Friday, September 30, 2005
♥ 9:59 PM
Don't blame it on sunshine
Don't blame it on moonlight
Don't blame it on good times
Blame it on the boogie
(:
Magnets I still love ! HAHA. I so want their CD. Laadeedaadeedaa.. I so want to go paint the town red in bad girl clothes after the exams. ((: I CAN'T WAIT. Gosh. Hurhur. I had a really really nice conversation with jiemin. Whee, really great senior and predecessor yesterday. Heh. CEDAR WROKS.
Didn't study in school today. Had lunch with some of the guys. Terence was quite upset today, hope he's alright. Hmmms.
Loh and Johnson really rock. Beams. Trans fat on the way ! Heh, oreeeeooos. Vvvvv. Hurhur. (((: Still not feeling quite that relieved but love them all the same.
Marcia Cross is very pretty for a middle aged lady. I love her hair. Hahaha. Must must reiterate..
JAMES DENTON AKA MIKE DELFINO IS DROP DEAD GORGEOUS !
melts into a puddle. Wahahahahah. Babbles incoherently.
'Jamie resides in Southern California with his wife, the former actress turned personal trainer, Erin O'Brien, and their son and daughter. He's a sports fan, with basketball and baseball (he still plays both, whenever he can) edging out the rest, if he's pressed to choose a "favorite." He loves animals and supports "rescue" efforts on the front-line, by taking strays off the streets and finding them good homes. Jamie has also been a big brother/mentor and continues to contribute his time to other causes close to his heart.'
AWWWWW.
Okay, I really should start on work. Instead of like, fantasizing and stuff. Erpx. Heehee.
♥ 1:32 AM
The plumber from desperate housewives is
so darn hot.
Rugged and all.
SWOONS. (((x
Thursday, September 29, 2005
♥ 10:32 PM
Mmmms, rose tea is lovely. The subtle hint of rose. (: Just finished packing my history and geography files. They're huge. Ahh, they're the only two subjects I actually care about. This is so sad. Must start proper preparation for economics essay component. Initially wanted to meet some p10 people at harbourfront macs to study but it was raining really heavily and I felt quite drained after the extra maths and econs lessons. So I decided to not to go. Covered approximately half of the agriculture notes in school, am feeling prety pleased with self. It's a good studying environment, the area outside the choir room. There wasn't anyone there except jiemin and ben. So it was quiet and breezy and rather distraction-less. (: Shall stay in school to study tomorrow.
Am very impressed by oh-so-cute qingyi's essay. Hurhur. I am disappointed with mine, to say the least. But I didn't expect much anyway. I thought it was un-substantiated crap. My history essay was un-substantiated crap. But many thanks to joanna for the notes anyway. I HEART YOU. (:
Everyone should go listen to Joe Satriani's Always With Me. I think jq was the one who sent it to me. (: It's nice.. At least I can take it. Jq sends me many songs but I can't bear some of them. Haha. Just not my cuppa I guess. Too noisy.. Jq's this music critic. What, 'not musical enough', 'boring'.. Haha, whatever. To each his own.
John Mayer's No Such Thing is nice too. Music. Ah. Just when I need an mp3 player. Pbbffft. I felt quite adventurous today so I climbed over the parapet wall and walked around on the so called roof of the pe department. It was really nice and serene.. It's a good place to think about stuff. (: Must do it more often and bring people there. But my left knee, and hence my scar, is hurting. Mmmm, no big deal. It was worth it.
I like oldies too. Like Phil Collins' Another Day in Paradise. Hahhh. Okay, I've been letting the cafe to exploit me. $2.5O for a salad (of which, half i don't eat because i don't fancy tomatoes and onions). $2 for a tuna sandwich. No tomatoes either. $2 ish for a muffin and a tart. Of so-so standard only. Pbbft. WHAT HAPPENED TO FRUGAL LIVING ? Ergh. I give too many the impression that I have a lot of money to spare. Erpx. Not good.
Memento mori.
Latin for remember that you are mortal. It goes in hand with carpe diem. Quite. Telling us that we should enjoy it while it lasts because we all die someday. Mmmms. Wikipedia is most interesting. From memento mori, I started skimming through articles on melancholia, sanguine, goethe, romanticism, bohemianism. Haha. Interesting stuff.. Am waiting for desperate housewives to start whilst scanning through the 02 history promo questions. I feel narcissistic. My phone wallpaper is a photo of me. Haah.
