900th post. I don't know why big round numbers and recurring numbers are significant. The content is obviously not sparkling or worthy.

I'm annoyed because I uninstalled all my Adobe software thinking that I had the installer. Turns out the CD is some lame ass web premium. Whatever that means. Deceiving thing.

I am annoyed. I have a lot of crappy music I don't listen to on my itunes and ipod (speaking of which, I really should name it). Limewire happens to be in the desktop.

I really really hate it when I just miss the bus or train. And I realise I respond with 'fuck' to every little horrid thing. Like, 'I really hope my sister gets fucking retained. She deserves it.'.

I'm extremely cranky. Alongside bored and lonely. Am actually trying to do work stuff. I think it's pms. On a brighter note, my bank balance has 4 digits again.

Right now it'd be really nice to be in the company of friends. Not necessarily participating in conversation with them, but just being with them and hearing their banter.

Last day at my job tomorrow. My desk actually has a sign with my name. I have a designated pigeon hole but I never expected any mail. I don't think spending 8 hours in a cubicle is my thing. I prefer being on site, where the action takes place. Anyway, money's always good whatever the scope.

And so my wait was in vain. What gave me reason to hope in the first place ?

Clara has been acting up. Extremely ill disciplined of late. To some extent, I don't blame her. She needs to learn that what she's doing is wrong and yet I can't help but feel horrible inside when scolding her. Damn, I wonder if parents feel the same way about their children. That whilst reprimanding, do guilt and shame creep in ? Despite other avenues or tools of socialization, parents are still the ones with the greatest bearings in their children's lives. I guess when kids fail to live up to expectations, it's a reflection of a parent's inability to live up to his own expectations of himself as a parent.

That was random. I like Beatrix Potter's illustrations..

Tmx said my blog's getting boring. Even though I don't keep this to entertain, it has been a while since I added visuals, hurhur. So here are some shots from SK's belated birthday dinner at Essential Brew. It was my first time ever in Holland V and I loved it ! Hurhur. Can't wait for our d&d (dinner and dessert) this saturday :)

Stalkers ! Minus Ber who's in HK and Ruz who's back in med school down under..

Haha I think this candid shot is quite nice !

Birthday girl ! EVERYONE'S 20 EXCEPT ME (and ruz) ! NYAHHH ! HAHA !!

Trying to carve a smile on Cherr's face, Joker style.. Lols.

Really nice place to hang out ! Lovely tea infused food too.. Pity it made our asses hurt after awhile..

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It's annoying because there aren't any fantastic modules this sem. Everything next sem is fabulous !!! Playwriting, environmental history, hydrology !!! I feel so blah because I really should clear a gem or ss mod so I can take an elective next sem. But all the gems either clash or aren't nice. ):

In other news, foreigners are very nice ! French guy (who has girlfriend) is VERY VERY CUTE :D I hope I will see him again, haha. He reminds me of Petar.. And by a stroke of luck, I met a cute czech guy who was on the same flight ! He reminds me of the cute doctor, David.. All those good looking slovenians.. And yet, I want the cellist ! Haha.. And the sound guy =X (Ian ! who happens to be married with kids but IMMENSELY FUN to be with :D)

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Crumbling defences once again. It is a rather agonizing wait.
Sometimes you just wish you'd be surprised.

I realise that it is under certain circumstances that one might feel pangs of loneliness. The first being that solitude is not a choice. That is, one doesn't choose to be by himself, holed up in his room, with his companion of choice (laptop, ds, psp, storybook..). For certain activities, people prefer to be alone. I prefer shopping alone actually. I can't bear making people wait around whilst I hesitate for the thousandth time.

The second is the lack of purpose. Purpose gives direction and charts a course. It is an agenda that needs to be followed through. Once there is no clear goal, one is aimless, lost. Prone to wandering both physically and mentally.

Finally, it takes a madding crowd compound the sensations of loneliness. The hordes of individuals far different from oneself that make one withdraw inwards. To retreat from the foreign personalities and values behind the laughter and stares.

