In time we forget..

just bumping this post back up..

http://darkeky.blogspot.com/2009/01/bit-humanitarianfor-palestine.html

humankind are bound to forget..
but those who are suffering..
they can never have the leisure to relinquish that harshness they felt..

Self-Profiling..

Name: ahmad fikri b zulkifli

it’s a nice name..

Nick: iki/eky

given it mysf..

Age: 27

I wonder..

Height: 180 cm

I would love to get higher but I guess that’ll be impossible at this time..

Weight: 65+ kg

Haven’t weight mysf for sometime..want to gain more for ever..

Personalities: Narcissist

Basically I’m a self-centered, ego, sadistic being..not too bad..yeap, I look down upon humanity sometimes..if not most..

Traits: evil

It’s good to be bad..

Favourites: Reading, gaming, doing sports, good foods, calmness

I just need a kind and peaceful environment where I can relax and enjoy my stuffs..or else my dark side shows up too much..not that it’s hidden or anything..a hassle really..

Dislikes: Negativity, annoying situation, stupidity

Can’t blame the animals..

Views: flexibility and adaptability

No bother..

Future goals: whatever will be will be

I don’t care much..

Weak..

heh..just self-reflecting into my inner self after a few days of errors..I know I'm not suppose to do it..I don't even like/want to do so..yet I did anyway..for what end? no self-satisfaction..no pleasure..not even comfort nor joy or such..heh..so why? no definite answer I guess..only lingering thoughts and feelings that are not too hard to fathom hitherto unclear..personally I despise conflicts and other forms of negativity so this annoys me..a lot..further more they are all from my own course of actions..which made the above arguments..haih..I'm a total mystery to myself at a times..or maybe I'm simply turning away from the fact =P
for what it's worth, it's still lacking..it's me..ciao..

C&P IX

Q&A..

Is there anybody you just wish would fall off the planet?
hurm..plenty..

Do you wear your seatbelt in the car?
 not when I'm at the back..

Name one thing you worry about running out of.
soul..

What famous person do you (or other people) think you resemble?
my father/mother..I also had ppl saying that I'm like tom cruise, usui n plenty others..

What is your favorite pizza topping?
Pepperoni and cheese..lot of em..

What are your super powers?
I'm a narcissist..

What's your most annoying habit?
procrastinating..

What is your best physical feature?
me..

What CD is closest to you right now?
Tom & Jerry..my teaching aids XD

What 3 things can always be found in your refrigerator?
Cold water, sausages and chocolates..

Would you rather be a fish or a bird?
Neither..

What are your favorite sayings?
it's good to be bad..

If you could go back or forward in time,where would you go?
I wonder..

What do you do when no one is watching?
it's a secret >:D

If they made a movie about your life, what actor/actress would be you?
myself..

Coffee or Tea.
tea please..

Do you talk to yourself?
I am now..

Dream Life..

so lot of people send me spams and such..most of them sounds a bit like this "have a chance to live your dream life" or "increase your income like you always dreamed of" stuffs like that..not that I give a damn about any of that but the word "life" itself pique my thinking box..I'm living a life right now..the question is how satisfied I am with the current lifestyle I have..what kind of life do I want for mine..am I having the good life..what more do I need in life..these kind of questions came pondering into my head just then..pretty interesting thoughts indeed..as I began to submerge myself in deep thoughts, I realized a couple of things which usually slipped my mind every now and then..things such as goals, interests and dreams..talking about dreams, I daydreams quite a lot myself XD well sometimes it's just me visualizing my next course of actions and most of the times just fantasies :P that's one thing that never change I guess..anyway, back to the main topic, my life for now..I must say I'm pleased with my current lifestyle..stable, relaxed and really enjoyable  XD do I need more? yeah I guess..desire is a greedy thing >:) but I have no interest in breaking the pleasant pace I have till now..so will the "dream life" come to me then? that's just for time to tell..as far as I'm concerned, whatever will be will be =P

