Remember
Remember, I will still be here
As long as you hold me, in your memory
Remember, when your dreams have ended
Time can be transcended
Just remember me
I am the one star that keeps burning, so brightly,
It is the last light, to fade into the rising sun
I'm with you
Whenever you tell, my story
Remember, I will still be here
As long as you hold me, in your memory
Remember me
I am the one voice in the cold wind, that whispers
And if you listen, you'll hear me call across the sky
As long as I still can reach out, and touch you
Then I will never die
Remember, I'll never leave you
If you will only
Remember me
Remember me...
Remember, I will still be here
As long as you hold me
In your memory
Remember, when your dreams have ended
Time can be transcended
I live forever
Remember me
Josh Groban's Remember from the Troy soundtrack. (: I like how it sounds so mystical and erm middle eastern, lols. And despite my distaste for gore and violence, I've watched troy like what, 5 times ? Heh.
Like dearsenior corinna, some emotional outbursts should just remain as drafts or deleted posts. Mmms. Today was depressing. As I said, it's impossible to go beyond an E for history. I was really depressed about my grade all the same. Though the improved econs grade (hey, it's a small small step but FINALLY !!!) and my human geog drq results did cheer me up a little. But still. History. Is. The. Bane. Of. My. Existence. Uber depressing and it left me in a really foul mood for a long time. Interestingly enough, I decided to meet slse,and consequently gwei and xiaokai at some void deck on bishan st 13. Lols. Managed to finish one mcq paper, part of the tj compre and an itty bit of geog. But I had a really nice conversation with slse and was AMUSED TO DEATH with gwei and zkai. Their dance moves and funny albeit gross anecdotes. Especially zkai and his falsetto and ahh his facial expressions crack me up to no end, heh. Kitty looks like he's recovering, yup. Hurhur, I hope spots don't start to appear. =/ But they cheered me up a bit, so mmms, thankews. (: (:
Really nice, happy song. Doesn't quite reflect my mood but ah. Light and Day by Polyphonic Spree. It's from Scrubs and Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. Okay, too exhausted, mentally especially. I hope our mooncake thing goes well. Lols. Goodnight world.
Light and day
is more than you'll say
Because all
My feelings are more
Than i can let by
Or not
More than you've got
Just follow the day
Follow the day and reach for the sun!
You don't see me flyin to the red
One more you're done
Just follow the seasons and find the time
Reach for the bright side
You don't see me flyin to the red
One more you're nuts
Just follow the day
Follow the day and reach for the sun
Just follow the day
Follow the day and reach for the sun!
To quote darling sooks whom I miss lots. Heh.
(I hope you're okay girl.. lovelove to the girl with the same chinese name :D)
World's second biggest idiot waiting for the world's biggest idiot.
Hahaahha. The mooncake party thingy is so nonsensical. Tmx declared the theme to be fbt shorts. Lols, like what kind of theme is that ? Haha. Anyway, before tuition started I slept and bathed at her house. (she was doing maths whilst i was fast asleep on the floor. lols.) Ahhh, a beeeg THANK YOU to the kind host and wonderful friend. Heh. (:
I'm glad to hear that my lookylikey is enjoying herself in Warwick. Sheeeep ! Bleats. I think bleats is a cute word, lols. Blah, we're getting back hist2 tomorrow. Sigh. Maybe I should've taken maths. It's impossible go beyond an E. Ayes. The idol finale play by play is hilarious.
8.32pm Hady says he felt great. Gurmit's official theme for the night is 'Soak It In'. We vaguely felt like plants.
9.13pm Commercial break. We wanna drink JiaJia LiangTeh.
Hahaha. Some nonsense. Johnathan's last song. Dreamz FM's Should I Stay. I remember graces used to sing this alot last time, haha. It's really good and it's apparently a local chinese band or something. Heh. I miss quaaa. The poor girl was so distraught yesterday. Ayes. Oh and yesterday during break, we were analysing each other's study habits and profiles. Quite interesting, this reflection. And I must say I am very flattered to be compared within the same league as mraw. Haha. But seriously. Reality check. Ayes ayes. Ahpa is going to top the class ahh I'll bet. Hurhur, smart kid. Must've been where I got my genes from. Lols. =X And despite always copying his econs essays, my marks are still.. dismal. Just like history. Okay. Bahh. Sheep noises. People who owe me money. AHEM. =P Shaun the silly cow for one. And for adel's present. Blah. School sucks. Good night world.
Had a drive
Driven by your love
But when you messed around
I lost the drive I found
Thought you needed
Needed someone true
But you changed your mind
Or had I failed you?
Wish you'd been
Careful with my heart
But you tore it apart
And broke an angel's heart
The kiss was true
Has to end somehow
But I am livin' proof of what love is about
It's hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It's sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don't know (I don't know)
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?
You played me on
Played me like a clown
But I feel for you
Even though I'm down
My heart is heavy
Heavy like a rock
But I am so amused
You're still in my thoughts
It's hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It's sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don't know (I don't know)
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?
This time its done
It'll never feel the same
But we had some good times
Guess it's sad just the same
I guess the truth
Doesn't matter somehow
But you were livin' proof of what love is about
Calling all the stars to fall
And catch the silver sunlight in your hands
Call for me to set me free
Lift me up and take me where I stand
She believes in everything
And everyone and you and yours and mine
I waited for a thousand years
For you to come and blow me off my mind
Hey LYLA
The stars about to fall
So what you say LYLA
The world around us makes me feel so
small LYLA
If you can't hear me call
Then I can't say LYLA
Heaven help you catch me if I fall
She's the queen of all I've seen
And every song and city far and near
Heaven help my mademoiselle
She rings the bell for all the world to hear
Hey LYLA
The stars about to fall
So what you say LYLA
The world around us makes me feel so
small LYLA
If you can't hear me call
Then I can't say LYLA
Heaven help you catch me when I fall
EVERYONE HAS THEIR FIRSTS:
FIRST REAL BEST FRIEND: It'd probably be the ever so pretty crazy bouncy Nicolette Goh Mei Hsien. (:
FIRST SCHOOL: Ascension Kindergarten.
