I don't regret most of the things I did. But I do regret most of the things I didn't do.

The things I did make me who I am today.

The month of June feels so long. Finally the end of the month, pay cut. It feels long cos I'm waiting, waiting for my pay.

But now on, it's time to pay my debts, the money borrowed from my brother and mum. Can I default on my debts? Hahahha!!

But life's really good. I've got many 贵人s.

Don't need you to tell me what job to get, just because it was introduced through you. I have my own preference, and priority. Although the job scope sounds quite interesting. But Ippudo is my top priority, if I get the job, if the salary is reasonable.

I really hate my body, 体质。Haze then my throat gone and losing my voice now. Too heaty, fall sick. Too cold also got problem.

Hmm, I guess I can summarise myself as having a weak body. With probably a strong personality? Hahhah.

I guess this time I really gg. 목소리가 없는다.

Somehow having short hair gives me more confidence. More attitude.

"在人生中尝试做得最好, 但却在路途中失去了自己。"
"拼命地往上跑。人家只关心你跑得远不远, 快不快。却没有人理会你跑得累不累。"
Something like that.

Everybody went/is/is going overseas. And yet, I'm stuck on this island. It's okay. I'm leaving it for Sentosa this Saturday. Looking forward to it.

Personality defines you as a person. I think that I am too tough and too independent. But I quite like it. Cos that's me. I think people might think I'm unapproachable though. I just prefer not to talk when I have nothing to say, and I don't like to rely on people, except my family members.

I can't hide my emotions as well now. Cos it only makes myself feel horrible.

Afraid of failure and criticism. I think I'm a Leo afterall. Haha.

I really hope I can give more to my family. I hope I can pay more for my brother's ho예tel and bank loan fee, but I can't. :( Not working enough.Worried I can't even hit $1000 this month. >.<

How sia... Think have to pay next month. D:

I think my elder brother is the one of the sweetest bf on earth. Sending his gf home everytime, and she lives at the other side of Singapore.

And this is definitely one of the best cupcakes. Handmade with love by both of them. 예쁘하고 맛있다.

AND WU YUE TIAN IS HAVING CONCERT!!

But I have no money to buy the tickets.. And I can't work. :((

Next year... I promised myself that I must watch them live at least once in this life. Hahha. Songs that gave me strength to continue on.

What will you do, if you were me? Will you go beyond your duties?

I can reject a request once, already pressurised. But a second time, it is hard. If you were me, if a customer insists very very strongly, will you give in? Depends on the situation, I guess. If it is within my capability and not totally against the company's policy, I think I will. Sometimes we should not be too rigid.

But sometimes I just get this feeling that some, only a few, customers might think that those working in F&B are less educated, so they are pushovers. But the truth is, no. Some of my Filipino colleagues graduated from a university in their homeland. Just that as compared to Singapore, their certificates are not as good. Well, this is my own perspective. But I feel that some respect should be given to the F&B staff as well. "Customers are always right"? I doubt so, if it is totally unreasonable.

Now, I just forget. I don't think so much. Majority are still fine. Focus only on the good, and you'll be happier. 

Kind of regretted not having intern. Now no company wants me. :( But if I were an intern, I would not earned enough to survive my uni. And I really enjoyed my time working in Ippudo.

So I can only hope Ippudo office wants me. Omg, I just realised after a week that the email of my resume did not send out cos there is error in the email address. I hope they will still consider me.. Kan zai wo ba 3.5 nian de qing chun fang zai ippudo sheng shang. Hahha! But I really got a strong sense of belonging in Ippudo. Feels that I am a part of it. I would really really like to help them, it's Ippudo SG. I love Ippudo and I am Singaporean. Serious. How cool will it be if I were to go to overseas Ippudo and meet my managers again. But I need some accounting experience now too.

I can't even find a job now, not to mention next time. T.T

That's right. We should not give up easily, even if everything is against you and you are discouraged. Every expert was once a beginner. It takes hard work. If you give up after a few failures, how would you know how far you can actually go. Unless you are very sure that it's the wrong direction.

Why am I so afraid of failures?

Now my voice cracks more easily. Don't know if it's because I am sick or cos I'm starting to sing more challenging songs. Or some other reasons?

But it's okay. Everybody will have cracked voices once in a while. Just be thick-skinned and pretend nothing happened.

No big deal during practices. My skin really needs to thicken for performing.

Sighh, not earning enough. But work a little and I'm falling sick again.

I think that this year is not a good year for me. Keep falling sick.

I still got one more month before I pay for my brother's hostel.

I feel so touched. My operating manager really treats me (us) like her child(ren). :')

She recommended me to Ippudo office as accountant. I am actually thinking of working full time again. But it'll be best if I could work in the office under this company. If not, I might consider coming back after 2 years of accounting job. That is if she is still here.

Funny, she told me that she recommended me by telling the office lady that I love Ippudo. Yes, I do love Ippudo!!

I like working with young and new staff. No wonder some companies like fresh graduates. They are so pure and innocent. Just like when we first started. Trying my best to remain this way.

However people treat you, it doesn't matter. As long as you 对得起天地良心, and treat others the way you want to be treated, everything will be fine someday. And up till now, it seems that way. I feel happy working with everyone. But younger staff really brightens up the workplace.

And today, the first time rice bowl hotter than ramen bowl. Hot leh. My hands are made of flesh too, okay. Haha!! But hot rice bowl = hot delicious rice for customers.

There is this filipino customer whom "Thank you, mdm" me.  Feels weird. Too respectful. I think he is from f&b too. The feeling you get when you are respected as a waitress. How many people can actually do that? Okay, even I don't do that. But I treat the servers with respect, with understanding and behaviour. Most treat us fine. But there are always black sheeps.

Maybe one day, I will come back. I want to provide excellent service to the people. One day, just maybe.

I think some singaporeans should work as a server at least once and reflect on themselves. But most are fine, really.

Talking about babies. And my mum said I am very smart cos I learnt how to go toilet just once. When I was a toddler, I peed on the floor the first time and I got a scare. Didn't even get scolding, mum just told me next time must go toilet. Then the second time I know how to go toilet already. So funny. I was so 胆小.

18:07
Wise words while watching TV.
再见, 单人床: 婚姻不是 1+1=2, 而是 0.5+0.5=1。我们必须放弃一部分的自己来配合另一半。Something like that. Makes so much sense.

It's all about giving, taking annd accommodating. Wonderful show. But makes everything sounds so difficult.

And "the love for our (future) children is unconditional, while the love for our partner is conditional."

I see myself as a perfectionist and one in need of confirmation.

And funny. Mum suddenly say, "You 22 this year already right. Faster go tidy your room." She always say after I tidy my room, my 缘分 will come. So yeah. Lol.

The awesome feeling when you go back to your workplace for a dinner, and the regular customer recognises you. I guess it's these types of customers that keeps me going.

Worked in the morning. Went back for dinner to try the shio ramen. Oiishi!

Muscle aching. Age is catching up with me. Or should I say it has been long since I last exercised, and I've never liked it.

Yup, dancing is my favourite firm of exercise.

Haha, I can't leave my arms over a certain angle, around 90° max.

Kay, I'm so tired. Gonna k.o. now.

Back to work tomorrow. Only 5 hours but I think I'll be suffering from muscle ache. Haha.

So long since I danced. But wow, the feeling was awesome. Yup, I still love dancing. Quite surprised that I still managed to catch the steps. Tiring but fulfilling.

I'll have a good sleep tonight. And I feel refreshed for work now. :)

But I think I'll have a little trouble waking up tomorrow. Confirm rush. Hahahha.

Goodnight. I'm happy tonight cos I danced. :D