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I were damn damn damn stupid today!!! And I break my promise to myself!!! Damn disappointed with Myself....And it were after everything were finished before i realised I did a stupid thing....and also it doesnt pay to be good guy....not to some bakayaro inu...

lol....After that time, he didnt tell me the protocol, i promise if I ever see see do wrong, I will not say anything, and when everything is over, and he ask, I will use back the same answer "U never ask, so I dunno and never say"

Wahhh...I an idiot....Cause preparing the solution for experiment....and accidentally saw his calculation wrong, and everything he make is more concentrated and told him....lol, and he dont believe and give me a fuck-up face...lol...gt chemistry background so wat? cant apply also no use, show off for wat? even these kind of basic calculation also do wrong, last time during attachment also same calculation also say I wrong, end up he wrong also...SO? what does it prove? Dont think U cleverer because u gt chem background! And ur GPA only beat me once, the rest, like the gap dan far away lol....Now becoming I like showing off....

Then later on, when need collect autoclave stuff, also use a fuck-up tone talk to me....lol...and I realised, everytime he offended me, there will be no one in the lab. and everytime I sort of give him attitude, ppl will be in the lab....look as if I in the wrong lol....

Wahhhh...should have let him do wrong waste 2 weeks, then he have to redo and wahahaha....I can finish earlier!!! wooo....but then this is FYP...he do wrong, I also dead meat....that the problem with having a more ****** partner than you....6 letter, go use ur creativity to think what word I using....
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That aside...managed to psycho some friends to go for the concert....true friend = those who will support u even if they will go alone. while other so called "friend" because others cant make it also dunwan to go...goes to show their sincerity...nvm....anw, all those who dunwan to go, I will then tell them the next one mean more to me and must go even gt church or anything... whahahahaha.....dun say I didnt try...just that they dun share the same interest with me, and u can literally see how we drift apart...lol...

OOOO...and ya....forget mention...signed up for 2 free "anotherthing" workshop from 2 different school......wooo...damn cool...cause gt one is this sun and I just called to register and manage to get a slot...waahahahaha....I wan learn alot of stuff....and yet I suck at all....

Labels: Attachment, life, project, Unhappy

Woo....a short updates for this week....

Tues...

nth...just help to move the lab stuff....


Wed....



Packed damn lots of toxic/flammable chemicals....and organise the seeds....lot of seeds sia! saw alot of cabbage seeds...woo...cabbage gt alot of children sia...


And we also "叫它一天"(call it a day) late(according to someone there). So meet up with TheZais directly at bugis....had dinner and went for "thatthing" while they continue chatting at the hawker centre first..."thatthing" were longer than usual cause the teacher start late and also no student after me, so end late...which is good for me, but feel guilty making thezais wait so long...

Went to esplanade and continued catching up wiht each other...woo...damn cool...so catch up more!!!! hahaha....went home late when there is camp the following day...



Thurs....


Wake up at 9....when suppose to report at 9am....haha...purposely de I admit...lol...rare to get off and I dunwan to waste it nt sleeping my tiredness away b4 gg to camp...cabbed to sch to report....woo...I like been cabbing damn often nowadays...

Ice breakers were like dirty, so didnt play...cause dunwan to dirty my shoes....lol..and didnt really ice break at all....


Practise guitar after lunch...woo...first time play viva la vida with the rest...and first time see love story scores....


Dirty games were really dirty sia...lol...and night walk were unexpectedly not scary....like defeat the purpose of watching horror movies....but the comm like gt put in effort la....haha...

Went Mac to eat "breakfast".....and played poker cards.....ohya, and i ride on bingyi bike...damn cool!!!!




fri....


I love playing daidee!!!! woo...slept at o405 at 6....and wake up damn early at 8 but cant get back to sleep...so pull over my sleeping bag to block sunlight...and hear somethings....nvm....went out when everyone were out....damn hard to stay in same position for 15 min....


Put everything back to the guys dorm....read a chp of one piece and went get breakfast with raphael and evan....had lunch and practise all the way till evening....and alex class after dinner

played daidee and other games in 0409, cause again hear the same "huh, they all going to stay over at 0405 ar, can ask them to leave"...LOL...like say so loud, dunwan hear also can hear la....And we survive the supposedly haunted 0409....


sat thought can go home early after rehearsal...bur rehearsal end up 1.15pm...lol...."steal" lunch of many slices of bread at comm dorm...and cabbed home...



watched recorded dramas before finally feeling tired and slept....had dinner and slept again till 11.30...LOL....like I missed the boys over flower lol....


