Wow :)

It's been quite some time since I've felt this easy and happy :)

I don't know why or how, but my feelings towards you have grown stronger. I realize how difficult it is to be without your presence now. Just like the old times.... but it was different then. I didn't know what it was. It's also hard for me to imagine how my life would be if I hadn't found you.

Probably empty, lifeless and less awesome.

Loving you has thought me so many lessons. It made my way heart stronger. Made me realize what love is all about first-hand, where in the past I used to read or hear about it. Loving you has made me into a better person. The best thing is, I'm still learning as I go. Though my heart is still weak, it still grows stronger with every passing day.

The short time of break so far has also made me realize how much I miss my family. How they make me laugh and help keep my head on my shoulders. Sometimes I forgot how important they are to me... and that they're still the 2nd best pillar of support when I'm feeling down. When I look at my lil' bro, I remember how fragile life is and how someone important could be taken away from you in a blink of an eye. He's still with us, but I can't help feeling I've lost my baby brother.... :,(

But this Ramadhan has been soooo great for me so far. Although I haven't exactly clicked into gear yet, the lessons and revelations have been flowing so generously. Thank you, Allah :)

Now, I just wanna surrender fully to You and learn to let it go....

I know it's possible... and I have 100% faith in it.

Guide me, Ya Allah. I know not the solutions to my questions but verily, You do.

P.S: I'm really glad you like your gift, my dearest darling Nad :) you have no idea how beautiful and sweet you look when you smile... it melts my heart. That's why if I were to walk a thousand miles just to see you smiling back at me at the end of it, it'll be so worth it. I love you, sayang.