FIRST CELL PHONE: Nokia 3XXX. It had a really bright backlight and I remember losing it at fanghui's house after our 2nd sec2 barbecue.
FIRST FUNERAl: My maternal grandfather's I think.
FIRST PET: Goldfish in the tank by the window.
FIRST BIG TRIP: First reeeeaally beeeg trip was my sweden trip in primary6. My first time overseas without my family but with my friends. (:
FIRST FIGHT: Errrrm. No idea.
FIRST CELEBRITY CRUSH: I can't remember.. Haha.
FIRST TIME OUT OF THE COUNTRY?: I should think Gold Coast Australia. I remember SeaWorld, MacDonald's, Dreamworld.. Ahhh (:
FIRST JOB: At fanghui's aunt's factory place. Lolols. It was only for a day and 50 bucks.
FIRST MYSPACE FRIEND: Don't have myspace but I remember for friendster it was Sharon Lin.
EVERYONE HAS THEIR LASTS:
LAST PERSON YOU HUGGED: I can't remember ! =/ Must've been quite a while back.
LAST CAR RIDE: Ahpa's dad. Thankews (:
LAST TIME YOU CRIED?: Cant remember either. Don't think it was very recent either.
LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED: Okay bad. I can't remember this. Rawrr. Shows that I haven't watched anything in a loong looong while. I only remember Over The Hedge, lols.
LAST FOOD YOU ATE: Oranges..
LAST ITEM BOUGHT: Erms. My Daiso stuff !!
LAST SHIRT WORN: Ratty shirt that's really comfy..
LAST PHONE CALL: 2230hrs.
LAST TEXT MESSAGE: 2310hrs but I just read it. =X 0127 hrs.
LAST THING YOU TOUCHED: Ermmm. My mouse. Hahah
LAST TIME AT THE MALL: Compasspoint just now.
LAST TIME YOU WERE EXCITED FOR SOMETHING: Haha. The little things. Like during lunch when dafc was talking about the mooncake party and the erm mass 'shooting' of tmx and her evading lols.
LAST PERSON YOU SAW: Ermmmm. Apart from family, ahpa's dad ? Lols.
LAST THING YOU DRANK: Heych two ohh.
LAST TIME YOU WERE REALLY HONESTLYHAPPY? : Wow. I don't remember. Lols. The time just around before Xiamen.
NOW
Is your hair up? Yep.
Is your phone right beside you? Yeaah..
Do you wish you were somewhere else?: Yeahh. Who isn't ?
Do you have plans for tonight? Erm, hello it's 1am.
Are you wearing makeup? Read the above !
Are you wearing chapstick? Nope though it's something I think I need.
Are you cold? Not physically.
Are you tired? Haha. I spend every waking moment wishing I could sleep ? Lols. Yeahh. Emotionally, mentally..
Are you excited? No. What for ? Exam scripts. Phoooey.
Are you watching t.v.? Law & Order. I've watched this episode before !
DVD? Rewatching Frasier and Scrubs. (:
Are you wearing pajamas? Nope, just typical home stuff
Who's the last person you MSN-ed? Ermmm. Shaun last night.
Who's the last person that called you? My aunt.
PAST
Anything you regret? Yes.
Ever lied? Yeah. Am tryinggg.
Ever stuck gum under a desk? Nope. Am not really a fan of gum anyway.
Ever spit at someone? Nope.
Ever kick something living? Erm my siblings ? Lols. Not like, violently though.
Ever had your nails done? Yeaah. It felt quite nice but it cost a bomb.
Ever thrown up because you cried so hard? Nope.
REVEAL A LITTLE ABOUT YOURSELF:
TODAY
Have you cursed? Not today. Lols.
Have you yelled at someone? Nope. No reason to.
Have you gotten mad at someone? Nahh. Today was.. placid.
Have you cried? Errrm. No. I napped alot though.
Have you called more than 3 people? Nope only one.
Have you eaten anything gross? Haha nope.
SPILL YOUR GUTS!
What's something you look forward to most in the next 6 weeks? My birthday ! (: Okay. Just one day. Am not looking forward to the rest.
What's annoying you right now? The fact that I need to get started studying.
Do you believe in long distance relationships? Depends on how long I guess.
Where is the last place you went? Compasspoint.
Been cheated on? Haha, nahh.
Do you think that someone is thinking about you right now? I hope so.
Choose one to have (love, beauty, creativity): love.
Do you wish on stars? I haven't seen stars in a long time.
Are you a friendly person? Yep. (: Most of the time.
Are you keeping a secret from the world? Very hush hush.Lols.
Who's bed did you sleep in last night? Mine.
What color shirt are you wearing? It has quite a few colours.
Do you have any pets? My darling Clara. And fish.
What is the color of your bedsheets? Green now.
What were you doing at 9 last night?: Watching idol. Lols.
When is the last time you saw your dad? Just now ?
Ever cried yourself to sleep? unfortunately.
Ever cried on your friends shoulder? Nope.. Teared maybe..
Song that makes you cry? Haven't come across one yet.
Are you a normally happy person? It depends. Trying to stay happy is hard though..
Is your self-esteem low? Ah yes, I'm typically insecure. Lols.
What color are your eyes? The same colour as most people's.
Long or Short Hair: Shorter.