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I usually get off work at 6. Because Alex's flight was due to arrive at 555pm, I requested to leave at 5. That requires me to work 30 minutes more for four days (because the french men arrive at 545 tomorrow). I got off work, called for the latest flight info and found out that his plane was delayed by an hour and a half. Heathrow seems to be very problematic that way. John Alley and Alice Lee were delayed about 2/3 hours when they arrived a day after the rest of LS did. =/ Anyhoo, because of that, I missed the sheesha outing with the dafc girls. ): So I wandered around bugis, utterly aimless. I literally made three rounds on the ground floor. I was desperate and bored. Even shopping couldn't do the trick. (no money you see) All I wanted to do was find a quiet, relatively empty place to read my book/nap/play on the psp. Thankfully, I got that kind of space and quiet at terminal three.

Sometimes I just want to shrink away, away from people. And just watch or listen. Just to sit back and take it all in. Letting the background fade and growing accustomed to that white noise. I guess I'm figuring out that sometimes, the mere presence of something/someone is the most important. Being by being. (am I not making sense ??? haha) I should just go out one day with a few close friends and we should all sit somewhere and just read. No need for talk or worse, awkward conversation.

Cheesy as it sounds, Boyzone might have gotten it right when they sang those lines.
You say it best
When you say nothing at all.

It's all part of growing up, I'll bet.

Work just makes one tired. Even if I get to use ebuddy and blog hop and facebook. Once I was so free, I started reading Kafka's Metamorphosis online. I'm archiving materials and it's really boring most of the time. But I do get to check out the many different performing arts groups from around the globe. You realise that singapore is a small small world compared to what's out there. Especially in the arts scene. It's quite sad that I don't know really know anyone in the office. Then again, I'm only there till friday. Haha, I'm secretly entertained by this young guy who looks rather gay. And there's this rather short cute guy that I recognise from somewhere. I just can't place where hrms...

I had a very interesting dream the previous night. I can't remember it all exactly but the gist of it was that my primary school classmate (whom I haven't seen or talked to in forever.. am not even close to her) was Olly's girlfriend ! And I was insanely jealous ! Ahhhhh... I'm still infatuated.. He has this thing about him, I'm not sure what, that makes me melt...... I miss him )):

Was listening to Aspects of Love on cd. It's hard because I can't hear the words properly on the laptop, argh. But but, I love Michael Ball !!! He was really cute and he's super talented ! I love 'Anything but Lonely', 'The First Man You Remember' and mostest of all, 'Love Changes Everything' ! :) The lyrics are all so romantic !

Love, love changes everything.
Days are longer, words mean more.
Love, love changes everything.
Pain is deeper than before.

Haha, I'm such a sucker for sweetness and romance..

Back to work tomorrow. New (foreign) friends this week, hopefully. And less lonely lunches ! Actually I just need a book. It makes the whole ordeal less loser-ish and more intellectual, hurhur.

Eating alone is really quite a depressing, lonely affair. Especially when you're in a crowd. Office workers all seem to have their cliques or lunch dates. Oh well. Thankfully, Fisherman's Wharf which I tried today was mostly empty. And they serve relatively cheap and good food !!! :) It was lovely enjoying good food with The Five People You Meet In Heaven even if it was by myself. (:

I lava volcanoland !

HAHAHA. DON'T YOU LOVE CORNINESS LIKE THAT ? OR AM I THE ONLY ONE WHO'S GETTING IT ? HAHA !

I AM IN AN EXTREMELY EMO MOOD RIGHT NOW.

(haha crazy mood swings it seems eh ?)

Am doing admin work for the next two weeks. Anyhoo, I managed to get ahold of the song list for Radio and Juliet ! AHHHHHH OMGAHHH ! I just went to listen to the tracks on youtube and it's just bringing back all those memories ! It's been about a month and a half but I can't get them out of my head still. ): I should really sign up to be their tour manager or something ! ))): I really miss them. I really miss LS too. To the point where any reminder of them makes my heart ache. I know I know, too melodramatic. But I'm not kidding ! Sniff. ): At least matt and chris (english not slovenian) have been fantastic enough to keep in touch..

I'm earning less for doing a job that's ten times more boring and tiresome. As it is, it's difficult to stay awake. =/

For keeping me sane during my bout of paranoia, thank you. :)

You know what my problem is ? My feet. Practically every pair of shoes I own gives me blisters. And darn it, I want to go back to kino to finish reading the short story 'Don't Look Now' by Daphne Du Maurier. I want to find out what happens !!! Argh, it's 27 bucks. I am not paying 27 bucks for a book of shorts.

