Sunday, April 29, 2007
♥ 10:55 PM
Gwen Stefani's The Sweet Escape. Woo-ooo ! Yeah-ooo ! Haha, don't we just love screeching the Akon ('...convict') part ? Hurhur..
Yesterday was really fun filled. We were living it up ! Grace's dress wasn't really a gown ahaha. It was pretty ! We lunched at Breeks (the Massive Attack is next, don't stop me !) had jap ice cream (sesame for me, green tea for qua and rum & raisin for grace) from this jap restaurant at marina square then we headed for POTO.
Our seats were pretty good (: The singing was awesome.. I AM ENAMOURED WITH THE PHANTOM AHHHHHHH ! It was quite heartbreaking at the end. And he was so entrancing ! I think his voice was just right for the role. Raoul's, although very nice and clear, was too.. tenor-ish and bright. Somehow not manly and 'i-will-fight-for-my-girl'-ish enough. Christine had too much of a vibrato and like xunny said, wasn't as sweet and pure and beguiled as Christine should be. She was quite gung ho. Nonetheless, good voice ! Hurhur. And the set was really cool.. I especially like how they transformed the auction house into the opera stage. The orchestra was really good too.. It was really fantastic hearing the music live. The conductor was a woman too, really cool. Ahhhhh, it was really captivating especially the songs that I knew. All I Ask Of You, Think of Me, Angel of Music, Masquerade.. :D Woots ! Money well spent. (:
Now all I need is for someone who's going to watch to get me a program ! I didn't have enough money on me. Rahhh. I wonder if anyone knows anyone else watching Phantom soon.. Please help aloy and I get programmes !
Okay I can't quite remember what I wanted to say. =/ But I want to watch nigel barker on ANTM now. HAHA.
Saturday, April 28, 2007
♥ 12:47 AM
Yes, I was bored. Obviously. BUT SO WAS MICH ! I GOT THIS FROM HER BLOG ! Ahahaha.. The unglam sushi eater is also a narcissist ! (: Throat still hurts, SUCKS. But lazing around at home watching season 4 of Friends is great.
I can't wait for tomorrow ! Our rather glamourous lunch and POTO, finally finally. (: Grace is wearing a gown thing ? =/ I think qua and I will have to be the ones carrying her train or something haha. The way she makes it sound lols.. Okay, I realise I cannot wear jeans tomorrow. Knee is still banged up. Bah. Heal, heal I say ! Meow.
It's interesting because it's not everyday I have entertaining phone conversations with zx. Oh, his flair for the dramatic is quite hilarious. We were talking about psycho uni interviews, how we're so fortunate to be from good single sex schools and about cutting some people out of your life forever. Hurhur, I should call him once every week, it's entertaining fun.
Hullo jema and kiki I'm still missing you both but I can't access jema's blog boo ! It keeps redirecting me to hotmail. My IE sucks. ):
It is wonderful how gwei biaodi ROCKS TONS because he's making my miniature kite AND letting me rip 3 ghibli films ! HULLO THANK YOU MUCHLY I OWE YOU ! :D :D Yayy, I feel so fortunate (:
I watched Grave of the Fireflies and Nausicaa of the Valley of the Wind. Hrmms. I must confess that it may be because the graphics weren't as beautiful and the characters as intriguing as Spirited Away that I didn't find them that emotionally rewarding. The former is lauded in many forums as one of ghibli's best and most touching but I just couldn't really feel it. I prefer the latter for the action. Maybe I was just sleepy. =/
Anyways, I hope I don't oversleep and grace doesn't kill me. Haha. My love to xunny who's having her law interview tomorrow ! (: Ahh, poto ! Hurhur..
Thursday, April 26, 2007
♥ 1:07 AM
Notable quotes from today's p10 outing.
"BABY ALIIIIIIIIVE !!!!!"
"All hail icy fingers ! " (in response to the 'Hot Item' sign)
"FURREAL !"