New Year, New Adventure, New View =P

I'm back in my workplace, Nabawan Town..it's just a small town really..anyway so far nothing much have changed here..the new school buildings are still far from done XD my house is as messy as ever :P I still haven't change the cover seat of my bike XD so what new u ask? a new year that's for sure :P also got a new Teacher Record Book earlier XD new furniture for the preschool classroom ^^ and so much more..one thing for certain I'm still the same old me >:)

holidays XD

yeah..it's that time of the year again..come to think of it, it's been 2 years now that I've been working..heh..time sure flies..I barely feel any differences XD whether inside me or in my surrounding..but when I stop and think about it, there's a huge difference between now and last time..I've gained and so I have also lost..never had I thought that it would came so soon..still life never stops and by driven through works and stuffs yet another year had almost come to an end..and as I lay here and think a bit for myself, I realized..I'm me and that shall never change..so, dad..u just have to relax wherever you are now..I am still myself so that's okay..I'm doing fine even without you beside me..heh..as long as I have me, I'm good to go ^^

I wonder..

what to write really..
I wonder what should I write..
I wonder how shall I write..
I wonder when I must write..
I wonder where I write..
but then I realize..
I don't have to wonder what to write..
I don't have to wonder how I shall write..
I don't have to wonder when I must write..
I don't have to wonder where I write..
after all..
I'm typing XD

Snorkeling Part II

Feeding Fishes and ...

Self-finding?

"Who to call" moment XD

Killing time on the dock..

my wallpaper art..

no I didn't draw any of these myself..they are courtesy of my online girlfriend(she's a girl and a friend so yeah XD)..she's the one who drew them or got it from a commission..looking at em reminds me of the time I use to draw myself..it's been so long since I had hold a mechanical pencil to draw like these..heh..well I was never a good drawer so I guess it's better I didn't go to far into it then..but there are times I felt the urge to pick up a pen or pencil and just draw again..mostly in a meeting without anything interest going on in the net XD

anyway I sort of compile all 3 of em together and make this one my notebook's wallpaper..pretty neat huh..heh..

My New Life..

well actually I'm referring to my new notebook's battery XD yeay congratulation to myself..now I can stay online a whole lot longer than before..my old battery can only sustain itself for 20 minutes more or less..but this new one can keep me onlining(lol XD) for a good 2 hours and more ^o^ hurray for my new battery..heh..I'm thinking of getting a new notebook earlier..not that this one have any fault or anything..I just need to update myself that's all ^^

100th XD

yeap..this is the 100th post here..nope..that's not my age seriously..heh..I'm a bit tired currently..I went on a trip earlier today..it was held under the district's preschools council..we went to another preschool and for a little sight seeing..I experienced fish massage for the 1st time in my life..it's kinda like those fish spa treatment but only with bigger fishes in a river..the result? my feet feels awesome XD

it's been a while XD

hey I'm still here..same old-carefree-happy-go-lucky type of guy I am..hurm..minus the old part XD maybe it's just because it's me or maybe it's just them but lately, I've been seeing kids struggling to deal with matters that I hadn't face in my life..well perhaps I did, I just didn't care much about it back then..the point is, kids should just be kids..don't let problems such as boredom, love (lol, sorry can't help it XD), life?..so what if you are bored..so why should you care about love and relationship..so how is it that you are not living..I'm not saying I'm the best example okay, I'm not..the fact remains I feel free compared to them..am I the childish one around here? don't answer XD ah well..by the way, kids in my point of view are those who are younger than me so it could be you..no hard feeling kiddo ^^

no idea..

like the tittle said..I have no idea what to write as of now..my life has been a smooth sailing these days..it's like there's nothing more in this life to give me a new dose of thrill and excitement..not that I'm not thankful of this peaceful time I'm having but I have a thirst for new thing to keep me entertained..perhaps I should get a new gaming console or a gaming notebook so that I can quench my deprivation for a while..these are not a definite solution after all since I tended to get bored easily and games are just as exciting as the first time..after that, it'll be a cycle of minuscule self-satisfying tries.."get a life," some would say but I'm living which means this is my life..isn't it so?

