Sunday, November 30, 2008
♥ 1:23 AM
THREE MORE TO GO!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHH. MISERY WANTS COMPANY ! PEOPLE WHO HAVE FINISHED THEIR PAPERS NEED NOT APPLY !!! MEHHH !
Okay atmo was doable. Very typical stuff. SALR/DALR/ELR, GCM, Land/Sea breeze, Climate Change, Geostrophic wind, El Nino. Super predictable. Sadly, I totally bombed the climate change question even though I knew it was going to be tested. HUMBUG X INFINITY.
Am upset cos all the modules I want either have BLOODY SUCKY exam dates or bad lecture timeslots. It's disturbing, I practically have no geog mods I want to take. Except maybe sustainability and natural resources: policy and planning (8TH MAY FOR THE EXAM !??!?! WHO ARE YOU KIDDING !?). There seems to be this bias against environment mods. Environment history lectures are on a monday and environment philosophy has a 6th may exam. BOOHOO.
Erasure's Respect is hilarious. 80s music is so cheesy, it's funny !!!!!!!!
Was telling db that 2009 might just be better. :B
Friday, November 28, 2008
♥ 10:43 PM
Kiki and navleen are hilarious ! Some bits from their facebook wall to wall:
Kiki: should be doing last minute revision but i remember fuck all...so i'm on FB. i forsee a hangover tmr and a supplementary exam in my near future.
Yes. I totally feel the same with atmo tomorrow. I'm totally glad we have mcq. Damn those long but not essay type questions.
Kiki: ok terrorists attacked CAFE LEOPOLD!!! and some hotels. leopolds! what a bunch of mofos, leopolds have the best shish kebabs ever couldnt they just sit and eat instead of set it on fire?
Navleen: and bombed my paper today i did as well. so fucking annoying to study and not be able to put most of it to any use
EXACTLY HOW I FEEL ABOUT STUPID SOCI OF FOOD. BLOODY HELL. Spent so much time on it and used nothing. Dammmmmmit.
You know what ? I think I cannot remember anything from chapter 16. Zilch. Nada. Zip. 1130, I need to sleep. Wish me luck.
Thursday, November 27, 2008
♥ 11:45 AM
Stalin needs Hitler to be productive ! Even if it's just marginally. BAH. Am deathly afraid for hazards since there are no recommended readings or textbooks.
And dammit I can't open the pdfs. @$*(@#()_*$#@_(*$_(@*$
It seems like I can never exorcise those demons of stupidity.
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
♥ 1:25 AM
It's going to be one craaaazy december. Parties galore ! Our pten reunion (sadly, minus graces ): ), a 3305 gathering, Sooks annual bash, my first liv christmas party and gwei and I might plan something for alumni !
Oh is it just me or is neoh's e-reserve suddenly extremely scarce ? O.o
Anyhoo, I've bought my christmas cards. 13 bucks for forty ! And they're cute (: Shall do them on the plane.. Tell me if you want one, haha. Darn, am already in the mood to shop for presents and throw parties ! VERY BAD CONSIDERING I STILL HAVE FOUR FREAKING PAPERS. Poor little silver belle. Right. Poor indeed. Cui results and no chance to go for sep. Caroling this year will be UTTER MADNESS. Juggling 3 choirs is nuts. I shall probably have to bring my running shoes. Oh but darn, the walkways and roads will be jammed. :/ Maybe I should just be a spectator for the gigs that are too close to each other.
Just so you know, 2215 was BEYOND DISGUSTING.
Caroling at rtc was more like shouting into a tree. :/ I miss Four Seasons. Due to some miscommunication, keegan, aaron and I spent like 40 minutes in nick's van. Massive jam along orchard. Vulgarities abound. But mostly because of the action keegan and aaron were enjoying at the back. =.= With all their 'arriving'. Phones turn them on.