We were at the suntec toys r us. We being xunny, mich, sallay and I. Lols. Why am I not surprised ! But the baby was freaky lolss.
We dinnered at the suntec food court then made our way home quite early. But it was good. As always. Just talking, laughing, ranting, being stupid (I quote graces =X lols), giggling loudly (only applies to miss tang ? hurhur).. We're going to minds cafe next week ! (: And some of us are meeting again this saturday (qua, grace and I are watching poto finally !!) for lunch heh. Santosh sandroman ??? Lols. Maybe he is the key to making grace stay in sunny singapore lols.
On the way to brunch earlier on my bike, was daydreaming and fell. Bahh. I'm just glad I didn't break anything. More concerned about the state of my throat than my ugly left knee and thigh. Met grace and mich for brunch at the compasspoint sakae. Food was good ! Tons of salmon and some kakiage for me but I likeyy. (: We spent quite a lot of time laughing at mich's unglam sushi eating habits haha. But I had a really good time conversing and laughing with the both of them. Hopefully we can have crystal jade's la mian next week ! (:
I always find it interesting chatting with uncle gpt. The voyaje songs sound pretty good when recorded by the esplanade provided mics. The acoustics just rock. (: Yay ! And I love the ghibli songs.. Especially the male chorus. But I preferred it when a bunch of them did it impromptu with jonathan (colin ? hahaha) hunched at the keyboard. (: Had the (as ngps puts it) 'feeh-ling' haha. I think the girls chorus sounded better on the actual day. Not as thin. And the altos sound pretty good (: The wcg pieces were impressive in terms of action packedness but not really in terms of musicaity. Mmms. And I somehow prefer the kucinta recording though the binnamma performance felt better.. I like gobi ! Meh.
Didn't visit sectionals despite intending to. Was lazy and schleepy. =X Next week ! Less than two weeks to syf. GWHGWHGWHGWHGWH ! Hurhur. Grace is also watching. Bought two studio ghibli dvds. They're not famous. I hope the english subtitles aren't nonsense. =/ I have Grave of the Fireflies and Nausicaä of the Valley of the Wind. Yay yay stuff to watch ! And can you believe that a season of Scrubs costs 80 bucks ?? PBBBBFFT. I want to go to KL for my scrubs and frasier fix..
Okay need to find job for month of mayyyyy. Blah. Hope my throat gets better..
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
♥ 12:25 AM
Didn't spend the usual half day with db because I had piano at 5 but we had pasta at j8 and we spent 4 bucks each at the arcade ! One round of bishi bashi, daytona and time crisis and two rounds of the drum game. Hoho, we were addicted ! But not very coordinated lols..
I feel all happy and sad at the same time because I watched Studio Ghibli's Princess Mononoke and Spirited Away today. Ahhhhh ! Was inspired by the music the choir sang and I realised that I had the two dvds all along. The former is an epic battle (rather lengthy too) between man and earth and it is rather inspiring how the different forces actually need each other to coexist and how stupid man can really be. I quite preferred the latter for the use of less strong colours (pastels during the opening and closing scenes) and a seemingly simplistic theme. About wonderment and courage and holding on to innocence and peculiarity and loss, somewhat. To sum it up, VERY SAD ! Methinks. Ayes, itsumo nando demo is beautiful at the end and just serves to make it all even more sad. There's this tinge of wistful longing.. ): Sad sad sad. It's a must watch movie ! 55th on IMDB's best movies of all time.. Am wanting to watch Laputa: Castle in the Sky, My Neighbour Totoro and Howl's Moving Castle now. I wonder if uncle gpt has any of them.. Remind me to visit the Ghibli museum one day..
Am brunching with graces and mich who has quit her chocolate job ! Yayy. I hope I don't oversleep.. I really should get a job. Mehh. Ears are better but throat hurts. ): Meoww.. One thing I've learnt about msn is that to delete/block someone who has deleted/blocked you without the intention to clear your contact list is a stupid thing. It just probably means you're being as childish and petty as the opposite party. So I don't think I should give two hoots about people who aren't 'online' anymore.