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and for today...wake up see the clock look like 12.30...then the room damn orange caus eof the sunlight, but feel damn tired and went back sleep....woken up by a call from my driving instructor and suddenly rmb gt driving today!!!!! Look at the clock again and it didnt move at all!!!! Lol...end up the clock is 5am and it just stops there....and the real time is at 8.40am....like wth sia...rushed down within 10min....


damn chui!!! totally forget abt the driving lol....and when drive also abit jerking cause sort of too long never drive le...like almost a month....and my brain were thinking of wanting to end faster...and slept through the bus ride home....heng I woke up at my stops directly.....

brought lunch(aka brunch)....and cont on recorded dramas marathon....lol...and went back sleep after I finish....woo....now still tired sia.....



TMR back to NUS....lol...damn not looking forward....alot of stuff nt looking forward to.....

Looking forward to jap class tmr and thathing only....lol...


WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.....


"When Life is getting tougher" seriously describe my life now....

Labels: Camp, life, stress, Unhappy

FINALLY BREAK CAMP SIA.....

Totally nt a camp at all sia.....like intensive guitar practises!!!!

Fingers are breaking, and yet they keep repeating till I felt as if I will never use my finger ever again.....lol....

damn chui.....

yoohoooo......added a code that makes ppl unable to highlight my post to view secret contains....haha...means no one can read it le....yay...

So officially badmouth ppl and they cant read....even though I sort of wan ppl to read....nvm....wan read can tell me...then depend of whther U the one I scolding, then let u read...

wahahaha...I damn evil....



*edit*After reading through the previous post again...I feel I did nth wrong, and nth to hide....so might as well let u guys see.....

My 3rd yr damn screwed up sia....emo....

Report cannot seperate, nt that I mind, But because my partner mind, it makes me mind, cause I have to do a report with someone who mind doing the report with me....as if I gt problem like that when not I gt problem. If I didnt hear what he told the lecturer on the phone call last last friday, or saying he before attachment start alr want change partner, I might nt mind at all...lol...gt the betrayed feeling...

nvm.....I seriously dunno what he wan sia...nvm, just told lecturer I dunno what his problem, cause my problem is he ignored me, so I ignored him, like of course wat, who will talk to ppl who dao u sia....

No one to talk to...so rambling here sia...

hating year 3....hating life....nth to look forward to everyday....sian....

Nvm...let teacher settle his problem, cause I seriously think through it for days and I dun see anything I done wrong, Like seriously, he stopped talking to me first after pearlyn b'day....

the only thing I did wrong which I dont regret is not talking to him....cause It let me see his true colours sia....though its too late....like lol....cause I been hearing alot of rumour that he had alot of enemy, but just heckcare....and gt even gt one told me there a group of "his name"-hater out there sia....

Seriously...why I bother being friend with him and telling him some secret that I nv tell my other friends....lol....

EMO....I sort of wan ppl read this, yet I dun wan ppl read cause dunwan to complicate stuff sia...

Woo...there alot of album being released this week sia!!!!

Yui Aragaki - hug

First, with the best sale among the three I putting here is Yui Aragaki, though nt the top but still maintain in no 3 for the first few day in Oricon chart....And the album art she damn Kirei sia! Can I hug her too? Lol...I think her switch from gravure idol to actress to singer is damn sucessful sia! And she still maintain the innocent kind of image....Her voice is also unique which makes me like her ballads more! haha....Just think the album abit too much ballads....

Stereopony - Hydrangea ga Saiteiru

Stephanie - Colors of my Voice

Labels: music

Woo...Attachment have ended and I have survive 16 weeks of weekdays without talking! Cool sia...

Wanted to submit allowance claim ytd but sort of forget...crap! Monday need go help move the lab...nt sure go time go back ngee ann submit and go for jap class....

Seriously nt I avoiding that person but the person avoiding me lol...as if I care...the other lab ppl sort of like noe le....haha....gt a friend ppl asked whether we noe each other before during attachment and I dunno hw to answer sia...gt 1 even say we look sad everyday, like wth la...

nvm....ytd morning help to unpack the new lab, like damn high tech sia, the lab door just need to kick the switch and it will auto open! left at 2.30pm cause nth to do...and went sch for meeting, somehow, I always manage to squeeze time for cca stuff sia...like I dunno for wat la...no motivation at all to stay, but just feel like staying cause now the guitar side damn chui....

