Cos in the end, it's everyone to themselves. Learn to treat yourself better. #toomuchofaloner

是自己太不自量力, 还是只有我想把事情做好.. 我想我累了, 已经累了..

真希望别人能主动些。 我太有冲劲了吗?

Some time in a while, I lose sight of life. Thinking about what I really want in life, and I don't know the answer. 一天过一天. Other days, I'm just happy as it is.

I know I'm not the only one.

Need a holiday.

I guess next year will be more exciting than this year.

New idol is found. Ailee and her powerful vocal. So pretty too. Looking up to her and hope that I can work towards her. Now it's only left with myself and my motivations.

Ailee is the first kpop female singer/idol that I like. I love her live performances. Nope, I do not follow any girl groups.


This live gives me goosebumps.


This mv is so cute. No doubt, I watched it cos of G.O long time ago. Hahhah, but her vocals are really amazing.

I realised how much I really miss singing.

Life is full of disappointment.

Living for others. But what if others leave you?

Things in life can either motivate you or discourage you. Too many people in this world can sing and dance. People all come together, and share this passion, but I realised that I am not that good after all.

Growing up too quickly in the working world. I am seeing the world in a different light now. I realised many people will go with the flow and act like the majority. I just want to continue to stand in my perspective, firm. Is it possible?

I have a boring life. Haha.

Looks like my friends believe in me. Right, I will try out for the next season. Don't give up on singing, Qian Yi. Don't ever.

Mayday Mayday!

F1 Day 1. First time watching F1, first time watching Mayday live.

I sound very like a fangirl. But from a few years ago, I pledged that I must watch Mayday live at least one in my lifetime. And this 2 hour concert is a bonus. And we were in the moshpit area, wooohooooo! Unexpectedly near and I could see very clearly, cos I am a taller than average Singaporean. Hehehe. Finally some advantage, eh?

F1 Race Cars. More exciting and interesting than I expected. Too fast for my camera, and my eyes.

We are here!

But of course, I am much more exciting for Mayday's mini concert.

Thank you for brighting up the night. And transformed all of us into 'stars' that shine brightly last night.

The fireworks from the stage succeeded in making me jumped twice. Actually it never fails.

突然好想你.. One of the songs which drew me to them, it was this album. Too bad Ashin is just a white figure in the video. But the audio quality is still not bad. Enjoying the music is what matters.

I really love the parts when the crowd sings along.

I like this song too! Think about life uh.

Started listening to mandopop 8 years ago, with JJ's songs. Into Mayday for 5 years. I know most of the songs they sang, except maybe 2-3 songs. Detached from mandopop for a few years, but there are certain artistes that I will 關注. And 五月天 is one of them.

I would say their live is really good. Ashin can sing live well, although not perfect but I still love it! Soaking up in the atmosphere. At least now I know I have some kakis to go their concert with.

I guess I am in love with them because I can relate well to their songs, their lyrics..

I kind of miss singing and performing.

40,000 audience. I am proud to be one of them. :DD

괜찮아요. 처음 부터 난 혼자 있어요. 미래에 변화하지 않아요.

From the start, I was never meant for the big stage. I never had the self-discipline to improve myself up to professional standards.

But while it lasted, I was really glad to be able to chase my dreams. And to have several, but not enough, breakthroughs.

I will never try to fit and blend into the majority. By being someone not me. Furthermore, I don't like their attitude and reaction towards mostly everything. So I will not think and act like one of them. But sometimes I feel I'm too serious this way too. But never forget your own principals and what you believe in.

Maybe I won't be able to survive long in the society by holding on tight to my values. But I still choose to be positive in everything. Trying to understand from everyone's point of view. Please treat me nicely as I am trying to be nice to everyone.

Yes, I do get pissed. But I try to forget as soon as possible. I will not choose to be upset.

Do I blush too easily? Even I feel that there is no need to be embarrassed or shy?

I want to fly! I know Taiwan will be my favorite place for travel. But yet I'm afraid and not ready to fly yet.

Flew for the first time last year and found it fun and exciting. But now I'm a little scared. 4 months to be brave again.

Being a blood O is actually quite stressful. It is like you can save everyone and anyone. It feel like a gift God has given you, to help those in need. Why do I feel bad when I come across a news that someone needs a transplantation or transfusion..

