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Labels: life, thoughts

Last week were pretty much chaotic...

wed...

Had to rush my fyp....cause deadline were on thurs...do till 3am before i were satisfied (close to) with it...

Next is rush on WISP reflection....zzz till 4am...

Only have time to sleep for 2hour when some idiot email gt problem, cause me to wake up and on the modem twice before he received that email.....

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Thurs...

WISP presentation early in the morning....like damn chui....wahaha....I finished my part in less than 2 min i guess...totally cmi...nvm...

Went for UTM project discussion and discussion with the lecturer...

Went for K session with wave....ym pangseh us! LOL....anw, managed to try all those new new song i never sing b4 in k...wahaha...seriously is one whole list of songs sia...and also some jap song....wrong key? nvm, i just reduce the pitch, confirm one of them match mine...wahahha...coolcool cool! lazy to change my pitch le...jux straightaway change the song de easier!

Fri...

Lesson like damn short, 2hr lec only...

Went back home to change into spec and shorts....

return to sch for cca...gt GENUS ppl came and promote for their concert...

the song we play is....first time see the score...didnt know the timing is fast...so within 2 line, I were kick out le...lol...at least the rest managed to cover sia...wahahaha...

Went off at 9pm for night cycling...


And seriously, night cycling is a test of ur perseverance sia. My joint and butt like damn pain from the cycling sia....30km...lol....first time taking this PCN route...but fun chatting with those ppl I seldom talk to nowsaday...

the moment i saw the finish point, i seriously feel damn happy sia! dunnid to cycle anymore, cause the last route, I like no strength alr....lol...the retribution for not exercising regularly.



sat.



trip finished at 6am....but went home only at ard 7....and reached ard 8.30....



shower and sleep for 5h and get dragged out by my mother to go buy hp...ok la, i also wan to buy, so let her drag me lol...

went tiong look at the phone....Satios, tried playing with it in the sony ericsson shop, like damn hard to control leh, without the keypad...so decide to get X2 instead...

Went over to bugis to buy...omg sia, the queue, i took the no. at 4.30, and 1hr later, the no. only moved up by 4 ppl...still have to wait for 15 more ppl...lol...damn slow...after waiting for close to 2 h, gave up and tried gg to iluma see whether gt any singtel shop...lucky gt sia....

And so, my family of , bought 3 hp back home....one for me, one for my bro cause he forget take his phone of his pocket and ended in the laundry---spoil...and one for my dad cause his phone button break...

I seriously feel like fainting due to lack of sleep alr at that time...imagine 2 night not sleeping properly alr...

Went chinatown to eat, cant find space, ended up walking to some ulu coffee shop far far far away from the place we stop...lol...trying to make me sick lol...

Finally reached home, play play phone abit, go shower and sleep! LOL...9pm...first time sleep so early....with bonus sia, nightmare throughout the night!

sun...

forget alr...but is wake up at 8...play with my new phone for 5 hr and still dunno hw to use leading to the previous post...

Labels: family, life, thoughts

Went for the dialogue in the dark on thurs....damn damn damn cool!!! Definitely a great experience sia...cool cool cool...

Everyone were damn excited when we found something new and interesting, than we often ignored the facts that it been there...do we really treasure stuff more when we lose it?

Wah....I so great that I am able to see....cause I rely very heavily on my eye, I wont be able to take it if I ever lose my eyesight sia....the thought of it scare me....gonna treat my eye better!

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Went to celebrate SK and Cheryl bday next...ate at czzar that SK keep saying that it nice...lol...

Damn it...cant upload pic again...nite then try again...zzz

Anyway, the service crew ask whether we wan to play the bday song, so I said yes, and I regretted it sia...cause the birthday song they play gt intro, then repeat the song for 3 time, with interlude and ending sia...LOL...damn draggy, + the song is damn slow, so we just ignored the song in the end....

Went to the arcade play...lol...i realised I have not been to great world city for ard 1 or 2 yr sia...everything like very different alr...zzz....very long didnt play at arcade alr...

End the day off by taking the jumping shot, which keep having problem cause at least one of us didnt jump or something, and we took like 30+ shot of it, without any successful one before we gave up....

the last time I seen them were during my bday....and the one time I saw them b4 my bday were jeff bday, since like I will only see them during their bday...zzz....and the next time I going to meet them is next thurs, which is cy bday...lololololol....
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I spent more time with other grps, yet they make it sound I always pangseh them, and never join them de, and yet I feel like I join them more then I join my other grp of friends lol...And also, they always ask me on days that I nt free, or when it too late...seriously I dunno what to say except, use ur brain!

nvm, this grp is die heart le...wahaha...but yet, i didnt treat them as extreme as Mr invisible...but still the fact that they didnt come for even once for the concert make me disappointed in them, despite the fact we are "good/best friends" lol...

