It's 2am now and like i said i've to wakey at 6am. I think i'll be dozing off during the ceremony.

Dashboard Confessional- Broken hearts and concrete floors.

I'm always assuming the worst
But you're going on none the less
And there's nothing to cushion your heart
led fall
Letters from further away
Keep pulling me close to home
And they're something to cushion my callous sighs

And I know that you hope for
Longer goodbyes
Embracing for forever
And falling in your eyes
In your eyes
Your eyes

Pouring over photographs
I'm living in your letters
Breath deeply from this envelope, it smells like you
And I can't be without that scent, it's filling me
With all you mean to me
To me

Continually failing these trials
But you stand by me none the less
And you won't let me sink though I'm begging you
I'm begging you

Phone calls from further away
And messages on my machine
But I don't ever tell you this distance seems terrible

There's no need to test my heart
With useless space
These roads go on forever
There'll always be a place
For you, in my heart

So I'll hit the pavement, it's gotta be better then waiting
And pushing you far away cause I'm scared
So I'll take my chances and head on my way up there
Cause turning to you is like falling in love when you're ten

It's a damn nice song so go download it.

BOOM! It's the new revolution :D

Mood's quite pissy now because i've to wake up at 6am for some relative's wedding ceremony and it's gonna last till 1pm or smtg. Luckily there's buffet to look forward to. Sorry, i'm only interested in the food. Plus i'm freaking tired, was out the whole day.

However, thinking of what happened today just lightens my mood though there was some hiccups in the morning.

Had Mega Camp Refresher thing from 9++ in the morning till about 10pm! My oh my. Okay, i woke up late (i expected it, candice you're a lousy leader) and i actually knew i had to be punctual but i was really tired! Twas rather awkward when i reached. Dad fetched me.

Sooooooooo, talk by Uncle Sanath, followed by the presentation shit. OMG I WAS THE ONLY ONE WHO WAS ALONE. DO YOU KNOW HOW FREAKY IS THAT. Even when i was talking, my lips were trembling. So tensed up man! Kinda sucked. Other ccas were great :)

Then had some Amazing Race round the school, not really amazing, small scaled one.. then had Survivor?! First task of Survivor was so screwed! Task was to transfer water bags using garbage bags, like two people holding the both ends of the trash bag. My group didn't get a single one over to the bucket -_- next was DOG AND BONE. As some of you know, i sprained my toe and it's still sprained, i participated anyhow. My toe got worse duh. But we won that game against don't know what group. Last group task was Mind Field, don't want to elaborate, lazy. We lost ugh. After that was the collaboration of two groups completing a jigsaw after crossing this "dirty river" with people throwing water bombs at you...

AFTER THAT WAS CAMPFIRE!!!!! WOOHOO. Really have to thank God for holding back the rain for us. Look, it was raining then we prayed, and the rain was gone :D Sports group's item was beyond hope. Lol, we all thought that way la. Yes we all play competitively.... but guess what was our item? WE SANG! HAHA. Oldies and modern. Oh man, but ours was special, in a way. Close pals of the day was Beef, Ner, RJ and Sophil! Heh, had so much fun with them, eating, laughing at Sophil's stupid Lucky Plaza joke, RJ's laughter was hilarious. Oh man, they're leaving PL soon :(

Giving of gifts in E Hall after that. Got our mugs and little presents from XL. It suddenly daunt upon me that how huge my responsibility is becoming after this camp and so forth and it scares me. I look at my captains suffering in the hands of Mr Kim every now and then, being so pressurized and i certainly don't want to be another victim of that. But nevermind, i know i've the support of team mates come what may.

Tomorrow's homework + wrapping of books day. School's starting on tuesday. First three months will be a torture and a challenge to myself. I'll make my promise good i've made to teachers, parents, close friends. 2006 will be a better year for you and me! Believe and you'll be able to do it :)

Will be back tmr to do a long recap of this year. I think it's the most exciting year of my life presently. Hoho.

I'm hungry.

Not the person i used to know.

Guess what. I got a fever a few hours ago and my menses came too. Also, earlier in in the day during trg, i lost all matches. Torment on my birthday? RY, i'M nUmBeR oNe eMoGalZZzZzz NoW.

