So funny, Onew!

A thought struck me. When should I leave this place? When should I stop working? When I finish paying for all my school stuff? Until I am sure to chase my dreams, until I find a proper job? I don't know.

Haven't been working for quite a long time, 2 weeks. Trying hard to fulfill my dreams, taking a small step each time.

My voice might be nice, maybe, but people would not specifically remember or like it. Is it time to give up? But Laoshi believed in me, do I want to let her down? But all I know is, I still love to sing, and dance.

Why so many negative thoughts again? Well, time to sleep.

Emo Time

Why do people randomly ask "How's life?" I got two of this question in just a day yesterday. Like just. Lol.

Sometimes, I just want to be alone. I don't know, sometimes I feel that I am becoming more self-centered. Cos I just don't know whether it is worth it for me to give that much anymore. Sometimes I just want to treat myself better.

Don't know.

Gee Gee Gee Gee Gee~

Performed Gee last Friday at Admiralty and watched the rest of CJ Crew perform their Sing & Dance. So fun!

Then a prank on XuanBin cos his birthday was on Sunday. Awesome food at ThaiPan! And had my second vocals on Saturday.

I am gonna learn Korean soon. Then hopefully I can sing Korean songs! :)

Project U.P. 4, a success!

Whee! I got through the CJ Project U.P. 4 audition! Two rounds of auditions, and yay! I still dare not use the phrase "I'm in CJ Crew!" Cos I still can't believe it! I'm in the singing crew! OMG! Never thought of it, cos it's normally dance, dance and dance! Although I love singing a lot too.

2 months of waiting is worth it. It is going to be a great and fun experience. And one thing for sure is that I can learn singing for free. It is really too ex for me to afford. Haha. But main thing is, I can continue to perform. I will have more chances for public performances!

Yay! I can keep singing, and dancing!

But I have to survive the 3 months of probation before I'm an official member of the crew. I hope I won't get kicked out in that 3 months. I really hope I can manage school, work and trainings. But at least it'll be the end of my Chingay journey next week. Just nice. Now I have to believe that everything is planned nicely for me. So lucky of me.

Suddenly I don't feel as confident anymore. Starting to wonder if I got through connection? Maybe not to that extent, but maybe a few good words were put in for me? Did I really not use my own ability to get in? Hahha, but anyways, I'll do my best! I'll enjoy it!

But one day, if I don't get kicked out, I will prove to you that I have a bit of talent! Just a bit. HAHHAHA!

Ehm, I have no experience in vocal, so it'll be a totally new experience for me. I hope I will be fine.

And I'm trying to learn SHINee's "Juliette" dance on my own, for my own entertainment purposes and interest.

Dance.

The audition for DreamWerkz Advanced Team is opened again. Thinking of whether to go, now that I have Chingay and CJ Kpop. Plus work and school.

What if, low chance, I get in? My sat will be burnt too. But now I have too little, really very little chances to perform.

I dread auditions, especially if there is a part for freestyles. I don't dare.

I admire people who never give up on their on their passion.

Having second thoughts now. But I should just go try out right.

The passion that never dies.

Year 1 is done!!

Ohh yay!!! Last paper today!! Well, I hope I pass all my papers.

Dance straight after exam. Ended paper at 5.45pm, left at 6pm, and had to be ulu pandan dance studio at 7pm. It is from EXPO to ULU PANDAN. Yep, from one end to another. Asked my dad to drive me. Mum came as well. Ate homecooked food brought by my mum on the cab. Feels so loved. :) <3<3 It took 40 minutes and costs about $35 for a cab. Crazy.

So now that exams are over, what do I do? Felt lost for a while. But I'm gonna work, work, work. NO NEED STUDY!! Go suntan, exercise, learn guitar, learn piano, learn cooking, learn how to boil soup, continue to dance, learn singing, learn jap (maybe), meet up with friends, and sleep!

Better rest well these few days, cos I'll be resuming work next Thursday. Hope that all will be fine. Have to learn new menu again. Hehehhe. New ramen, for staff meal. :b

And plan outings. I want go kbox!!

Now that exams are over, will time pass faster? How come it's only one week since my brother got enlisted?

So warm this few days right? My aircon is spoilt, yeah whole house's. Beyond repair. Hahah. Cos it's more 划算 to buy new ones, but not cheap arh. So I can only on my fan to its max. Still so hot!! But then, thinking about my brother, he's training under the hot sun, I've nothing to complain about.

Really Random.

Looking through some of the photos on fb, on this quiet night sure brings back lots of precious memories.


Happiest time of each month is payday, and we had lots of fun and laughter.