I LOVE MY NEW BOWLER HAT :D :D :D (yay thank you nick !) IT IS NOW FRIENDS WITH MY FEDORA ! Have always wanted one :) Shucks, I am such a sucker for nonsense things.
Post exam (and taiwan) lunch dates: miss zhu, mr hong, nicolette goh (LIKE FINALLY, HOPEFULLY), db ! Man there's so much to do ! SO EXCITE.
Little Miss I'll-Gun-You-Like-A-Fish !
Hahaha, aaron is retarded. He'll paw you like a bear. =.=
Okay, to a qualitatively productive day of mugging !!!!!
Monday, November 24, 2008
♥ 1:56 AM
So beautiful :)
Friday, November 21, 2008
♥ 3:11 PM
Gah, am so sick of food already. Surprise surprise, I'd rather be studying the atmosphere !!! At least there are colourful pictures and diagrams. Studying has been erratic. I'm not sure what to make of it. Am extremely restless. And sleepy. And loopy. And forgetful. All the symptoms of cabin fever.
fsgjfkljgslkfjglskjgslfjg
What would I do without uncle and sally and mich and qua !
1234 ! :D
Thursday, November 20, 2008
♥ 1:11 AM
Horribly bad day. Cue daniel powter's bad day but in minor or something. Being played out AGAIN and so not doing anything in the morning. But this time I didn't even get to sleep. Hence I could barely stay awake in the afternoon. Then I took the wrong bus and ended in tiong bahru plaza. And then the freaking reading on food system theory makes me sick to my stomach. It made me go wtf like throughout. :( Rent, Tendencies, Trends, Contingencies, Structures, Disintegration, Accumulation huh huh huh wtf.
And damn it, it's already thursday. Where did the week go !??!!? Was I this unproductive last sem !?
Wahlao eh, THAT'S IT.
Monday, November 17, 2008
♥ 4:23 PM
I want to say auf wiedersen, really I do. But just like Ted Moseby in HIMYM realised, there is no off switch.
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I feel absolutely horrible when I have to force myself through some readings where I don't feel I'm learning anything spectacular or particularly insightful. Some of them have too many details and numbers and acronyms. Others are just one liner compilations of the works of others. Bottom line: hates it, waste of time.
I am estragon. I am vladimir.
I am waiting for Godot.
1. Cyclical.
2. Oh right, he never appears.
Saturday, November 15, 2008
♥ 1:17 AM
Quick random question: Why don't I know of any famous female composer ?!
Am wiki and youtube-ing Debussy's music. Decided to plonk Arabesque No. 1 just now and it's quite beautiful just not when I play it. I didn't know that famous excerpt's from Clair De Lune ! :)
Once again, downtown overwhelmed me. Not sure if it was the overly sweet tea I had but it was all odd because I felt as if my muddledness in thought was translated to physiological anxiety. Palpitations, an ache of the head, tremors :/
Met sally at smoo to mug but alas, it was in vain. There was some soundcheck so it was really noisy and singing along & sometimes shrieky vocals were very distracting. :( At least I'm done with the Amartya Sen reading on food, economics and entitlements (regarding policies combating hunger). I'm just going to mention the Adam Smith bit. Meep. And oh, I get to link food production systems with political ecology (n&s, geog mod) ! You know that something's not right when everyday experiences become samples in a petri dish observed with sociological lenses. IT'S NOT LIKE I HAVE READINGS AND CONCEPTS TO SUPPORT EVERYTHING !!!!
Speaking of schoolwork and assignments, oh my tian. 5 days of TRYING to muster some nonsense and we are STILL NOT DONE. WHAT IS WRONG WITH US. Damn. I am going to avoid purely physical modules from now on. And everytime I think of that lost 10% for n&s, I feel horrible because it is entirely my fault.