I forgot to wish Lemon Tangy ! His birthday was yesterday. Oh and adel did the personality test thing for us and she asked us to name an animal we saw in the forest. (okay, the actual test is longer, lols) So I said a horse because naturally I love horsies. (: Ahpong said a rabbit and Charlene said a snow wolf. (not before she said a unicorn. erm. right. she also answered fairy and hansel & gretel's house thing to other questions. lols, funny girl..) Then adel asked how we'd treat it. So we all said something along the lines of petting it. I said I'd give the horse a hug. Turns out, according to the quiz thing, the size of the animal is the size of the problem we're carrying and how we treat it is our approach to the problem. I'd say that a horse is pretty large but I don't quite think that I really embrace my problems. Hrms ahh. Interesting stuff. Okay. It's 2am and school starts in 5+ hours. Zzz.
'You don't get to call me a whore. When I met you, I thought I had found the person that I was going to spend the rest of my life with. I was done. So all the boys, and all the bars, and all the obvious daddy issues, who cared? Because I was done. You left me. You chose Addison. I'm all glued back together now. I make no apologies for how I chose to repair what you broke. You don't get to call me a whore.'
Meredith Grey of Grey's Anatomy. Hahaha. Something I should've said. I'm not talking about the whore bit though.
Okay I hope everyone who owes me money will pay me back soon so I can stop owing other people money. We didn't get any papers today but the near future is bleaker than bleak. Our class has a D average for geog. Not good. In happier news, we're having a mooncake party ! (: I hope I can go. It's saturday night at tmx's place. Lanterns and chrysanthemum tea, lols. Wl was saying something about burning lanterns. =/ Riiight.
'Mark yellow ! Mark yellow !' (: I have the funnest conversations with ahpa and I enjoy the car rides courtesy of mr low senior, hurhur. We got caught and scolded for passing regina's birthday card during gp. Rahh. But mondays are great. I only have gp and history lectures. I hate name calling during history though. Pbbbfffft.
J.D on hot air balloons
In hysterics,
'IT'S FLOATING WICKER PROPELLED BY FIRE !!!'
ROFL ! Scrubs ! Watching tv sitcoms like Scrubs and Frasier make me happy like nothing else can. (: (: Clay Aiken guest starred. Speaking of which, HADY won idol ! Woots ! Humz must be crying rivers of joy, heh. Okay, we're getting our geog papers first thing tomorow and our econs mcq paper. Ah, the rivers I will be crying.
I never said I wasn't scary and damaged too.
RAWRRR THE HOLS ARE OVER !!!! ): ): ):
Lols. So I cut my hair today and painted macaroni and watched scrubs (again) and made the teeny belated treats for the sops and made a retarded looking pouch thing for my zen and watched idol. Then was nagged at to cleanup so I didn't have time to reply messages. Okay rah. Am dreading tomorrow. ): I lost my truncated timetable too. Blah. It's been awhile, lols.
Ooh. I found my timetable, hurhur. CEDAR WAS ON TV !!! I am so goshdarnit proud. The oals and mr suresh !!! Heh. Uncle bee !! Runs around in happy circles. Ahh, the good old days at jln bahtera.. Canoeing ! (: Funny how ltc actually turned out to be a good thing, haha. And I have the psl board and my lovely seniors to thank. Okay, don't get me started on the OH SO FAB PSLBoard. :D
Time to face doom. Bleagh, depressing. Good mornnnning world.
I hope biaodi kitty is recovering. Hang in there kiddo ! (:
And to mei, my darling lookylikey, I'll reallyyyy miss you ! 235798 hugs and 53 more :D Love you much much !
talk is cheap.
everybody wants to rule the world.
I saw lohch and his funky girlfriend in town today. I didn't have long to look but I think she's quite pretty and different. If only there was someone like him erm ten years younger with the same low sexy voice (as I recall ahpa saying, lols), haha. My aunt got me the black and gold adidas jacket for my birthday. Hoho, it's currently out of stock but yeah. Not the LFC one which she said was too loud but it's really nice still. Found a really cool store at PS. It sells jap stuff and everything (and it has like, EVERYTHING) is going for 2 bucks. Hoho. I bought some random stuff. A new pencil case, a glass jar and the cutest salt/pepper shakers. They're shaped like a rabbit and an elephant. Yeah I know, the nonsense I buy. Xiaokang wasn't free for dinner. ): But we shall go jogging around singapore soon ayes, hurhur. And I can't meet p8 (or whoever's going. at the moment, it's qua, jema and graces) tomorrow for the movie because I figured I spent WAYY too much and I've been out of the house quite a bit, and I'm tired and I need to get my hair cut and I'm not sure if my parents will be pleased. BAH. Grumbles. Another time, I suppose. My father got me the dvd of Coldplay in concert. Amsterdam, Yellow, The Scientist, Clocks, God Put A Smile Upon Your Face. Heh, chris martin..
Of all the things I was ever planning for
this was the last thing on my mind.
):
On the plane to xiamen, july 23rd. dj, yt and I. (:
On the train from city hall, september 22nd. dj, yt and I. (:
Db and I and lovely mango tops. I want ! 49 bucks. BAHH.Was late meeting db because I was buying stamps to post my lookylikey's letter. We had pasta at cine before going over to heeren where she bought a handphone pouch and we took our customary neoprints. Lols. Eeeks. Okay and I saw the OH SO GORGEOUS ADIDAS LFC JACKET. Rawrrr, I want !!! And I really like the shoes too though I don't think I'd really wear them. On the way to taka, I bought this really nice simple bracelet. (: Only 3 bucks so shush. I got db her very belated birthday gift, a grey adidas bottle. Hoho. Then we gushed over the toys and books at the better toy store and kino. Arrgh. I wish I could have an endless supply of kino vouchers. We tried clothes at mango and almost did at forever21 but the queue was long. Gahh. We headed to far east where we had fried mars bars. Can anything be more unhealthy and heavenly ? Hurhur. We walked around abit and I bought earrings. I know I know. =X I can't help it, I'm obsessed ! Yikes. Then I lent db money for a jodi picoult book. Then I headed to suntec to meet yl and gang.
