i should clear the air once and for all, f&n is not all about cooking come on do you think we're training to be chefs. Why is that that when people talk to me about f&n, the first thing that they say is "you do a lot of cooking in f&n right? (read: f&n is very easy right)" I get a lot of that. F&N IS NOT HOME EC FREAKSSSSSSS think what, honeymoon ah. F&N is like coursework all the way. What is coursework? You just have to know that we have to print >30 pages of ink just to fulfil one five-line task statement. The only time we cook is when we come to the execution part of the coursework. But duh compared to amath it's peanuts. Still it gets infuriating when i get all these opinions... all those one-track minds.

Jasmine just got eliminated cheers this calls for a double celebration! 2 guys in the final round again- sian. They need a girl like me to enter the finals to fight it out with the opp sex, muaha.

This blog post is so long and meaningful. This week passed so fast. I'm starting to wake up late. 3C1 had the cleanest class and all rounder for discipline and cleanliness smirks okay no one expected it, i was even crossing my fingers cos i thought we'd get the dirtiest class. It's been a long time and the feeling's great!

Did i say i'm sick of all the theft cases in class? Oh gosh the class thief is back full force, better and bolder. We were about to start cell, listed out everything that needed to be prayed for then ann na joked "Pray that all the stolen things will be returned." After 5 secs, janice realised her wallet was missing. 40 plus dollars gone just like that. The best thing the cleaner auntie found it in the toilet DUSTBIN and it wasn't on top, it was covered with dry/ wet tissues and PADS. Man how did the thief find the time to do all that? Pro siah. Hi thief, can you get a life. She is the best thief alive i tell you. ROCKS.

I think my goal for the year is to catch the thief, i'd make her cough out everything and make sure she goes to girls' home and do 1000000 hours of corrective work order. Why steal when you can remain having the trust of all your friends?
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the hurt doesnt show; but the pain still grows

Add-it: I never thought the dishes i cooked for f&n pract could last me for three meals, lunch dinner and supper. I save money the best way. My wound is hurting now, maybe i stretched too much or maybe it's cos anna treated my leg badly today you monster. Goodnight lovers and friends. I want to sleep but i can't cos i'm very full :(

Then i hear you say "Let's live for the moment this time."

Then i hear you say "Let's live for the moment this time."

I've got 29 minutes left before my break ends :O when it's the time to blog, i don't, when it isn't the time to blog, i blog -_- N-O, BLOGGING RELIEVES STRESS YA :D

5 subs for today's time-table and for 2 subs, i got asked by the teacher to stop talking and pay attention roar it's not me dammit! It's my super distracting partner, annabella tan hui en !#&*@!#&@ nyeh nyeh nyeh we both had laughing fits during lit which was really bad because the joke about her name was damn funny. I irritated everyone by singing sexy back all day long i'm bringing sexy back ;)

Think our class was the first to leave the school today excluding sec fours.. @135 lovin it only our ss teacher does things like that i think she lets us off earlier because she can't stand our class haha. Caught the 145pm 136 bus triple yay. Got stuff to cook spaghetti (-_- trial run for thurs's prac). Emeline came over, i wanted her to try :) we couldn't finish so we played zong1 ji2 mi4 ma3 and ji3 go3 ba4, luckily she's lousy. Emath revision afterwhich... quite productive.

Rockstar finals tmr i am so excited i can't sleep which is good so i can finish more chapters today =D i can't wait for school! Since it's the only place i get to showcase my singing for long long hours. There's pe tmr but i don't think my leg is able to take it. 7 mins left, why do i take so damn long to blog.

Emeline: Thanks to eoys, we've been spending quite a lot of time together. You've been a constant encouragement and an energy booster =D Math revision with you is the best. I think after the eoys, i'm gonna miss doing math sums with you and going crazy over them when we can't get the answers haha looking forward to our movie marathon and outings though :) <3

Bring on the photographs!


It's just that no one makes me feel this way.


Mah sexy two tone.


Wound of the year.


Girlfriend of wound of the year.
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i wish i could forget the taste of fears

I surrender all.

I surrender all.

Let's see, my closest church boys have successfully persuaded me that gameboy micro is a waste of money (i think they're just jealous that i've the means to get it) and so i think my eyes are set on the gameboy advance sp :) sim lim after 6 oct!