Labels: friends, happy, life, thoughts, Unhappy

Labels: CCA, friends, life, stress, studies, thoughts, Unhappy

And so, it is the 3rd time I'm playing for family concert....2nd time being one of the organising committee...

First song- Doraemon.

Played the song while eating the lolipop to emphasize the baby theme...quite cool cause U will seldom see such a "informal" stuff in concert...but is damn hard cause of the saliva...have to quickly swallow my saliva whenever I reach some bar I can rest...abit rush, but still good....


Musette/Moon River

First time performing as violin player...woohoo...ok, didnt really practise much, you could almost say I didnt practise at all...I think I fare better during the rehearsal for musette. cause I were most of the time lost in musette. Moon river were air-bowing all the way...zzz...To be frank with those who came.

Tico-Tico

Don't know whether i am off-beat or not, but it sound ok to me. some of my friend like this song, when other dun really like it. But well, diff ppl diff taste ba...ahaha...I love my part cause it is very catchy...


Intermission.

Woo...look for ppl who came support...woohoo...normally during intermission I will be at backstage "emo-ing" or just talking with the others, but this time, My mum, bro, and cousin came to support( Reason: They no excuse cause I went asked michelle to help me bring them there). My sec sch friends, Matt and Zhencheng went too...woo...thks thks....even though is halloween!!! wahaha...Ben and Philbert came down as well...were damn surprise when philbert told me he will be going for the concert last week. haha...thk phil!!! Saw yanying with her hahaha too(why u dunwan perform!!!).


My Heart Will Go On

OMG...The worse song of the day sia....zzz...even though I thought I were on beat, my friend told me I were nt...emo...wahaha...and the change Key part is damn OMG...everyone sort of get lost, so gabriel play it damn slow and let us end the song together...zzz...So some of my friend say their heart break that night...wahahaha...


Yi Ren Yi Ban

SLS/AMP songs!!! WOOHOO....I think this song quite ok la...the first part abit boring....but when it come to the strumming part, OMG sia, I think it sound damn nice...wahaha...and we like still having lots and lots of problem during rehearsal that some of them even consider giving up the song, but we still managed to do it!!! Woohoo!!! so cool rite!!! especially the ending zhijie randomly added sia!! woo...cool!


Baroque Kaze, Haru ga Kita.

The most awesome song I played for the day I guess. And have practice this song ever since feb or march? like more than half a year...cool sia!!! Finally get to perform it. The direct translation of this song is "Spring have arrived", which is wat I also waiting for, cause when spring come next year, it will be time for me to graduate, and also I will be going to Japan for holiday...woohoo..cool!!! And didnt really made any mistake when playing this song, which made it even cooler for the last song I going to play for concert...woohoo...

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And so concert have finally ended.....have some photo taking session with the NPS peeps....

1,2,3,4,5...theZAIs

When playing yi ren yi ban

Me with the freshies

The remaining SLS/AMP who didnt went off early. (I like this photo cause everyone seems to be smiling from the bottom of their heart)

The NPS Guitar family!!! Woohoo (with weili sticking out at the side)

Labels: CCA, concert, guitar, happy, life, stress, thoughts

Been getting lots of comment that I get bullied easily, or I too good, so ppl bully me sort of stuff....but I dun really see it as bully la....especially those verbal kind...

If u say stuff to ppl I noe, and I wont mind cause like ppl will noe and stuff and wont really affect their opinion of me, I will just smile and nt say anything la...cause I can take this kind of jokes...

If I werent even close to you, and you say things that sort of de-faming me and to ppl that I dun even really noes, that when I will show my black face, but I still wont say anything at the moment, but rather, I will tell ppl nt to sort of say this kind of stuff like when there no one else...and alot of time, this kind of ppl will say stuff that is not true at all about you to stranger, and let the others have bad impression of you....wanted make it angry tone, but now mood is ok...wahaha...so if you have nt see my black face, means is not u....but dun go over the board la...

Currently, I will only show my damn obvious blacker than the black hole, black face to 1 person, but is cause of another reason, and why? thats a big question mark to me too....

I cut short alot sia, i rmb I gt more to say when I were thinking of posting this on the bus the other day...everything forget le...zzz.

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I seldom say ppl stuff....but if I really cant stand it, I will still comment...and even if the person is sort of erm...hw to say....dunno wat word to use...zzz....but I try to be bias, if I say someone from the other side "wat, wat, wat", I cant really ignore it if ppl in my side is doing something like that too ba...dun really wan to be bias...and I dunwan to be hypocrite, pretending there nth wrong sia....tend to be abit more direct when ppl are nt who other really see them...I dunhav anything against the one person, just that it always the person who just happen to let me feel this way...