Unfortunately, dj chose fish and co. The other option was karaoke so erm well. Hahaha. I tell you, 17 bucks for 2/3rds of a fish and rice meal is A BLOODY RIP OFF. S;LJGLSJGIRUG WRGGJN Grumbles majorly. Only 6 of us were there though. I didn't get to celebrate lala's birthday. There was hq, dj, frankie, yl, yt and I. Some lame ass fun with the fountain and laser show.
From: malcolm. To: malcolm- happy belated birthday to myself ! i love kiahui !!!
HAHAHA. Malcolm is an idiotic cow I tell you.
Yup. So that was today. Which was also Wilberg and Junwei's birthday. (: (: Saw quite a bunch of people in town today. Steroid boy and his girlfriend, bikini and weiting, vanna and gwen, ah pong (!!! and her funky mum !), josh (!!!! suspicious hahah), kristine.. Can't think of anymore at the moment. Apparently caryn and shawn were at ms, hrms.
Oh no, am currently hooked on Fergie's London Bridges. Baaaddd. Heh. Blah, I overspent today. 17 for the meal (I still owe dj), 26 for frankie and lala's presents as well as some old debt (And I still owe yl), 11.50 I lent to db, 7 bucks on db's present, 6 bucks on my earrings, 3 bucks on the bracelet, 5 bucks for the neos, 8 bucks for the pasta, 2 bucks for the stamps, 10 bucks to top up my card, 3 bucks for the mars bar. Oh my tian (to borrow nessa's phrase). I still owe people 13 bucks and I'm going to receive 31.50 plus an additional 10 bucks for transport. Ahhs. Okay. Depressing situation. Wants LFC jacket (though am not a fan), novels from sunny's, the beatrice letters from kino, tops from mango and earrings from far east. BAHH.
I am attracted to all things communist. Even the picture of Mao's statue on newsweek piqued my interest. Hehe. And I saw some guy with the communist party shirt ! Am envious. Bleagh. More shopping tomorrow. Oh and for the first time, I used eyeliner ! Exciting. I look even more like a panda. Heh. I need to lose weight. Rawrr. So much for doing mcq and starting on my second book.
Between the end of prelims and the resumption (is there such a word ?) of studies, life is good. Hoho. Why don't I see cj ? Lols.
Aruba, Jamaica, ooh I wanna take ya
Bermuda, Bahama, come on pretty mama
Key Largo, Montego, baby why don't we go,
Jamaica
Off the Florida Keys there's a place called Kokomo
That's where you wanna go to get away from it all
Bodies in the sand, tropical drink melting in your hand
We'll be falling in love to the rhythm of a steel drum band
Down in Kokomo
Aruba, Jamaica, ooh I wanna take you to
Bermuda, Bahama, come on pretty mama
Key Largo Montego, baby why don't we go
Ooh I wanna take you down to Kokomo,
we'll get there fast and then we'll take it slow
That's where we wanna go, way down in Kokomo.
Martinique, that Monserrat mystique...
We'll put out to sea and we'll perfect our chemistry
By and by we'll defy a little bit of gravity
Afternoon delight, cocktails and moonlit nights
That dreamy look in your eye, give me a tropical contact high
Way down in Kokomo
Port au Prince, I wanna catch a glimpse...
Everybody knows a little place like Kokomo
Now if you wanna go to get away from it all
Go down to Kokomo
'But we, wretched scholars and fainthearted bookworms, have lain in word-hoards, feeding on paper and ink, believing in poetry and dreaming of miracles. We are fools!'
The book highlighted quite a few literary geniuses. Am very very out of touch and I admit they and their works are quite beyond my comprehension. Goethe (polymath ! new word. coolness.) and Dante. Started linking around to Chekhov and Tolstoy and Faust and some philosophical stuff. Too deep, I say. Though I'd love for someone to enlighten me. Hehs.
Went for a pizza hut meal after human geog (although it was arguably the paper I was least prepared for) which was alright I guess. The only girls who went were pong, regina, tmx and I. The only guys who didn't go were ht, ahpa, jason (qy, lols). Right, so the rest of dafc was sorely missed. ): Don't think we're going anytime soon or buying our jersey either. Hmmms. The girls and jq went to j8 to get adel's present (I know, rather premature lols) and we went to the bishan library ! BEAMS. Thanks to aunty josephine for lending me her card to bring home some yummy novels. (: I only hope I can gobble them up before they're due.
I like my new layout. Lyrics from Oasis' Wonderwall. Yayy, I'm going out with db tomorrow and may meet yl and gang for dinner. Pity the rest of p10 can't make it tomorrow because qua suggested catching John Tucker Must Die. Darn, it's been a while since I've had a dose of chickflicks with p10. I'll be towning again on sat, woots. Ahpa just informed me that the guys will be soccering at hougang tomorrow and twinks is scheduled to appear ! RAWWWWRRS. I want to watch. Lols. But since tmx is preoccupied and we'll probably have to pose as wannabe cheerleaders to justify our presence, I guess we shouldn't turn up. HAHA. Darnn. Some yellow ribbon, hehe.
My favourite (and only haha, <3<3) lookylikey is leaving on monday for the university of warwick ! Booo. I'm not done with her letter. =/ But anyways, oh no rahh. I hope I'll still see her online. This is saddd, I'm going to miss her. ):
Anyways, am going to continue with my book. Mmms. (: Seejay ! Hehe, I wish.