Blaming it on all the late nights i've been having.
Thanks everyone for the wishes and gifts, esp the tt people.
I'd get into detail when i'm better.

On the brighter side, my bday money is about $200.
Have my eyes on this FX Creation(s) wallet for bro, he needs one. His wallet stinks. Men. But the one he'd definitely love costs a bomb. Gonna get mum and dad smtg too. Being a family kid now haha. Shall go shop when they're gone.

Love.

i hate it when everything i say or do isn't reciprocated.

My moody self.

Arsenal lost to Chelsea 0-2. That's very very sad. Hope Chelsea loses all matches and Man U winning all from now on. Like hello, stupid referee who deemed that van Persie goal offside. Go and dig your eyes out la. It was Henry who was offside knn, not Persie. Both teams played well though. Thierry Henry was fab. Cech was thumbs up.

I think i'm gonna have my period soon, not on my bday please. I don't want to have cramps and blood flowing out on my happy day.

Bro's leaving tmr :( ultimate sadness. Had a freaking good dinner today, seafooooood. Beams. Kinda like a bday dinner.

I'm having monday blues currently. It's 2.09am now. I slept at 5am last night. Wth? I tossed around for like 2 hours. Getting quite scary- my sleeping pattern.

I'm so damn bloody awake. How? :(

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SHALL GO DO HOMEWORK.

>> Edit @309am.
Omg what's wrong with the chem ws. What on earth is CH3COONa and C2H5COOC6H5?! I wanna kill myself. I'm only at page one. I've never exactly passed my chem ever since i took it in sec one. It's always 0-6 upon 10.

>> 316am.
CH3COONa is Anhydrous Sodium Acetate. Now tell me what is that. PL teachers never ever taught us that okay. Found the ans on msn.com. Yahoo's quite lousy.

>> 433am.
I'm awfully tired now. I officially finished 3/5 pages of the retarded chem ws. Hurray to me! :D Hugeeeeeee accomplishment baby. I'm so happy! My eyes are half closed.

Goodbye, good morning people!
Goodnight to me.

Only heaven knows.

OMG GUESS WHAT SONG AM I LISTENING TO NOW. NATIONAL DAY SONG REACH OUT FOR THE SKIES. HAHAHA. SO CUTE. I FEEL LIKE DANCINGGGGG. OH MAN, IT BRINGS BACK MEMORIES.

Alright! What a happy day :) Went out with Sherrie and Eve to catch King Kong. It's great i tell you! It's a superb movie but if it was me acting in it, it'd be better. Haha, ya right Candice. Go watch it with your family, friends, whatever! It's good stuff. Three hours. We ended up laughing at scary parts and we got this stranger beside us laughing too. She's quite friendly :) And for the first time in my whole life, i da-baoed mixed food rice from the food court and sneaked it in. I could hardly see my food when the movie started. We sat in the second row, exciting! Shall add this movie to one of my faves. Where got more heart-wrenching than Titanic lorzz. Sherrie cried. Haha. I think King Kong's cute.

What did we do after that? Oh, sent Eve off. Went to walk around with Sherrie, had dinner at Food Republic (!!!!!!) but i didn't eat good food cause the queues were realllyyyyy long for the good food. So i settled for this so-so beef noodle thing and Sherrie ate some soggy ban mian. Lol. So loserish. The place was packed to the max.

Also i was window shopping for my school bag today and yuck, all the slings at all surf stores were the same design? Don't like it. So next up will be Queensway instead with my brother :D after he's back from Korea that is, can't wait.

Watched 9pm show over at Sherrie's place. Wouldn't make it home in time to catch it so yeah. The ending was shit. The show was quite shitty alr but the lousy ending has to make it worse. Oh well then i called Alicia to get my cable from her. We met up. Slacked around in her room for a while. She seriously makes me feel so loved and she claims i treat her badly. Tsk! Thanks for everything. Though it was only for a short while, quality weighs more than quantity :)

She sent me to the bus stop and i took a non air conditioned 113 home. Talked to her then she had to go to bed. Hope you'd have fun at work tmr! $$$$!!