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
♥ 12:22 AM
Hello I'm back from bangkok and am currently mortified bcause there's a HUGE cockroach crawling on my wall. RAH. Damn it, why won't it stop terrorising me. Thanks, and whilst I'm sitting frozen in my chair, it's cleaning its feelers.
Bangkok was great in terms of shopping at chatuchak. :D I got high getting t shirts ! Everything was below ten bucks. HAPPINESS. (: The departmental stores weren't that fantastic though because prices were comparable. The ice cream fondue (swensens) and curries were great too. (: I don't think I could survive without spicy food heh. Didn't get to sight see much but I did have an interesting visit to a palace/museum of one chulalongkorn's grandsons. And I liked seeing all those photographs in the oriental hotel of mongkut, chulalongkorn and his sons.. History ! (: The short ride along the chao praya was nice too. Traffic was crazy (but a taxi ride cost us less than six bucks ! and for quite a distance too) so we took the train a lot. It's sad to see people begging on the streets with really little kids beside them. And the puppies they were selling at chatuchak (along with the kittens, bunnies and squirrels) were ADORABLE ! But they weren't in fantastic conditions so I felt for them.. But so cuddly and cheap !
I missed jema's farewell but more importantly, I miss her already. I can't believe we're down to six this weds. And to think it'll be five when graces leaves. ):
Phantom on saturday ! Woots ! Finally heh.. I'm currently craving ice cream. BAD. New zealand's natural is pretty good.. And I thought they only had natural-y fruit flavours. Okay, I should really get a job for the month of may. Am still feeling a bit under the weather from the trip.. Piano tomorrow, pbbfft.
I suppose for many things I've learned or perhaps steeled myself to stop caring. I think it's working. Haha. When other people don't care, I don't really see why I should bother either. Shrugs. Perhaps it is a mentality that will limit friendships to being short term. But sometimes I wonder, why shouldn't they be if the other party is not making the effort to prolong it ?
My ears are still somewhat blocked from the air pressure. Pbbfft. The first time it was so bad that I was reduced to sobs.
The last time we talked you reduced me to tears.
I just think the dialogue in Mika's Grace Kelly is really cute, hoho. I've finished the first season of CSI ! Boo, time to get some more. =X Haha, life without work is good. But I'm rapidly going broke. ):
Thursday, April 19, 2007
♥ 12:36 AM
Totally tired from today's exciting activities. (: Am going to sleep soon though. I feel as if I haven't packed much. Hmmms. =/
Thanks dear aloy for remembering despite your very short term memory. (:
I almost teared saying goodbye to beloved JEMA just now. ): I can't send her off. But I lovelovelove you so huanghuanghuang !!! You'll be in my prayers ! XOXO !
I'll also be praying for sally (she's so strong and too good to put up with such absurdity and posessiveness !) and the voices of the juniors. All the best (:
Am going to try my best to make the most of the next four days. Haha, didn't get the chance to do what I wanted to do today but no matter. Hurhur. We should really research on taking a trip to australia mmms.
Okays, pray for me. I always have the phobia that every plane trip I'm on will be my last. Oh and today's p10 outing raised an interesting question about dependence and neediness. I'm not sure whether I can call myself a very independent person. But I suppose I shall muse over that on the plane. If I'm not asleep or asking for cards, hurhur. Mmms, I'll be back soon with stories to tell..
Once again, MUCH LOVE TO JEMA !
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
♥ 2:25 AM
Darn, the new IE doesn't allow pop ups. I can't post what little pictures I have of the concert and the free cone day. HUMBUG. ):
Anyway, free cone day was good ! It was a good thing I decided on having laksa with my mother at united square (though she left for work in the end). Saw a whole bunch of choir juniors there ! Hurhur, dang, and I thought I could message them all about the ice cream ! They beat me to it and even got balloons. Meow. But the queue though 4 times as long as the donut one, wasn't that bad. Frankie's classmate was a server. Chocolate chip cookie dough is heavenly :D I just like the cookie dough ! Mmmms. Happiness. Db was just swooning over the alpha/beta and the mega alpha lols. Then she came over to my place and we watched scrubs and csi. (: Ahh, the joys of lazing around and getting fat. =/ Honestly, I'm going to look like a fat balloon when I get back.