And a parting quote by Goethe,
'Things that matter most must never be at the mercy of things that matter least.'
How true. The latter being schooling ? Haha. Prays for productivity !!! Am totally going to heck maths. Shall focus on econs, history and geog. Pahh. Save me. Better yet, shoot me.
♥ 12:29 AM
I am very very displeased with myself. I had to spend almost two hours on eom just because the pentium 3 was being screwy. In addition to that, spent almost a gazillion hours sleeping at my grandma's house today. So didn't get to accomplish much. Only read through the population revision lecture notes. ): Accomplished nothing. BOOOO. Panics. And I still feel tired. Something is seriously wrong. In addition, I can't do history tutorial 12. And he says it's important. WTF. I hate school. I hate exams. I hate jc life. I hate education. Rawrrr. My eyes hurt. I want to detach myself from them. Mmmms. Am just hating myself at this moment. Don't bother, am feeling very cranky.
Oh, but I do so lovelovelove my darling honey wong xun-ai. (((:
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
♥ 1:22 AM
How many times in a day to I need to be embarassed in front of my history tutor ? ARGH.
The answer's three by the way.
My face was just so damn bloody red during history tutorial. Could feel all the blood rushing to my face. And seeing as to how I'm quite fair, GROANS. It must have been damn obvious. It didn't help either that adel and hrk kept exclaiming loudly about how red my face was. Bah.
Note to self. Never study with wl and shawn at shawn's house.
Amount of history tutorials completed : 0
Number of pages of econs read : 2
Time spent on the phone talking to loh : ask shawn. maybe 15 minutes or so.
Time spent asking wl and shawn to shut up : oh just about 12 minutes or so.
Number of times wl/shawn got pinched/whacked : 6258465072
Number of times middle finger was flashed : 1 (give me some credit. you should've been there to witness the situation)
Amount of times wl and shawn said something they shouldn't have : 4+
Number of degree celsius shawn's aircon was at : 18
Actual temperature in degree celcius we were experiencing : 30 (thanks to running around whacking them, escaping from wl's singing by leaving the room, and blushing profusely)
Number of times I thought he was going to put down the phone : 6. he likes talking to me too much.
Amount they owe me for the entire experience : priceless. in a bad sense.
BOTH OF THEM OWE ME IN THE INTANGIBLE (hence, priceless). I was damn hopping mad. I just stormed off without wl. And I didn't reply shawn who at least messaged me. Like whatever. They probably don't know me well enough. Enough said.
I AM IN LOVE WITH THE MAGNETS ! HYPERVENTILATES.
Okay. Back to econs. Please let the blood not rush to my face tomorrow during history tutorial. Pbbfft.
Love isn't brains children.
It's blood
Blood screaming inside you
To work its will.
And tang says that castration has a lasting effect. (: Oh how I love lemony ! Hurhur.
Monday, September 26, 2005
♥ 12:29 AM
My heart is too small for jerks like you. There are other people who deserve my concern and love (love as in how wl loves shawn and not how caryn loves shawn. hahaha.) aye ? Much much much love for everyone who cared yeah. Cw, hrk, jq. And especially sook, sharon, shawn, tang and corinna dearests. (((x
It's hard but I have to put the past behind me and move on. Hao ma bu chi hui tou cao in this case. Time to start studying proper. Right. RIGHT. There's still eom to hand in on thursday and my overdue chinese composition to finish. I bet she hates me, pbbbffft.
I marvel at my ability to stay up this late just to type a nonsense entry when I am unable to keep my eyes open for more than two seconds to look at arid and semi arid notes. Sighh.
I hope tang had a good birthday studying with janice. (:
HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY LEMON TANGYY ! Love you lots ! But not as much as janice does. hurhur.
I should sleep. Am looking forward to the short day. So I can study afterwards. HARDY HAR HAR. Read clara's blog. She's wise beyond her years.. And a erally wonderful junior who can crack me up. ((: I read yingwai's latest entry too. It's totally rubbishy, about scenarios with parents having sex. HAHAHA. It was uber crappy and hilarious.
I miss ah hock. Amongst other people.
I miss Cedar.
