The thing I hate most: Insecurity.

大人的世界好難理解, 太複雜了. 朋友與敵人, 是與非, 誰對誰錯, 有誰能告訴你答案?

口口聲聲說是為你好, 真正的目的又是甚麼呢? 有如此的單純嗎? 還是事我想太多了?

想保護身邊的人, 但會否顯得太大驚小怪, 小題大作呢? 此人或許不會了解, 也不會感激. 或許是用錯了方法, 或許...

常常試著為生變的人著想, 但是否真的被當成理所當然了呢? 真的累了, 難道想對自己好一點點, 就這麼一次, 也有錯嗎? 不行嗎? 能不能不要一直默默守護別人, 別人或許永遠都不會發覺.

是默默的好, 還是表明的好? 我覺得真心的最好.

不想長大, 不知道能不能信任他人. 是真心關心, 還是想影響你的思想?

我不善於表達, 不喜歡跟別人分享. 我, 又能跟誰訴苦呢?

或許對你而言, 我不如他人. 我漠不關心, 很無趣吧. 是你, 還是我?

이해할 수 없고 이해하고 싶지않아.

혼자서 살 수 있어? 더 좋은 거야?

Sing, and everything will be fine. Hopefully.

I feel that.. My Jap is more fluent than my Korean. Although I only had jap lesson for 2 months plus, but Korean for 1 year plus.

Maybe cos I'm listening to Jap almost everyday. But my vocab for both are so limited.

If only I study hard. But so lazy.. I haven't even self study katakana.

Hong Kong Trip & WG

My first time taking a plane. Jetstar. To Hong Kong! 11-15 Dec.

When it first took off, it was really scary. Seeing the ground and infrastructures getting smaller, while the plane flies higher.

Seeing the sky getting from dark to bright. So pretty. Now I get what people say, about clouds like cotton candy. But it is quite different from what I thought it was.

Never expected the airplane to fly so high, being above the cloud.

A must for me to try other countries' Ippudo.

I am really becoming an Ippudo Maniac. I mean, since we are there, why not just try Ippudo HK. It is a rare chance, to see and taste the difference in operation and food. And even the cultural. If I am rich and have lots of time, I would love to go to each and every other outlet in the country.

One of my favourite photos of the trip.

 I look so happy, natural and carefree. Who would have known this is actually a selca. Hahahah.

Definitely one of my favourites. With a beautiful background and happy faces.

Such a pretty scene. It is like a huge Sun above the castle. But it is actually two fireworks crossing path.

I haven't taken cable cars since years.. I don't even remember taking it. That was how young I was.

The night scenery from the plane.

The trip home was night time. The bright lights from below. Beautiful, yet mysterious.

Mysterious as I do not know where I was above and what they were.

Back home safely after flight kept being delayed due to weather and congestion. My whole family was there at the airport waiting for me to arrive. So much love, even my younger brother. Hahha, the (always) little brother who has a sharp mouth yet soft heart. :)

Sometimes I wonder, how would I have been if I made a different decision in many parts of my life. Like, if I have not joined Ippudo 4 years ago, where would I be? But I believe in fate and destiny.

And Ippudo at Westgate is opened. Asked my brother and Eihan to try it with me. I hope they really like it.

Really happy to see Kohei-san once again, after about 1.5 years. He is back from Sydney for 10 days. Really appreciate the warm welcome and hospitality I get whenever I visit any Singapore Ippudo as a customer. Ippudo is really like a second family to me.

My brother thinks that all the Japanese are handsome, he calls Matsuoka-san the handsome one. I call Miyazaki-san the charismatic one. And Kohei-san, the Sydney manager. But Kohei-san is so smiley these days. He kept smiling when he visited the office yesterday.

All these memories are irreplaceable. So precious.

Thank you for always being so welcoming and entertaining.

Haahah, I was asking Kohei-san about Sunday. And he was saying, just the two of us? Karen-san told him my brother was standing there. And Kohei-san immediately bowed and apologised to him. Why sho cute?

:))

Thanks for making Ippudo my second home.

 當人與人之間的關係越來越複雜, 越來越難理解.

人際關係真的好難理解.

My managers are adorably cute.

No idea what lies ahead. But just enjoy every moment. :)

或許管得太多, 真的苦了自己. 該學會放開.

真的累了, 倦了.

我沒有你們想像中堅強.

真的有想放棄的念頭. 但是到最後是否會後悔放棄曾擁有的夢想呢?

這條路走了很遠, 但還有更長的路要走. 這條路真的不簡單.

也許放手, 我才會快樂些.

A good and tough question.. Do I like Ippudo or (Ippudo) Office more?

Actually I really like both a lot. I'm in love with Ippudo..(?) Hahahah. Feels like a family to me, even if there are politics which I might not know of.. So far, everyone has been kind to me.

I like to work in the restaurants because there are a lot of interactions and relationships seems better, at least to me. Office people are nice as well, being a backstage support for the outlets. And learning a lot of behind the scenes jobs.

Always, and still, whenever I look back at the photos, the memories will never fall to bring a smile on my face. My bosses who are overseas, I do miss them.

Probation ended. But it also means more responsibilities. I feel it coming. >.< Which is good in a way.

난 어디에 잘 못해? 진짜 몰라. 어떻게?

혼자서?

I need to learn to let go of things which I should not be concerned with anymore.

I really do not know whether it is better to be independent or reliant.

I don't know, too, whether it was a good idea to learn Japanese. Will there be things which I am not supposed to know, but there might be one day which I will understand.

For certain people who always ask why we hire so many foreigners for F&B, why not ask yourself? There are certain industries that locals are not as willing to work in. And me? Although I enjoy the service line, I doubt I will make it my future.

Another point of view, another beginning. Feeling inspired again. My love for Chinese songs is reignited.

Watching The Moon That Embraces The Sun. Just finished episode 4. The number of times it has given me goosebumps.

The child/young actors are so good!!

The world is complicated. I like the line- "Did you realise your rashness might have made the child a victim of palace politics?"

To be naive and believing everyone is good, or be the one who is (full of jealousy and) calculating.. Many more episodes to go~

The false pretense of people are scary. The masks people wear. But this is life, isn't it?

要学会放下。要看来开一点。

Lol, this just doubles my worry. But what can I do? Dear brother, can you just stop learning bike. But he is sooooo stubborn.

And how do I change my mindset?