I pleaded my mum to give me 100 bucks and she reluctantly agreed. Birthday money and five-days-without-parents-and-brother money.

If you don't know what to get me for my bday (haha), a handwritten card will do just fine :) And if you are one of my close friends, don't even think of not giving me anything, a card at least okay! BUT i'd love presents, seriously HAHAHA. Anything will do, you don't have to worry whether will i like it or not cause i definitely will for sure! Don't get pink stuff duh. Have fun searching for my present!

Unforgettable.

Righhht. I've come to a point where i can't stand my mother. I know it's wrong, she gave birth to me blah blah blah. BUT I CAN'T STAND IT I CAN'T. Every conversation with her ends up in a quarrel. I tell her stuff, what happened to me during the day and all, esp when i've a bad day. Then instead of consoling me, she'd preach all sorts of nonsense to me that make me a whole lot worse and i'll shout at her, retort.

I'm not a bad child.

That's why whenever she comes home, i will not want to say hi to her cause either she doesn't reply OR SHE'LL ASK WHETHER MY BRO'S HOME. And she keeps asking me what do i do on internet. She doesn't know what a blog is. Look what her working life has done to her.

I try my hardest to be close with her, cause i don't want to be close to my father. I don't know whether should i behave this way. Well, he did something wrong and i think he's still carrying on with the mistake. Can't the both of you get a life?

And my brother, he was so emo that day i felt so sad just sitting beside him. He's having problems with his three year gf. Okay, like on the verge of breaking up kinda thing. That day, he was playing sad love songs on his guitar. I couldn't help but just sing along with him. He deserves a better girl. I secretly wish my bf will be like him. I think my bro's a damn good bf la. In terms of looks, he's handsome to me. In terms of personality, that's his best quality. Look, he's already a sweet brother, what more a bf? I could never ask for more.

A few weeks ago, he heard that i gave my $50 to the domestic helper, he bought food home and cooked for me. ( WHAT THE HELL MY MOTHER JUST GAVE ME CHOCOLATES AND SAID "HEY THIS IS FOR YOU" IN A VERY SWEET TONE. ?!?!?! HELLO, WE JUST QUARRELLED MUM! SHE'S HUMMING A TUNE NOW TOO. WHOA WHOA WHOA I CAN'T TAKE THIS DRASTIC CHANGE. ) Okay, back to topic. Yes my bro cooked for me. The meal was heavenly. Simple fare but it's the thought that counts. I love you brother, even more than i love myself! He's done a lot of nice things on the whole. For example, always giving me money ( not lending, GIVING ) and the amount's not like $2. If it's $2, i'd be happy also k. Whenever i go out with him, he'd pay for everything, really everything. Knowing that i treat Man U as a part of myself, he even offers to buy the jersey for me. Sweetness i tell you. Do you know how ex it is, go find out. I'm quite pooooor so it's a big thing. On Sunday, he was smsing me when he left for his driving lesson. He asked me whether i wanted ps2 games ( my type ). I didn't want cause i wanted him to save up for my present. He said "Nevermind la, promise you your present will still be the same. Don't want you to feel lonely at home." Cause i was complaining that day i felt like the only child or smtg and i always have the whole house to myself with parents out the whole damn day and only coming back at midnight. Think i'll depend a lot on him next time. ( Eve just called. Just hung up.. after an hour. What a heart to heart talk it was :D ) Okayyyy, quite duh that i'm close to my bro and i'm glad that we are despite the close to 7 years gap. Brother, i know you love me too. And we have the similar past time. Playing soccer on ps2 tgt hahaha. He's good, i'm good, both are as good! Having you beats having a hundred good friends :) Blood's thicker than water man.

Two different feelings before and after the first 4+ paragraphs. I felt like killing my mum just now but i feel so at ease now after the talk with Eve and the long para about Bro.