Truth is, I am really afraid that my own body cannot take it. I donated blood 6 years ago, and I went really pale and dizzy. My body has always been weak. Although I was classified as healthy but the after-effect was really bad. Right after I donated, I was giddy. Rested for a long while and was dizzy again standing on the bus home.

I hope that by sharing, will bring some miracles to the young boy. Please fight on. Please let there be a healthy, brave and suitable person.

What are my directions from now on? I hate that I do not have motivation and ambition in life.

Too many talented people in this world. Making me feel so small.

Only starting to feel it now. It's the afterthoughts..

Idols seems so unreachable. Being others' idol feels so unattainable. How can I be people's inspiration when me myself is not motivated enough.

I guess that is why i can't give up on singing. I keep thinking I can't sing. But when I do, I feel happy and I kind of shock myself. Although I know I can never be good enough.

Settling for something less? I guess, still no.
Will I regret it if what you said come true in the future?
Life, is it all destined?
We all only want to believe in the good things, and choose to deny the bad ones, right..

Online shopping proves to be effective on me, too. Many cheap and nice clothes add up to quite a bit spent. But once in a while is fine right? I need more clothes..

Galaxy S4 died on me, 1 year 2 months.

HTC vs LG.

Is a purple phone too much? With my wallet and many things purple already. Haha, but the shade of metallic purple is so pretty.. Means I have to wait longer. But I should slowly thinking which phone is really want. Cos it is really not cheap.

Being able to come thus far, is really a breakthrough. I have learnt so much. But it all boils down to a point, I need to have more confidence in myself. I need to adapt a lot faster.

I hope tomorrow will go smoothly, regardless of the results. I shall believe in myself, my team mates, and my Goddess.

A good night sleep, and tomorrow will be a brand new start.

Because I don't want to let those who support and believe in me down.

But I know the road ahead will be even tougher. It will all be worth it, right?

It is so tiring to remain positive when everyone around you is so negative. I am standing in my perspective firmly.

I thought that people will encourage me when I am feeling helpless. But I did not expect that I will be the one to support them. I am used to it. But it's getting really too much for me to handle.

Physically tired. I don't know how long I can last mentally.

I'm still optimistic. But it's tiring to push away and to ignore all the pessimism.

I think I'm really patient with people outside home. But this really made me angry. Seriously you just totally 发脾气在我身上。I believe I didn't do anything to deserve that. 我不是你想像中的好欺负, 绝对不是。

Too many thoughts and flashback running in my head. It's so hard to fall asleep. Jialat at work tomorrow..

Well, it was scary but as always, a good experience. I can only think I'm not good enough. I have so much more to work on.

Many times I felt like giving up, but my team mates and crew mates pushed me on. I would have regretted it so much if I gave up, if not for them.

I feel so happy, to be able to do the things I really like. It's really good to have these experiences and memories even if I can't have this as a career.

I learnt a lot so far. This experience really challenges my limits, forcing me to improve fast. Although I am scared of harmonising, I want to try harmonising every song I hear now. Starting to gain a tiny bit of confidence in harmonising. 💪💪💪

Ahhhh!!! I'm going crazy! No signs of recovery. I've eaten almost all kinds of medicine since Monday. 😒

Started off with fever, headache and cough. Now to add on, sore throat and runny nose. I'm finishing up my pills for fever/pain, like seriously.

Today was a good experience. I got to explore the 'me' in front and off camera. It's fun and enjoyable.

YOLO. Whatever it is, I am proud of us. :)

I really love my primary school friends so much. Truly the more we suan each other, the closer we get.

They are the most punctual bunch of friends I have. I mean, and they are willing to go a step further to help you.

Just a day ago, I thought everything was smooth-sailing. The very next day, everything seems to be crashing down on me. The shoulders of mine is getting too heavy for me.

I am really very very tired. Too many things to handle on my own.

I just hope that I have someone I can talk to and someone who can understand how I feel.

Not sure if it was a bad timing and a wrong move. But I just felt soooo.. suffocated, I just needed to let it out of my chest a little.

The same old thoughts again. The one who cares the most feels the worst. In this case, why do I have to care so much. Making myself so pitiful.

Very sleepy, but I haven't felt so happy for a long time. Stressed, cos everyone is so strong, but I'm getting pushed by my team mates to do even better. Learning a lot through this experience. I hope we'll go far, Queentet. :)

Being busy but doing the things you love, is just so fulfilling.

Still wondering how to be a good leader. Still learning. Should a leader do most things themselves? They should do so to motivate team mates, and to show that they are willing to put in the effort right? But what if the team mates just simply take it for granted. Will the effort even be appreciated?