So sorry if I offended anyone in the process...wahahaha....zzz


Somehow, I dun really know who i really am le....work is work, and personal matters is personal matter to me...dun really wan to mix the two together...And if things doesnt work out well, and ppl hate me for that, there nth I could say except that I tried to do my best alr....

Labels: personality, thoughts

concert is tmr (nw 1 am alr)....woohoo...need more practicing....Hope turnout rate is good...

I learnt nt to give myself false hope alr.....

Anyone who promise to be going, I will nt really believe till if I really see them on the actual day...cause I dun really anticipate anyone to come le...

but then, gt 3 ppl who told me that they confirm will be coming...which make me sort of happy deep inside...but hope is real...wahaha....I started to trust ppl less and less....


OMG...been neglecting studies, yet feeling stressed! Woo...last time organising things....trying nt to cross over the line, and also nt to spoil my own image...cause I very long never show temper le, for real...

Somehow...I am getting more and more prone to explode anytime....and there someone who out to make me show my ugly side...zzz....OMG...Dun wan scold ppl on the actual day....If I can supress it for almost 3 year alr, then I hope i can for the next 2 day, and nt really go scold ppl...I mean, u can tell the person wat to do, but definitely nt taking charge and do everything yourself, it isnt fair to urself and the others...lol...

quite fed up with some ppl who dun do anything, and didnt bother finding out what is happening when they are suppose to be in the comm, worse still, still show black face...nt targeting anyone in particular, and ya, there is more than one who do that...wan ppl prac more/ do homework, dun waste time dragging and end up having less time for prac/homework la...lol...

I hope the last memory of Me with NPS would be a nice and memorable one....

well, NPS peeps! GANBARE!!! LET'S MAKE THIS CONCERT A SUCCESSFUL ONE!!!!

Labels: concert, NPS, stress, thoughts

NAPFA Test tmr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




Die!!!!!!!!!!!!



Havent train!!!!



Didnt went for FYP today cause flu....lol...been sneezing for the past 1 month...a few months actually...then gt slight headache....lol...didnt went see doctor...just hope my supervisor dun ask abt it....



Practised guitar in the afternoon....went online find some songs to try...sian...I cant sing along to the song de....my pitching confirm off.....






Anyway, family concert coming soon!!! Oct 31!!!!

And I will be playing at least 6 songs (maybe 2 more, nt sure), and is like almost half of the concert songs!!!! Cool rite!!!! first time play so many songs!!! And this is the last concert I'll be performing before graduation(even though still gt 5 more months b4 I graduate)....

So come on down and enjoy a night of that will take you down the "rhythm of life", bringing you songs you heard since you were a toddler, to teenage and adult. Think that it will be a boring concert cause we only play classical songs? Fear not, we will be playing a wide range from classical to pop, to tango and even metallic that is sure to blow you off ur seat!!!

LOL...I say till like damn nice like that...but really, I quite like the song we are playing for this concert, cause, wahahaha, gt pop songs!!! woohoo!!!! and also cause we will be playing more niibori songs that we normally do!

Dun feel like asking my old clique to come...guess they wont come since I decided nt to go for their chalet this monday....lol....cant blame me rite, weekday i gt fyp, cant go wat...then they keep thinking i gt holidays.....ok...this is excuse la...I just dun feel like going...every chalet I went with them end up confirm gt unhappy stuff...1st chalet, quarreling with cy.....2nd chalet(forget wat happen le), 3rd chalet, bbq $$$ lost...4th chalet, when one of my friend didnt talk to me throughout...And in all chalet, there confirm something we will argue abt...and they will keep saying wat, "this is the last chalet we be holding, so must treasure" sort of crap....then always end up organising more....zzz....anyway, we gt nth in common to clique anymore...I talk to them also nth to talk abt....then they say wat, no common topic also can talk, but still, the topic is just jokes or stupid nonsense....lol...damn dry....

Anyway, for the last 4 concert, I been asking them to come, they only came once, and I specially told them if they going be late, or going to leave early, to dun come and all....and guessed wat....they came late and left in less than 30min!!!!! LOL.....and they tried to trick me by saying they still there when they are at the bus stop alr...lol...nt like I forced them to come...dunno why, I get more and more irritated as I think abt this...At least they should glad that I still willing to reply their msg or even bother talking to them and nt treating them like Mr Invisible....

Labels: concert, friends, life, thoughts

I failed the test again...

No one to blame but myself....too careless...

Tim Ang Yu Hong!!!! Take things slower!!!! wah...