There are so many things I didn't realise. So many things are changing. I hope I can do something about it. Perhaps I should really care less. It is still the best when I first came in.

Seeing different sides of people are really disappointing. But everybody has theirs. So do I.

Where is the initiative?

Am I too ignorant or too naive?

Trying hard alone is not good enough. Effort must be shown.

I know that I have improve a lot. All I need to change now is my mentality.

Clement thinks I try very hard. I do, but I'm even more afraid to let those who believe in me down. I'll try even harder the next time.

But I need the self control to push myself more.

I need to believe in myself.

Yeah, I still want to stand in the stage.

Singlish is like our form of banmal.

Whenever I think back, I realised I have been through so much and grown so much. It is a long way.

Felt to awesome singing today. Under guidance, I feel like I have improved so much. Feeling more comfortable singing in front of people now. Now I have to work towards being comfortable on stage.

11 plus and I feel like I'm gonna faint anytime if I don't sleep soon.

Gaining a little bit of weight from sitting whole day in office but I feel life I'm gonna fall sick very soon. Being sick will make me lose weight.

I am happy with what I am doing now. Looking for staff. Cos I know what I am doing will help my colleagues in outlets to lighten their burden of work.

But at the same time, I am afraid that I am a burden to my current colleagues. Cos I'm very new and sometimes lost. Just worried that I keep disturbing them.

I'm angry now, yes at this timing. >:(

Sometimes I just don't get him. Got awaken by my father, while he was scolding my younger brother over the phone. For returning home late cos my dad needs to fetch passengers around this timing. Okay, after cooling down maybe my father has his reasons. But I'm angry at the fact that I was awoken.

I stand for my brother. I feel that he should have some life, since he stays in the hostel 90% of the time. Should just let him have some free time. Even if he is wrong, but should not scold him as often. Later he don't want to come home then you know. Pampering much?

Went out to get some water and dad asked who came back last. Can't even remember. And got reprimanded for not locking the door. My elder brother came back last, now I remember, but I checked everything else.. forgetting the door. Aiya, whatever. My brothers.. Elder brother always being careless. Younger brother always so stubborn. And I, with my own conflicting beliefs.

Now, I can't get back to sleep. D: Monday blues are setting in.

Finally did something I should have done 3 years ago. Finally registered for jap class. Looks difficult. But I feel it might be easier to speak than Korean.

Maybe because I have high expectations of myself, in terms of work, I feel stressed at times. Maybe cause I was sort of recommended by my managers, I feel a duty to do well.

Back to MS yesterday, saw all my ex-colleagues. Felt like tearing, miss them so much and they were so nice to us during that short 1 hour. I miss working with them. Ippudo MS feels like my second home. A bunch of fun-loving people.

I really am more interested in the Korean language than Japanese. But Korean lessons timing is not  convenient for me. :(( So I think I will start Japanese classes. Useful for work, though I'm not as interested in the language. But afterall, I love learning languages!

I hope I won't get mixed up. But I think I will. Jap seems more difficult.

Kay, I think I'm a little excited to learn Japanese, knowing some of my favourite kpop groups are venturing into Japan. And I have some favourite classic jap songs too. Will be able to sing them soon. :)

I kind of miss my colleagues from MS. I kind of miss being in the front line, the service line. But thinking of going back, maybe not yet. I want a break from it. Hahhah. Don't feel like handling human for the moment.

I need to remember this:

Doubt kills more dreams than failure ever will. 

Actually, thinking about it, I've came such a long way. I don't want to give up now. :)

My heart breaks a little when I knew another colleague left. No other reason, but just that there is really not enough staff already!! On the floor, there are only 3 FT, 3 PT (really PT), 1 chef, 1 attachment, and my 2 managers. Working for long hours, it's really not easy for them.

I have left too. I have to move on with life too. But perhaps someday, I'll be back in operation.

Learning new things everyday. I learnt how to operate office phone. Lol! For things which just magically apart in the restaurant in the past, mystery is solved. Haha, cos it's part of my job now. It's kind of like behind the scenes work.

Now I realise how important the office is. Operation is the frontline, and the entire office forms a strong support.

I joined this company some 3 years ago, without a single knowledge of them. Never thought that they will be so important to me in my life. :)

I grew and learnt a lot here. I will continue to grow. Thanks for believing and trusting me.

It's a new beginning.

As the day draws near, I'm starting to be scared. A new phase of life. A total change of environment, colleagues, and job scope. But everything will be fine, right?

I can do it. I won't let those who believe in me down.

My Ippudo mother, Karen san. :) Feels like she is always proud to call us her daughters.

I guess everybody is selfish by nature. We tend to take things for granted. I understand.

But sometimes I wonder if all these are worth it.

Never talk to me when I'm tired. My mum never seems to understand it.

Knowing you will fail a subject. But hoping a miracle will happen. Still disappointed. But oh well. I'm a graduate now.

Just wished that I studied a little harder for that 2 marks. Think I chose the wrong question to do.. is totally throwing marks away.

It's true. Never never expect to fail before an exam.

Today, I'm weak. How good is it to be a kid? Nothing to worry about.

The Ippudo office is the only job that I feel a little excited to start work. Never had this feeling. Always feel so sad thinking that i have to leave this company. Although it's a brand new job scope and is another profession, and I'm afraid, but I am anticipating it too. To be able to work with the people I see often is interesting. Hope it'll be good.

As for my current colleagues, we'll be away but not that far apart. Still under the same company just 10 minutes walk away.

I think things would be very different if we were to be on different routes.

I can't trust anymore. I don't understand.

Too much of things in common, yet too different.

Hate over thinking, hate being overly sensitive.

Am really grateful for all the opportunities I have. I love my life this way. Can it just remain this way? I don't want to go into the full time working life.

I know that the reason is that I am afraid of criticism and failure. I am afraid of disappointment. I have to learn to accept opinions from others. This is the only part of me which is like a Leo, I guess.

I am sometimes shocked by my internal thoughts. Can't think that way. My lack of confidence makes me paranoid at times. Have to change it.

It's funny how distance can pull people apart. And yet, being too close can push you apart too. It's so hard to maintain a proper distance and a relationship, of all kinds.

And I think people who don't respect me as a waitress do not deserve my good service. I will provide the service, but not my best. Good or bad. This is life, practise what you preach. I will treat you how you treat me, maybe double of it.

Sometimes, I wonder whether my efforts be appreciated. Going through so much trouble and nobody seems to bother. But it is always good to give.