I really hurts when you care too much while others does not, right? But.. I just want to be a responsible leader. I guess I need to learn to let go a little.

Me, I feel tired too. My shoulders are getting heavy. Even a good leader is nothing without followers. I am not even a good leader, therefore I need strong support from my team members to help me grow, we should all grow together.

Suddenly, so many commitments and responsibilities. I mean, it is not a good thing. But I just need some teamwork.

Why am I always tying up loose ends? Can't people be bothered? Or at they bothered with the wrong stuff?

I'm feeling excited. Going as a group means nobody gets left behind. When times at tough, let's just encourage one another. 가자. 우리 할수 있어.

So many things on my mind that I can't fall asleep.

Too much of a perfectionist and expecting people to be like me. No good.

Hmm and I don't know whether to be strict and fierce. I mean I can, but I would like to make a stressless environment. Please just help me.. I don't want to come off as bossy too..

Now I get what people feel when they say they are tired of chasing after people.

But singing becomes even more fun and interesting after you know how to express and to reach out to the audiences with your voice. Acting.. Haha, still a long way to go. But I hope I'll do better. Not much time left. But hwaiting!

So I got scared by a raw fish head today. Cos Sam placed it in front of me on the table. At first, I didn't realise. Almost touched it and it was so close to me.. 😱

I am really afraid of what I will have to give up in the process of chasing my dreams. Of course, sacrifices have to be made. But I shouldn't live my life with any regrets, right?

It is impossible to have the best of both world, right.. But it's good to be busy with the things you love, correct?

就走一步算一步吧。都不知道能到多远。

There is no turning back now. Don't look back, just keep moving forward. Supportive family and friends. :)

Live life with no regrets and no "what if"s..

Gapdongi, I would say.. Does not have any effect on me. No laughter, no tears, not much fear.. But it is starting to get a little more interesting. It still feels funny watching Lee Joon being so serious.

Haha, is it weird to say.. Thinking about the day itself is a lot more scary than the show. It always send a butterfly into my stomach and a chill down my spine. How sia..

Honestly speaking, I really hate uncertainties.

Gapdongi. :)

My number 5 in MBLAQ, but his acting seems awesome. And the drama seems exciting.

I would love to watch ep 2 but I should sleep soon.

Today, I realised the importance of confidence. Well, I hope I can keep this mindset and work towards my target.

Not quite, but maybe, a fangirl post. Well, an idol is someone we all look up to, and find inspirations from right? Was watching some videos on MBLAQ..

Quote from Mir.. "If we can't avoid it, we should enjoy it."

I should learn from them.. Even if you make a mistake, just laugh it off. So I should not be afraid to make mistakes. Seungho is not the main vocalist, nor main dancer, but he is not afraid to show. (He is sooooo talented, omg) I love his confidence.. So.. Although I might not be the best.. Just believe in myself, in my own voice.

Another quote, "If you do not make mistakes, you did not try something new."

I have taken a first step to have a potential to save lives. This post is to remind myself, if I were to have second thoughts. Well, it is scary. But I have to be determined to be brave.

Mum had worry all over her face. But after I told her that there is no surgery required, and the blood will return to my body, she felt a little more relieved. She mentioned that we give it for free, but the patients get charged. But I believe that we should help others in need, so that we can, too, receive help in times of need.

Hmm, how to say.. I am really very broken to hear the updates on Sewol, I am keeping a close follow up. People keep saying that it's a pity and a tragic. Well, it really is. I really feel teary reading news on it. But we are not able to give any help, except to pray. Through this tiny actions, we might be able to save the people awaiting a bone marrow/stem cell transfer. They are there for us to save. We can do something to help them in this case.

I guess since I dare not donate blood anymore, this can kind of help me give back to the society, a bit. I need the blood back in my body.. If not I will feel light-headed and turn all pale. So yup, I do not dare to donate blood again since J2.

Although a match is slim, but at least.. you know that you took the first step. Visit www.bmpd.org for more details.

Actually I don't know how longer I can last..

Haven't even started and I feel suffocated already..

Just finished the busy period of work, coming again soon. It's getting busier now..

With Japanese and Korean, which I don't even have time (or lazy) to study and do the homework.

Just what have I landed myself into.. Overestimated myself. I just feel like crashing in bed. But I know if I skip last week's homework, I'll be lazy next time.