Bulletproof..I wish I was.

HAHAHAHAHA SUPER GOOD MOOD :D

Everything was made twenty times better by the fun conversation I had with matt on facebook chat !!!! One of the visuals guy who was with the london group. :D I tell you, all these europeans just make my day. (:

You're starting to achieve the opposite effect. You mean you can't tell ? Maybe I've been too subtle.

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Finally back using Michael Cassio :D Was in a really good mood because one of the french guys I'm welcoming is really cute ! Hurhurhur. He has a girlfriend (I am already his facebook friend yo) but still seems very nice ! And cute doesn't hurt, haha.

What really made my day was Chris' reply to my email ! SUPER PROMPT ! I AM SO TOUCHED AND PLEASED OKAY ! :D Chris (not the hunky australian nor the funny black slovenian dancer) is the LS oboe player and one of my favourite musicians because he's really nice and friendly. (: I am just really glad that he sent a really nice long reply ahhhh ! Unlike the slovenians and olly, sulks. So that was the highlight of my day. Glee :)

I took the longest (local) bus ride of my life. It was just about a mind numbing 2 hours. From the international business park (jurong east interchange) to west coast to clementi to harbourfront to outram park to chinatown to clarke quay to orchard to finally, novena. I don't think I want a repeat of said experience. Whenever I can, I shall travel by rail. Lols, I could've travelled to thailand or something by plane in that amount of time.

My nails are a futuristic, terminator 3-esque (okay don't ask, I didn't even watch T3) glittery silver. I know, gossip girl has upped my frivolity and lust for high fashion a few hundred times. Damn. I actually stopped by vivo city en route to school just to check out zara and pull and bear. And topshop and forever 21. If only I had time for mango, gap, espirit and fox. I am extremely broke and loving everything in zara. Meep. ): Speaking of which, I need to clean out my wardrobe. Mmms, I so need back to school basics. And moolah. =X

On a brighter note, I no longer need to journey to the ulu west ! Michael Cassio is back ! But I can't seem to connect to the internet, shall have to get that sorted out. I tried Udders today ! It's quite quaint, like another island creamery or icekimo. My mother had some durian flavour and I had bailey's and bourbon. (: It's really time for me to check out holland v ! There are tons of little eateries and when do I ever say no to food ? I need a date for cold rock ice creamery ! Xunny and I are contemplating stalking the area for sugar daddies, haha. There's still a change alley pie outing with gwei and friends. Ahhhh.. Everything's scrumptious ! I don't think I'll have any cash left for notebooks, a new bag, wallet and gorgeous shoes..

Okay, I'm sounding like a total bimbo now. Oh no, looks like a have to juggle my love for sloppy nonsense t shirts and actually giving a damn about what to wear. =/

I miss shawn and wee liang. They made jc life suck a lot less.

Yes, I realise I am bitter still. I was stupid in many ways. I guess I still am. It's just horrible to look back and see myself as this incredibly...stupid person. I'm sorry but there are just some people I am totally fine not knowing about. Ever. Actually for the record, I think it's just 2 people.

It's a dumb frustration but sometimes I just wish I didn't have to be the one making the effort all the time. It doesn't come off very positively most of the time. Heck, it hasn't worked ! Haha.

And of course, I give the most retarded things a lot of thought and priority.

What is faith in this instance ? And now, what is patience ?

I've found my new addiction ! Xoxo, Gossip Girl !!! Haha, crap ! The guys are adorable (even the scruffy ex rock star dad) and the girls are really pretty ! Serena is gorgeous and has a really sexy voice.. I love her hair !

Met graces, qua, xunny and kiki (finally) at the airport for dinner and good conversation. (: Hurhur, it seems like half of pten have sweet boys in their lives who love them more than they love them back (I presume, in the case of jema and xunny). Where is my hot, smart and funny (european) prince charming ?! A trip to london and slovenia seems to be in order, HAHA. And we really should start saving up for melbourne and/or bangkok ! Meh ! Wanderlust ! Nothing beats roaming the world with girlfriends (:

I think that this is temporary. I suppose it'll all just fade away... Just like all the others have. Talk about retarded choices although I guess I don't have much of a choice hrms.. Maybe it's just the pool. The wrong place to start with.