Eve, there's definitely a possibility we'll drift and won't be close as ever. But i'll be strong and prove to you that not being in the same class isn't a factor in our friendship. I'll miss you. We've been tgt for 4 years as classmates and 2 years as chinese partners. Look how time flies man. And please stop reminding me about the "You're so ugly" incident. You're a great friend that i'd love to keep so we better keep in contact and update each other about our daily lives next year, talk about our new friends and teachers etc. Let's go for christian concerts tgt with Mary, Ry... :D Do homework and end up sleeping or fooling around like we said on the phone just now hahaha. We will still be good friends next year so don't worry too much. Don't chuck me aside when you have new cool friends ah. Love you Heart Lover!

Hot fusssss.

Mum confirmed ytd that she and my father will be in Chiangmai from 22-27 dec with some of the church people. Don't ask me why am i not going.

The thought of spending Christmas alone is so :( dont you think so. SO PLEASE CRASH MY HOUSE AND WE CAN TALK TILL DAWN AND SCREAM AND WAKE UP ALL MY NEIGHBOURS :D

Five days! I'm secretly hoping my mum will give me $100 or smtg to live on. I'll be going to church myself too. If you're thinking where will my bro be, HE WILL BE IN KOREA FREEZING TO DEATH WITH HIS ARMY PALS. Cool please. He's on holiday this time, not military training. Oh i'm so sad oh i'm so sad.

Home Alone Part 6.

I had a terrible dream last night about my birthday. Lol. Now i'm so scared it'll turn out the way it did in my dream.

Loved training today. Played matches, lost to Kimmie as always, won Magdalene, lost to Bird. Scores were close, i'm happy. Watching the doubles play is so fun. I'm so tired. There's training tmr. AH.

My mum is becoming a workaholic, wait, she has always been one. Look at the time now and she isn't even home. Total madness. 11.40pm?! I don't even talk to her when she's home, cause the only thing she does is sleep or see her shares.

Bleargh.

Even my father's earlier than her! He just came home. Omg it's close to midnight. I'm being a worried kid now.

AHEAD, HUMP.

ECP with my Church's Youth Ministry today. Chose roller-blading over cycling. Cyling's boring. Haven't bladed for bout 4 years? Ever since my father had a terrible accident while blading omg he crashed into a lamp post and was injured for about 4 months. My whole body aches like (*&#@*&*# now. I wanna new pair of blades! :D birthday birthday.

Twas a good bonding time tgt ;) I almost fell a couple of times, stupid Li Min, compete la huh. Wanted to roam town with Bro but he was dead tired and he kept complaining he'd not have a good image if he goes town cause he was wearing shorts. Vain pot.

I want to get clothes from Instant Karma, becoming my fave brand soon! I NEED CLOTHES LA WAHLAO. If only she didn't go to Shanghai but oh well, it's her money. I don't want to save my angbao money. Let me go shopping man. I don't thing i'll have clothes in time for cny :( shall go self visiting, then can take angbao LOL.

Gonna watch Cast Away :D

Irresponsible mum.

Wahlao eh. I'm so pissed because of my mum. You see there's this cleaner who would come to clean my house every friday and my mum would leave her $50. But my mum forgot and she asked me to give her instead. Hello, that's like all my money. I'm behaving like a money minded bitch now but can you please be more responsible. I've to get my own dinner and cut my very freezy hair and how am i going to do that now. I'm so bloody cashless and my day's so boring. Bye.

Count your blessings instead of sheep.

Shall blog about last night's adventure. Man U lost. I'm still quite sad about it. Anyway, there was this part where Rooney almost scored the equaliser but was save (i think), it'd be a damn good goal la. I was so affected by it i threw my bolster (i was hugging it) at the tv screen and guess what happened. IT LANDED ON THIS GLASS CANDLE HOLDER AND IT WAS PULLED ONTO THE FLOOR WITH MY BOLSTER!! PIANG PIANG PIAN IT WENT. I was so so scared my mum would wake up. Cleared the glass pieces and i got cut by the glass -_-

I slept at 6am, what a record. Woke up at 1030. Training was so fun as usual. They really make my day. We laughed and laughed and laughed. Played matches, fared better today. Everytime this year, my batch will have this thing with one song and we'll sing it non stop. Last year it was Just Lose It by Eminem, i hate that song now. And soon i reckon i'd hate My Humps too. I can memorise the whole song esp the Mix your milk wit my cocoa puff part. Quite sick.

