Exams coming. Holiday coming!

Exams in 6 days. So not prepared.

Exams are coming, meaning my holiday will be here very soon!

I can't wait for exams to finish. There are so many things I want to do after exams.

Continue to sing and dance. Am gonna learn Korean. :)

I want to focus more on my singing and dancing. And I want to participate more actively in any CJ events. But I still have to work.

I feel bad not being able to help out at work cos they are really short of staff. But I really can't. And it's really tiring. Mentally.

Actually what can I look forward to after exams? More work?

I really hope that more part-timers will come back to work. So that it will be more fun. It is a little overpowering now. If you understand. Hahahha. And all the nice people are leaving one by one. Only a few left. :(

So gonna dye. my. hair. Told myself not to spoil my hair anymore. But I just feel like colouring it.

If only I have the courage to really perform. I have to learn to let myself go when I'm performing. I admire people with the courage. They always seem to have more fun. I'll do better the next time.

I need to have more confidence in myself. I'm losing it. All of a sudden, I lost my confidence in singing. Somehow, I just feel inferior.

Where is the confident and 追求完美 me? I have to find her back. Where is my passion? I need to get it back.

Sometimes I just wonder how did I get into the crew? Is it really because good words were put in for me? Yes, this is how much words affect me. A Leo needs assurance, lots of it.

But I think it is unfair for the judges that way too. Shouldn't doubt their judgement and transparency. I just need to trust myself more.

Emo Time

Why do people randomly ask "How's life?" I got two of this question in just a day yesterday. Like just. Lol.

Sometimes, I just want to be alone. I don't know, sometimes I feel that I am becoming more self-centered. Cos I just don't know whether it is worth it for me to give that much anymore. Sometimes I just want to treat myself better.

Don't know.

Gee Gee Gee Gee Gee~

Performed Gee last Friday at Admiralty and watched the rest of CJ Crew perform their Sing & Dance. So fun!

Then a prank on XuanBin cos his birthday was on Sunday. Awesome food at ThaiPan! And had my second vocals on Saturday.

I am gonna learn Korean soon. Then hopefully I can sing Korean songs! :)

Somehow, the more I sing, the more I lose my confidence.

I hate to ask for comments and feedback cos I am afraid to get negative ones. Perhaps cos I am a Leo, I have strong pride. I have to learn to accept.

It's funny how I always ask people to have more confidence in themselves and not to worry so much, but me myself is doubting my own ability. I know saying is always easier than doing. So.. I'll try to have more confidence in myself too. I should stop giving myself too much pressure. I should stop comparing myself with others. I should just challenge myself to be better. :)

My First Performance with CJ

Had my very first performance under CJ crew. I think it was not too bad, except for the feedback. But I really have to learn to project my voice.

Up to now, I'm still not very confident in my singing. So I think it is good for me to start off in a group. But I feel that I ask the weakest in the group. But I will work to improve!

I didn't expect such a huge crowd. Cos it's in a neighbourhood.I am really glad that Marilene and Jiaxin came down to support me, with a sunflower. Thanks a lot, dears!I had a great time! Being in a 'girl group' is really fun.

I should stop for a while and prepare for my exams soon. But when it comes to performances, I really don't want to miss any chances. Sigh.. This is life.

Clement said that individually we have nice voices. And my voice is those smooth kind.

This performance is not perfect. The next one will be better.

We are Junior Girls! Haha! We hope to be Super Junior and Girls Generation in the future! :)