The coming sem had better be exciting. Especially with the (hopefully interesting) addition of one american and two french men. Ooh la la...

Ooh, apparently my last post was my 888th one. Haha ! Am looking for a new series to watch and so am trying out Weeds, Big Bang Theory and Little Britain.

I LOVE JASON MRAZ !!! The 'I'm Yours' video just heightens my wanderlust.. It's so quaint. Love the lyrics, the video and the music ! Damn, I want to catch him at singfest ! I don't really care for the rest of the acts =/ I should've watched him in concert years ago at the esplanade.. I think it was mosaic ):

I'm exhausted. Just when I thought I've met my lifetime's quota of narcissism and stubborn-ness. Sigh. Isn't it ironic ? I guess it just goes to show that you can't change people. At least I can't.

I want my sweet, funny, nice and adorable londoners and slovenians back. ):

I was reading a few articles in today's papers which should be a surprise because I usually just look at pictures and their captions or scan through headings on top of my daily staple of reading the funnies and the entertainment gossip. I hardly have the attention span to move past the second paragraph and most of the time the articles I want to digest are those from 'Insight'. Talk about ironic, haha. Anyhoo, the more lighthearted article (I think the title was something like 'if google makes you stupid then sex makes you smart', although I didn't quite get the link between being able to plough through articles and stuff and being smart. hrms. ) was about the attention deficit created by new technology and multi-tasking. How true. Accessible information available online in bite sized portions and even then, you're able to put them on hold when msn messenger blinks a bright orange or when you answer a phonecall.

It's true. It gets to me too. I hate the fact that my attention span is diminishing and I want everything served to me nownownow. Like how it is I M P O S S I B LE for me to not watch episodes of Ugly Betty back to back. Of course I cannot stand to wait one whole week for a resolution or conclusion of sorts to air on cable. Reading paragraphs and paragraphs of non-fiction has become something of a chore. I want the gist of things and I want their accompanying visuals. To put it simply, life is becoming just a quest for short cuts. Harder, better, faster, stronger. (daft punk, lols)

Of course, I am this walking paradox. The irony is that this agitation and impatience is perhaps one of the greatest contradictions to the things I am passionate about. The arts and the environment. It is precisely the increasingly frenetic pace of life that challenges the basic appreciation for aesthetics and the elements of nature.

I guess this is something that I have to struggle with. Slowing things down for myself in order to understand both humanity and the earth that inspires it. Like maybe avoiding the television to instead peruse classics such as Tolstoy's Anna Karenina (it's really thick ! and set in a foreign land in a different time =S). I don't know. It takes a lot of self-discipline to focus on something that does not provide immediate gratification.

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Okay, actually what I initially wanted to think about was the other article I read. Also regarding technology (oh I find this so applicable to me which is telling of the amount of face time I need with the computer screen vis a vis that of my...family?), it spoke of how we are becoming more socially dependent on others due to tools such as msn and sms. It's actually quite scary ! It gave the example of how because people can talk to (mindlessly flirt with) each other for hours on end that when there is somehow a void, it becomes a cause for quarrel ! I mean, this new avenue for relationships to be developed/nurtured actually kinda makes us more needy. We excitedly wait for certain people to come online, we pour over whether the single fullstop in the sms is a curt indication of lack of concern..... =S

The writer goes on to rebut her main argument. Technology does make us independent to some extent. We are able to source out avenues to entertain ourselves. Gaming, watching shows online.. But isn't all this IN THE MEANTIME? Is it just to occupy ourselves whilst we wait for replies, whilst we mope about non-existent replies, whilst we try to conjure up accusations due to the lack of replies ? I should think for most people, there is a primacy in human relationships. I'm not sure if it's in maslow's hierarchy of needs.. Hrms. HAHA. Just look at how popular all those social networking sites are. Facebook, friendster.. It's a fad and then some ! Perhaps it is just a different kind of relationship. Not so much one based on physical contact but one that involves a basic connection. This could perhaps be in the form of some second life community ? Masquerading as a perky blonde to chat up a bespectacled brunette. A sort of virtual world that provides some level of insurance.