Now, i wonder why are my sec one juniors still behaving the way that they did when they first came. It's annoying. They don't want to put their bags with us, not even anywhere near us. They whisper. That's their strongest pt. Like seriously i want to know how they hear each other when they speak so softly.

Isn't training tmr, finally can rest. OH, I DID SMTG AMAZING LAST NIGHT. Remember i stopped blogging at about 1? Guess what i did while waiting for the match to start. I DID MY HMWK. OMG I DID MY HMWK. In all my eight years of schooling, i've never did holiday hmwk until the teacher presses me for it (lol). I'm damn damn proud of myself. Completed Thematic, it's so easy, like just copying stuff. Don't even need to read the passage. Looking forward to completing my articles and essay :D

I'm feeling a lot more better than past few days. I was such an emo being. My mother doesn't want to bring me for shopping. She says she has no cash. I haven't shopped since exams? I need clothes. Buying school bag soon, should i buy a sling or the normal one. The normal ones are so ugly, don't really fancy any when i wenta look around. We'll see.

Come on let's go back, follow the yellow brick road as we go on another episode. Journey with me as I take you through this nifty little place i once used to call home sweet home.

OMG OMG OMG, BENFICA IS LEADING MAN U 2-1!
@#^$@#*$&(*$%!!!!
MAN U SCORED THE OPENING GOAL OKAY!
MAN U PLEASE WIN 3-2. NISTELROOY ROONEY SCORE ONE GOAL EACH EVERBODY HAPPY HAPPY.
C. RONALDO ALMOST GOT SENT OFF.
SCHOLES SCORED BTW, 6TH MIN.

Ate Macs AT 4AM, must sleep at 8am to let the food digest. Lol.

So get back back back to where we last stand.

you're some kind of wonderful,
you're won-der-ful.

That is btw, a High Five song. Lol, yes, that three girls two guys show where they entertain kids. HAPPENED to catch the last part, which is the song, quite cutEzZz.

And oh man, i'm having moodswings again, since last night.. I'll never have a good day ahead as long as i have a bad night. I kept waking up! Emeline, if you're reading this, i'm sorry about the phone call. Bad day started with Ry, yesterday. I broke down because of you la wahlao. Then Emeline was so freaked out. Talked to her for a while then things started to get bad. You said things i didn't like or i thought otherwise and i was an emo being then because i was missing Philicia a lot at the same time too.

What happened last year was the best i ever had and it's just difficult to believe that everything's gone now. I sound like a lesbian BUT I'M NOT. Normal people can miss people too right. I even remember the smses, calls, outings where we went out almost everyday before you left for Shanghai. The paper and straw hearts you folded. One was even black, cause you said your heart's black. That's smtg i'll never forget. To think after all that happened, i'm just an aqquaintance. You may think i'm not close to you but you are close to me. After a year, i still think this way. Thanks to me, we've drifted apart so much.

I don't dare to get close to anyone now. It just takes so much to trust someone. And it's sad to hear from you that i'm not close to you at all after all the calls this holidays. Everytime i'm bored or i suffer from sudden insomnia, you're the first i'd call. Two people. I'm so lost now. And i feel like shit, i've got no one to talk to about it cause i've just fallen out (in my case) with that one person whom i'd tell everything to. Quite pathetic i know, only one.

Anyway, after all that, struggled to sleep and i kept waking up in the middle of the night. Sucha bad night already. Training just had to make it worse. Played matches towards the end, lost both. Shit please, i regarded them as SN somemore and i lost? Omg. I broke down after each match. I don't think i should play singles.

However, the night got better and i watched shows i loved. Kept my mind off things, hope trg will be better tmr. Staying up late tonight. Have to watch Man U's Do Or Die match with Benfica. Man U, you have to win if no i'd freaking cry and it'll make my night worse and i'll be emo again. Why is every Champions League match so late. That time was Man U against Lille, wahlao they drew 0-0. I stayed up for it. The match was at 335am. It's the same now..

