It's funny how distance can pull people apart. And yet, being too close can push you apart too. It's so hard to maintain a proper distance and a relationship, of all kinds.

And I think people who don't respect me as a waitress do not deserve my good service. I will provide the service, but not my best. Good or bad. This is life, practise what you preach. I will treat you how you treat me, maybe double of it.

Sometimes, I wonder whether my efforts be appreciated. Going through so much trouble and nobody seems to bother. But it is always good to give.

I like to do things for others, only if they prove to be worthwhile.

This stage if life is so scary. The change is so huge. From a student, to a wiring adult. No wonder people always say treasure your school life, while you are still a student. Very true.

The awesome feeling when I get a gift from fans, all thanks to the boys. Hahha, cos it's from their fans. It's a magical feeling.. Like "are you really giving it to me?" Thank you so much!

Watching "Africa" on Okto. Oh, the magnificence of nature.

But it feel like the creatures are walking aimlessly in search of food, water and mate to survive. Same goes for human, I guess.

I'm not emo-ing just a thought that pops up in my mind when I see the scene of the giraffe.

Do or die, I have to do it sooner or later. Omg, it's so scary. Might as well "die" early, save me from all the thinking and trouble.

Headache, literally.

Okay, I'll give myself 2 more days to think.

Ahhh.

Dad: "Decide yourself, but I think xxx company has very good benefits. I think xxx company blah blah..."

I will decide on my own in a better way if there isn't so much of influence.

I hate my indecisiveness. I want to go back to school. D:

A new beginning

LOL, Karen san scolded me when I told her that I don't know how long I will be working at my new workplace. She said haven't start work thinking of quitting already.

I don't want a farewell party. I will confirm cry. 3 years and 7 months of memories. But I will be back, I know.

But thinking of being a full time really is a very sian thing. Hahaha, part time is totally different. I want to go back to school... Now I finally understand.

Seems like my managers' prayer didn't work. I got the job.

And I feel sad. 我依依不舍。I put in my youth (hahah) and emotions in Ippudo.

我这才发现我有很多东西放不下。我想这就是上班族的烦恼。How good is it to be a part timer.

Omg, my tears almost rushed out on the train after reading karen san.

Confidence is Key

See, Qian Yi. All you need is confidence. You are doing fine. Got picked out with 2 others to dance in Rahim's class. I'm definitely not the best, neither am I the worst. He drills a lot on techniques.

Tried locking too. It's fun.

Just open class. One session. Considering to attend more to improve myself.

Dancing is always fun, doesn't matter what kind of genre. But all feels the same to me, it's like moving your body. The basics are similar.

I feel so disappointed, I thought I could get my pay at 00:00. Seems like I can only get it at midnight tomorrow. D: I want my pay. Feels like I've got no energy without it.

I think I'm horrible. I live to eat. Always looking forward to food. During work, looking forward to lunch after work. Now, I'm thinking of my breakfast tomorrow morning. As much as I feel like eating now, NO!

And ouch, I've got a mosquito bite at the back of my knee. And it hurts. Feels swollen. But don't think it is.

Ippudo's humour

I guess.. the only people who will wish that I will fail my job interviews are my managers. Hahha. Karen san said, ''good luck, hope you fail your interview.'' and Miyazaki san put his hands together and prayed. Hahhaa! Why so cute!

Lol, funny when I said I am on off tomorrow, and Soon asked Choong to tell Sam that he is on mc tomorrow. And Kai Choong asked to tell him himself. Hahhaah! Nonsense.

Karen san: "如果你过不了自己这关, 别人的就不必说了。"

I don't know what words and feelings to express seeing my colleagues leaving their home countries to work in Singapore. Missing their family everyday. Working hard to earn money.

We are just too fortunate. But have always taken it for granted.

I'm grateful that my stomach digests fast. If not, I would have died just now, of bloatedness.

I seriously think that my younger brother is too cute. He is such an innocent rebel. So gullible, and so 糊涂。天真地执着。

Why is it that I am forever doubting myself. It's half the battle lost. Come on, where is my confidence.

I will do my best. I don't want to regret. 豁出去吧。

Sometimes I wonder.. What are adults teaching their children these days? What kind of role models are they? Children are like pieces of white paper. They learn from you, through observations, through your speech and actions.

Fancy behaving in a 'cheapo' way. And high possibility that your children will grow up to be like you. It's so important to instill the right values in your children. Slight matters also complain.

I don't understand and will never be able to understand some people. I will not be like you in the future. I will teach my child(ren) to be polite and treat people with respect.

Even if people are not nice to us, we will and shall be nice to them too.

Anyway, after customers all left, jx was sitting at counter, facing Sam who was in the kitchen. Sam asked jx, "如果你是顾客, (看着我)你会有什么感觉?" Before jx replied, I mumbled "想吐的感觉。" while setting the table. Epic. Jx heard and passed the message on to Sam. Really, without these interesting and nonsense people, work would be boring. 善意地斗嘴真有趣。