And so the day started with a 2 hr driving lesson from my house to ubi, and in the circuit....nth much happened, and didnt make any mistake during the lesson....like super smooth alr....

And so waited in the test room....and like 1 min b4 the tester called up my name, Mr Alex called, and ask me whether we are gg to his house to get the scores....lol....then I were trying to put the phone down, but like gt no chance to cut....and the tester call out my name.....GG...lol...so while moving towards him slowly, I managed to end the conversation with Mr Alex 1 second b4 I reach the test....ok, abit drama, but really wat happened....dun really wan to just end the call, cause abit rude...

And the total demerit pts is 26...zomg....but i seriously drive damn smooth...first time in my life that I drove so smooth...just the first item in the circuit, alr fail the test le....emo....my fault.. Hit the kerb in the directional change, so request for 1 more try, and hit again...lol...20pts....fail....

Mistakes made during the test
Description Location Pts Awarded pts

Require additional reverse manoeuvre/attempt Vertical Parking 2 2

Require additional reverse manoeuvre Narrow course (Directional change) 2 2

Strike Kerb Narrow course (Directional change) 10 20

Incorrect Braking/Jerky/Suddenly/late/very late In gate 2 2


Total number of Demerit points: 26
Total number of immediately failures: 0
Results: FAILED


zzzzzzzzzzz....Sad sia...and i still went back NUS to get readings for my experiments....since I gt say I taking for that day, I leave within 1 hr...lol....see, that the amount of time I need for my exp, yet I wasting 7 hrs there!!!! LOL....the other 5hr+ is spent trying ways to drag the time so that I can dun finish so fast....

Went home and get nagged by my mum and dad for failing.....spent the rest of the afternoon playing jap version of pokemon heart gold ( damn nice!!! But I forget wat to do for each stage le, so have to really read the jap hard)

Need to fork out my $$$ for the next time I take driving lesson...sian...maybe reducing budget from the $$$ I saved for Japan trip....I need $$$....

Labels: life, thoughts, Unhappy

BUSYBUSYBUSYBUSY

Taking too much stuff....

Next week die.....

Mon-jap test
Tues- freshies class
wed-thatthing
thurs-guitar + violin
fri- guitar
sat-free at the moment
Sun-anotherthing(if I decide to takeup this week)

I think I siao le....today first time freshies class on tues and I alr feeling the effect....damn chui alr....

Seriously chioing my project...making sure everyday gt stuff to do, but still can leave early if gt other stuff....think can finished by end of august....like did most of the stuff required with repeated results alr....

and seriously been chioing, that havent have time to collate my results out....need to type out of the result on my lappy...just hope my laptop dont crash...
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I love gg to cca....like chilling session....and great place to hang out.....

I love my job as treasurer....can see $$$ everything.....ever though i am poor...see the money can act act abit gt money....

I love learning Jap....but after next monday...no more....wont be continue-ing, till maybe after NS....But I am so going to take JLPT lv 3 end of this yr!!!

I love learning "thatthing"....cause I think if noe abit only not enough...must really can use then can....

I wan to learn "anotherthing"....or else everything I been learning for the past few yr is sort of wasted....go anotherthing is the thing I wanted to learn the most...but no courage to....


I hope yr 3 can dragged long long long cause of NPS....I hope yr 3 can faster finish cause of FYP....contradicting sia....

Labels: life, NPS, stress, thoughts, Unhappy

Erm....Still quite busy even after the concert ended...

Sunday

Went Home, sleep for 1hr+....went out to attend a "anotherthing" workshop with a friend, who I waited for 30min....lol...and the workshop turns out to be more of a talk, trying to psycho ppl to join their lesson....but the instructor is like damn pro de, cause when he say something, and demo, I can really feel what he trying to say must do wat....lol...abit hard to elaborate, cause dunwan ppl to be able to guess what is it....actually "anotherthing" can say la, but nvm....hahaha...

I think I have lack of sleep, plus my friend and I have not had lunch, brian not working well, we like just sign up after the talk and paid for the deposit le....LOL....And we both regretted it deeply....Like wth sia....cause the course is $368(U.P. $736) for 8 lesson (2month), and is 12 lesson for 1 level, with total of 4 level...paid $50 for deposit le....now I deciding whether to forfeit the $50, or to take the course for 1 time only....wahh....first time make such a rash decision.....

Plus, my room TV spoil...repair fee is $500+...and my mum wan me to pay cause is my room de...lol...I gg act dumb when she wan me to pay....room tv downgrade from 32 inch HD LCD TV, to a 14 inch CTV....lol....