I like to do things for others, only if they prove to be worthwhile.

This stage if life is so scary. The change is so huge. From a student, to a wiring adult. No wonder people always say treasure your school life, while you are still a student. Very true.

The awesome feeling when I get a gift from fans, all thanks to the boys. Hahha, cos it's from their fans. It's a magical feeling.. Like "are you really giving it to me?" Thank you so much!

Watching "Africa" on Okto. Oh, the magnificence of nature.

But it feel like the creatures are walking aimlessly in search of food, water and mate to survive. Same goes for human, I guess.

I'm not emo-ing just a thought that pops up in my mind when I see the scene of the giraffe.

Do or die, I have to do it sooner or later. Omg, it's so scary. Might as well "die" early, save me from all the thinking and trouble.

Headache, literally.

Okay, I'll give myself 2 more days to think.

Ahhh.

Dad: "Decide yourself, but I think xxx company has very good benefits. I think xxx company blah blah..."

I will decide on my own in a better way if there isn't so much of influence.

I hate my indecisiveness. I want to go back to school. D:

A new beginning

LOL, Karen san scolded me when I told her that I don't know how long I will be working at my new workplace. She said haven't start work thinking of quitting already.

I don't want a farewell party. I will confirm cry. 3 years and 7 months of memories. But I will be back, I know.

But thinking of being a full time really is a very sian thing. Hahaha, part time is totally different. I want to go back to school... Now I finally understand.

Seems like my managers' prayer didn't work. I got the job.

And I feel sad. 我依依不舍。I put in my youth (hahah) and emotions in Ippudo.

我这才发现我有很多东西放不下。我想这就是上班族的烦恼。How good is it to be a part timer.

Omg, my tears almost rushed out on the train after reading karen san.

Confidence is Key

See, Qian Yi. All you need is confidence. You are doing fine. Got picked out with 2 others to dance in Rahim's class. I'm definitely not the best, neither am I the worst. He drills a lot on techniques.

Tried locking too. It's fun.

Just open class. One session. Considering to attend more to improve myself.

Dancing is always fun, doesn't matter what kind of genre. But all feels the same to me, it's like moving your body. The basics are similar.

I feel so disappointed, I thought I could get my pay at 00:00. Seems like I can only get it at midnight tomorrow. D: I want my pay. Feels like I've got no energy without it.

I think I'm horrible. I live to eat. Always looking forward to food. During work, looking forward to lunch after work. Now, I'm thinking of my breakfast tomorrow morning. As much as I feel like eating now, NO!

And ouch, I've got a mosquito bite at the back of my knee. And it hurts. Feels swollen. But don't think it is.

Ippudo's humour

I guess.. the only people who will wish that I will fail my job interviews are my managers. Hahha. Karen san said, ''good luck, hope you fail your interview.'' and Miyazaki san put his hands together and prayed. Hahhaa! Why so cute!

Lol, funny when I said I am on off tomorrow, and Soon asked Choong to tell Sam that he is on mc tomorrow. And Kai Choong asked to tell him himself. Hahhaah! Nonsense.

Karen san: "如果你过不了自己这关, 别人的就不必说了。"

I don't know what words and feelings to express seeing my colleagues leaving their home countries to work in Singapore. Missing their family everyday. Working hard to earn money.

We are just too fortunate. But have always taken it for granted.

I'm grateful that my stomach digests fast. If not, I would have died just now, of bloatedness.

I seriously think that my younger brother is too cute. He is such an innocent rebel. So gullible, and so 糊涂。天真地执着。

Why is it that I am forever doubting myself. It's half the battle lost. Come on, where is my confidence.

I will do my best. I don't want to regret. 豁出去吧。

Sometimes I wonder.. What are adults teaching their children these days? What kind of role models are they? Children are like pieces of white paper. They learn from you, through observations, through your speech and actions.

Fancy behaving in a 'cheapo' way. And high possibility that your children will grow up to be like you. It's so important to instill the right values in your children. Slight matters also complain.

I don't understand and will never be able to understand some people. I will not be like you in the future. I will teach my child(ren) to be polite and treat people with respect.

Even if people are not nice to us, we will and shall be nice to them too.

Anyway, after customers all left, jx was sitting at counter, facing Sam who was in the kitchen. Sam asked jx, "如果你是顾客, (看着我)你会有什么感觉?" Before jx replied, I mumbled "想吐的感觉。" while setting the table. Epic. Jx heard and passed the message on to Sam. Really, without these interesting and nonsense people, work would be boring. 善意地斗嘴真有趣。

I don't regret most of the things I did. But I do regret most of the things I didn't do.

The things I did make me who I am today.

The month of June feels so long. Finally the end of the month, pay cut. It feels long cos I'm waiting, waiting for my pay.

But now on, it's time to pay my debts, the money borrowed from my brother and mum. Can I default on my debts? Hahahha!!

But life's really good. I've got many 贵人s.

Don't need you to tell me what job to get, just because it was introduced through you. I have my own preference, and priority. Although the job scope sounds quite interesting. But Ippudo is my top priority, if I get the job, if the salary is reasonable.

I really hate my body, 体质。Haze then my throat gone and losing my voice now. Too heaty, fall sick. Too cold also got problem.

Hmm, I guess I can summarise myself as having a weak body. With probably a strong personality? Hahhah.

I guess this time I really gg. 목소리가 없는다.

Somehow having short hair gives me more confidence. More attitude.

"在人生中尝试做得最好, 但却在路途中失去了自己。"
"拼命地往上跑。人家只关心你跑得远不远, 快不快。却没有人理会你跑得累不累。"
Something like that.

Everybody went/is/is going overseas. And yet, I'm stuck on this island. It's okay. I'm leaving it for Sentosa this Saturday. Looking forward to it.

Personality defines you as a person. I think that I am too tough and too independent. But I quite like it. Cos that's me. I think people might think I'm unapproachable though. I just prefer not to talk when I have nothing to say, and I don't like to rely on people, except my family members.

I can't hide my emotions as well now. Cos it only makes myself feel horrible.

Afraid of failure and criticism. I think I'm a Leo afterall. Haha.

I really hope I can give more to my family. I hope I can pay more for my brother's ho예tel and bank loan fee, but I can't. :( Not working enough.Worried I can't even hit $1000 this month. >.<

How sia... Think have to pay next month. D:

I think my elder brother is the one of the sweetest bf on earth. Sending his gf home everytime, and she lives at the other side of Singapore.