Went one big circle, and in the end, I still live for others..

This morning's NEL was unusually crowded. Already full when we at Buangkok, and passengers couldn't even board at Hougang. Worse still, there was a lady who could not alight at Serangoon, not to say the others to board. Nobody was squeezing in, it was very organised. But the door closed in some of the passengers, too quickly. The train was so empty from Serangoon to Boon Keng.

I was so afraid that I could not get out of the train at my stop as I was already running late. But lucky the train stopping time was enough at my station.

Sometimes, I guess we really can't blame people for being to angst, and 'kiasu". We can't help it at times.

Too many things going on.. Too much commitments.. I don't even know if I can handle.. I don't know how much more I can contribute..

I don't know what my future holds...

Ugly mosquito marks on my arms. :( I need to stop scratching.

Well my area now is also a 'black' zone (my own category), okay red but very dark red. There are 139 cases of dengue this month, and it is only mid-month.

People complain about others changing, but don't they change too? And isn't change the only thing that remains unchange? Change to remain unchanged, no? I mean, everybody grows up and changes their priority, don't tell me you still want to be having naive thinkings..

They say people who don't get angry easily are scary when they really get angry. Because other people have never seen them angry before, so it is kind of unexpected. But maybe, just maybe, they know that they are really scary when they get angry, that is why they learnt to control their temper (outside).

My body does not feel well since the end of last month.. Not fully recovered, still. Seeing what I eat daily.. no wonder.

On a side note, tomorrow is a P.H.!!

Always heartbreaking to hear of disasters, even if it is not in my hometown. Why do people fear death? Scared what comes after death? Fearful of being forgotten? Or, afraid of how their loved ones being left behind will react and handle it. Regret that you are unable to complete want you want to accomplish in life?

Don't even know if I am a leader or a follower..

I just got reminded that learning should never stop. Never be complacent. Self studying is good. I have been stagnant for too long at work, getting too comfortable.

I finally understand the meaning, you will prefer school to work next time. For work, it's really some serious stuff.

Sometimes I really wish to be able to speak fluent Japanese, and Korean. But it requires a lot of hard work.

Was talking to my Ippudo mother today. Always appreciate her being there.

Positive stress at work. Because people expect a lot from you, you have to continue to work hard so that you won't disappoint them. It's good. But sometimes I am really scared that I am unable to live up to the expectations.

Changes are coming to the office soon. New location, new jobscope, etc. Hope everything will go smoothly.

Pissed. Times like this, just leave me alone with only music and I.

Sometimes, you really have no say. Do not comment, because you should only do that when you can do better.

I am really glad we graduated together, although ours are different sessions.

Thank you for always being there, although our opinions are different at times. And thanks for being patient, when we actually know you are not really. Hahha. Cos sometimes I know I have my moody periods as well. It is really not easy to see someone almost everyday. LOL!

During our Uni times, we see each other really al
most everyday. Weekdays school, weekends work. I see her at least 5 days a week, 10 hours a day. 7 years and counting, from not really close to who we are now.

As she mentioned, she is my sec classmate, jc classmate, uni classmate, and now my colleague, my friend, my neighbour a junction away.. And of course, my girl friend.

Thank you. :))


And I was planning to graduate 'secretly' cos I thought the school is too inconvenient and crowded. And because I actually finished my exams so long ago, so it didn't really feel like a graduation to me. I already started working full time 7 months ago...

But it still feels nice to have friends popping by, I didn't know it actually means so much to them and to me. Thank you, Jean really, for making the day even more memorable.

Twin was really sweet to call all the way from Aussie to congratulate me. I miss you, twin.

Miss times like this, when everybody (from the different outlets) gather. Feels like a big family. But still office is not as close to the outlets. Really appreciate WG's effort to bond, they are really close. Keep it up!

MS is like a family member to me. There are a few people I cherish in MS, but these people's hard work are often taken for granted. I hope that they can really be happy. But still, I always feel welcomed, to be 'home'.

WG is like my baby. I always feel happy going there. The liveliness and friendliness.. Kinds of reminds me of when I first started.

And I haz handsome brothers.

Little tired, but today is a fulfilling day.

Chose photos for the family portrait and album. I'm quite decisive in this, but I'm trying to learn to listen to other people's opinion, which means my parents' in this case.

Went to collect my Jap cert. And just completed my Korean homework. Google is my best friend. Maps, Search and Translate.. Google translate as reference to boost my confidence a little before submitting.