Guess I shall wait for my attachment pay+ finish Jap class before deciding whether to take or not....but even If take, I think I will learn 8 lesson and stop....confirm can learn from that school, but I noe of sch that teach cheaper....but then again, this sch I just joined is sort of "branded" and well-known....lol....wah....see first sia....


Mon

Jap class....wan to test myself see dont drink coffee will sleep or not....and I really almost sleep...lol...coffee is still the best cure for tiredness and to stay awake....

Tues

Return sch for PPP....were late...nvm....wooo, first time see the new class for next sems....I think I gonna be an outcast soon for my class....cause like all those I dun really noe de...seriously, things would have been better if only i went oiap, cause can be in same class with more of those i noe de....reason...majority of those I noe de went for oiap....lol... TIM! Wake up! Lol...it too late to regret...lol....they alr returned to S'pore lol....wahhhhhhhh....time to move on!!!!!!

Anw...damn emo....takeaway and ate at clubhouse...woo...so sad, going to be tear down soon....

Went back to autoclave stuff, and that when I gt angry, but I didnt even bother to confront the person....lol....for once the person so kind, offered to help me take some of my stuff up first for autoclave, cause I still preparing solutions....maybe is cause I stupid sia....cause he only say help me take up, he never say help me put inside too....lol....like I start the machine le....went down, slack slack....went up see my culture...pass by the autoclave machine room, and like saw my GA7s hidden somewhere there, like damn nt obvious de...but I recognised it....lol...so lucky the temp not so high yet and I stopped it to put my stuff....woooooo...I am a super idiotic idiot! I actually cant believe that I cant even understand a simple sentence as "I help u bring up"....Idiot sia.... nvm, i shall forgive him for this time, cause he lend me his steriled 10X hoagland solution today cause I toppled mine...


Wed...

nth much except, I realised my partner measure extra wavelength after like when he finishing...went double confirm with my supervisor, before I noe the reason why he use the spectrophotometer can use for hours de...lol...and cause me need go to other labs to borrow....3 wavelength, and he measured all the wavelength....since he alr "happily" measuring and ending soon, so decided not to tell him, so as not to make him feel like an idiot...I so kind right....like real...just wan waste his time, cause he wasted my time much more than that...and I only realised 5 min b4 I about to go...

Main Comm meeting after that...woo...the attendance damn pro sia....lol....nvm....left at 7.20pm...Lol...I wanted to leave at 7pm....but still managed to reach for "thatthing" on time....thought I were using up the next student time, but end up the teacher dun hav the next class...lol...should have asked him more question....and check with him my progress....and I'm actually faster than the syllabus....Lol...cause i learn "thatthing" b4...than like gt some bad habit....ok, only one big bad habit, but enough to kill me, cause it a very very bad habit to have...hmm....need train more...

Thurs....

Damn busy doing the experiment today...like choing 2 diff experiment in 1 day today....

Went talk to Ian abt some stuff....then he suddenly move on to other stuff, which I like not really sure about...then like nth to say, or help shoot back him...hahaha....like keep getting shoot lol....

Violin freshies class....lol...I think my intonation no prob...but my bowing gt super duper big problem....nvm...haha...no violin to practise at home....

Had dinner which is just "Bao" and cabbed home....LOL....super yokemay, keep psycho-ing me to cab home...damn poor le sia!!!!!


Woooooooooohooooooooooo...today post damn long....and helped me waste enough time...woohoo.... tmr need go back NP in the afternoon....lol....wahhhh....lazy.....tmr gg be a boring day....need super charge my ipod to survive tmr....

Labels: CCA, FYP, life, thoughts

Been super 宅 for this weekend...didnt went out at all...didnt even step out of the house....nt trying to be emo...so dun worry...



Watched finished one entire drama series in this 2 day lol...the fatest ever I watch...ok la, cause 6 episode only....the drama I watched is "GodHand Teru"....About surgeon and surgery de...damn cool...I like to watch jap drama about doctor after "code blue", cause it plain surgery and nt much of a romance, actually no romance at all...like very straight forward, yet can be funny also with some comical relief character....

I think Surgeon is kind of cool but stressful job sia...cause they need to think super fast for the best treatment and need be precise and accurate when cutting...Woo, lucky I never say I wan be doctor, cause I think I seriously would nt be able to handle that kind of stress, nt that my grade are good enough too....



Anyway, the drama is very like "trauma Centre", a DS game with very high rating....cause in both case, the main lead have special ability....but I like the drama ability more, cause the ability is sort of his father....figure no one will understand cause they dunno what the show about...nvm...just feel like typing....

The fansubs I used quite good, cause it explained some of the medical term used in the drama....and also serve as revision for me, cause some of the disease is I learn before de, but aha...all return to the lecturer alr....

Drama-in in the afternoon...and manga-ing at night....