Anyway, I stumbled onto the iro module site. For next sem, am considering animal behaviour for breadth, natural heritage for science gem, environmental history for arts gem, theatre studies for fun and maybe the environmental policy mod for my major. Just that it freaking ends on the 8th of may.
q says:
noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo. the guy/girl who is sharing the shanghai jazz in my hall's itunes shared library went to sleep alreadyyyyyyy
q says:
rahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
christabel. and you give yourself away says:
HAHAHAHHAHA
christabel. and you give yourself away says:
NOM NOM NOM
Sometimes I just amuse myself. I am not like this often. But people, do cherish such rare moments.
A facebook group:
Real Men Sing Acoustic John Mayer Below Their Girlfriends' Windows
YEAHHHH.
Another facebook group:
I Hate That Girl With Whom You Are Engaging In Witty Repartee
HAHA. YOU KNOW I'M TALKING ABOUT YOU.
Siao. 317am. Prac 4 still hangs in the balance. Whyyyy.
Friday, November 14, 2008
♥ 3:03 AM
Yeah especially when I am not productive. Which happens to be close to all of the time.
As seen on gideon's msn nick:
Is prayer your spare tire or your steering wheel?
Food for thought.
Soci of food. Groooan.
Thursday, November 13, 2008
♥ 9:37 AM
Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone,
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.
Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead
Scribbling on the sky the message He Is Dead,
Put crepe bows round the white necks of the public doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.
He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last for ever: I was wrong.
The stars are not wanted now: put out every one;
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun;
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the wood.
For nothing now can ever come to any good.
W.H. Auden's Stop All the Clocks
I saw it on someone's facebook profile and I was reminded of it. We did it in lit last semester. It's one of those poems that I didn't balk at at first reading. I think the tone is not just sad. It's a bit.. angry. At the realization that personal dreams and hopes can never be fulfilled. I suppose it's not so much angry at the lost lover as it is at the self and her (his?) lofty aspirations. Meh. It's a love-hate thing I have with literature.
Prac 4. Groans.
♥ 1:24 AM
One of my favourite carols ever. :)
I am thoroughly envious !
♥ 12:50 AM
Am watching carolling videos on youtube and I really cannot wait for december 5th to roll by ! Even though we already have 2 gigs this november but ahhhh tis the season ! Christmas makes me feel kinda warm inside. :) And really, it isn't complete without the music.
I don't think it is so much bitterness as it is sadness.
But not in a way where I think life sucks. So that is good I guess..
Phlegmatic Sanguine Melancholic Choleric.
The four humours of a system of medical philosophy that the greeks and romans believe in.
Anthropophagy. Endocannibalism and Exocannibalism.
Tracing food fears to the widening gap between nature and society. Plus distancing from the food production system thanks to urbanization. And also broader capitalist structures which aid the industrial and commercial in providing substitutes under the guise of 'alternative'.
Food & society can be quite interesting. Provided that it is not waffly and un-straightforward (like the stuff on body image and thinness) and that I don't just get a descriptive and boring history.
I like Valentine's reading. Mainly because she's a geographer (: and I'm familiar with her style thanks to 2224. Bah, I realise that I should've ranked University of Leeds rather than Southampton. :/ Okay slim chances. I shall apply for the birmingham summer program ! Maybe even CUHK's summer school haha..
I just need to get the darn prac 4 out of the way. PAH.
Monday, November 10, 2008
♥ 10:40 PM
I don't give a fuck. Kiss my ass. Been nice knowing you.
-Ari Gold, Entourage
Omgah he is funny ! And eric is really adorable and sloan(e?) is hot. Ahhh.
Feel like watching Das Experiment: Black Box but now is such a bad time. ):
“Without courage all virtue is fragile: admired, sought, professed, but held cheaply and surrendered without a fight. Courage is what Winston Churchill called ‘the first of human qualities . . . because it guarantees all the others.’ That’s what we mean by the courage of our convictions.”
So said John McCain. I hope I never have to find myself in a situation where I choose to betray my beliefs.
In other news, B+ for my animal essay ! :)) And considering that neoh said our batch didn't do too well. Plus my problems were mostly due to the fieldwork I suppose.. Crosses fingers for food essay !
