;forever till forever meets no end

Tuesday, October 05, 2010

♥ 1:39 AM

I just have to share this. Thanks slin ! :) And thank you also for being my study buddy..

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The Five Regrets of the Dying by Bronnie Ware

1. I wish I'd had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me
2. I wish I didn't work so hard
3. I wish I'd had the courage to express my feelings
4. I wish I had stayed in touch with my friends
5. I wish that I had let myself be happier

As of now, I can't say I'm not living a life true to myself. Then again, I'm still finding myself. Right now, I'm actually wishing that I worked harder but I suppose all that will change when I have to work work. Number 3 is something I'm grappling with still, I admit. I always am afraid of the consequences of brutal honesty. There's a reason why it's described as brutal. The first step is of course admitting particular feelings and getting past the denial. I hope that my friends make as much effort as I do to stay in touch. It guess that will distinguish the ones who really matter eh ? The concept of 'letting myself be happier' is an interesting one. It subscribes to the thought that happiness is a choice that can be easily embraced. To what extent are we able to adjust this level of happiness ? Can there ever be an end point to happiness ? A level so sublime and unmatched that we can undoubtedly have no regrets ? Hmmm.

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So I've been crazy busy with school for the first time in 4 years maybe ? Though the upping of schoolwork comes with the upping of facebook/tumblr/twitter to amuse self. Twitter is now a more accurate log of the day's events but the blog's more than 140 character limit still retains its appeal for one such as I who is a (albeit rather apologetic) rambler.

The only major event that is worthy of mention is the excision of two wisdom teeth. Less painful than described but darn tootin' inconvenient and scary nonetheless. That dull throb remains in those pulse points on my neck but I haven't really had those splitting headaches. Hmmm. Two more to be removed in about a month or so. Am not shaking in my boots but still, not looking forward to it. Life with two less teeth and more exposed gums make me feel like an old person.

I'm putting on weight just as my wallet is losing lots of it. Seems timely for a yoghurt, fruit, salad and gym diet. Oh well, ONE CAN WISH. Work in the form of assignments and thesis IS NEVERENDING. Much less weekly readings. I think I am already trying to hide from my advisor, hahah.

On a more positive note, we've resumed church on Sundays. It's been what, 6-8 years ? Sermons are not terribly exciting but it's a good start nonetheless, thank God. :)

I have such a love-hate relationship with this month. I feel old and creaky ! Time to cut my hair or do something exciting maybe ? Oh October, please be kind.