And I miss the time as rookie. Just a normal tee like everyone else.

I really miss Ippudo MG a lot a lot. There are just too many memories. Although I'm still in the company, things are really different at Tao. Not saying that I dislike them, but there is just this gap. But the only thing I do not miss about MG is being attendant and getting screamed by customers. It's customers are nice, it's great as an attendant too, cos everyone listens to you, even the managers. =X

I miss those random and spastic things we do in JC.



Performing and learning a new instrument.

I guess the only memory in SIM would be..

Chingay, which is coming to an end very soon.

Of course I miss my primary and secondary school friends too. I miss my primary school friends the most.

All is coming to an end.

Tomorrow is the last Chingay practice in school I suppose.

And then 10, 11 and 12 Feb. The last rehearsal and the actual performances. This journey has been long and tiring. But I really had lots of fun. I made lots of friends, I love my group 7. We are still not close to group 3. Hahaha. Not very used to being called group 3, we are the awesomes. Yeah.

It is really very tiring, be it physically or mentally? But somehow, I don't really want it to end. If it has to, can it have a good ending? CHAMPION!! Haha.

SIM Incandescence, jiayou! Just a little more.

And I know that the actual performances/competition will be the most enjoyable of all. The atmosphere, the people, the spotlight, everything. Just have fun!!

And I had a wonderful kbox session with Eileen, Theresa and Jean on Monday. Yay~~ Had our mini concert. Haha!!

BBQ is tomorrow!!

My nose. is dropping. Hahha. Runny nose for like 3 days? Gonna die soon, what am I to do without a nose? Ate a medicine and it made me slept 2 hours more. And the nose is still running.

Off to buy more stuff for bbq soon.

Then study.

And work. Today should be fun. Cos Fujibe-san will be coming over! "What a shame!!"

I feel like cycling. =)

Fireworks @ Home.

Happy National Day!!

At first I thought nothing much about it, just an off day!! Didn't expect a celebration at Sengkang and fireworks. Wow!!

Nice!!

Tomorrow is Ippudo x Tao Grand Opening. Almost everyday is full shift.

Opening Hours
Mon-Thurs 11-24
Fri & Sat 11-02
Sun 11-23
But work starts at 10.



I like Tao's music.


Kohei-san gave me this. =]

I really hope to get into DreamWerkz. If not everyday is really study and work.

I realised it is my duty to teach you. I have the responsibility, that is why I am here. I won't give up if you are willing to learn. At least try. I am willing to take up the challenge. Lol.

Contacts.

Went back Ippudo to eat today, with my family. Got an ice cream treat from Fujibe-san- a mixture of yuzu, cherry blossom and matcha ice.


Then my brother went to buy contact lenses at my uncle's shop. I went to, had this sudden urge to try one too. Seeing others wear contacts looks so scary. After a few tries, I managed to get it in my eye. It is quite fun actually. Haha. Never thought that I would have to courage to wear a contact lens. But I did. It's really fun. Contacts in one eye. Lazy eye. Haha. I can see, but I just don't want to rely on one eye, making the other worse.

Met up with Marilene and Jiaxin after that.

I have received my SIM acceptance.

That time Vanness from F4 came to Ippudo.

My mum ask me if can go uni next year, until I earn enough money.

It's like I'm tired of working everyday, but I want to help them until they open their second branch and when everything is stable. If I study next year, I have to work like this x2 again.

Looks like I'm gonna apply for bank loan. Interest rates and application fees. -.- It's like I have not enough money that's why I need a loan but everything else requires money, I guess that's how they earn money bah. Haha. No choice.

Facebook~

What's wrong with my facebook?!?! I can't log in, maintenance error. Followed all the instructions, and then sent a report. Cos they said "click here". Hope it will be okay soon. Cos I got nothing else to do except facebook!! Boo. Haha.

Night studied. It was productive. Cold. And quite funny. Something about the lights.

Hmmm. Night study again tomorrow.

Found this on google:


Printed it. For the class box, I guess.

I should go sleep soon.

Mi Lu Bing!

Had Econs tuition just now. Got the slip to pay the fees. Went through 3 essays just now. Wah. Hui Xin joined our class, only for today. Marilene came down to study with us. Ate at Pasta Mania. Studied at Cathay.

When we were going home, walked to PS with Jiaxin and Marilene. Saw 3 people on stage. Looks like.. 迷路兵! Yes, that's them. =DD They were rehearsing for the performance just now. Managed to finish hearing a song. Haha. =)



Prelim is starting again soon. But then, don't really feel like studying. But just have to. =(

And I think thinking what to do after 'A's already. Lol, like what job should I do.