At the rate we're going (or not), we're never going to finish prac 4. At the rate I'm going (or not), I'm never going to get cap 4.
Am like in a 1300 deficit. But at least tickets for CATS have been settled ! Yay ! Hope I don't have anything on next year.. And that everyone pays me soon.
Looks like this december will be a very busy one. After the dreadful exams comes a family trip to taiwan followed by our pten christmas party (YAYYY) together with carolling practices and the gigs themselves almost every day. Then sooks' christmas party ! Hehe. Maybe I should throw one too mmms..
Okay should banish such thoughts till after I get some work done at least. PAH. Some (ANY!!!) productivity at least !
Sunday, November 09, 2008
♥ 12:54 AM
Wow. Panadol extra works wonders. Only now I am too warm and exhausted to be remotely productive. But wth, it really sucks when you're sick. IT SUCKS MORE WHEN ONE HAS TO STUDY ! You know something's wrong and study plan is more doomed than ever when you have the tingly feeling at your fingertips, you perspire excessively and you sense bile at the back of your throat. Yep, 'study plan' straight down the toilet.
Am quite nauseous. Not too sure why. But it must be said that orchard road on a saturday when one is sick is a bloody bad idea. Trying to shop/window shop at daiso around wisma was an agonizing, nauseating experience. Sorry I keep using that word. NAUSEATING. Ack.
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Dear Lord, please let me recover soon. As it is I am already finding it extremely difficult to get my act together. Please help me find it in me to study, remember what I study and appropriately make use of what I study. More importantly Lord, please help me with my priorities. Thank you. In Jesus' most precious name I pray, amen.
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Shucks bel. Why are you content with being mediocre!? Obviously it isn't a very attractive trait.
This is another sign of sickness. Am loopy. Meaning that it's the drugs talking at this crazy hour. Panadol extra hello hello.
Friday, November 07, 2008
♥ 2:32 PM
Tired of eating dust and grasping at straws.
It's extremely pathetic and I am definitely better than this.
In fact, I'm better than everyone thinks I am.
Fuck, I need to get my life in order.
♥ 2:30 AM
1. I think I'm done with choosing for myself. I need people to make decisions for me. Because my decisions are stupid. And it almost always screws me up along the way.
2. OHMYTIAN CATS IS COMING TO SINGAPORE I AM SO TEMPTED TO BUY TICKETS TOMORROW MORNING YES YES YES!!!
3. Caught georgy's The London Fog at Prince of Wales Backpackers' Hostel and Pub just now. It was great ! Love the place and the retro girl song :) Pity there wasn't a bigger crowd.. Whole scene has inspired wanderlust again.
4. I just told xunny this on msn: Sheep are funny because they don't know how funny they are. HAHAHA. So cute right. :) -insert msn sheep emoticon.
5. 45/50 !!!!!! HAVEN'T GOTTEN SUCH GRADES SINCE PRIMARY SCHOOL YO ! Bel is mighty pleased. If only for a while.
Thursday, November 06, 2008
♥ 12:54 AM
Uh oh it's the whole 'I-really-want-to-start-but-it's-so-difficult-oh-shucks-I-am-going-to-die-and-my-results-will-be-so-cui' thing all over again. Happens every semester. A very horrible sore throat is making it even harder. Plus I have to drag myself to school for my straight 6 hour day. PBBFFT.
Played badminton this morning with gideon, yl and jasper. Yl and jasper were like 45 minutes late !? TSK. But at least I got to exercise a bit by playing with gideon. Who is INTENSE. And I refused to move much so I think jasper (my doubles partner) got loads of exercise haha.
People just need other people to talk to. Especially when it comes to such things. So it was a nice car ride. Although at one point I was fearing for my life, haha.
I was taken by surprise cos just when I remarked that he's unfriendly, he came to talk to me. Even though it was...rather brusque in my opinion (but I guess that's just his way), it was...touching almost. I don't know, I'm nuts. Haha. Just that I really didn't know what to say.