Finished reading one piece to the latest chapter a few days ago....damn bored, decided to check out other shonen manga, and started reading "Fairy Tail" Which I think is quite interesting, and should be fast to catch up to the latest chp since it quite new...

Wahh...should try spend my time on my internship final report to let my boss vet it before submitting....Feel like continue 宅-ing at home sia....seriously starting to become an otaku....now, time to find the next jap-drama to watch...

Next week is the last week of attachment....And also a busy week for me sia....need better time management next week....

Mon- jap class (havent do JLPT past yr paper)
Tues- meeting advisor at 4.30pm to talk abt terminating partnership + 5pm main comm meeting

Wed - FC meeting at 5pm + thatthing at 8pm

Thurs - guitar prac(teach freshies and main ensem) + violin class ......that the normal de...

Fri - Main ensem guitar....

Lol...And one of my friend asked me to go KL with him next week lol....cause he thought I finish attachment le...hope that wont be any last minute stuff next week....

Labels: CCA, dorama, life, thoughts

Damn happy...cause sensei let us start doing the JLPT lv 3 past yr paper, and I can get most of the listening and kanji correct!!! grammar wise, i dunno, cause b4 i read finish, ppl alr ans adn move on to the next qn...woohoo...I wan pass JLPT lv3...

Also went read on the jap sch website cause someone ask me for the address, so "shun bian" read up...realised there no advanced 2 at all...always thought there is, so thought mine is not the last level...end up, what I studying is the last level...if i wan continue, it will be JLPT 2 and 1 preparatory class...cool sia....at least a JLPT lv 3 for me, and after NS continue...wahaha....

I think I need go look up the previous level notes, cause I gt alot of noun forget alr...and also to rmb the simple sentence structure...

Spent more than 1K on jap lesson, so confirm cant give up...I dunlike give up halfway also...maybe that the only reason i staying in NPS...even though I have not really learn anything for a year...at least my timing improved and when sing k, can sing at the right tempo and timing unlike last time...

Thought abit just now...if I wan to save money for a japan trip, then I keep learning so many things, all the $$$ will also be spent...jap wont spend $$$ le...but "thatthing" i really a killer...$90 per month might seems ok, but 3 month = $270! and I gg to continue the next stage, which will last for 6 month....which is $540!!!! nt to mention I planned to learn "another thing" also...maybe I shall nt learn that ba...wah...I need time and $$$...maybe stick to original plan...japan trip after either NS or Uni(if i can make it)...

must rmb to apply for bursary!!! I keep forgetting....its the source of $$$ for me to learn what I wan to learn...

almost feel ready to ***** anytime.............hahaha...but I wont unless I see no point anymore...


And yay! i finished 2 and a half volume of dragonball today at work!!! so 10 more volume to go!!!


and also..like more and more ppl reading my blog sia...last time average 3-4 ppl a day...now can go up to 10-15 reader per day...lol...shall try my best nt to badmouth anyone since alot of silent reader...haha...

Labels: jap, life, thoughts

Finally learn parking today...I feel it's damn cool to control the car slowly to get into the position u wan it to be at...even though for some reason I cant change reverse gear smoothly...it like just stuck everytime I wan change to reverse...now that I finally learning parking, feel damn happy cause mean going to end soon and hopefully I can pass the test...I think I gt slow reaction...maybe will fail...and lack of confident cause I drive like turtle de...and when turning, I will really wait till no car to turn...

Going to try out circuit either this fri or sun...feel damn excited....Once driving over, my life will not be so hectic...

I feel like I treating attachment as if it is holiday...I dont find it tough and really a joy to be working like that....And have many plans for the weekend...been going out during weekends with diff ppl...

2june....driving test...tmr driving lesson...more parking...GANBARE!!!


For HSS ppl!
Guess for I see today while taking bus to NUS????????

Mr Tan Soon Yong!!!!! My A-Math teacher....Lol...no, he didnt see me cause I inside the bus...

Its like one whole stretch of ppl going to work in Buona Vista there and everyone face is really sian de...out of the 100 or even 1000, he like the few smiling on the way to work lol, so damn obvious will notice de....Guess he must like working in MOE....


Not getting enough sleep lately...shall force myself to sleep early today!

Labels: life, thoughts

Lol....I got fooooooool...indirectly....I never gg trust anyone who I lose trust in anymore.....

Cause today gt main comm meeting at 5pm...so I planned out what I gg to do today alr and like were gg according to plan.....suppose to be able to finish my experiment at 4pm...end up my partner tell me the supervisor wan us to do another exp today with no extra info given to me...

And so plan disrupted and I did the exp with the old protocol...with no info given that the supervisor wan us to change abit of the amount of water and chemical use here and there...and in my faster speed I did the same old things and took the reading alr....