Comeback XD

I'm actually stranded right now because it's been raining non-stop since the afternoon..so with these overwhelming sense of isolated and boredom, I decided to end the drought after all this time..I was actually planning to keep on silent for a year but oh well XD Impulsive you say..I sure am..anyway, let just get this over with something I picked up along the way these past few months..let see if this works XD

Free Music at divine-music.info



guess it did..woohoo XD

Gone to Places..

On Thursday, I went back to Kuala Kangsar..an hour trip more or less..

On Friday..went to a waterfall..it was great to take a dip in the cold and refreshing icy water..spent almost 2 hours there..

I had a wedding to attend today..it my uncle's..hehe..the venue was at Sg Dua Public Hall..the trip took about half a day..

That about summarize all my past activities other than gaming and surfing the net..anyway..all those trips are very tiring..I'll need some time for myself to recuperate..hehe XD

I'm Going Home..

No..it's not about another song with the same title by Chris Daughtry..but the song is pretty good itself..I'm finally getting ready to go back to my home now..well, not so ready actually..but since the ticket are book and all, I guess I've no choice then..I really am going back to see my family..to those who are already back(I think most of them are), have a great time this holiday..don't forget to come back to work after 2 weeks though..hehehe ^^
p/s - I'm still half asleep =_=..so I hope by posting something it'll get my brain to work and wake me up fully..I've to admit it's working just fine ^_^

I'm Back!!

my broadband have been fully revived..hahaha..I'm so damn happy..it's time!! ^o^

Waiting =_="

I hate waiting..call me impatient, but I cannot stand sitting idle waiting for things to come..haha..I'm waiting for my NEW broadband to be activate actually..that's why it's so hard to stay calm and steady for the next day to come..f.y.i, I need to wait for 24 hours before I can start using the NEW sim card and modem..haih..really can't wait ^^

Rain Falls..

it's raining outside and I'm laying around doing nothing..so I decide to dedicate a post to one of mother nature most important gift for all living thing..I'm sure most of you learned about the process involved in the "how rain cloud was formed" topic during science class..you should also knew about the importance of rain whether from similar lessons or from personal life experiences..let's skip that part and move on to what is the relationship between the rain and me since I was willing to make a tribute for it..hehe..actually, I am a rain-man..just kidding..but the rain and I, we went back way long..ever since I was a kid, I had pleasant memories when involving the rain..I always went out during the rain with the excuse of cleaning the drain around my house as for the fact I went "swimming" in all the puddles formed by the rain..how I love playing in those watery holes those days..even more than going swimming in the sea..while the sun make the air hot at the beach, the atmosphere during the rain is cold and truly refreshing..I will lay down facing up to the sky and let the rain drops fall down onto my face..the effect is very trancing to me..I can lay there and let the water comfort me through out the rain..it felt like me and the universe will then coexist and be as one until the last rain drop fall..luckily my parent wouldn't let me out during thunder storm because to me that time it didn't matter as long as it rains..if they had not forbade me back then, I'll probably wouldn't be here right now..hahaha..I had never even once fell sick because of exposure to the rain unlike the common belief..I think the rain and I must had reached an understanding at that moment so it'll let me go unharmed every time..well maybe..
now that I've grown up..the rain had become more of a burden than a blessing..it hinders my activities and sometime causes inconveniences..but, what bother me the most is this melancholic feeling I felt during rainy time as of now..while I sit and listen to the many sounds of rain falling, bugs and frogs croaking I suddenly sensed that I'm somewhat empty..I experienced loneliness like never before..a feeling that is hard to describe using mere words or languages..it felt so strange and distant yet it's there..I think that pretty much I had the idea of what I'm missing but that is just a theory I've yet to try..then again, there are also time I felt like looking outside while sitting near the windowsill..I'll regained a familiar emotion similar to seeing a very old childhood friend or something like that..while I stay there and listen as she told me the tale of her travels and experiences(a girlfriend is more preferable to me XD)..I thought that if I look really hard at the rain, I'll see a vague figure standing there chatting to me..hehehe ^_^