Anyway there's gonna be this hip hop dance comp finals at the esplanade on the 13th of oct guess who's the host man......WADE ROBSON :O he'll be dancing for the opening. For now im gg with eme, more can join us! RY WANNA GO? :D first two people that came into my mind was eme and ry la, hip hop dance and bian hao 89757 hahaha ;) haven't booked the tix yet cos the stupid system keeps giving me lousy seats.

I've got a whole lot of activities lined up after eoys. China square flea market with daddy, booking of bbq pit with eve, midnight cycling with eve and mary, sim lim to buy my gameboy, esplanade event and omg TRAINING WILL BE BACK FULL FORCE :( and my time will be gone very fast soon it'll be zonals and nats (Y)

Btw there's no trg till eoys end yayness i can take the 2pm 136 bus everyday! I think i forgot all the bio stuff i studied on friday and saturday (Y)(Y)

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So, so you think you can tell Heaven from Hell,
blue skies from pain.
Can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail?
A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?

How I wish, how I wish you were here

We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl,
Year after year,
Running over the same old ground.
What have you found? The same old fears.

From the brightest star comes the blackest hole

From the brightest star comes the blackest hole

I think my iPod has the gayest songs ever gosh should i delete my entire playlist i think studying has driven me mad if i delete my playlist i know im gonna regret in future.

Doing midnight math alone later (hopefully), emeline you bummer! I don't dare to start on nutrition for bio, as well as the chapter after it (i dread it so much i dont even bother to know the title). Those 2 chapters were tested during term 2 and i failed badly.. 14 1/2 upon 45? OBS was def not an excuse cause i think i really hated those 2 topics to the core. I sound emo hor soph.

I've only started on bio yep nothing else and people still tell me i'm very hardworking (?!?!?!) i need to change my engine. I sense that all my other subs are in jeopardy and i desperately need to save them.

I saw gameboy micro ytd omg it's freaking small wanna know what size, it's exactly the size of a sony ericson k500i yep so should i get it HAHAHA i think i'll get finger cramps every 1 min or so, screw gameboy makers la make so small for what. What about nintendo ds lite? TWO SCREENS. I seriously do not need 2 screens, like for what?! One eye one screen ah. PSP too ex, i know my limits, So im left with gameboy advance sp, that's the ideal choice but it's so... old hahaha. I can't wait to play super mario again!

It's 105 now hopefully i'll do at least 10 sums or smtg, to make myself feel better. It's f&n day tmr if i don't finish what i'm supposed to by tmr, i'm officially a slacker goodnight!

EVS

EVS

Don't wanna blog about my holiday cos i'm so freaking sian of repeating, maybe after finals i'll blog about it hahaha I LIKE TO LOOK BACK ON MY PAST. Anyway a little update of what i've been up to, my lifestyle's kinda weird.

Today i watched Rockstar THREE TIMES. Watched the live one then 8pm then 1130pm, i think there's another at 230? Star World is crazy so am i. To me it's the best singing comp ever, better than american idol and def better than sg idol. ROCKSTAR IS DA BOMBBBBBB it's the finals next week?!?! 4 left crap i like everyone of them cept magni i dont know why but baldies are hot okay i should learn to accept and like him.

No studying today i think i'm really cool cos i did the damned sec 4 zuoye the whole day, many many chapters! And the easiest part drove me insane, the multiple choice compre part gosh THE ANSWERS WERE KILLING ME. In the end, i stopped, bathed and watched Rockstar at 1130pm.

I talked to my bro for about an hour today yes face to face, heart to heart. I seriously dig all these brother-sister conversations. Has been quite a long while since we had such a talk, his university life is a time sucker (i dont know what that means haha EVS) quick ask me what's evs! :D

Btw i've got one new addition to my body, no not tattoo not piercing BUT AN UGLY SCAR. I got it from my holiday, it's at the shin area :( oh yeah i've got smtg interesting to share with you all i've got a scar on my right knee, bro also has one but it's on his left knee, now i've got this scar on my left shin, he got his a few months back on his right shin INTERESTING RIGHT. We've matching scars! Argh it's really ugly though, he has got his long disgusting leg hair(s) to cover the scars when i've only my bare skin roar.

Paul got out of sg idol okay there's no reason for me to be sad but I ALMOST CRIED WHEN I HEARD HIM SING SUPERMAN AND WHEN HE PUT HIS HEAD ON GURMIT SINGH'S SHOULDERS. Okay that was a confession and the girls cried so badly. Must be because they realise that they just burnt their entire savings and allowance just to vote him but...

Biology, my whole day is yours tmr.

you make my head spin why why