In order to move past this generic response, I guess I just want to say that damn, I am a sucker in this aspect too. I don't particularly think it's a serious case of MAN SOMEONE PLEEEAAASE TALK TO ME, I CANNOT STAND BEING LEFT ON MY OWN but I do have those moments where a good conversation initiated by someone else can actually make all the difference. How much sweeter is it when someone else takes the effort to make the first move ? (this obviously excludes weirdo stalkers who go too far too fast HAHA) Unfortunately I am at a stage whereby msn is only a tool for socialization for SPECIFIC people. Sad but a fact.

But anyway, to my dear friends who actually bother to come talk to me first, I less than three you ! :D (that translates to I <3 you ! hurhur)

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I have no idea what prompted me to write/type the above. Sometimes I'm not even sure why I type indecently long (and in such a teeny font) chunks. But haha, I guess it's a way of being independent. Of occupying myself with thought maybe.

Anyhoo, am a bit cranky because I cannot upload photos since michael cassio is getting a new keyboard and I can't find the sd card reader. Practice today was fine though I would love to learn new songs ! And not necessarily carols, haha. Met up with pyong aggie and uncle gpt to have a nice (cheap!) dinner at lau pa sat and then beverages at TCC down at circular road. (: Company's always fabulous ! To another nuah day out ! Oh yeah, and we were talking the things that put a smile on our faces. For aggie it's babies, for pyong it's fireworks and for me it's puppies and kitties and bunnies. (: Most baby animals, hurhur.

I'm down with a bout of wanderlust ! Haha, since when am I not ? I feel like drawing too but somehow I think I will never get down to it.

'Will you be my facebook friend?'
-add floppy locks, puppy eyes, earnest smile and cello
Yes, I am still trying to get over my infatuation. )):

Past two days have been kinda tiring because they involved me waking up before ten am ! OMGAHHH. Although ironically, I miss waking up at the even more unearthly hour of 5am to fetch/send people to/from the airport/hotel. ): Meep.

Watched 3 track heats with jlow and visited lot 1 for the first time. It felt so odd being in that part of singapore. It's practically a whole different world, haha. Okay but I had to take the trip there and stop procrastinating ! Michael cassio's finally at the service centre and I have to make a 1.5 hour trip there (and back) again to collect him ! AND BE 90 BUCKS POORER. ):

Was dissatisfied with the drink I chose at timbre II (again ! I'm tempted to bring aggie and gpt there on saturday cos the music's good hurhur) but I really enjoyed pyong's and zkai's company ! And yes, I like foreign talent but please don't make me seem like some indecent SPG hello !

Spent today helping gw with alumni notice board together with chee guan and pyong. It looks pretty nice ! And I miss the canteen food.. Mostly because it's cheap. =/ Haha..

It rained so we didn't have our funny picnic thing at the hort park today. Instead the 5 of us (sally, mich, graces, xunny and I) cooked creamy minced chicken and mushroom pasta and banana pancakes :D LOVED IT :) The process and the result ! We should do cheap stuff like this more often (: Then we learnt german bridge from xunny and sally ! Haha, it's a really interesting game ! Quite tricky though.. But hurhur, we should just hang out more often ! It's going to be cheap kbox next I think.. Hope we'll get to see kiki before she leaves man..

New medicine I'm using is making my skin peel. And it feels all weird and plastic-y. And flaky. And there's a burning sensation. ): Horrid.

Oh, I had another one of my absurd dreams. Dreamt that there was this husky chasing me around this mall. Could've been an alaskan malamute. I can never tell the difference. It was fierce and after me for some reason but in the end I figured I shouldn't be afraid and befriended it. So odd. I was literally trying to evade capture. =/ I seem to always be on the run or something. Or maybe it's my body's way of telling me that I need to do exercise. HAHAHAH. I also happened to be at the mall with what seemed to be my boyfriend. I don't remember the face though. =S

Okay today's going to be a long hippie day, hurhur. Hopefully I'll have nice photos at the end heh..