Meeting Jiji, Soup and Rachel for lunch before trg tmr, at 1130. I've to wake up at 1030? OH, and my clothes won't match tmr! Maroon and blue fbts?! Others are still washing. Ack. Dear God, if we're playing matches tmr, i hope i'll win every match or at least put up a good fight and that it will be a better day. Amen.

No no drama, no no no no drama.

Training was craaaazzzzyyyy. Training hasn't been this good since hols. I was on form k except when we were playing the matches. Five pairs of doubles. Partnered Soup x) I came up with the idea of taking our opponents as SNGS, followed by Jillian and Janice who took their opponents as RGS. Lol man. However the results were ~ ~ er 50-50 i guess. So there's still a possibility of beating SN! :D We should always stay positive right? And tomorrow we're trg at E hall. Wooooohooooo. Best training spot ever.

I'll have free time from 7-8 everyday from now on cause i don't like the new show on ch8. Can't wait for Amazing Race tmr. I'm so tired, not that type of sleepy tired but my body feels so... you know. Gonna get lyrics for My Humps and bring to trg tmr so we can sing properly ;)

I drive these brothers crazy,
I do it on the daily,
They treat me really nicely,
They buy me all these ice-ys.
Dolce & Gabbana,
Fendi and then Donna
Karen, they be sharin?
All their money got me wearin'
Fly gear but I ain't askin,
They say they love my ass 'n,
Seven Jeans, True Religion,
I say no, but they keep givin'
So I keep on takin'
And no I ain't takin'
We can keep on datin'
I keep on demonstrating.

I met a girl down at the disco.
She said hey, hey, hey yeah let's go.
I could be your baby, you can be my honey
Lets spend time not money.
I mix your milk wit my cocoa puff,
Milky, milky cocoa,
Mix your milk with my cocoa puff, milky, milky riiiiiiigh.

You can look but you can't touch it,
If u touch it I'ma start some drama,
You don't want no drama,
No, no drama, no, no, no, no drama
So don't pull on my hand boy,
You ain't my man, boy,
I'm just tryn'a dance boy,
And move my hump.

Top three fave parts :)
Join us for a singing session at E hall tomorrow!
Doors open at 12pm. Entry free, all ages.
Non-alcoholic event, water and Yeo's products only.
Spinning... our own voices.

Byeeeeee!

High in spirits.

Ha, Emeline, i just changed my pw! Ass. She used my name to post comments please. Just came back from her house. Emeline's sucha joke okay. I laughed till i cried again. She needed to wear a dress to go meet Rachel if not she'll have to treat Rach for dinner AND SHE DIDN'T HAVE ONE. Took from her Mum of course. Omg. I've never laughed so hard in my whole life before! The dress was so long she folded it up she looked like some jc student. Ultimate spasm. Cherlene and Poootnooo was there too. But Emeline looked good ;) Poooootnooo and Cher had cool cool phones. Emeline, you better change your phone too and be cool like us!

Oh last night i couldn't sleeeeep so called Eme as always. Then Special called. Ohmygoodness. Absolute high intensity. They pranked so many people hahahah. They're even better pranksters than Gotcha! Wanton noodle at $2.50 and the songs lol! A whole new world. Slept at close to 5AM. IT'S A RECORD, MAN! At about 8, i think, Rui called and asked me to go to her house and take the keys AND DELIVER IT TO THE BADMINTON GIRLS IN SCHOOL. OMG. I was still sleeping soundly k. That's madness. I screamed at her and said don't want. Woke up at 'round 2pm.

Eme Cher and Poooootnoooo criticised my blog cause it's so gay but that's me what! Haa. Isn't it nice? =) Anyway, gonna change the temp la since Poooot offered. Im so loved. Have trg for the next three days. Looooking forward! REALLY. Gonna fight for the placings again. Last day of SEA games :( Can you feel the sadness in me. Oh ytd night being so bored, i went to surf friendster, found so many Team Sg's athletes profiles! Call me smart. Back to boredom now.

Costume makes the clown.