And this is definitely one of the best cupcakes. Handmade with love by both of them. 예쁘하고 맛있다.

AND WU YUE TIAN IS HAVING CONCERT!!

But I have no money to buy the tickets.. And I can't work. :((

Next year... I promised myself that I must watch them live at least once in this life. Hahha. Songs that gave me strength to continue on.

What will you do, if you were me? Will you go beyond your duties?

I can reject a request once, already pressurised. But a second time, it is hard. If you were me, if a customer insists very very strongly, will you give in? Depends on the situation, I guess. If it is within my capability and not totally against the company's policy, I think I will. Sometimes we should not be too rigid.

But sometimes I just get this feeling that some, only a few, customers might think that those working in F&B are less educated, so they are pushovers. But the truth is, no. Some of my Filipino colleagues graduated from a university in their homeland. Just that as compared to Singapore, their certificates are not as good. Well, this is my own perspective. But I feel that some respect should be given to the F&B staff as well. "Customers are always right"? I doubt so, if it is totally unreasonable.

Now, I just forget. I don't think so much. Majority are still fine. Focus only on the good, and you'll be happier. 

Kind of regretted not having intern. Now no company wants me. :( But if I were an intern, I would not earned enough to survive my uni. And I really enjoyed my time working in Ippudo.

So I can only hope Ippudo office wants me. Omg, I just realised after a week that the email of my resume did not send out cos there is error in the email address. I hope they will still consider me.. Kan zai wo ba 3.5 nian de qing chun fang zai ippudo sheng shang. Hahha! But I really got a strong sense of belonging in Ippudo. Feels that I am a part of it. I would really really like to help them, it's Ippudo SG. I love Ippudo and I am Singaporean. Serious. How cool will it be if I were to go to overseas Ippudo and meet my managers again. But I need some accounting experience now too.

I can't even find a job now, not to mention next time. T.T

That's right. We should not give up easily, even if everything is against you and you are discouraged. Every expert was once a beginner. It takes hard work. If you give up after a few failures, how would you know how far you can actually go. Unless you are very sure that it's the wrong direction.

Why am I so afraid of failures?

Now my voice cracks more easily. Don't know if it's because I am sick or cos I'm starting to sing more challenging songs. Or some other reasons?

But it's okay. Everybody will have cracked voices once in a while. Just be thick-skinned and pretend nothing happened.

No big deal during practices. My skin really needs to thicken for performing.

Sighh, not earning enough. But work a little and I'm falling sick again.

I think that this year is not a good year for me. Keep falling sick.

I still got one more month before I pay for my brother's hostel.

I feel so touched. My operating manager really treats me (us) like her child(ren). :')

She recommended me to Ippudo office as accountant. I am actually thinking of working full time again. But it'll be best if I could work in the office under this company. If not, I might consider coming back after 2 years of accounting job. That is if she is still here.

Funny, she told me that she recommended me by telling the office lady that I love Ippudo. Yes, I do love Ippudo!!

I like working with young and new staff. No wonder some companies like fresh graduates. They are so pure and innocent. Just like when we first started. Trying my best to remain this way.

However people treat you, it doesn't matter. As long as you 对得起天地良心, and treat others the way you want to be treated, everything will be fine someday. And up till now, it seems that way. I feel happy working with everyone. But younger staff really brightens up the workplace.

And today, the first time rice bowl hotter than ramen bowl. Hot leh. My hands are made of flesh too, okay. Haha!! But hot rice bowl = hot delicious rice for customers.

There is this filipino customer whom "Thank you, mdm" me.  Feels weird. Too respectful. I think he is from f&b too. The feeling you get when you are respected as a waitress. How many people can actually do that? Okay, even I don't do that. But I treat the servers with respect, with understanding and behaviour. Most treat us fine. But there are always black sheeps.

Maybe one day, I will come back. I want to provide excellent service to the people. One day, just maybe.

I think some singaporeans should work as a server at least once and reflect on themselves. But most are fine, really.

Talking about babies. And my mum said I am very smart cos I learnt how to go toilet just once. When I was a toddler, I peed on the floor the first time and I got a scare. Didn't even get scolding, mum just told me next time must go toilet. Then the second time I know how to go toilet already. So funny. I was so 胆小.

18:07
Wise words while watching TV.
再见, 单人床: 婚姻不是 1+1=2, 而是 0.5+0.5=1。我们必须放弃一部分的自己来配合另一半。Something like that. Makes so much sense.

It's all about giving, taking annd accommodating. Wonderful show. But makes everything sounds so difficult.

And "the love for our (future) children is unconditional, while the love for our partner is conditional."

I see myself as a perfectionist and one in need of confirmation.

And funny. Mum suddenly say, "You 22 this year already right. Faster go tidy your room." She always say after I tidy my room, my 缘分 will come. So yeah. Lol.

The awesome feeling when you go back to your workplace for a dinner, and the regular customer recognises you. I guess it's these types of customers that keeps me going.

Worked in the morning. Went back for dinner to try the shio ramen. Oiishi!

Muscle aching. Age is catching up with me. Or should I say it has been long since I last exercised, and I've never liked it.

Yup, dancing is my favourite firm of exercise.

Haha, I can't leave my arms over a certain angle, around 90° max.

Kay, I'm so tired. Gonna k.o. now.

Back to work tomorrow. Only 5 hours but I think I'll be suffering from muscle ache. Haha.

So long since I danced. But wow, the feeling was awesome. Yup, I still love dancing. Quite surprised that I still managed to catch the steps. Tiring but fulfilling.

I'll have a good sleep tonight. And I feel refreshed for work now. :)

But I think I'll have a little trouble waking up tomorrow. Confirm rush. Hahahha.

Goodnight. I'm happy tonight cos I danced. :D

I don't know if it's 心理作用 but the lower part of my spine is starting to hurt. My mind really don't want to work haha. It knows that I have to carry heavy stuff again.

Hmm.. My feeling towards going back to work. Actually I don't really look forward to it. Not quite excited. But I do miss my managers. There are new staff. No idea how they are. Gonna learn menu all over again.

Gonna cut my nails tomorrow. :(

And gonna dye my hair antique rose tomorrow cos I don't want a golden bun. I think it's a sign of growing old. I don't like coloured hair anyhow. Although antique rose is not pure black too. I prefer dark to light colours now? But maybe I'm just lazy to manage the outgrowing hair.