I'm supposed to be packing instead of uploading recordings and feeling sad because kane ran away with the fish kite that I want ! ): ): Gwei biaodi was sweet enough to offer to make me a miniature one though, hurhur. MUCH LOVE ! I like my new specs and I can't wait to shop in thailand. Heh. Meeting some of the stalkers plus the small gangster tomorrow morning. I hope I don't oversleep ! =X And I'll be seeing the p10 girls and jema for the last time in a long long long while. ): ): ): Sad meow. We're all leaving one by one. ): It'll be graces in a while. Why whyyy. ): But we'll let them go. At the same time we'll hold on. To memories, to dreams, to long lasting friendships.
I really should go pack. Meow, till tomorrow ! I hope the weather's good..
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
♥ 12:38 AM
Her face is a map of the world
Is a map of the world
You can see she's a beautiful girl
She's a beautiful girl
And everything around her is a silver pool of light
The people who surround her feel the benefit of it
It makes you calm
She holds you captivated in her palm
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
This is what I wanna be
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
Why the hell it means so much to me
I feel like walking the world
Like walking the world
You can hear she's a beautiful girl
She's a beautiful girl
She fills up every corner like she's born in black and white
Makes you feel warmer when you're trying to remember
What you heard
She likes to leave you hanging on her word
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
This is what I wanna be
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
Why the hell it means so much to me
And she's taller than most
And she's looking at me
I can see her eyes looking from a page in a magazine
Oh she makes me feel like I could be a tower
A big strong tower
She got the power to be
The power to give
The power to see
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
This is what I wanna be
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
Why the hell it means so much to me
***
I PERFORMED AT THE ESPLANADE ! -DOES A HAPPY DANCE-
Am feeling many things but most of all, pride. I am so so proud of the juniors. (: And I'm thankful for the opportunity to do two things I love. Sing and be with wonderful people. Post concert euphoria much less as compared to crazy photo taking last year but I really felt for them. They accomplished so much. They deserve it. (: So am in a blissful state. PRAISE GOD !
And neither work nor school tomorrow ! Heh. Ironically, I like the acoustics. And our wcg pieces (though pitchy) were our best yet this year. Was actually praying during binnamma, that God see me through. And He did. (:
THANKS & LOVE to the beloved juniors for the opportunity, to the seniors for their support and to my classmates for their presence. And also kudos to our leader, mrkwei for not subjecting the alumni to stress and torment lols.
why the hell it means so much to me
AJChoir, No Importa La Distancia.
Monday, April 16, 2007
♥ 2:59 AM
Going to be an exciting day tomorrow. Am praying for the best ! (:
Ticket sales: 66%
AJChoir: 110%
It may be an empty hall but we should give nothing short of our best. As performers, as musicians. I want to go through the rush of it all (though undeniably without the stress and pain as experienced by the juniors) and come out saying that I love it all and know why the hell it means so much to me. (:
***
Just finished helping mrsanuse compile some songs. He asked the right person ! I have wonderful taste in music hawhaw. I need to return yt's library book, collect my specs and remember the performance stuff. I hope I don't wake up too late. Heh, 3am. 16 hours to go.. Am very touched that jq, hrk and renny are going. Thank you guys so much (:
Saturday, April 14, 2007
♥ 8:31 AM
I'm currently at graces' house. It's 0831hours and sally, jema and xunny are asleep on the couches. Qua just woke up and graces and mich left a while ago. I think I slept about 3 hours. Quite fitful but more from the cold rather than the floor. Took a nice bath and so can't get back to sleep. Still having the sniffles despite panadol, clarinase and the fizzy vitamin C drink. I think I've passed it to the others. =/ I really admire graces for having to exist with a bathroom the size of my closet (which ain't big). She's a great host ! Heh.