Played por una cabeza ytd till I like even those part I everytime missed also can play le lol...like super intensive sia.....

Called my instructor last thus ask him when go book retest and he said he booked le lol...somewhere in sept and I dunno the exact date sia....nvm...I planning to do alot of stuff sia...

First, Decided to go japan with some of my sec sch friends...cause we all very jappy...gg to need save up on that...planning nt to touch my attachment $$$ and busaries....haha...and that the reason why I wait till attachment end before I claim the money, or else the money will long be gone...

Next, planning to go learn "anotherthing" afterall I think, so nt really confirm....but planned to to go learn after I passed driving and finished jap class, but now need retest driving, still considering want go go with plan or delay it...dunno yet also, cause need to see the days available for the lesson....been checking out on available days in which I am free also....

In need of money.....but no time go work....and I dunwan work in service sector.....

Sian...haha...another boring post...salute ppl who read for the top to bottom....

Waaaaa....went practise just now and had dinner at KAP.....

Lol...saw my primary friend at the bus stop, and we sort of chat all the way home sia...

Seriously no common topics!!!!! We were like thinking of wat to say to each other, then like thinking some of the primary school friend and where they have went....and the conversation damn standard sia...."You rmb ____(name), he/she went to ____(sch)"....lol...

Conversation damn dry sia....and he used to be one of my best friend in primary school sia....at least still like gt talk to each other, the other 2 friend from the same clique in primary sch like dunno where they went le...

Seriously killing my brain cell racking up what I noe sia...I gt damn bad memory....

1 more day till attachment end...however the reason I looking forward to it is sort of different....nvm....I used to doing things independently, and it also more efficient for me...woohoo...Tmr lab moving from lv 7 to lv 5....I wan see the new lab!!!

And Seriously, I have no idea he did a lot of "小动作" behind my back sia....nvm, I met alot of xian ren before, so this is just another obstacle to clear...


Just an update abt my project....

We can do project seperately, but report and presentation still nt confirm....which mean we do not have to interact with each other at all until we need to compile our datas....

And if u ask me to ren, I been ren very long le....And I dun think I at fault at all cause I did nth, all I did were to nt talk to him because he did not talk to me, and he say I dunno hw to communicate properly, please lol, he the one who stop talking to me first lol...like ever since pearlyn b'day, she nv ask me to celebrate together, and I just act as if I dunno anything....he the one that gt problem sia, I didnt even say I angry with him after he tricked me, and he just walked off to lunch himself without asking me, and act as if it were my fault cause he show his "initiative"....lol....I reflected alot and I still cant find fault with myself...

Maybe, ppl are blind to their own fault....and I seriously dunno what he angry about sia...for failing FTT and i passed? I didnt go for bintan trips? For putting this FYP in the list? For asking ppl he dunwan to work with for BIF project? I think is for the last 2 reason ba...as mentioned in his blog indirectly!




Well....A BETTER TOMMORROW AFTER TOMMORROW HOPEFULLY!!!!!!!
"Friends are meant for making use of" quote from SK.....

Labels: friends, life

NEED TO CHIONG FINAL REPORT....Suppose let boss vet today...but nt completed yet....!!!!!!!!

Been super 宅 for this weekend...didnt went out at all...didnt even step out of the house....nt trying to be emo...so dun worry...



Watched finished one entire drama series in this 2 day lol...the fatest ever I watch...ok la, cause 6 episode only....the drama I watched is "GodHand Teru"....About surgeon and surgery de...damn cool...I like to watch jap drama about doctor after "code blue", cause it plain surgery and nt much of a romance, actually no romance at all...like very straight forward, yet can be funny also with some comical relief character....

I think Surgeon is kind of cool but stressful job sia...cause they need to think super fast for the best treatment and need be precise and accurate when cutting...Woo, lucky I never say I wan be doctor, cause I think I seriously would nt be able to handle that kind of stress, nt that my grade are good enough too....



Anyway, the drama is very like "trauma Centre", a DS game with very high rating....cause in both case, the main lead have special ability....but I like the drama ability more, cause the ability is sort of his father....figure no one will understand cause they dunno what the show about...nvm...just feel like typing....

The fansubs I used quite good, cause it explained some of the medical term used in the drama....and also serve as revision for me, cause some of the disease is I learn before de, but aha...all return to the lecturer alr....