Hmm it's really irritating when people don't reply. But sometimes I don't know what to reply and don't reply too. So I have no rights to complain. Goodnight.

My new cap! Loving it! Although it's quite bhb. Haha!

Picture mirrored.

Lesson learnt: Never let your father carry the mobile phone as you. At least my dad.

He asks me every single thing about the phone. Like I am the developer. -.- There are things I don't know too.

But then again, just got the news that my relative passed away in his sleep. Reminds me that I should treasure everyone around me and treat them better. Treasure everyday cos life is too fragile.

Wow, I can't believe that my exams are done. Yay. Maybe when I look back, I'll regret not studying and trying hard enough. But it's too late to change anything now. Just gonna enjoy myself now. 3 months till results.

Work hard and play hard. Can I don't earn money and just play? I want go cycling, uss, adventure cove and karaoke. I want to go to the beach. Haha. I want watch more Korean shows and improve my Korean.

Need to find a permanent job soon.

I want to go overseas. I want to go Korea, Taiwan and Sydney. Need to earn lots and lots of money before I can go.

NTS: You don't want your brother to ride a bike, so earn more money to buy a car.

I want to step out of my comfort zone.

I want to sleep. Goodnight.

Too crazy. Elc is just too crazy. Most are not going in. Those which went in are coming out simultaneously. Now I feel fr is easier to pass than elc. gg.com chweekinkeong v digiland.com

现在的我正在做垂死的挣扎。请为我祈祷和助我好运。临时抱佛脚, 现在连佛都帮不了我了。

Regretting everything now. Haha. Why did I choose uol in the first place. I must be mad. I'm gonna give up soon. This is no good. But I mean I forget what ever I try to remember.

Elc is one subject which tests your memory instead of your understanding. Memory already full.

And I dreamt of elc twice yesterday. I guess it'll never come true. Positive self talk. Yes, I can do it! But why does it feel like I'm lying to myself. Haha...

Feels like I can do nothing right. Jacks of all (some) trades, master of none?

Last paper already. Go go go! So sian. Always after a productive day, the next day is soooo unproductive. Complacent. Crazy, I know I can't afford it. But I still...

마지막 시험입니다. 화이팅. 내일 열심히 공부하세요.

Suddenly feel that it is actually easier to pass fr than elc. Haha. GG, come on. Let's go! Elc the last paper. Many many many cases.

沒有不高興，只是覺得人生真的令人感到疲憊。希望快快考完試，但是之後就要立刻做工了。根本沒辦法休息。已經累了。

好想給自己放個長假，但只能在自己賺夠錢以後。可是話又說回來，錢怎麼可能賺得夠呢？

Now that I'm okay, I always have this strong feeling that my first ever plane ride would be work related. Somehow, always have that feeling.

My mood is really horrible these few days. Pissed about almost every single thing. Don't know why too.

So this morning, my dad bought breakfast home asked me if I would like umian or charsiew rice. I said charsiew rice and he replied, "I wanted to leave it for ah di." Then I thought, why you asked me in the first place.

I think it's just the the perception and the person. I already have something against him, so whatever he does and says just annoys me. I just don't like his personality.

Like when my di messaged me and asked if I want supper, I said yes. And he said buy yourself, I find it funny. Bias is such a scary thing.

Becoming narrow-minded. Haha. Cos my brother is picky, so he gets what he wants. Sometimes I feel like 'learning' from him, don't want means don't want. But this way only makes my mother more troubled.

But of course I know that my personality is not perfect too. Nobody is.

Don't know, just feel that life is too tiring to just care about people and forget about oneself. For a few days already. Sian.

Feeling so unmotivated in life suddenly.

The definition of life: Life.
Life is just as it, too complicated to define.

I'm going back to work next week. I don't know how I'm feeling. It's like I need to earn some money.

But I don't know, I don't feel like serving anymore. It's like putting people's needs before you all over again. I guess, I'm tired, still tired.

On the other hand, I feel irritated when people say that the service in Singapore is not good. I believe it's because no singaporean wants to work in the FnB line. That's why I wanted to change it. Will one person's effort be enough? I wanted to, but I know how singaporeans think, cos I am one too. I am just like them. Who would want to serve when we have been served all our lives.

Maybe, just maybe, after I get some feel of the working life on an office, I might miss the feeling I get in the FnB industry and return to it.

I know most people appreciate us, some don't. They really don't.

I think my elder brother will be the best bf/husband/father ever. He's so much of a househusband.

Just cooked tomyum udon for us- his gf, bro and I. The taste is not bad. Heheh.

So nice to have someone with similar interest. Both of them like to cook and bake. Hohoho, 有福了。Think they gonna bake now. Yumyum. Sacrificed my study table for good food. Worth it!

Sometimes I think maybe I'm not that much of a good friend afterall. Haha. I guess cos I know people has high expectations of me, but I always disappoint.

I don't know, but must I always put others before myself?

너무 피곤한다.

I think I'm overly sensitive.

It's so funny I don't even know what you want. I want go nearby, you ask me take plane. I want take plane, you ask me save money. Trying to save cost go free and easy, ask me to go with tour. What... So I should just stay in Singapore?

Sian. I also want to go overseas. So do I find a ft job now since I won't be going overseas? What a sad life.

But it's only fair right. Elder brother supported me for uni. As an elder sis, I should support my younger bro.

又再一次的失望。

I feel like disappearing for a day. How to study like that.

You'll never understand.. I know it's just a comment, but I'm just thinking too much into it.

Suddenly the burden on family falls on me. I really want to enjoy my grad trip. I really want to, but I'm hesitating. I have to spend so much. Both my brothers are gonna continue their studies. I promised to pay for my younger bro's hall. I owe my elder bro so much for my uni. I want to pay him and help him with his private u tuition fees too. Mum's health isn't too good recently. Hope that she can don't work. 

I realised how much I spent on Korean. I just did. Hai, so broke now.. I need to work a lot.

Hahah, I know it's impossible yet. But I really want to buy a car for family use. I'd rather I work like crazy than to have my family worry for my younger brother's safety on bike.

But it's a little late to back out now.

I don't know.. If a relationship, of any kind, is built on the fear of making others upset, is it a healthy one? Like you can't talk openly without having much to worry about. Maybe it's only me thinking too much. But.. You know sometimes our thoughts and perceptions to things are too different.

How sia.. Life is just too difficult. But I will endure for the sake of my loved ones. Live for yourself, or live for others? Just live on.