It was fun and time passed quite quickly I think. We only reached at 940 =/ -does the apology dance for graces and xunny. Worked on the low budget powerpoint for jema hehe. Watched youtube videos. Played bridge. Did the spastic no link one word story game. IMOANETTES and IMINAHS among other freakish subjects lols. Including famous testicles that jema thought were tentacles ! LOLS. Then we just talked and snacked and listened to music and mused over serious stuff like the ministers' pay rise, practicality vs passion, future husbands.. Haha, yeah then we all slept a bit here and there..
Going to meet yl later at siglap for choir, I think I'll be late =/ I feel too tired and sick to leave. Bleagh I just want to slack here forever hahaha.
zzz. lazy to update now haha
Friday, April 13, 2007
♥ 12:15 AM
Dammit, I'm having the sniffles and my nose is blocked. It's making me feel all crabby and ruining the otherwise wonderful day. Classes were okay I suppose.. Nothing out of the ordinary. Christina's form teacher was funny though. 'PLEASE KEEP QUIET OKAY THEY'RE HAVING AN EXAM.' Thanks, lols. The kids were all rolling their eyes. I went to visit the pe dept ! Come to think about it, it's cool that I got to work with them.. Really friendly and nice people like dtan and mr sanuse ! (: So I had a nice chat with jtoh and she lent me her laptop ! :D Ahhhh, she rocks. Hurhur.. Lunched with the smartest dense person I know. That aloy..just cannot tuck in his shirt. =/ Was practically rolling on the floor laughing at colin/collin/jonathan haha his actions and his conducting and retarded 123 song. LOLS. Funny kid.. Choir was just spent sniffling (RAHHHH) and laughing at cheeguan & joel. One of the jokes of the day for me was nkwei saying that the wcg songs are the most stable. =/ I suppose it ain't good news for the rest of the choir. Anyhoo, I met pten at 9ish in marina square. :D :D I love my girlfriends. Just talking and chilling and being retarded in public areas. I'm staying over at graces' tomorrow ! (: Funness, I can't wait ! Except I might just fall asleep, lols. Oh and guess what, I BOUGHT THE SECOND HALF OF CSI SEASON 1 !!!! Everybody envy me right now !!!! (this probably only refers to xunny =/ lols)
I can't make it to the NAC interview, URA didn't get back to me and I've got the damn sniffles. But that one message helped to complete the wonderful day. Awfully silly of me but still. (: Hope I'm not late for school tomorrow.. Till saturday !
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
♥ 12:18 AM
"One day Alice came to a fork in the road and saw a Cheshire cat in a tree. 'Which road do I take?' she asked. His response was a question: 'Where do you want to go?' 'I don't know,' Alice answered. 'Then,' said the cat, 'it doesn't matter.'"
-Lewis Carroll
Thanks lots to qua dear for the quotes site. I'll be praying for her ! Hurhur. I found the above quite interesting..
"We either make ourselves miserable or we make ourselves strong. The amount of effort is the same."
-Carlos Castenada
I guess that's my response now. Get get get get get get over it. As sung by Ok Go.
It won't be the end of the world. Which probably gives an idea of how bad I want it. Which is not very seeing as how I am not in a very dire financial situation. Anyhoo, wish me luck (:
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
♥ 12:57 AM
Sit back, matter of fact, teasing, toying, turning, chatting,
charming, hissing, playing the crowd.
Play that song again, another couple Klonopin,
a nod, a glance, a half-hearted bow.
Oh such grace, oh such beauty,
and lipstick and callous and fishnets and malice.
Oh darling, you're a million ways to be cruel.
I should, I wish I could, maybe if you were, I would,
a list of standard-issue regrets.
One last 80 proof, slouching in the corner booth.
Baby, it's as good as it gets.
Oh such grace, oh such beauty.
So precious, suspicious, and charming, and vicious.
Oh darling, you're a million ways to be cruel.
