Wednesday, December 30, 2009
♥ 12:03 AM
Set me free, why don't ya babe ?
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You don't really need me
But you keep me hangin' on
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December is such a bad month. Have had a sore throat since before christmas and now the doctor tells me I have a fever. Missed three Christmas parties already, what a way to spend the last few days of the year.. And I just remembered (that I forgot) to collect my exchange ID. Need to be there before 1130 tomorrow when I don't even want to move off my chair.
Feel like having ice cream now~
Monday, December 28, 2009
♥ 2:23 AM
In between a rock and a hard place. And either way, going crazy.
Some big balls. Not what I intended but nonetheless... Anyway some things just happen. And they've happened already. So I cannot regret stupid things.
There are still things that need to be settled. Argh. Makes me, as cherr puts it, one kind of sian.
Thanks guowei for the gift, I hell yeah love it. Made me quite gleeful on top of aggie's awesome party after a rough week. :)
Sorry I can only give everyone hugs and kisses in the form of chocolates. Everyone is welcome to claim the real deal from me !!! Cos it's a win-win situation (most of the time right ?) haha :)
It's been an extremely exhausting and depressing december. Things haven't been the same, much of it has been a blur so it comes as no surprise that I didn't do the things I usually do during this time of the year. Nevertheless, have a Merry and Blessed Christmas one and all ! I'm quite sure that if you bother to read this, you are an important part of my life. (unless I have stalkers I am unaware of. and not of the 2/O variety, haha.) Much love. :)
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
♥ 11:55 PM
The river's just the river.
Disappointing. But I think that I have myself to blame for disappointment. Because the expectations are mine alone.
And I know it's only in my mind.
All my life I've only been pretending.
I wonder if anyone will get the reference.
And now I'm all alone again
Nowhere to turn, no one to go to.
The one I need, the only one I can trust myself fully with, the one I want, is gone. I miss Clara. Warm, soft, quiet, comforting, so lovely to hug and the only one who won't ever ever disappoint me. She was always there for me to count on. I really miss her. People disappoint other people. Dogs won't ever fail you.
Why do I feel a sense of deja vu ? Like this happened months ago. Being upset and unable to talk to anyone because the person I usually turn to is part of the problem. Except the huge difference is that there is a void now, literally and metaphorically. The huge difference being that she's gone.
I asked for a Christmas miracle but I didn't get it.
It seems that the river is just a river of tears.
Friday, December 18, 2009
♥ 2:17 PM
Smile though your heart is aching;
Smile even though it's breaking.
When there are clouds in the sky, you'll get by.
If you smile through your fear and sorrow,
Smile and maybe tomorrow,
You'll see the sun come shining through for you.
I'm still a little unsure of myself.
Wednesday, December 09, 2009
♥ 1:48 AM
So I'm not in bangkok. Wonder what my family is doing now..
Post exam days have been quite packed with activities. It's been great so far.
Fantastic Mr Fox was gooooooood. The jokes are not kiddy or anything. I love Ash ! He's so snarky and cranky. Damn attitude mans, really funny, I liiike. Hurhur. And the stop motion is really awesome. Am glad we caught it (even though it's only showing once a day now and we had to go to illuma). I'm so getting the dvd.
Had a random day out in the (far) east today. Visited changi village for the first time ever and walked along the coast. :D Swung on the swings, ate ba chor mee, heard the crash of the waves and was rescued from an ant that was practically in my toe. Ultimate ickyness cos it couldn't be brushed off and I only managed to yank a foot off it rather than its whole self. I'm not making sense but it did freak me out a little. Went to ikea after that. COUCHES GALORE ! :D Hehe, surprisingly good day. Spontaneity is good ! We could've gone to ubin..
And bus rides are especially nice when they're with the right people (and also, empty).
I don't want things to change. Meaning, Clara doesn't get worse and the holidays never end.
Thursday, December 03, 2009
♥ 12:58 AM
It's over ! Not as torturous since the papers aren't that far apart and only 4 this sem. But development was disgusting. Never crapped so much in my life. 9 pages. Lucky there were only 2 questions.
I was quite miffed and upset at first but it was just some stupid technology miscommunication. And more fortunately so, it was a good afternoon of anything, everything and nothing. Although ! I am drawing the line at horror movies in future. Forever. Plus stupid extra freaking cold cinema. Made me shiver more than the show did (arguably due to my eyes being closed for half the show).
As Robin Scherbatsky says (sometimes, very rarely almost), you're an idiot. :)
Annoyed because research for soc science methods clashes with gender and family. WHY MUST YOU SCREW UP MY PERFECT PLAN OH TIMETABLE KING !??!?!?! Especially after I sent so many emails to get approval for the gender module. Mich & Lwei ! You guys need to teach me how to pwn everyone at BOSS and book facilities (for parties? haha)...
Everyone thinks it's such an easy decision for me to make. Ha-freaking-ha. It's not.
Scrubs was funnnayy. :) I'm like this Denise and Drew thing going on. But I'm going to miss JD and Turk........... :(((
Lots of events this december it seems. Time to immerse myself into the festive atmosphere by harmonizing to carols..