Damn it's 930 already.
Tomorrow machiam no exam. Rawrr. My human geog notes await. I don't have time to read ecad. At all. Which is very bad considering the physical paper where I didn't really prepare for climo at all but was forced to do both the drqs. =/ They're out to kill I say.
Listen as your day unfolds
Challenge what the future holds
Try and keep your head up to the sky
Lovers, they may cause you tears
Go ahead release your fears
Stand up and be counted
Don't be ashamed to cry
You gotta be
You gotta be bad, you gotta be bold
You gotta be wiser, you gotta be hard
You gotta be tough, you gotta be stronger
You gotta be cool, you gotta be calm
You gotta stay together
All i know, all i know, love will save the day
Herald what your mother said
Readin' the books your father read
Try to solve the puzzles in your own sweet time
Some may have more cash than you
Others take a different view
My oh my heh, hey
You gotta be bad, you gotta be bold
You gotta be wiser, you gotta be hard
You gotta be tough, you gotta be stronger
You gotta be cool, you gotta be calm
You gotta stay together
All i know, all i know, love will save the day
Don't ask no questions, it goes on without you
Leaving you behind if you can't stand the pace
The world keeps on spinning
You can't stop it, if you try to
This time it's danger staring you in the face
Oh oh oh remember
Listen as your day unfolds
Challenge what the future holds
Try and keep your head up to the sky
Lovers, they may cause you tears
Go ahead release your fears
My oh my heh, hey, hey
You gotta be
You gotta be bad, you gotta be bold
You gotta be wiser, you gotta be hard
You gotta be tough, you gotta be stronger
You gotta be cool, you gotta be calm
You gotta stay together
All i know, all i know, love will save the day
Desree's Gotta Be. I just love great lyrics. (: And not just those of melancholic songs. Anyhoos, 20th sept is tomorrow ! And I can finally take a legitimate (nonetheless non deserved) break. Haha, and before history commenced today adel and I were waiting outside the library for hzbro to finish maths. And and, I saw twinks and cj ! HAHAHA. Otherwise known as sixty bucks. Because according to db's classmate, it sounds like sexy butt. Waahah. Cj mmms. (: I have a penchant for intriguing (though not very cute at all) people.
Okay goodnight. By this time tomorrow it'll be ruz's birthday and I'll be FREE !!! (: At least for awhile. Lols.
Bel, you gotta be stronger.
FRICK.
As Elliot from Scrubs likes to say.
History is the bane of my existence. No scratch that, tests and exams are.
I wish today was saturday. ): ): ):
Okay threadless.com is a really good site for great graphics and quirky pictures. I like. (: I saw edna's blog shirt-with-the-middle-finger there. Heh. 3 hours of speed reading through the USSR notes = pure agony. Ooh, pictures from threadless ! (: The yellow one is titled rock animals ! Get it ! I do ! The Beatles, The Apes, The Turtles, The Eagles and The Byrds ! (:
Oh and this one I couldn't resist. After half a century's worth of Chinese/Soviet history. Communist party ! Hehs, double entendre ! Lols. Okay, such nonsense amuses me.
Sometimes we just need our friends to baby us, to tell us what we want to hear instead of spell out all the right (morally, ethically, whatnot) stuff. A lot of the time, we're fishing for sympathy, that knowing coo and the correct answer always involves an ego massage. It's pretty hard to get that nowadays methinks. Brutal honesty seems to be the trend. Mmms..
Right, 4am and I need to not oversleep tomorrow so I can do econs and the arms race. Yay. Right. 20th september ! Hoho.
Do you remember that day
That sunny day
When you first came my way
I said no one could take your place
If you get hurt
If you get hurt
By the things I say
I'll put that smile back on your face
And it's alright
And it's comin' on
We gotta get it right back to where we started from
Love is good
Love can be strong
We've gotta get right back to where we started from
A love like ours
Will never fade away
You know its only just begun, yeah baby
You gave me your love
I just can't stay away, no
And its alright
And it's coming on
We gotta get it right back to where we started from
Love is good
Love can be strong
We gotta get it right back to where we started from
Cleopatra's Right Back to Where We Started From. (: (: It's a really happy, feel good song. Haha, courtesy of zhixiong. Yes yes, just like kiki said PRELIMS SUCK and PTEN RULES! (: Jumps around. Haha, was looking at my old neoprints and I realised I don't have any with kiki and graces. Ethel too but erm yeah. Lols.
1. One book you have read more than once
Erm. This is really hard. I've re read tons of books. I'd say White Oleander by Janet Fitch.
2. One book you would want on a desert island
Erm erm erm !! The Bible. (:
3. One book that made you laugh
Hard one again. Haha, Me Talk Pretty One Day by David Sedaris. Or any of the Adrian Mole books by Sue Townsend.
4. One book that made you cry
Erm, haven't found that book yet. =/
5. One book you wish you had written
Maybe Jane Austen. I never got around to finishing Emma though. ):
6. One book you wish had never been written
Errrrrr. No idea really.
7. One book you are currently reading
Not reading anything apart from notes. Have been substituting re-reading my storybooks with watching episodes of Scrubs/Frasier (damn, I'm lucky). Heh. But I'm looking forward to read Evil Star by Anthony Horrowitz, borrow my next Murakami and buy another book from the series of unfortunate events. (:
8. One book you have been meaning to read
Lolita by Nabokov.
9. One book that changed your life
How about the book that WILL change my life ? The bible.
I'm tagging (but you don't have to do it)
Uncle gerald, gwei the kitty, xiaokai, zhanny, saffie, aggie and er anyone else who has a blog and wants to do this. Lols.
The October Baby..