Saturday, September 24, 2005
♥ 12:01 PM
I've been living a lie all along. It happened three times this year. Thanks so much. At least I know now. From all this, I've learnt to see through you. The facades and pretense. And of all people too. I never it expected it to be so bad. To me, it is. I guess a lot of people take it for granted how much they mean to me. It really hurts but like the always say, pain lets you know that you're alive. So maybe I have to be thankful for this pain. The truth hurts but the truth sets you free. Thanks for liberating me albeit not directly.
I just wish it could hurt less than it really does.
Thursday, September 22, 2005
♥ 11:38 PM
I just read through theory of p and c. Not including all the parts about the costs and the curves. They confuse me too much. I think I shall get shawn or adel to explain to me tomorrow.
Random thoughts.
I still have the chinese composition to hand in tomorrow. And I have no intention of doing it by today. Hmmm.
THE WHOLE DROPPING SUBJECT DILEMMA IS KILLING ME. I am very distressed.
I still haven't gotten the agriculture notes in pdf printed. VVV. I am dying to study agriculture. No seriously.
Boys will be boys. That is unless they're like cw. Who wants to be a girl according to justin. Erm, riiiiight. And ter asked me to join the brotherhood. Because I is manly. Phwooaar. (that was supposed to sound like some uncivilised cave dweller) Mild amusement.
Oh, and they're bringing their pokemon card decks tomorrow. Mild disbelief. Then again, how much can one expect from the guys in our class ?
Gossipping is unhealthy but it's interesting when everyone shares the same sentiments.
Seng's temperamentality (is there such a word ?) scares me. ): But I'm determined to pass my history. PASS. Yes yes, loh as motivation. Hahaha.
Ngps CANNOT not call on me every econs tutorial. I tell you, she has something against me. Something huge against me. Pbbbffft. ):
Is it just me or have I been wrongly accused of gay/les-ing with people ? HAHA. I'm okay with the former but not the latter. Just don't link me with him. It'll complicate things.
Okay, back to plural societies. I miss Cedar..
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
♥ 11:07 PM
As usual, my eyes are closing already. So I shall just condense whatever I want to say into four words.
Yayy, I love loh !
HAHA ! Nonsense right ? Hurhur. I laugh at the most un-amusing stuff. What else is new. Tarling is good. I only wish he'd keep me awake. Smile smile.
I want to spend every single waking moment
sleeping.
SERIOUSLY. I don't know why but I'm tired all the time. )): Maybe I don't really feel so or show it in school. But once I get home.. I just want to sleep my life away. There is something seriously screwed up about my system. Tragic. At the rate I'm going, I'll never touch econs and geog. Hurrah. Bitter laugh. Okay, back to tarling..
♥ 12:17 AM
It's time to live frugally. Less spending unnecessarily. Less wasting moolah. WIFE, REMIND ME TO EAT LESS ! Goodness. I feel quite disturbed now. Sigh. Worried too. Ahh.. But with God, there will always be a way, non ? (: Yup, I just have to have faith. Same goes with everything else. Have faith.
Not progressing with my studies. Weeps. I can't study at home. There's the bed and the computer. I can't study outside. Too distracting. I can't study with people. Too distracting. I can't study alone. I won't have anyone to ask for help. Basically, I have the attention span of a gnat and
I CAN'T STUDY AT ALL !
): Sigh. And I'm not THAT intelligent. Sigh. What's the point of having brains when you don't use them ? Sigh. Rahhh. Depressing.
Qy smile ! HAHA. He's so cute, I shall continue observing him. And loh is weird, refusing to tell me his little joke about johnson that I don't get. Hong wasn't in school today. Hope he's alright. Neither was ng. Pity we didn't have a tutorial today. LOLS. Okay, mean. I need to start looking at my econs. Humbug.
Oh and Phil Collins' Another Day in Paradise is nice. Oldies rock. They remind me when I was little..
Sunday, September 18, 2005
♥ 2:11 AM
We still have time. Right ?
Not that 14 days is alot of time. But it's 14 x 24 hrs. Ho hum. Let's not go there.
I survived 50 pages of daniel seng's malaya notes ! Yay me ! Survived meaning highlighting random phrases. There are too many personalities with too many irritating ass policies. Clementi, Maxwell, Anderson, Shenton, Guilemard. RUBBISH. Who cares about what they think ? The sultans should've just met the Queen for tea and gotten terrorised by the royal corgis. Malayan history is really @$#*&^$. Firstly, the indirect rule of the residential system was not so very indirect after all. Then the FMS system was just a farce because even though the sultan's were supposed to get more power, the resident general ended up with a swollen head. Finally, decentralization to include the UMS was crap too because in order to decentralise, they had to centralise. Or vice versa. Or like, whatever. The point is, everything was screwed up. PAHH.