Man U's on the field now :D with Portsmouth, one down & counting! Arsenal lost to Bolton 0-2. Like?!?! Stared at the score with shock. But it's good :)

Started the day meeting Juju. Had a tummy ache, but kept my shit in. Watched Prime, rather funny. Super horny! Bet Fiance was high. Okay la, i was also ;) Saw Nellie at Food Republic. Lol, not really my friend but i know her.. an aqquaintance or smtg around there. Ju kept insisting i was a cavewoman, cause i didn't know Food Republic existed, it's a damn cool place! Top level of Wisma.

I sacrificed SEA games for God today :) Praise, worship, lesson was goooood at FCBC. Rejoice. Anything is good as long as you're with your pals eh. Mindy was my brudddda for the day! Hey, i'm your sista hor. Went home with Minghwee, 76 to a 62 bus stop. We waited damn long for the 62. Missed one bus cause i was buying dinner but being the nice her, she didn't take the 62. Good friend! And up till now, she still thinks i'm with Sherrie?! THAT'S CRAZY! You see, someday this year, i was joking to them about Sherrie, and Minghwee just wanted to believe the joke was true -_- Okay, reached home, endured 30 mins for SEA games then conked out. Bro pestered me for my email pw for don't know what. Hello, i was sleeping! He purposely kept shaking my arm. Didn't give him in the end cause i was lazy to talk. HAHA. What a sister. Bet he'll talk about it tmr.

Alright, half time now. Chelsea should have lost to Middlesbrough k. Lose all you can! And so Lee Wen Si is with Gary Tan, that's freaking cool! Second golden couple after Li Jiawei and Susilo. Okay, quite redundant and out of point. EVERYBODY WATCH SEA GAMES AT 430-6 TMR!

Part-time lovers, Full-time friends.

I was freaking happy about the day and SEA games. My mum just had to ruin my mood by listening to some old lady called Cai Qin sing. Wth? For your info, i was listening to Michelle Branch. SHE PURPOSELY PUT THE BLOODY CD INTO THE CD PLAYER AND COMPETE WHICH IS LOUDER. Okay nvm, she just stopped :D Happy mood's baccccck!

Woke up rather early today. Earliest timing during hols man! 10 plus. The first thing i did was shit cause the strong wind was upsetting my stomach. Anyway, chiong-ed to read the papers and viola, Nicole Tay! Oh and the first pg of Sports was about this Philipines guy elbowed a Thai to win the 5000m race. Lol. Disqualified of course. Like wth! Loser man. Slacked round the house till 12.

Eve called and wanted to meet me (:D) Haven't seen that girl for ages please. Wanted to walk the Pasar Malam but we both gave up cause it was unbearingly hot. Ate some famous beef kway teow. Sin sin sin. Heartland-ed with my lover. Joined the kids for some fun! Lol, we participated in this Xmas Memory Game. Omg hilarious. Both won a prize each and being the very kind us, we gave them to the little kiddos :) The smiles on them were so heartwarming. Then we went arcade! Played Daytona, won twice, i'm good! Played Street fighters and i lost to Chunli. I was Ryu k! Then we saw this Janice Loh look alike but was towards the ahlian side. LOL PLEASE. Played the drums, not really a failure, survived with Eve helping me with the symbols. Went bowling after that for an hour. Ann Na came, they went for their bowling lesson. I sat and watched, bowled two games. AND THEN THEY DRAGGED ME TO MACS AND IT WAS THE SECOND SIN OF THE DAY. Ohmy. I wanted to watch my SEA games too! Left at 550+, was panicking and behaving like some auntie. 113 came in a minute, love the bus driver! They came to my house to watch the coverages, self serviced my coke, nvm cause i hate coke anyway, ate the lifesavers @)#*(@*#!!!

OH OH OH FORGOT TO BLOG ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED IN 113. There was this bunch of young girls laughing at the top of their voices thinking they were the only ones in the bus. I even said hi to them. Ran into Emeline. Saw her New Paper! Lee Wen Ling was featured in it! AH, WENT MAD. Idol man idol. Love the gymnasts. There was this disgusting picture of an injured finger. Saw Part 3! This girl accidentally sliced the top part of her index finger with a penknife during Bio O level Pract?! Omg. Her nail even came off. Here's the exciting part, they brought her to the nearest clinic. Doctor saw and said "Where's the cut off flesh?" Teachers went back to the O level venue and found the piece of flesh still stuck to the penknife! AHHHH, EVERYBODY SCREEAAAAAMMM! They brought it to the doctor, sent her to don't know what hosp and stitched the sliced off part to her finger but only the nail was able to be stitched on. High drama. And i'm taking Bio!