(: Keyboard is weird and IE is screwy. Thank you very much. Yay for Ok Go and CSI ! Dances around. Napping and CSI, a wonderful combination. (: And I tell you, I had a weird dream which included yt, aloy and DONUTS. AHHHHH. What I wouldn't give to taste krispy kremes. I shall settle for donut factory on weds. (: Might be meeting yl for lunch too ! Hoho.
Mika's Grace Kelly and Love Today are hot. I sound so paris hilton. Must be the low IQ, rawrr. Someone teach me some maths or something. Okay before I forget, may these people have a very very very blessed birthday:
YINGTONG, XIANHUI, MEIRONG, SAFFIE AND HOWARD ! :D Hope you guys are all a year wiser (after enduring a year [two in the case of yt haha] in aj lols)..
Shopping with db tomorrow. Everyday I spend money. MEOW. That was a sad wail. My pop cam arrived in the mail ! All I need now is to stock up on 35 mm film and I should be able to have some fun with it hoho. I forgot to mention a total cutie on CSI, Greg ! :D Now I sound like ruz when she gushes haha.
So far the pc hasn't gone into sleep mode which is good. Mmms, shall go read a bit before I retire..
Monday, April 09, 2007
♥ 12:19 AM
Happy Easter ! It's deeper than just chocolate eggs and bunny tails. God bless us all (:
Sundays are lazy days for me. Napping after piano. Snacking whilst indulging in another novel (The Memory Keeper's Daughter.. Thanks to yt ! It's a library book but I saw it at pageone a few months back.. It's been good !). Today was also chock full of CSI. :D Yayy for grissom and nick and warrick ! I know what I'll be doing tomorrow. Shall make it a point to buy more vcd/dvd box sets ! Hoho.
I quite dig Mika's Grace Kelly but ruz doesn't, lols. The laptop battery's running low. I hope I get to spend my zara voucher tomorrow. Thanks lots qua (HUGSHUGS!) but either way (and I really doubt it), mich won't let us get married ! HAHA. I feel like going cycling but am afraid the weather won't be favourable. And I really should prepare for the interview right ? =/ And do other more meaningful things like practise on the piano. Am currently craving for honey stars, I don't know why. I should take advantage of my unemployed state though. Hmmm..
Nigel Barker has british, sri lankan, portuguese and irish origins. Oh so hot. :D I have a feeling I might not get to meet yizhen the gangster to play badminton because there is bridge on friday until 3. Meow. Remind me to grab lunch with those two ahaha.
I can't wait for bangkok but I'll be missing jema's departure. Noooooo whyyyyy bahhhhhh. 7 days till the concert. April is an excitingly good month with random job stints, the trip and phantom. But there's also jema leaving and the really crazy weather. =( Ayes.
Battery's down to fourteen percent. Off to continue with the book. (: Barley candy from China is not bad actually, hoho.
Sunday, April 08, 2007
♥ 12:06 AM
Oh the irony.
Sometimes I let my guard down and go through this whole 'heck, I don't care what you think about what I want to say about things'. It's something quite new to me in fact. Being honestly honest. Saying it like it is. I've learnt to care less. And it may not seem like it but a lot of the time, I hate being told what to do.
Anyways, it was a rainy day. I had a nice time with yl in the day and an interesting conversation with dj just now. Mmmms. Food for thought.
Chomp chomp was good though. Even though we weren't all that full. And chilling at hq's house, hurhur. His tv's huge !
It doesn't bother me as much as it did before probably because I've learnt to be a bit more independent and a bit less insecure in terms of having people around me. Hmmms. Anyways, piano tomorrow and am exhausted. Broke with a capital P-O-O-R ! ):
I really am contemplating making this diary private though I just created a private one. Haha what nonsense meow.
Friday, April 06, 2007
♥ 11:59 PM
The thing is, my desktop is in a seriously screwed up state. There's like what, 3% of free space on C drive ? The situation is dire I say. So my father was transferring things to E drive but progress is marred by frequent lapses into sleep mode. GRRRR. Hence the use of the laptop on which I am unable to access friendster and facebook. HO HUM.