I had an interesting dream. A sweet one, really. It's one that is more probable than those I usually have. Nothing involving murder or being seduced.. Haha, too many details. =X But judging by the way things are, it's actually far from plausible. It's more likely that the opposite will occur, haha. Oh wells.

I guess I have to eat my words now that I'm missing it hrms. And uncle gerald paul, you're missed too ! We have got to catch up soon..

cute is what we aim for
-isn't that the most adorable band name ever ? (:

Am quite sad now because I'm done with season 2 of ugly betty and the cliffhanger's bugging me !!! SPOILER AHEAD!

Does she choose to marry nerdy but cute accountant or choose exciting and cute sandwich guy ?! Ahhhh I'm kinda rooting for sandwich guy. =/ And might I say that the coach that hilda likes is really hot.. Hurhur.

At the rate I'm going, am never going to get my laptop repaired. Shoot.

You know how you look at pictures or people on the street and you wish you were the person you're staring at ? Was looking at deme's photos in his album labeled 'World Travels' and he had a photo of him and his lady in Croatia. I don't mean to sound all freaky and stalkerish but I felt a pang when I saw it. It's a kind of sad envy, a wistfulness.. I mean apart from deme being close to perfect, his girlfriend happens to be a gorgeous and talented dancer and they get to see the world and do what they love ! I mean, how fortunate are they ? Aside from having wonderful other halves, they get paid to travel the road less traveled !

I just makes me wish I was talented and passionate enough to go down that barely worn path. Being all mediocre and conventional just doesn't help at all. And also, it'd be so different traveling to compete and traveling to perform. Although at some point the repetition might kill me, there's a familiarity (of repertoire) and yet the newness of environment and venue and culture.

And yet, I don't know. One thing I've learnt about myself over the years is that when I find something that's special which I really like, I invest a lot of emotions into it. It could be the novelty of it but some things just invoke attachments (whether good or bad) that span a long time. I guess some things are just hard to get over.. Perhaps because none else has made such a lasting impression and invoked such a depression, haha. At least, not in a long while. Nothing much to distract me nowadays and so my mind runs wild.

Apart from my monetary woes, my only other real concern is probably what to wear to cherr's party. HAHA.

But seriously, this whole stint (damn, I didn't mean for this to be a retrospection.. not a proper entry !) has made me rethink my current major. I am actually tempted to take ts1101 just so I can take the higher level arts marketing modules. I don't know. I look at the geog modules offered and honestly, I feel a little blah. Perhaps because there are no human geog mods I like and they don't offer coastal environments, hydrology and environmental sustainability this sem. Bah. Also not offering animal behaviour as a gem. Although I feel like I'm in a pickle because I want to do so many electives ! Like art and history, soci of food, soci of childhood and youth.. =/

WC hasn't gotten back to me and neither has ruth. I've no correspondents so far, saddening. Though I did have a short really nice facebook chat with matt who's really busy. (yay matt :D) I think they're all busy ! I feel so itchy and idle ! Maybe I should take up voice lessons, haha. Hrms. I feel so musically illiterate and inadequate ! Like, I neither have a knowledge of the international choral scene nor the acappella one. It seems that my world is so small, limited to the who's who at SYF or what pieces kwei intends to use again at what international competition. And it's not just learning from the greats out there that I am missing out but also the basic knowledge of proper singing ! Heck, I'm not even sure of what genre I like best much less which I am good at ! Ayes..

Jack of all trades but master of none. Argh.

I feel awfully and oddly dissatisfied. I think it's a combination of the presence of feb (either fat evil bitch or fucking evil bastard) at practice today, missing my dear angmohs, those (telling) dreams and a fuzzy navel and sex on the beach shot sitting warm and heavy in my stomach. I just feel like a big fat dollop of extreme blahness. Also known as a mopey funk. I had a good time and the music (EIC!) was great but whoever said that alcohol is able to drown sorrows is not very correct. In my case, it's just heightening my sensitivity to all of the above.

Oh, and I just realised that I didn't manage to watch the 11th episode because the second half could not load. Bloody.

It's times like these when I just want/need a good sit down with a few people to just talk. About life, love alongside a good heap of laughter. I don't know. Maybe I just need to watch a few episodes of my favourite comedies. Haha, the television is fast becoming an alternative to actual people and real emotions.