Anyway, after sending them off (i mean Ann Na and Eve), watched TXY. No one could get The New Paper for me so called Eme up to see whether could i take the paper from her. Thanks Honey! :D As usual, we fought in her room. Hahaha. Stupid host. But i still love her, duh. Home and Dad bought for me the papers. So now i've two! Obviously the latter is in a better condition. Emeline even sat on the papers she wanted to give me. Eeeeeeek.

Ju called at 10 plus and wanted to meet me (:D :D). Of course i agreed. I'm so nice! That's cause i really really miss her a lot. She's my Fiance close to a year now! Happy moments, happy moments. Bus to Heartland, saw Ju and Alicia :D Love em. Ju just makes my ife so :):):):) She should join in my bday celebration! Shall ask her to ask her mum since her mum likes me so much cause i'm so cute :D HEE HEE. Going out with her tmr! Alright, it's 0003 now and we're meeting at 11?! That means i'll have to take 113 at 1030, and wake up at 10 :(

This post is soooooo long. I'll just cry if my leg accidentally hits the reset button, happened before. Shall blog something about table tenis first, for the team. Don't care if no one reads. Just want to say that my hunger and desire for the Nationals is back and i hope it's the same for each and everyone of you. Recalling back when i was Sec One, i fought so hard for the team, shedding tears, Kim even said i was stupid, right smack into my face. This year, the spirit just wasn't there and it sucks big time when you're playing a competitive sport, seriously. Read Soup's blog and it gave me huge encouragement to fight on for the top 3 spots for PL in year 2006. Nvm that we had a significant lost to Presbyterian, nvm that there are stronger schools like SNGS, RGS, NYSS, we will face them with a fighting spirit, with a mentality that we'll win and not already defeated by the mention of the schools. All schools are bound to have rough patches, PL had ours this year, not getting top 4 at all. But next year is our year and we'll fight back like never before. Having a positive mentality towards competition already wins half the battle. The other half is playing well, not rushing to hit the ball and aiming carefully for the centre of the bat (esp to me when i'm so rush, i'll work towards it). I've thought through and i'm really okay with it if i'm not in the line up next year. Kim, stop giving me false hopes about being singles. I don't want history to repeat. My motivation is back and i want to see the team get up on your feet as well. My motivation alone isn't enough. We can do it for PL, for Kim, for the glory of God :) Love you all, love table tennis!

Social life.

I'm bored stiff and I totally dig the SEA games. I've so many many idols, not like i'll go mad over them but i watched FIVE coverages of today's events. Lol okay, mad enough. AH AH AH. I love gymnastics suddenly. I cried with Nicole Tay. She fell off the vault THRICE. And the third time, she was fighting back her tears. She was the fave to win after her fantastic result in the team event. Her twin sis won the silver. Some indo thai girl clinched gold instead. Right after that, NICOLE TAY WON THE GOLD IN THE FLOOR EVENT OMG RIGHT! Damn strong damn strong, even stronger than me! Her mental is thumbs up! Kim will love her. Oh btw, she's 14. Can't wait to see tmr's papers and live coverages. Man! Good stuff!

These days, i'm quite a no lifer. The only people i talk to are table-tennis people. Training thrice a week. After training, i go home and sleep, watch tv, eat, sleep. How boring is that. I'm like anti social! Okay maybe not as bad as the sec one tt girls. HAHA. So called rested for a month, now i better start chionging hmwk. HATE THE CHEMISTRY WORKSHEET. I barely know anything about chem and the worksheet is like...

School's gonna start pretty soon and before i know it, it will be competition time. Highly stressed up period. Kim's pressing us to be top 3. We know we can, now that we're gonna have red shirts next year. LOL.