Went to look for prof pow after a MIND BOGGLINGLY BORING lecture on climate change. The graphs were killing me. I KID YOU NOT. I didn't go for hazards even though I really wanted to. Was feeling cold and sick :( Anyway, I asked prof pow about the tutorial I missed (worrying about 2215 made me totally forget about it) and he was very kind to talk about it at length :) Then I asked him about sep and it looks like my chances of UCL/KCL/LU/UOS are SLIM TO NONE. Sigh. :( Actually the more I think about it, the more I do not like the courses at UOS. Bah. I shall see how it goes. The cap and statement are the most important bits and for me, both are crappy. SIGH. I also meekly asked him for my test script back. He didn't have it with him but apparently he remembered my name (?!?!?! disturbing. maybe because I keep missing tutorial. :X) and that I scored quite well for the test. HAHAHAHA. I HOPE HE DIDN'T REMEMBER WRONGLY. If he didn't then yay ! But I seem to be doing well for the assessments that don't count for much :( Haha..
STUDYYYY ! STUDYYYY ! MAKE UP FOR CUI ESSAY GRADES ! Damn why do I feel so unwell at all the wrong times ? Damn excuses bel. Sigh.
OH YES I ALMOST FORGOT
HURRAH FOR THE HANDSOME BARACK OBAMA ! :D
I really like the guy so I hope he delivers as well as he speaks. :)
I guess I don't figure in your bright future.
Wednesday, November 05, 2008
♥ 12:34 AM
Yay :) I really like Ashes and Wine too..
Submitted 2215 term paper. Mediocre at best. But seeing as how I kinda did it in a day... :/
Got to start mugging like there's no tomorrow !
Monday, November 03, 2008
♥ 10:01 AM
Wow, the thousandth entry. This one has really lasted eh.. Ever since I was young and stupid in 2005. I guess I can no longer call myself young but stupid I still am.
Anyhoo, past few days were totally unproductive on the academic front. Friday was extremely miserable because of cramps. So I just printed a ton of articles WHICH I AM NO LONGER USING. Sigh. Saturday we had carols in the morning for alumni and in the evening I joined mark, yt, yl, jasper, joey, norman, nick, aaron and keegan at wala. SIBEH HOU AH !!! :D Shirlyn Tan and the UnXpected are really good ! The guitarist is reaaally pro mans :) And they played lotsa songs I know so it was just us singing our lungs out for that like, 3 hours ? Even though we stood the whole time. Damn hips and haps ! We have to go back again..
Caught Avenue Q yesterday. They really weren't kidding when they cautioned puppet nudity. Haha I think we were a mite disturbed but the cast was good. The lead's filipino accent is kinda cute. And the bad idea bears are adorable ! The songs were really nice too in that you could identify with them. (as opposed to musicals like WWRY where the songs are legendary in themselves) My only gripe is that sometimes I couldn't catch what they said/sang ! :S But overall yay they're damn retarded. Haha..
Weakness of will made me succumb to kbox with pyong, lwei and zkai. It was funny cos it just showed the extent of stress that they were in. It's always the same story with me. Stressed because I'm not stressed enough. :X It was fun anyhow because we all love to sing and when you put someone as biatchy as zkai in front of the mic with 'car wash', you're bound to get hilarious results. And lwei and pyong have very nice voices ! I feel quite blah in comparison. Plus I don't like singing with the microphone. :/ I'm shy that way haha !
I think after wala and kbox everyone has the impression that I don't really exhibit high-ness. :S
Oh yeah, and keegan is CRAAAAZY. We thought he's mister oh so serious but my impression of him has totally changed. My respect for the pianist has multiplied tenfold cos he's just extremely retarded ! I think it's a vs boy trait haha. Some retarded. I miss weeliang !
Okay, may today trump all previous days in productivity !