I'm fine, just troubled.

And I guess that's why I can never do well for a single subject in uni. Determined to do well for esap, and felt like puking the whole of today. Even till now.

Productivity dropped to 5%, now esap is my least prepared paper for my whole uni life. Good luck to me tomorrow. I hope tomorrow I will feel better. Chiong last minute with 120% efficiency.

My elder brother and I are same. "I'm on a diet." Next moment, I think I should cook some noodles.

Quote of our lives: Eat first, diet later.

Sians, sleepy already. Would have spammed caffeine and sour stuff of not for the fear of cramps.

Had really bad cramps that day when I had coffee the day before.

Can't afford to risk my esap. Cramp today, don't need to study already. Cramp tomorrow, exam gg.

Uncle가 집에 있어요. Uncle at my house. I was studying in the living room, talking to parents. Moved into my room. He said, "we too noisy, disturb you right." I have to be polite and said, "No lar, it's too warm so I go inside to on aircon." But truth is, I only on fan. First day always makes me feel weak, even if it's only psychological.

I know I shouldn't do last minute revision, but I just can't help it. Gonna sleep now. As the progression is better than expected. One more section, 1 chapter more to go. And complete the remaining of section b. Recap.

I place much hope on my esap, please don't disappoint me like isorg.

Conflict!

Conflict between what I want to do and what I need to do.

I want to go travel... But means I can only work Ippudo part time until then and start a full time job after the trip. Sounds fine? Kind of tired of serving. Haha. Sticky floor.

I really want to support my brother for his uni. My elder bro too, he wants to continue his studies. I still owe him so much. I want to work so my mum does not need to work anymore.

But best is if I can don't work. Haha, I really hope to have a change of environment. But I think no company would want me due to my lousy results. And inexperience.

9 more days. So fast. Time is chasing me instead. I hope they come slowly cos I've got not enough time to study.

The Story of the Precious Two Piece Chicken

This two pieces of chicken are very very precious. Both my brothers 夹 for me during the wedding lunch. First time you know, especially my younger brother.

Feel so pampered, seated between the two of them.

Last time was a suffering, always kenna bullied. But now it's <3. :))

Sometimes I really regret taking accountancy. I really prefer psychology, if not for the course fee.  Argh.

But I like to calculate cashflows. Just that I don't like balance sheet cos it never ever balances. But it's interesting. Just that I don't really understand.......

I am so ashamed of my results. But there is nothing I can do. Heh.

But psychology is fun to read, not interesting to study. Conclusion: Studying is never fun.

But at least, when asked, what I like about psychology, I can answer it easily.

I don't know what I like actually. Haha. I don't like sales, cos talk to much, but I was a server. I had to deal with people. So, I also don't know. Haha.

Poof, and 12 more days to freedom. But can I don't work that soon?

First serious 2 to 1 job interview. My previous experiences were interview 1 to 2, by Fujibe-san, the monkey manager. Some interview for adhoc, and 2 to 5 casual interview. Omg, it's so difficult. It's like oral, with a lot of application of knowledge.

I don't even know what I like about accountancy. Omg, gg. Haha. Too tired and sick to think straight.

I'm scared of interview already. How to find a job? Hahaha. The interviewers are friendly though. But I cmi.

It's hard to shop for a pair of heels for myself. Nice designs, heels too high. But most low heels aren't nice, fat and flat. Unless they are wedges.

And so I bought a 10cm heels yesterday, for the wedding ceremony of my cousin. I didn't realise it was 10cm. Surprisingly now I can walk stably in heels, quite. I'm reaching 1.8 in that part of heels. So that's how people in high 1.7 see.

gg.com Tomorrow is the paper with the most question marks, I mean most of what i read is attached with a question mark. And I am going to sleep now. My weak body refuses to cooperate. Feeling slightly better the past two days, but condition is going bad again. Nose must run everyday. Can't risk my esap paper for fr. Fr, I am too confident of failing. I don't even know if I know a single thing.

Panicked cos I read online that for law paper, I need a 40 to pass. Means a 60 for a second lower? Jialat sia. My results are too bad.

Feels like I have already given up on fr. Guess I'll panic for 30 mins tomorrow and spend another 45 mins writing nonsense and stare for the remaining 2hr. I will stay throughout. I really have no idea what is going on in fr. Gid luck to me. Can I crap 34 marks out? Like impossible leh. I don't even think God can help me. Hahahha... :'(

Why does it feel like I'm giving up on fr? Cannot.......... Study tomorrow k. Wasted my whole afternoon and evening and night today. So much could be done. But I look at the thick study guide.. Forget it.

Lecture notes, went through already but question marks.

I shall go through revision notes and consolidation tomorrow. Ahhh. And maybe skim through the important chapters again.

25% of exams done. 50% by Thursday. Let's go!

I miss singing. Can't really song cos I'm still sick. Cough, sneeze, runny nose. :( But better already.

"My fail is reserved for FR." but of course I hope to pass. But don't feel like studying now. :(

Listening to Korean radio station now, trying to learn spoken Korean from him. I only hear word, don't know what and word, can't really understand the sentence. Hopefully if I listen to it often, my Korean will improve. :)

Why I can't concentrate on studying today? Maybe cos I finished the lecture notes and subject guide already. But I still need to recap.

If only I have this motivation and concentrating weeks or months ago. I'd probably ace my papers, some of them.

Wah, I almost finished the entire audit study guide in a day.

Can't wait for my exams to start, so that it will end. But work life. Hahhah. Wednesday and half of my exam will be over. Push on. It will end quicker than I think, 18 more days.

I hope my elder brother can take care of his health, cos we always fall sick together. Okay, this is exaggerating similarities and salient events. This time I think I pass the flu to him.

My elder brother asked me why I am always sick. My answer is I actually haven't recover, sick for weeks already.

I hope my body can tahan for a few more days, and hopefully weeks. These late nights.. I hope my body won't give up on me.

You only feel scared/stressed when you have expectations. Now I'm finally feeling scared for audit. I want to do well for it, cos fr is really gg.

Esap and elc, I'll only start to be worried next week onwards.

Qian Yi arh.. You still have two more days. You can do a lot in 48 hours.

Actually I kind of love exam period. Stay home, and I save lots of money. Save on transport, food.. But my mum needs to buy a lot of instant noodles.