Ah darn. I'm not even sure who I need. Apart from deme, tibi, olly, ian, gaj, mati, alan, robin, matt..... Hurhur.

Spent most of my day lazing at db's place. Oh how I miss the feeling of my laptop keyboard. ):
Things I did there:

1. EAT 3 SLICES OF DOUBLE PEPPERONI PIZZA :D
2. Terrorise MBR (other mindless flirt) and little boy Zhian
3. Go mad ! There was so much going on.. and it was bloody warm I tell you !

Am back home and craving for bubble tea. Nothing new there.
Latest updates:

1. Met GRACES together with sally, mich, qua and xunny for the first time in eons at lau pa sat ! Then we sat near the merlion and taaalked :D KARAOKE & PICNIC SOON !!! Am so excited ! Girlfriends are just the best (:
2. Am excited for cherr's hippie birthday party ! Though I anticipate a situation not unlike that at jlow's party..
3. My nails are a deep red !! It looks like my fingers are bleeding..
4. Scottish has replaced Australian as favourite accent !!! It's just sexy.. Hurhur..
5. I actually saw Hannah (londoner, admin staff for LS), Petar (EXTREMELY CUTE SERBIAN from sng ljubljana) and Demetrius (cute, hot AND funny dancer from sng maribor) on facebook chat but as I always (98% of the time anyway) say, DAMN FACEBOOK CHAT !!!

It was extremely screwy ): The first two didn't reply but deme is such a dear (: All I learnt was that he was busy and doesn't have msn installed. But he gave me 'kisses' anyway ! He is really sweet (in addition to being cute, hot, fun and funny), I'd marry him in an instant if I could ! :D

I'm missing the slovenian winks and the 5 o' clock shadow kisses. ): Being anywhere near hotel grand central makes me mopey..

I don't know if I'm just crabby but this weariness has sparked a small sliver of annoyance. Do I not detect a similar vein ? It just goes to show that as much as you try, some things are just way beyond you. They are of another plane, another tangent. So why continue down that path ?

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Have a huge urge to try on tons of clothes. And make either apple crumble or bread pudding. Bloody, it seems now that nothing can compare to the high I got when with the slovenians and londoners. Am sinking into mopey funk all over again. Not exactly looking forward to school. Especially since I don't even bother to jog for potential boyfriends ! HAHA. Gwei did you tag that ?

I'm really looking forward to our ALMOST COMPLETE EXCEPT FOR JEMA pten (or eight.. or seven) reunion ! :D Haven't spoken to graces and kiki in EONS !!! Ahhhhh ! Really hope kiki can make it.. (: Can't wait !

I was looking at yingtong's europe pictures and not only do they REALLY make me want to travel but because they (mark & yt, not the photos) went to prague, the pictures just remind me of how much I didn't appreciate the beauty and culture of the country when I was there 3 years ago. And how I let misery get to me and spoil a wonderful experience. Damn. ): One of them regrets that I have..

Oh they had an Ugly Betty marathon on starworld yesterday so now I'm watching it online ! Hohoho, it is pretty interesting.. The nerdy accountant is cuuuute ! Hurhur. And I might get jq to lend me his violin in exchange for my er guitar ! =X I was mighty amused because on the phone with xiaokang, he was forcing me to speak in chinese ! I learnt to replace 'erm' with 'rang4 wo3 xiang2 xiang3 kan4..' ! I think I was amusing him with my horrendous biao3 da2 neng2 li4 (:

I feel inspired to test out my (father's) SLR ! But it's difficult to learn to use it when it's not digital. And I am thoroughly annoyed because for once I have bananas at home but I do not have evaporated milk to make banana milkshakes ! >(

I still would like a job ! =S And I wonder if I will be the opposite of lazy and do something tomorrow (today) instead of vegetate. Seriously. Once I am seated in front of the goggle box and on the couch, I can be a potato for hours. Maybe I will try to settle some work admin but it doesn't sound too promising since WC is apparently abroad. Humbug. Maybe it'll just be tea with mark brian, the one who mindlessly flirts with every and any girl (must've learnt from zk haha).

Have put off jogging twice already. This does not bode well for my rapidly expanding waistline.