Loves to chat, Loves those who loves him, Loves to takes things at the centre, Attractive and suave, Inner and physical beauty (HAHAH ! YES ! right.), Does not lie or pretend, Sympathetic, Treats friends importantly, Always making friends, Easily hurt but recovers easily (most of the time,heh), Bad tempered (sometimes =/), Selfish (I try not to be), Seldom helps unless asked (not true !!!), Daydreamer, Very opinionated (depends on what the situation is, but I do love a good argument =X), Does not care of what others think, Emotional (sometimes methinks), Decisive (so not true), Strong clairvoyance, Loves to travel, the arts and literature (yep though I don't quite like planes), Soft-spoken (introvert you see.. lols), loving and caring, Romantic, Touchy and easily jealous (hrms, perhaps though I try not to be), Concerned, Loves outdoors, Just and fair, Spendthrift (YES ! baaaadd.) and easily influenced, Easily lose confidence.
Does your name begin with: C
You are a very social individual, and it is important to you to have a relationship. You require closeness and togetherness. You want the object of your affection to be socially acceptable and good-looking (HAHAHA ! WHO DOESN'T ? lols). You see your lover as a friend and companion. You are very sensual, Needing someone to appreciate and almost worship you. When this cannot be achieved, you have the ability to hold out on affection until you receive this.. You are an expert at controlling your desires and doing without.
From Zhanny's blog. Thanks kiddo. (: Quite true eh ? Hurhur. Lame stuff, I like. Okay, have to go finish up my notes on the Deng Xiaoping era and start on the USSR. Bleagh.
Where are we? What the hell is going on?
The dust has only just begun to fall,
Crop circles in the carpet, sinking, feeling.
Spin me round again and rub my eyes.
This can't be happening.
When busy streets a mess with people
would stop to hold their heads heavy.
Hide and seek.
Trains and sewing machines.
All those years they were here first.
Oily marks appear on walls
Where pleasure moments hung before.
The takeover, the sweeping insensitivity
of this still life.
Hide and seek.
Trains and sewing machines. (Oh, you won't catch me around here)Blood and tears,
They were here first.
Mmm, what you say?
Mm, that you only meant well? Well, of course you did.
Mmm, what you say?
Mm, that it's all for the best? Ah off course it is.
Mmm, what you say?
Mm, that it's just what we need? And you decided this.
Mmm what you say?What did she say?
Ransom notes keep falling out your mouth.
Mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut-outs.
Speak no feeling, no I dont believe you.
You don't care a bit. You don't care a bit.
Ransom notes keep falling out your mouth.
Mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut-outs.
Speak no feeling, no I don't believe you.
You don't care a bit. You don't care a bit.
You don't care a bit.
You don't care a bit.
You don't care a bit.
You don't care a bit.
You don't care a bit.
No papers for me until monday afternoon. I want want want to see the Dali exhibits. And get our jersey (even if it means only pong, caryn and I getting it =/) . Rawrr.
Okay. Like, ISN'T CANNAVARO THE HOTTEST GUY EVER ?! Hurhur.
I can't wait for wednesday. Oh which happens to be Ruz's birthday as well. Heh, pranksters ! Lols. I have a thing for people with small eyes. Sorta. Mmms. I need moolah ! Yeah, couch potato-ing and playing in the pool with ah huay our mother hen sunbathing after next week. And are we still doing the lantern fest nonsense ? HAHA.
I feel quite bad because now I owe shawnie and hzbro birthday presents. And I still am not done with other little choir gifts. And and more importantly, my lookylikey is leaving next next week ! ): ): ): Ah yikes, no moolah. Zzz.
I've recently developed a horrible obsession with the hairs on my legs. Don't ask.
Huiting is really really sweet. I'm still very touched, heh. Thanks lots ting mei ! ((: Beams.
Funny, perhaps it's because of the exams that I've been thinking less. Good job bel. I can't wait for the 20th of this month.
Hey Kid... Your time has come to change
Though I need you more than I've needed anyone in any way tonight
Hey Kid... I know it won't be long
The Captain's calling...come to see you back where we belong
Something inside me is breaking
Something inside says there's somewhere better than this...
Sunset sailing on April skies
Bloodshot fire clouds in her eyes
I can't say what I might believe
But if God made you he's in love with me
Hey Kid...Do wishes count at all
Can you give me a sign...give me anything I won't tell a soul you told
Hey Kid...Will you hold me when I sleep
Will you find me when the tide decides that I got to leave
Something inside me is breaking
Something inside says there's somewhere better than this...
Sunset sailing on April skies
Bloodshot fire clouds in her eyes
I can't say what I might believe
But if God made you he's in love with me
Five for Fighting's If God Made You.
Finally, a veryveryvery blessed birthday to my ahpa,
SHAWN LOW (:
If I had to think of a great guy friend, it'd be him :D Not only because his dad gives me lifts lots of times, definitely not because he's a man u fan (bleaaagh), but because he's reeeeaally nice, fun, unafraid to suan me (lols, golden hands, the convict and various soccer hunks) and more importantly, he makes me laugh. I always enjoy my conversations with him, both the deep and superficial ones. All the nonsense during econs and sabo-ing him in the car. And all his lame ass stuff like, 'confession !' and 'reverse psychology, you like him !', his weird theories too. Like the inverse relationship between inner and outer beauty (with the exceptions.. -_-). LOLS. Yups, I've been blessed with a good friend. Thank you. (:
But we all bleed the same way as you do
And we all have the same things to go through
Hold on if you feel like letting go
Hold on it gets better than you know
Don't stop looking, you're one step closer
Don't stop searching, it's not over
Hold on
Good Charlotte's Hold On. My message to all those tied to the local education system. Insert contorted look reflecting pure anguish. Yep. Hold on. The Beach Boys' Kokomo is nice. (: And so for the fourth and second last time in two years, it begins.