Let me see.. So I zoo-ed on tues.. On weds I had the essay test which was alright I suppose.. Apart from the fact that I don't really think I answered the question properly and could've done more if I'd been given another hour (it was only a measly 45 minutes ! pbbfft). I hope my interview next week isn't going to be as horrifying as mich's. BECAUSE IT'S COSTING ME HALF A DAY'S PAY HMPH. I spent the evening with choir and the night at a secret meeting lols.
Thursday was my first day at work in school. It felt good to be back not just for the choir hurhur. Haha, everyone's reaction was the same. Wide eyes, 'you're teaching ?!', 'GP !??!?!?!'... Hahah, I love my juniors. And I love my teachers too especially now that I can er gossip with them ?! AHAHA. And and two cute guys asked me to grab lunch with them ! LOLS. Okay I'm not kidding about the lunch part but it's just to catch up. Hurhur. It was really weird 'teaching' people like aloy (who I wanted to whack lols, I'm behind time !) but interestingly fun at the same time. After mrhong guest lectured for KI, I was enamoured of him ! (okay not seriously though but still) He's so cute in a nerdy, maths-y kind of way. =X Funnily, I am looking forward to school again. Though not wednesday. =/
Treated my family to golden pillow just now. There was too much though but it was good ! Many thanks to tmx for the number ! I watched a cinderella story just now (continues to mourn loss of cable ) and CHAD MICHAEL MURRAY IS THE HOTTEST YOUNG ACTOR EVER ! (when he doesn't have long hair) I think he beats orlando bloom lolss. Ahhhh, I should get the dvd set of one tree hill. Hotness. I think I'd die happy if he danced with me in that halloween prince outfit he wore on the show. Waha. It's such a pity he isn't with sophia bush anymore.. She's wayy pretty..
You know, one thing I've learnt over the years is how to not show how you really feel. I suppose it has let many things fester and eventually come out the wrong way. It's a double edged sword and you realise that you've not been honest with yourself. I don't know.. That pretty much hasn't changed about me I guess. But I think as compared to secondary school days, I am much less emo. I've learnt to take things in my stride. Losers and completely unworthy morons for example. I've learnt to take criticism better (still working on this I think). I've learnt to let go of minor, petty details that can ruin everything.
At the same time, I can't say for sure if I'm the same trusting person I was. My eyes were forced open by circumstances to see the very ugly in people. Every single day I am painfully reminded of the mistakes I made. In judgement, perhaps. In falling and bruising too easily. Where I thought was grass, I found stone instead. I don't deny that I got frequently depressed and hurt too in cedar, a place I love very much. But it was different somehow. Funny how it was temporal then. Ten years in a girls school. HAHA. Perhaps it's because I'm never going to be fated dealing with guys. I mean, I do know some (make that, very very very few) pretty great ones but most of the time when I delve further, beyond the superficial, I end up feeling betrayed. Let me count.. oh just about THREE TIMES IN TWO YEARS. And the common misconception is that only females are bitchy.
Whatever. I can't live with this. Hence the need for distractions like cable and uni orients and crazy albeit depressed juniors/friends and outings with p10. Oh and a new blog address even though I like this one so very much.
Ah, sometimes we just need to take the pill as advertised on uncle gerald's blog. FUKITOL. Oh, and on a brighter note, I'm getting a new pair of spectacles. Hoho. They're pretty but not as funky as my current pair..
Why is it that when recognition is due, we are only awarded with empty words ? I truly hope I'm not wrong about this. Funny how I find my sentiments to echo dearsenior's. I'm enjoying all the nonsense now but cannot help but have the gut feeling that everything will fade into nothing. Like everything else before.
Two strangers turning into dust.
Another friend, another ubiquitous particle in the void of space.