Went to the com to key in the results at 10.30am(1hr later), and saw an email opened(my partner de) sent by the supervisor...saw my name there, so out of curiosity, I read the mail, and realised the supervisor wan us make change to the extract!!!!!!!! I questioned him why he didnt tell me and he simply said "U dunno meh".......LOL...Super WTH!!!!

What an april fool sia!!!!

I gg to make sure I gg to pass info to him half half only next time. I think my "忍功" max level alr....I swear if it were the old me, I will just scold him there without warning and just heckcare him sia.........Max level of "忍功" also means that I becoming max level "hypocrite"...woohoo, cant believe I could just eat lunch with him without questioning about that anymore. I turning into hypocrite......OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG........I hate hypocrite...................but to deal with hypo, u have to be a hypo urself...shall "忍" till final yr project ends...

OMG....I like feeling more and more angry as I write this...Stupid ***...go bang the wall sia...to think I pass u info the supervisor ask me to pass him 100%...yet he give me 10% info only...waste my time! And not even a sry, or I forgot somemore....Choose a wrong partner sia...I dun care if he reading this or not, cause he better is and realise that he better dun talk to me except gg for lunch together or he die!


I exploding, he offend me tmr, I gg to explode! even if it attachment and gt ppl watching, I wont care de...If my limit is 100, he will have reached 99 alr!1 more spark and boom....

Labels: anger, thoughts

Research and re-search again....even though is doing the same thing everyday, i am enjoying it, I dun mind researching for the rest of my life cause I do love researching and doing experiment...haha...It like my childhood ambition coming true sia...

I rmb when I am primary 2 that time, gt ppl ask me what I wan to do when I grow up and I said that I want to be a scientist and some of them laugh at me...Then primary 3, primary 4 that time gt this card like a project to get the badge from science centre, eg, I wan be a ecologist, botanist, and so on de, and I took part and get the badge, it were them that realised I like biology alot...

So I were like telling my mum I wan to be either a ecologist or Vets or scientist, and my mum will just laugh at me...but I give up on vet cause my mum dunwan me to be vet...and ecologist cause I realise s'pore uni like cannot study it..so I move on to wan to be scientist....

But wat I do and study is like leading me to be engineer, cause my cca is very electrical engineer de, cause is "electronics club", and I gt psycho-ed and betrayed to study "D&T" when I actually deep in my heart wanted POA......but ok la, since I gt first in D&T for sec 3 express...

Lucky my COP for O'level is good enough for biotech, or else I think I will be studying in SP for electrical engineering...I Just think everythings I did during primary sch is leading me to achieve my goal of becoming scientist...though I am still not, at least the attachment is letting me have a feel of it...

things that lead me to science(Bio)
Primary sch- Joined the Science club
Secondary sch - joined computer and science club when later become "electronics club" and no more science, except for physics...
- Took part in work shadowing and get to work shadow as lab technician
- Took part in "lifescience business project plan competition" and entered the semi-final...did a lot of research, trial and error for our product...even though it took the whole of my sec 3 nov and dec holiday and I almost wan to gave up cause like I have no holiday at all...great it turn out well as I really put in a lot of effort for it...

Lets just hope my passion for science will not die and I can make my ambition into reality....hahaha...Must work hard this sems...no hope for NUS, but still gt hope for NTU....

Labels: thoughts

Spent the whole morning slacking...cause we didnt managed to autoclave our stuff last week as everytime gt ppl faster than us...this morning also someone beat it to us...so can only autoclave in the afternoon....

Went to meet Dr Ong at 3pm...And left at 4pm since we cant do anything that day...overall, we did nth today...

went back NP to settle some treasurer stuff...but some things nt complete...lol..so cant submit to SDAR...

Have nt had driving lesson for more than 3weeks le...cause of attachment and the instructor cant find anyday for me...then like wan to try calling him to see if he have any slot, if not I will give up driving since I have no interest from the start...end up he gt a slot at 7pm today, so went to learn...wohoo, very long never drives...almost didnt stall at all except the last 5min cause he gg to fetch his next student, then "shun bian" ask me to park and "shun bian" teach me to park while using the reverse gears...then like I never released the clutch so the car like didnt move and he ask me to released, and I release damn fast...lol...so stalled...

Next mon will have Jap lesson again...the last course I will take for now...will last till sept i think...Plan to learn "another thing" after I finished jap and driving....Also feel like learning "and another thing" also...but I guess I focus on "that thing" before "another thing"...that just so much I wan to learn!!! "the thing thing thing" de all related, so I guess I should finish learning one before I start on another....