No life, but save money. Actually, I can't wait to go out. Earn money, go shopping and overseas. Not that I love shopping, actually I think I'll prefer to eat nice food. I want easy shio ramen. Yup, from Ippudo.

I shall not only aim for a pass. The most I can get now is a second class lower, and I'm gonna aim for it. Which means, I need to get at least 50 for 3 of my remaining subjects. Forget about FR already. Just hoping for a pass. Audit, ESAP, ELC go go! The many cases of elc.

난 할 수 있어!

If not, I'll be only left with a third class honours. Which is not too bad too, I guess.

Why am I still not motivated to study? Crazy, I think I secretly don't want to graduate.

Do I really need good results to secure a good job, a good life? Seems like it. But the definition of a good life is to be happy right? I want my family to be happy too. Come on, you promised to buy your bro a car. Go study.

I don't even dare to apply for those good companies. Haha. Yeah, results do matter. But... I feel so bored thinking of studying already.

I want to do well, but I don't want to study. Is there a way? Hahha, doubt so.

Go study.. Don't let your family down. Don't let yourself down. Don't waste money.. :((

It's sad when the only motivation you have is thinking of three months later, when you get your results. I don't want to fail.

I really really hope that my brother opens a cupcake/cake shop with his gf. Delicious cupcakes. Then di can be their barista, and me their floor manager cum cashier head cum accountant. Nah, my accounting is bad.

How cool would it be?

Watching 96°c cafe, it seems cool. Hahahha.

Should I go back to Ippudo? Highly doubt so. But I don't want to do accounting also leh. See how again. They are in need of people again. This period. The politics, I really want to help them resolve it.

I have to concentrate on studying now. But I still have no motivation. I know before I realise, exams would be over. But studying is really so boring... Next wed hurry come, after that the next two papers are slightly more interesting, though with lots to memorise.

Finishing the lecture notes, but still don't know what's going on in FR. Don't know what I can remember in audit. Sighhhh.

My third time choreographing. And I would say I feel more confident of it, but if given a choice, I would not use my choreo. But I guess it's so much better than my first.  我第一次编的舞真的是见不得人。But I really have no confidence in my own choreo.

The first took me one whole week. This took my 2 days. But this choreo is shorter. Was really sick before that.

Too many things to do, no idea where to start. I'm scared, not stressed.

And I really want to change phone, keeps hanging these few days, getting worse. But asking my family to pay for it feels so bad.. I pay back after I work okay.. I need to fix my comp or get a new one too. Sigh.

The option is opened once again.

I made up my mind quite some time ago. But after being asked to help, I realised I want to be part of their everything. 还是不舍得，还是念念不忘。

Ippudo, I kind of miss you.. Too many memories, good and bad.

" Leo governs the upper back, spine and heart and most of your upper back pain is from shouldering too many responsibilities in life and not delegating duties to others to take up the slack."

Some times, I don't know to laugh or be angry to my younger brother.

So stubbornly adorable.

Like just now, mother asked him not to bite chopsticks and he did it so many times on purpose in front of her.

Whole family is against him getting a bike but he still is gonna get it. Can, but just drive carefully and stay safe okay.

The last kind of person I want to be seen as is so bossy and so 烦。 But.. I really don't know what to do anymore.

If given a choice, I would like to be free, of all responsibilities, too.

Songs to cheer me up. :)

어떻게? 난 정말 몰라요.

Sometimes, I just don't feel like talking and want some quiet time. Do you really not know? Can you not feel it?

I think I should care less, and care more for myself. But it's quite impossible, it's just not me. Don't like things undone. But studying is another matter.

Not stressed, that's something I'm worried about. I'm feeling moody. Too many things on hand, no idea where to start.

Give me this one hour journey home by myself, not wanting to think about anything.

Sometimes, I doubt myself if I can do it. But sometimes, I really can. :)

I need to trust myself a little more.

But now I can't get back to sleep...

If (mostly) everyone can sing, then what makes me so special?

This thought is coming back again.. Go away! But all I know is, I just want to sing.

No words can describe how scared I am now. I really have no idea what to do later.

I want to ask for opinion, I want to get things done. But I'm afraid that I am too naggy. :((

Nothing is easy, but nothing is impossible too. Whatever is it, we should just try and do our best.

Nothing is easy, but nothing is impossible too. Whatever is it, we should just try and do our best.

Split in two weeks, let's go!

Need to constantly improve myself. A better singer, a better dancer. Put a persona on stage. On the stage, I shall not be me. On the stage, I am allowed to be another person. I WANT people to look at me when I am on stage. I NEED to command the stage. I should have the confidence.

From now on, it's up to me on what I want to show when I am on stage. I need to overcome myself, not think of how others judge me. Lose myself on stage, yet have control.

I don't understand wars. Those who want to have war are "behind the scenes". Those in the front line, not the decision-makers, put their lives in danger. So many innocent lives are sacrificed. Maybe cos I don't know the reasons for the wars, but can't people just sort out their differences? It is not that easy, but is war really necessary?

H7N9 is spreading, why not put the effort and resources in preventing and treating it?

Kind of shocked myself. Was trying to train my head voice, my airy head voice. And the tone came out quite nice, didn't feel it was airy. Seem like yesterday's self practice worked. Yay, continue to work hard!

"Debut Stage" today for dance. Kekekek. Omg, so long since I really performed dancing. Since.Sec school. Performing as in standing on a proper stage.

"With confidence, you can conquer the world." -Laoshi

Let's go!

Omg, really thank you everyone for helping me and giving me tips to improve.

Including later, 11 consecutive days of dancing. How awesome is that!! Been so long since I danced so much.

心病乃要新药医。I should solve my own problem. I must think of my own solution. People can't tell me what to do, cos it's useless if I still can't get through myself. I need to break through it MYSELF. But I really don't know how..

After each fall, we just have to pick ourselves up again.

Nothing is easy.

First time really talking to my mortal. Hahaha.

Now, I feel less awkward talking to people whom I am not close to. Which I guess is a good thing. :)

I guess I'm more or less set on leaving my current company. I am really grateful for my managers for taking such good care of me, and believing in me for the past 3.5 years.

But i would really like to step out of my comfort zone and see the outside world. Although i really met many kinds of people as a server.

But the main reason is, I'm loving the CJ family too much. I feel that i have so much more to improve on and i won't have the time if i work there as a full timer. As much as i can't bear to leave my company, i can't bear to leave CJ. It's just too soon.

Maybe I'll go back to Ippudo after a few years.