But it feels like I am forgetting my Jap after a break of 3 weeks. Really, languages need to keep practising. Actually it applies to everything. Dance, singing, and even my Chinese.

I want to be more fluent in my dialect too.

From the start, I liked to dance a lot. Now I still do, but I love singing a lot more.

But really hate the helpless feeling when I lose my voice. Can't sing, can't practise. Can't even talk properly. :(

Korean class today. Teacher does not recognised me, she said this is Advanced 3, you okay? I was shocked for a moment, you mean it's not okay? Cos I have stopped for so long, 8 months thereabout.

Was kind of lost at the moment, after realising that the page they stopped and mine were different. But after a while, I sort of eased in. Luckily, my Korean is still not very rusty. Still understand most stuff, I think my listening became better. Maybe cos of Korean Dramas, maybe cos of Jap. Many familiar words I picked up from dramas, which makes it easier to remember without memorising hard.

1.5 hours of Korean passed in a flash, so much faster compared to the 2 hours of Japanese. I do not know why, can't deny I am more interested in Korean. But not say I am forced to take Jap also leh, Jap is fun also. I like it when I understand what my Managers are talking about, a bit only, kekekke.

Should be the way the teachers teach. Very different. Korean teacher is more interactive, more conversations, more reading, drill on basics then on understanding. Japanese teacher is a lot of memorising, more boring, but can remember more and be more fluent. Lots of reading too. I think one major difference is that the Korean classroom is more comfy. But of course a lot more expensive.

This month, I'm a happy fangirl. Been long since I fangirl-ed. Getting old for it.

But MBLAQ is back!! I think their vocals improved a lot, especially Cheon Doong. I really like Seung Ho's strong solo part. I hope their hard work pays off. Seung Ho is keeping his promise to his fans well, by taking care of his health (weight). Heheeh. But it's for his own good too.

Really looking forward to watch more of their live performances.




And my second bias in SHINee.

And the purple hair... Hahahah.

Which means that both groups are fighting out with one another.. :( But of course I vote MBLAQ. If it's SHINee vs. MBLAQ then it will be a tough decision.

On a side not, Mr Fujibe is serious about giving me feedback if people like me with longer or short hair. Now it's Many:One/Two. Many prefers me with short hair.

Now I really understand why the person I look up to a lot says that she does not like to put work and social media together. It really affect my perception.

Resuming my Korean tomorrow. After a very long break. Must prove to myself that I can handle both simultaneously, and not get confused. But I'm not studying hard.

Just finished the last episode of You Who Came From The Stars. :)

A morale behind it.. Treasure your loved ones and every moment cos you would not know when will be the last.

Hmm, so what show should I watch next? The Heirs, Emergency Couple? Hmmmmm...

Gonna be broke this month. Continuing my Korean, after almost 8 months, and my Japanese.

I hope I study a lot harder for my languages.

Hahah, what reading about the drama, and I got a shock that Cheon Song Yi's brother is actually a lot older than I expected.. Even older than Kim Soo Hyun himself. Okay, actually a number of their actors/actresses look a lot younger than their real age.

It's a relief that suspected objects are not from the plane. But where is the plane? Anyway, no news is good news. There is still hope. :)

虽然希望越来越渺茫, 但还是抱着希望真心祈祷。

The search teams are working so hard day and night.

Everyone, please be safe.

Woohoo, that amazing feeling. Feels like flying. To be able to hit high notes. At home sometimes can when I push very hard. But now at least I know it's the correct technique and not shouty.

Very happy and satisfied now. Another big step. But now still, I will need a lot more confidence to believe in myself, and my voice.

I really felt like Erena, like I can imagine what she felt.

Really came so far already.

You who Come from the Stars.. I chionged 6 episodes today... Just finished ep 7. :)

Watched the first episode on Thursday, still okay... 2nd episode while drying my hair at wee hours today. :3

TV finished broadcasting already.. Haha. And I really feel like watching one more episode today.. Watching this faster than The Moon that Embraces the Sun?

But I think I should rest. Feeling stuffy the whole of today and yesterday.

I want to watch Running Man too, the parody, but I don't want spoilers.

Sometimes, I think I am too serious at work, too stubborn about my own point of view, and too cautious in life...

But I just want the best for myself and everyone.

Is it good or bad?

I need to remember this.. Not everybody thinks the same way as me. Remember!