He drowns in his dreams
An exquisite extreme I know
He's as damned as he seems
And more heaven than a heart could hold
And if I try to save him
My whole world could cave in
It just ain't right
It just ain't right
Oh and I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful,
Or just a beautiful disaster?
His magical myth
As strong as what I believe
A tragedy with
More damage than a soul should see
And do I try to change him?
So hard not to blame him
Hold on tight
Hold on tight
Oh cuz I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful,
Or just a beautiful disaster?
I'm longing for love and the logical
But he's only happy hysterical
I'm waiting for some kind of miracle
Waitin' so long
So long
He's soft to the touch
But frayed at the end he breaks
He's never enough
And still he's more than I can take
Oh cuz I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful,
Or just a beautiful disaster?
One week just breezed by like that. Whoosh. And it wasn't an exhilirating ride or anything either. But crap, studying, what's the use ? I'm just feeling very stoned. As in quite literally impermeable. (so that means I can't be limestone. lols.) Caryn called and we talked about how we're just really turned off by work. Sigh, but she's a really hard worker. Unlike me. The prelims will just be one huge disaster. Not beautiful. More like painful.
Let's just not go there. It's this cycle of depression. Effects of the great depression. Ha-ha.
Uncle Gpt wants song recommendations. So I'm recommending the live version of beautiful disaster. It's so sad and beautiful. Heh. And Counting Crow's murder of one. (: Oh and I'm not sure if it's considered old school but Journey's Don't Stop Believing is quite cool too. Okay, my taste is quite.. different. I hope. Lols. AHHHH. I just want to spend the whole day couch potato-ing to Scrubs. I want to get all 5 seasons. Oh and speaking of consumerism, I want the squishy pooh bear from action city and the whole series of unfortunate events including the beatrice letters and the soundtrack. And a nokia phone. Heh, lols.
He's never enough
And still he's more than I can take
God bless us all everyone ! Or whatever that little lame boy in A Christmas Carol said.
Okay, 21st September is officially THE DAY for spring cleaning.
Honestly, my room is so full of stuff, I can barely navigate around the clutter. Need to further sort out my papers too. Just spent almost 2 hours filing. And I seem to be missing population and urbanization. ARGH. Luckily geog 2 is on the following week.
Honestly, I have little hope for the coming exams. It's very depressing because I just feel as if all I've done so far is for nought. And it's already the bare minimum. So yeah, just going to try my bestest. Shrugs.
Honestly, I do not know what I want to do in future. Mich was saying that she's heading for a diploma for physiotheraphy at some poly next. I'm just like, wow. Everyone's got their futures mapped out. I mean even db knows that she's more or less going to do chem engineering. But I seriously have. no. idea. I just know it has to be FASS. Sigh.
Honestly, hist at the moment is quite hopeless. I'm sorry to say that it REALLY SUCKS. Blahhh. Okay whatever. Right now I'm going to go try to salvage the prelim situation by looking at econs.
There was something in your voice,
That was telling me don't be too sure,
Arousing my suspicions,
I have never felt before,
I thought we had it made,
I thought you'd never go away.
But now you're suddenly like a stranger,
And you're leaving our love behind,
Of all the things I was ever planning for,
This was the last thing on my mind.
When I looked into your eyes,
There was something you weren't telling me,
But in my confusion I just couldn't see,
If there was any doubt,
I thought that we would work it out.
Steps' songs have really sad lyrics but they always sound techno-ish and kinda happy. Haha, the irony.
Oh and because db is his greatest fan (at least in Singapore, maybe haha)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUGH GRANT
Lols.
So I'm back. To all the clutter and a more complicated life. It's funny how the two places are symbolic. My house is a constant reminder of the state of emergency I should be in. The mess, the files, the noise, the lack of space. My grandma's is the opposite. The space, the quiet, the simplicity, the serenity. A place where I am not reminded of the rush rush rush of everyday. Although I guess the stacks of files lying around did serve as post it reminders that took up too much space. Sadly. Still. Sigh.
ANYHOW,
the past week was a very uneventful one. Tution the whole of monday practically. Thank goodness for the company of two wonderful people (three actually, but only for awhile, lols) and a less than adequate playground. Wednesday was hopelessly unproductive but but I got to meet 4 out of 8 of us ! (technically, it's 5, counting myself, haha..) Graces and the chairman, kiki (whom I haven't seen in EONS), michy and jema. :D :D Pity I couldn't stay.. Didn't get to see sally (and joshua ? the third orbital, with desmond and kenneth.. heh) and quaa though. Had fun reminiscing though we had to study a bit, lols. Thursday was even more unproductive. Studying in school with zx and lunching afterwards at hougang mall where we coincidentally met llee and his wife. =/ Then I spent the rest of the day at db's house. Haha, talking and walking bruno more than actually studying. Today's not bad I guess.. Didn't end up meeting czhu though. Mmms.
My aunt brought back 2 seasons of Frasier and one season of Scrubs. JOYYY. I can't wait for the 20th of september. Heh. THANKS MUCHO to AUNTY JOSEPHINE aka Charlene for being ever so thoughtful and sending me a soft copy of the timetable and explaining the water budget calculations to me. (:
In other news, my zen is fixed. Finally. Wooots. And Steve Irwin got stung by a stingray. ):):): I've watched his show a few times and to tell you the truth, I'm no fan of reptiles. But his enthusiasm and his love of wildlife really captivated and inspired me. So yeahhh. And I'm the sort of person who loves people who love animals. It's a real pity but like what I read in the papers about what his dad said, he died doing what he loved. I think that's what really counts, no matter what everyone else is saying. Yups. Ayes..