Is it because I do not love so much now that I am faithless ? There can never be anything unconditional and inconsequential but there is greater restraint now. No doubt stemming from harrowing experiences. I can't help it. This constant paranoia has plagued me since young. Ironically, I admit to being very full of insecurities. Not outwardly but implicitly. It's just me to need regular reassurance. Hence the low threshold for criticism, big shocks and situations I cannot control. Is it not a very human trait to crave approval and acceptance ? As per normal, I'm not too sure what I'm driving at. But I suppose despite lower expectations of people, I am still unsatisfied. Rahh. I don't know.
Although for now, however unrealistic this sounds, I see myself half a century from now, unmarried and stroking my cat in the pten retirement home. LOLS.
JEMA I'M REALLY GOING TO MISS YOU. ):
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
♥ 11:25 PM
Am exhausted. Today was great despite two downpours and a huuuge hole in pocket ! =X I need to sleep early because I need to wake up early for the test. Hope I'm not late ! Long day tomorrow but I get to see my juniors (in a somewhat less stressful environment) and my friends so yay. I need to pack, prepare clothes and I want to read. Pictures tomorrow. (: Wish me luck !
Speaking of gao dimming music & lyrics, aloy is practising with colin in the morning tomorrow ? Wahah, wow.. Bravo !
Speaking of gao dimming music & lyrics, aloy is practising with colin in the morning tomorrow ? Wahah, wow.. Bravo !
Monday, April 02, 2007
♥ 10:23 PM
Rawr. I just really really dislike it when we perform crappily. It's the horrible feeling you get when you're singing; that things aren't right, things can be better, the pitching, the rhythm.. I don't think I used the semi colon correctly but I'm in too tired and annoyed a mood to care. =/ I'm not angry with the rest of the chorus just at myself.. That I should've practised and revised. GAH.
I just think it is important to take ownership. To be responsible as a choir member, a music maker. Foremostly to yourself. It is precisely because it a team effort that e v e r y s i n g l e p e r s o n has to put in their best. There should be at least very basic individual competency. I mean, sometimes I just don't get it. I don't know how some people can be comfortable with just faking their way through the songs. It doesn't feel good not knowing. To me at least. I am far from a role model. I know I didn't memorise my FF lyrics last year until the day before. And I was frantically doing so in econs lecture. =/ First half pieces, at least, should be memorised. Ayes, I don't know. Whatever the case, I pledge my support and assistance. I hope I can help them a little at least on weds.. Sigh.. I feel bad for being somewhat helpless and possibly a hindrance ? Meow.
I might be teaching again. For four days. But I haven't gotten the email. Hmmms. Oh, and I got my earrings I purchased online in the mail. Pretty ! Have to wake up early tomorrow. Probably going to the zoo, hoho. Okays, till tomorrow..
♥ 1:36 AM
I feel safer now that my parents are back. And they're in one piece, yay.
Honestly honestly, I'm disappointed. That's why I didn't actually want to ask in the first place. But grace did and I'm singing the same number of songs. I only remember like, xunny, mich and maybe qua turning up for the 05 concert. And it made more sense to go for tj's because more of us are there. Oh wells.
On a brighter note, I think it's really cool that by the concert, I would've sung in three different venues. VCH, SCH and Esplanade. My filipino penpal is quite cute but his hair is quite lame. I want jewellery from the met museum ! Okay, it seems that I now want very expensive stuff. NO. BAD. Bahhhh. And I also want a poster of Degas' ballerinas. I suppose my fascination for them stems from the fact that I cannot and never will be able to dance with such grace and beauty.
Ubi Amor Ibi Fides
Where there is love, there is faith.
I feel like having xiaolongbaos now. Those and haagen daz. HAHA. Choir later today and parents not working so chances are I get to eat out, hoho. New blogger's being a bitch, I can't change templates. So much for the first year anniversary of DAFC.
Somehow seeing all the stuff my parents brought back, I am reminded of xiamen. Very interesting shopping. Ayes, it was fun. Even the hellish practices. I'm glad I chose to go in the end.
Choir prac later.. May the big man not hang anyone..