Drama-in in the afternoon...and manga-ing at night....

Finished reading one piece to the latest chapter a few days ago....damn bored, decided to check out other shonen manga, and started reading "Fairy Tail" Which I think is quite interesting, and should be fast to catch up to the latest chp since it quite new...

Wahh...should try spend my time on my internship final report to let my boss vet it before submitting....Feel like continue 宅-ing at home sia....seriously starting to become an otaku....now, time to find the next jap-drama to watch...

Next week is the last week of attachment....And also a busy week for me sia....need better time management next week....

Mon- jap class (havent do JLPT past yr paper)
Tues- meeting advisor at 4.30pm to talk abt terminating partnership + 5pm main comm meeting

Wed - FC meeting at 5pm + thatthing at 8pm

Thurs - guitar prac(teach freshies and main ensem) + violin class ......that the normal de...

Fri - Main ensem guitar....

Lol...And one of my friend asked me to go KL with him next week lol....cause he thought I finish attachment le...hope that wont be any last minute stuff next week....

Labels: CCA, dorama, life, thoughts

Forget to mention, even though most of the reader are NPS peep....


Strings + Concert Band + Guitar

The first of it kind! Cause there will be symphoic ochestra performance!!!

And that 1 song for main ensem, is the first that I confident in not making mistake!(lol, practise it for almost half a year alr)

And it S$10/- only!!!! Ask me to buy the tix!!!

Lol...I dunno whether to be happy, sad or angry sia.....

My partner ask me to find a day next week, then we go to ask our advisor to break off partnership...LOL...wat reaction should I give...but I think It will be good if that can happen....point is, if it is nt approve(which I think Is likely), the teamwork component confirm drop le lol....

Thats the reason I dun like do project with friends...most of the ppl around me noe that....that wat happen when someone u trust become ur worst enemy....

Woo....since he alr suggested it, Just hope can solo for FYP....

Wanted go tell our advisor today, but she sick...lol...so coincidence, so telling her next tues....


Feel abit lost just now...need to find someone to talk to...lucky have a friend who hear me rant about sia....thks!

Guess with time, good friend are just friend, cause whenever I gt anything wan to call someone like getting in OIAP, failing driving, etc, the person I call either not free or didnt pick up...when dunnid find him and call for random chat, then can find...lol....

Maybe I nt a good enough friend to others ba...woohoo....need to reflect...though I dun think I did anything wrong....

Stupid sia...this person I break friendship keep msn me, and I did something stupid....trying to salvage it now....cause I say if he and the old clique all is able to come, then I be friend with him again...lol...damn stupid....then he say until they can really come...lol...better dun come...if can come, then I rather they come for the next concert....my honest opinion la....cause this concert seriously hold no meaning for me at all....

I think I a failure when handling friendship sia....I rmb last time I do project with my best friend in pri 3, my gd friend did nth, then my mum ask me collect $2 from him for the printing cost, and his mum complain to the school...then it became my individual project cause the teacher also noe they did nth...but nvm, cause we remain good friend and I gt high marks for that project...

then gt another time I did another project with another friend, starting, it work out well, but then after a few day, he like didnt do anything, and end up is his cousin helping me sia. were like damn mad and scolded him in from of his mum sia...Like I sad, I gt bad temper....

After that, I realised that I cant do project with good friend...sec 2 that time gt IPW...then all the grp are some sort of like dunno each other well de...then like we didnt have any arguement, and didnt ask the teacher anything....and the teacher we are one of the 2 group that did the best...the other grp consist of all their clique(which later on became m clique) and they like quarrel alot and even changed leader for 3 times!!! LOL...

woo...I gt alot of different project exp sia...still gt more, but lazy type le....hmmm....maybe I abit bossy ba...cause I like to e leader when doing project. In the past, I wont hestitate to scold ppl they did nth...but now, I like peace even though I like to lead....

After so may experience....I realise, you can only trust yourself in this world...wooo...getting lengthy..no wonder no one dare to tag me....

Labels: friends, life, personality, project, Unhappy

Lol! Met someone who let me first time feel like scolding vulgar language sia!!!!

That stupid bastard see me do all the reaction wrong, and I were like asking him hw to do all the way, damn obvious I dont noe the protocol, and like I never do that experiment b4, yet he just cant tell me straight all the protocol! LOL....Like I finished everything, all the reaction all that and were ready to take the readings, That asshole said: "what time of reaction did you put?"