Was chewing over the thought that the kitty put out as food on his blog. The purpose of blogs. What usually begins as a diary or a chronicle of one's innermost thoughts and feelings, ends up to be a display but only of a facade. Sort of. It depends I guess, the sort of blogger. But surely even the most soul bearing blogger will not expose every single raw unadulterated emotion. I think it has to do with privacy and how, try as one might, no one can ever truly be anonymous and remain encapsulated in a comfortable little bubble. Maybe it's because we hide behind these screens and monitors that judging others before we walk in their moccasins has become so much simpler.
Food for thought eh. Hurhur, the result of pondering whilst muching on that morsel. Seriously, honest to goodness, I hope to get more than an E for econs. Seriously, honest to goodness, it'll be a miracle if I get an E for history. ): Sometimes I wish I stuck to maths. I don't like learning for the sake of exams. ): Sigh. Kiki is really lucky. What I wouldn't give to jet off to australia next year to do a degree in vet science. What I wouldn't give. Anyway, the snowskin mooncakes from the raffles hotel rock. They have chocolate (laced with a wee bit of alcohol) centers ! Yummms.
Funny, but I was singing stevie wonder's lately during my bath. Heh. Okay. Tomorrow (today ?)'s a new day for studying or rather, rushing through history and econs. Rawrr. I'm much better than this. It'll just have to wait until after the 20th of september. I wish we could have more than just a 2 week study break. Gah. Never underestimate the power of overcompensation. Seriously ? I need lots and lots and lots of moolah. To pay for my education at the Chulalongkorn University. Or maybe just a superhero.
It's a repeat of 2005. Something I cannot afford.
hope my premonition misses.
Just before I leave again.. But I don't think it'll be for as long this time.
http://www.stomp.com.sg
Vote Cedar for coolest uniform. (: I think we're leading by about, 300 votes ? Heh.
And to borrow a line from saffie's nick and a really nice song,
'cos we, could be happy can't you see
Argh. Studying. GROANS. Wish me luck.
My 300th post.
I think about sooks. I think about xunny.
Two extremes.
And I think that
we all deserve better than this.
I'm determined to go white water rafting in future.
A long time ago,
we used to be friends.
It's how you make of it that counts.
Oh and it's seldom that I'm harsh but hey, I'm taking a pessimistic leaf out of the series of unfortunate events. I want the soundtrack. And the books. But I digress. For all those who are emo-ing (which is like everyone, me included),
SMILE ! No one cares how you feel.
I'm back home for the weekend. I foresee HORRIBLE days and weeks ahead. Except maybe this coming tuesday. I'll be meeting my all the wonderfully-delicious-and-lovely people of p10. Minus the usual suspects, lols. Apparently we're supposed to wear red ? Erm lols okayy. It was really really really sweet of them to change it to tuesday. I have econs the whole of monday, booo. Annd, I forgot sally's birthday. Erpx erpx erpx. So,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR SALLY ! AT THIS POINT, ANYTHING IS BETTER THAN BEING 18 ! SO BE GLAD YOU'RE 17 !!! (: LOVE !!!
It hasn't really been hard living without the computer really. The more pressing problem is how I doze off really early in the night. The place is really sleep inducing. Miaow. I'm still very worried about history. ): And it doesn't help either that a certain teacher is in frequent contact with my father. HRMPH. Me no likey.
JASON is hilariously politically correct. And effing smart okayys.
:D
Let me list 20 things I'd rather spend this holiday doing in random order because I like making lists. You know. Just because.
1. Hanging out with p10. (not like, studying. ): but seeing them is good all the same..)
2. Trying on clothes with db.
3. Shopping or doing something artsy with sooks.
4. Catching up with the stalkers.
5. Having the sushi buffet or marina bay steamboat with dafc.
6. Going trigger happy and crappy with the choir people..
7. Just browsing at the new bishan library
8. Visiting some of the biennale exhibits (nyahh, I need a healthy dose of positive externalities..)
9. Watching Tony Takitani at the picturehouse. It's based on a Murakami book I think..
10. Watching something more lighthearted like The Devil Wears Prada or something.
11. Renting comedies.. I want to borrow The Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants.. The books is nice, heh. Chick lit..
12. Couch potato-ing to Frasier on dvd..
13. Cycling at pasir ris park
14. Beaching at sentosa or east coast
15. Finally buying/making the gifts I owe the choir people =X
16. Alternating between napping and having ice cream
17. Fine dining.. Crystal jade la mian ! Or some al fresco place mmms.. (oh oh, I recommend the italian restaurant beside serene centre in bukit timah. FABULOUS. the food, the service, the bill =/ no but seriously, it's gooood..)
18. Photoshopping. And taking photos around the island.
19. Going crazy at the arcade
20. Anything but studying.
Hrmphs. Shall have to wait till november. I CAN'T BLOODY WAIT. Ahem. Yes. I'll have time to read then. And socialise. HAW HAW HAW. The stuff the picturehouse will be showing looks really yummy, yikes. Sometimes I wonder why I didn't take mass comm or tourism at some poly. Sigh.
It's interesting because we all have our different approaches. And my philosophy is that if I think it's worth my effort, I'm not just going to let it diminish to nothing. 2005, I thought wrong. I hope I won't be seeing a repeat of the same stupidity, absurdity and senselessness in 2006. I think it's too early to tell. I hope I'm right.
It's a vicious cycle. It's happening again. Someone has to give. It's your turn now. It's more than mere accomodation. I'm talking about holding on to the last threads of self respect. Ayes. The lyrics to Misread by the Kings of Convenience seem very apt now.
Blah. This is the fault of the prelims. Screwww. Oh, goodnight.