Btw, watched the dvd in the Cds I bought ytd...lol..I think MV always psycho me to like a song even if I dun really like it when I only hear the CDs, cause like no visual effect, so unable to understand the sound...but Some MV make me dun like a song even more...like the "I dont know" MV, make me dun ike the song even more...but the rest make me like the song more esp "ORION"!!!

Labels: Attachment, CCA, life, thoughts

Woke up today by peixuan sms telling me about Jordan...

Feel strange, even though I nt close to him, I feel sad cause there 1 less person from 2F01...Think his parent must be heartbroken...

Went to his wake in the evening...k, should be night...Feel his parent are really strong and they keep encouraging us to do well for the exam as they think this is what jordan want...First time going to funeral, dunno alot of stuff...

haiz...dunwan to say much about this...hope he rest in peace....
think my FYP gg to have problem...lol...I think I have not talk to my partner for like 3 weeks alr...lol...dun expect me to talk to him if he give me a black face and avoid me all the time...lol...nt like I owe him anything or offended him, it just happened by him isolating me...lol...got enough exp to not bother about this...haha...thks to a similar exp b4....

Labels: friends, thoughts, Unhappy

Had Driving lesson today....get to drive on the main road....stalled the car twice...and when stopping, like very slow...lol...I think i too tired...when driving at the main road, there like lots of car, and I like driving damn slow, 30-40km/hr only...guess i belong to the safe type, dun wan to drive first in case of accident...

went to hospital to visit jordan...Everyone were like encouraging and asking him to wake up...Didnt really talk to him before...erm, I think I only say hi or bye to him before...were only in the same class with him this sems...

Wake up Jordan...everyone waiting for u! there like 20-30+ ppl waiting for u when I went! dunno wat to say sia...peixuan told me the dr confirmed he brain dead le...they putting him on the machine for 10 more days...Hope miracle will occur...

Life suddenly seems so fragile....the first time this kind of thing so near me.

Want to see u in ur clubhouse when I walk past ur clubhouse to mine!...

Labels: friends, life, thoughts

Havent been sleeping well these few day...lol...sunday night cant get to sleep, worse, mon gt INAC common test 2...lucky no pract in the morning...tues gt Bchem weekly quiz which I only start studying in bus...and today gt BIF common test and BIF+MoBio Integrated project presentation....lol...

Lucky this tues no practices...haha...wanted to sacrifice tues and nt go for tues initially...lol...concindentally no more tues practices...haha...BUT!!! Jeff Birthday...Happy Belated Birthday if u reading...

Went out celebrated his b'day instead...Went to Sakae Sushi for buffet after sch...lucky class ended early, managed to put my laptop and stuff at home before meeting up with them...wah...damn long never go sakae sushi...wonder hw all my ex-colleague doing...seldom see them around in Ngee Ann nowsaday...Anyway, Jeff, SK, CY and me went for the buffet...

Window shopping around Taka and Paragon while waiting for Cheryl and QW...lol...they went to look at those super ex things which they say is "Label" nt "brand" and target to buy them in the future(e.g, LV, Prada, etc)....

Left when they go for K, while I went home to study for test...end up I went to HMV to check up the Koda Kumi album first...when gg cross the traffic, saw them there too...lol...cause party world KTV too ex, they wan go Kbox instead....so went with them there first...end up also too ex...so they decide to take neoprint instead...Waited for like more than half an hr for QW to reach...think the staff think why so many ppl hiding behind the neoprint machine for so long, keep checking us...lol...

And left after that...while they went great world to play arcade...

No time to study after I reached home...rushed the ppt for BIF project sia...then finished at 12am...so went start studying....and feel super sleepy at 12.30am...lol...gave up studying and went sleep...Set an early time to wake up in the morning also didnt wake up...think super high chance of failing sia...dunwan to retake this module sia...damn dry even though it is vey useful...


No more BIF le...haha...cause 100% completed...Hope for a pass only...

Thought gg to have driving lesson at 6pm today...end up dun hav...haha...cause the instructor say maybe have...lucky dun hav...the road damn wet after raining...And tmr lesson postpone to sat....wahh...need wake up on sat...so shall stay late today to make up for it!!!

so this sat = driving lesson+thatthing+primary sch class BBQ...

Feeling damn like acquaintance to them now...anyway, next 6month wont see them except for one who like never talk to me at all de...so shall nt do anything...but I hate the feeling of being left behind...and ppl talking about something and scare I hear even though they nt talking about me...shall nt elaborated...dunno wat happen also...after the last BIF lesson suddenly become like that le.....anyway, friends are just come and go de to me le...

haha...this post damn long...but type it withinn 20min...considered fast le...haha..

Labels: friends, life, stress, studies, studying, thoughts