Lol. Like the hell I noe need to wait a while before beginning. Like from the morning I been asking him questions le, like seriously step by step asking! And I said "Can you tell me all things in one shot and nt I keep asking you step by step!" Guess what his reply were!

"I showing my initiatives by asking you!" in that super laidback tone! Like super WTF! Seriously, I will never ever show my initiatives next time! And This is not the first time! That time April 1(aka april fool) he also tricked me, and he gt the guts to put april fool, and he didnt get fooled on his blog! yeah, I noe! even though he blocked me access to his blog. Bloody asshole! ppl do finish then tell, nxt time I see you do finish wrong day then tell you when u gg back!!

Seriously, having this kind of partner will make what seems to be a nice attachment experience become the worse experience ever! Seriously regret choosing this partner sia! I rather work with those outcast lol....

from today onwards, you will seriously see a more selfish and a perosn who dun trust ppl me!

I WANNA GRADUATE FAST FAST TO NOT SEE THAT BASTARD FACE ANYMORE!!!!

Labels: angry, Attachment

Woohooo...went to watch "Subaru"...been wanting to watch ever since I knew that Koda Kumi "faraway" is the theme song for the movie!!! haha...sometimes the reason I watch a movie is not for the plot, but rather for the song....+ after knowing "Eat You Up" by BoA is also being played in the movie, feel more determined to watch the movie!!! haha....BoA+koda Kumi songs= nice movie!!! Ok...weird logic...

the movie quite nice...the dance part gt one part abit like the Korean drama "huang zhen Yi" cause both also like they cant dance in grp, so finding method to train themselves to learn and prove to some other ppl....haha...

I actually like this kind of jap movie which show the lead actor/actress from young to when they grow up...

the movie is divided into 4 part, like the turning point of Subaru life...Act 1 and act 4 are suppose to be touching, but only act 1 make me feel touched sia...ahaha....but overall a great movie! cause can hear Koda Kumi "faraway" damn loud in the theatre!!!

Tohoshinki also acted in the movie, more of dancing and singing...but quite cool to see those grp in the movie and singing "Bolero"! haha...one more reason to watch the movie!!!

I think I too into J-pop le, all these random stuff I also noe...haha....waiting for koda kumi new single "3 splash", a triple A-side single....(2 are fast track, last one nt sure)...J-pop now abit quiet, cause is all those artist I dun really listen to de releasing....

Labels: movies

And so, "thatthing" lesson changed to wednesday from now on....requesting to change to tues....cause wed like most of the time is for meeting....

Now 1 person, I finally learning something I dun noe de....woohooo....wait till I become pro before I reveal what is "thatthing"....


I figure out wilber new song melody line for the first 3 verse just now...woohoo!!! Trying to prove I nt that tone-deaf afterall....ahahahahaha

Labels: life

Wooooooooooooo.............I failed my driving practical test...Heart like practically sank during the bus ride home...

Ok la...didnt really have much confident in the first place...but the worst things is, all those that i no confident in de, like S-course and crank-course, I did it perfectly! And all those I good in de, like parking, I didnt do as good.

Reason: that stupid tester keep ushing me to go faster! like e.g, the parking, like after exiting from the crank course, he wan me to do the parallel parking at the lot right in front, like dun even have enough space to adjust the car nearer and straighter, he ask me faster park. like wth sia, the car nt in correct position, and I dunhav enough space to adjust the car....

The worst thing is, I gt a immediate failure mistake....like the circuit all finish and no major mistake....when going out, alot of car passing, so wait wait wait....then got a car like quite near, even though can go out, i try nt too, cause dunwan to risk, yet the tester like wan me to turn out rightaway...lol...so I just try to go fast and make a sharp turn. and knocked into the kerb, and GG...immediate failure....

Sian!!!! but now I gt confident for the next test, cause I were also quite nervous for the test...I thought the on road de, will be damn long...but actually quite fast finish....like less than 30min the test finish le...

Sian...havent booked retest....sian sian sian....called a friend after that, he nt free....wah...I like no friend to talk to....nvm....after a good nap, feel refreshed....and he called back, my tone like nth, and he say I like never care abt the test...LOL...cause I reflected the reasons for failing and think things through le...

LET HOPE MY RETEST WILL PASS!!! And those who are taking the test soon, GD LUCK!!!! MINNA-SAN! GANBARE!!!!!

Labels: life, Unhappy