Back to Basics.

I really feel so much more confident doing Chinese dance. Perhaps because I learnt it since young, although I have not danced it since sec 4, which is... 5 years? Started in P2 until Sec 4. Omg, that's 9 years!!!

Chinese dance fans are like my weapons. :b

But I can't remember most of the things already. But I really love the fans swirling, it's just to beautiful. :)

I am really loving my Chinese dance choreography. Hahhaha! BHB, but to be honest, I am quite happy with it.

Really glad to have such cooperative group mates, can't do it without all of them. Thank you.

I will continue to work hard to be a better dancer, and singer. :)

Really got a different aura when I dance chinese dance arh? Hahha..

I can have a good night sleep tonight. :) It was hard to sleep with all the steps running through my mind, randomly.

I really love dancing. And it feels long since I last sang.

The second time I choreographed. All I can say is, I really love 扇子s.

The feeling of dancing my own choreo this time, and have others dance to it is really good.

My first choreo is really horrible. Haha! That was when I auditioned for CJ Crew, but since I was auditioning for singing, I guess they closed one eye. Heh.

Lol, I'm probably the first person ever to dance Chinese dance at Scape, with my bright blue fans.

Sihui the second.

Too many insecurities.. Too many conflicts regarding the things I want to do after I graduate. 어떡하죠?

The best memories in primary school are friends, innocence and carefree-ness.

The best memory now is CJ. <3

I was thinking how good it would be to be able to go back to the past. But I thought I like how things are now too.

I think a good thing now is, I feel more confident. Singing in front of everybody. They are always so supportive.

I should not run away, face it. Sing more. It really helps. I feel so much more comfortable now, I enjoy it more. Making me want to sing more! :)

It sure is scary. Late at night, 1am, while walking home, a van drives in and stops at the rubbish chute. I tried calling mum twice, but she was sleeping. Kor picked up, ask him come down to bring me up.

He came down, laughing/grinning.
I told him got van very scary, I scared they kidnap me.
He said, "You also no money."
"That's why I scared they kill me."
"Did you buy insurance?"
"No, only those for work."
"Then wasted, why you never buy."
"Huh, then I'll die in vain."
"If that's life, then accept it."
"Sad sia, but thanks for saving my life."
"You think too much."
"Ya sia, I watched too much drama."

Funny leh! But better be safe than sorry..

Sometimes, I need a listening ear too. I am weak at times too.

I suddenly realised where my fear and insecurities come from. I need to get over it soon. I need to believe in myself more. It is part of my insecurities, where one comment had such an impact on me. Yeah, that's only an opinion. I will prove it wrong.

I think it's funny and a happy thing when people thinks that I'm actually young.

When I was younger, people thought I was older than my age cos because of my height. So my face looking young should be a good thing.

I will, one day.

Something is wrong with my priority.. A reminder to myself that finals are in less than 2 months time.

I'm more inclined to not continuing now. If I become a part time, I have to work my weekends away. Meaning I can't continue CJ. I rather give up this work.

Thinking of it, I don't want to work in this area forever. Perhaps I'll go back in the future, but not now I guess. Still not my final decision. My passion for dancing is burning again. Till now, I have more confidence in dancing than in singing. Cos I have done foundation in dance and as a group, they give you that push. But I really love singing too, just less confident.

我應該看開一點. 這樣才能讓自己好過一點.

太害羞, 太獨立.

Uncle: "How's university? Okay right? Actually uni is very easy, correct?"

Me: "It's okay." Although my results just pass. Can't let him look down on us.

In my heart, "Ya, it's so easy to study, work and commit at the same time, try it."

But actually, it's just my self control problem. Cos I always study last minutely.

Studying and working part time makes me stronger and more independent. So no regrets.

His children and wife are okay. It's just him. Dad likes to praise my uncle's smart son too. So kind of add on to my uncle's ego..

If my brothers are like that, I'll slap their faces. But I know they won't. :')

Happy Lunar New Year!

Many things happen once a year, or is rare throughout the year unless there are other special occasions, especially during this CNY period.

1. Meeting distant relatives, or even those quite closely related
2. Painting nails
3. My room is relatively neat, won't last long though. Lol.

We complain that relatives ask the same questions every year, but I realised that my siblings and I ask about the same questions to our nephews too. Omg. Like how old.. We are getting old...

My elder brother repeated the same answer for at least 3 times today, cos different people asked the same question.

My grandma looked so happy and fortunate just now when all her sons, daughter, grandchildren, and great-grandchildren gathered.

Work life

Left with 4 more months to think about life. Finishing exams in 4 months. What should I work as? I don't think I want an office job. But maybe, just now accounting. Haha, why am I taking accountancy then, I also don't know.

Should I stay at ippudo? Should I work outside a few years and maybe return as a full timer, just like many of my managers. It'll be weird to manage or supervise those whom I am close to, and all my current colleagues. I'll 'jump' above the many full time colleagues I have now. Will I be able to handle the nasty customers?

Will I be willing to sacrifice my dreams and a lot of my time?

Thank you, I'm starting to gain back my confidence. :)

I guess.. If I feel disappointed in myself, it's a good thing too? Cos it means I actually believe I can do better.

Haven't felt this in a long while. I would really want to do it again, better.

Just be true to yourself.

I guess.. I can only be so direct cos I don't know how it feels.

If it's me, things will be so different, right?

Anyway, it's easier said than done.

Sometimes I feel so selfish. I'm confused. I'm starting to say what I want to say, no longer being as 婉转. Just feeling tired of thinking of nice ways to put things, which does not go straight to the point as well.

I don't know if it's good or bad. Kind of miss the old me. But being more honest and straight-forward now.

But my 心胸 still had to be wider.

早知今日，何必当初。

所以我告诉我自己，不要像你。

我不会浪费时间在不可能的事上。

但是说实在的。。说得容易，做得难。

Although I really love my life now, I'm feeling the stress. Studies, work, and responsibilities. Everything seems to clash. I am need at work cos lack of staff, yet exams are drawing near. I really wish to help out at work, but I'm like neglecting my responsibilities. How.. Just wish I can better manage my time.

Am I really ready for the worklife?

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Just a few days ago, I say work is fun. Today, I feel tired of working. Haha. It depends on who I am working with, and the types of customers that day.

Not a good start to the new year. But it's okay, tomorrow is a brand new day. It'll be a good day.

Brother is flying off to Brunei for training. I pray for his safety.

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