Similarities between my Ippudo mother and I?
-Same horoscope, birth month, blood type, surname.

Okay, so my school is as efficient as ever. An advertising photo of more than 2 years ago just surfaced. Okay can.

I just woke up from my evening nap, and saw May-san's message. Like, okay course book, expected. But apparently it is not. And if she didn't tell me, I would have forgotten about this my whole entire life.

I don't know whether to laugh or cry now. Hah.

Sometimes I wonder how my managers feel and think, watching us grow up. From a fresh jc graduate to a working adult now.

From about 4 years ago.

To now.

We are still here. But moved from front line to supporting roles.

Listening to my outlet boss' side of opinion and my heart aches. He is actually not wrong either. Realised, once again, that he is so lonely. Feeling like he is fighting this battle alone with only a few colleagues behind his back.

Being strict yet polite, is it really possible? That's my suggestion to him. I'm doubting whether it is possible, yet he tells me they are complimentary. Thank you for taking my opinion into consideration. It's really hard on you both.

Being nice, people take advantage and step all over you. Being strict, people dislike you. It's so hard to deal with people. Whatever the personality, you should always respect your boss cos anyhow, he is still your superior.

Because under that cheerful facade is troubled soul. That breaks my heart.

Went to WG to ran errand but cos 3 staff were on mc, Karen-san asked me to stay and help out. I was not really in proper attire, but it was fine.

It was surprising smooth operation, since it is similar to MG, although I was only at MG for 7 months. Although pos/micros was different, but luckily I have some experience in AS.

But of course at times I was blur. But overall still okay. The customers today are all nice. :D

Always good to work with old and new staff. But I forgot to ask them to introduce themselves to me.

I'm happy that I can make my Ippudo mother proud.

And the wise words from my M. Manager.. Lack of staff, all attack all defence. Less is more.

But I really don't know what I want as a career. I mean I really enjoy everything I am doing, although I do get bored at times. Be it accounts, admin, HR, and service. I don't know about office support, if I enjoy it because I know I am helping my fellow colleagues in the outlets. But I really like doing everything. So which makes me even more confused and unsure of what I really want.

Till the day I have a clear vision, I shall do everything to the best of my abilities.

You know you have a good boss when..

She tries to let you do,explore and learn what you are interested in. :)

Too many things I didn't see. Too many things I didn't know.

Really, how is the grown up life? Exactly what does a grown-up think?

Always thought that I am mature enough to handle all these. But seems like it is not the case.

Perhaps in cases like this, it is better to be ignorant. Maybe being alone is not that bad. Because in the outside world, you really do not know who you can trust. So only a few good and close friends would be enough.

But there are really some people I want to look after and 'protect'. I really hope I can. I will do my best as long as it is within my means.

In the end will it be all worth it? Those 小小的付出，默默地付出.. will there be anyone who notices them?

在生命的最低潮，想要放弃梦想的时候，突然又得到了一股推动力。我就是想唱歌，和跳舞。

都来到了这么远，真的不想就此放弃。慢慢又能感受到那热诚。

本以为自己对身边的一切有所了解，才发现自己其实活在自己的世界里。这或许是好的吧。还是我选择看不见，让自己好过一点？

Can't believe I missed out on so many Chinese songs. So many JJ's songs. Just happened to click on JJ's youtube and so many songs which I have not heard before... :(

Maybe it's time to go back to Chinese songs. Hahhaah. but I guess a wide variety and genre is still good.

Still one of my favourite songs. Even more after listening to it live, and knowing the story behind it. :')

到最后, 能给我最多安慰的, 还是华文歌。

I think I just decided on my New Year Resolution.

I just want to study hard for my Korean and Japanese. That's all. I hope to be fluent and be able to write well in both languages. :)

I think Jap is easier as I am more exposed to it.

And to continue to work hard, as in work work.

Seems like a number of my friends' new year resolution is to be able to stand up for themselves/lives more for themselves. Should I make that one of mine too? :)

Should I be more selfish, or should I not be and feel bad for myself?

But I think now 我真的看开了。

Sometimes, you should just listen to someone and think whether or not it is really true. Try understanding from different points of view, instead of just going with the flow.

People with their disagreements and unhappiness doesn't mean that you should follow. Maybe they didn't mean to sow a discord, but you know you are influenced. I still prefer to stay neutral. I think I'll be happier this way.

My New Year Resolution?

I don't have any. Just be happier than I was last year. Treasure those around me, and hope they will too.