I shall try to do some economics and some geography tomorrow in addition to my tutorial 9. Try is the keyword here. I took a nap this afternoon and set my alarm for 430. Major mistake. I should've set it to 1630. As a result, I woke up at around 7 with my mother complaining about how all I do is sleep. HO HUM.
I realise some people visit but don't tag. Not that I am desperate for a response but I just don't quite like not knowing who reads. Some people are just sneakily reading and thinking bad thoughts about me. HAHA. Okays, what nonsense. Which might be true. So anyway, people should tag.
Herrick was kind enough to put up with wl, jq and I at his house on friday despite being unwell. Ahh, thank you herrick. I must mention something that tickled me on friday. I decided to walk from my house to the sengkang bus stop despite being late. I woke up at like 620. Yeah, and I just missed the 86 wl and stella were on. So I reached the AJ bus stop at 620 thereabouts. And it was raining. But of course, I had foresight and brought my umbrella. I saw yaoyao walking into school without an umbrella at all. Which was erm too bad for him ? Lols. Anyway, the weird thing was that qy was just waiting at the walkway. He said he was waiting for the rain to let up. I found that quite weird because I thought he would've just run in with his good friend. So I offered to share my umbrella, a service which he initially refused. Lolss. I guess he was shy ? Maybe. Hahaha. But yeah, in the end he ended up drenched on the right and me on my left. Haha. And on the way in, jq walked out with a huge umbrella. I guess he was going to help shelter some people. Hoho. Okay but the gist of that whole huge paragraph is qy is funnily cute. HAHA.
Argh, I hate pimples. I have three huge ones on my chin. Growls. Outbreaks are totally annoying. I am going to be scarred for life. Pbbbbffft. ))): And and, my gums hurt perpetually. I think it's because of my wisdom teeth. They're all poking at my gums and hurting. Vvv.
It was a mere 35 minutes on thursday. Even though it was mostly silence, I still felt happy. Fleeting bliss.
Loh and trevor shall be my sources of motivation for history. Hurhurhur. I am fat and the accoustic version of Maroon 5's Sunday Monday totally kicks ass. The piano part is so yummy. I want to eat it, sluurrrp. (x Ahh, music the food of love. The voice of my soul. Hehe, how totally random. I asked yap to add us on msn. Hoho. I wonder if he will. Terence and wl have very hairless legs. It's not fair. I might as well be covered with fur. I think I will grow up and become a carpet. Okay, this is getting increasingly nonsensical.
The joy is not the same without the pain.
If it's true, then all this misery had better be worth it. HAHA. I owe peipei money. My parents still owe me money. And I have to pay for my choir tee. FINANCIAL WOES AREN'T FUN AT ALL. I still have so much to do. Weeps. The Band of Brothers theme is so very sad. It's really tragic and melancholic. I think they played it for one of the presentations of the boxing day tsunami. Seriously, it is capable of reducing me to tears. ): Siigh. Music.
Saturday, September 17, 2005
♥ 1:28 AM
fleeting bliss
and smiling to myself.
teehee.
(((x
we should do this more often. hurhur.
Friday, September 16, 2005
♥ 12:16 AM
Sigh, econs elasticity timed practice tomorrow. I'd rather they let us bring it home to do. Bah. Seeing as how I have zero content. Just finished my revised eom and my two other postings for agriculture. And I'm packing my papers. Yay, I like organisation. The rate I use my foolscap is scary. ): I want Cedar foolscap !!! Wants wants wants.
Arrrgh. I don't feel like reading my elasticity notes. Yerdang. (a variation of yardang. haha.) Howww. ): Gavin Degraw has nice songs. Mmmms. Chariot, Chemical Party, Crush, Follow Through.. Hur, I was so high during maths. It helps that my maths group is made up of nonsensical pei and charlene. Regina is the only sensible no nonsense one. Haha. I think we drive hong up the wall. Poor dude. Looks at charlene. AHAHA. Too many lovers, she has. There's still yap, justin, malcolm (who was peeping at her when she was talking to ishita, tsktsk)..
We watched the motorcycle diaries today. But we're not done yet.
I LOVE GAEL GARCIA BERNAL !
Not only is he hot and brooding, he acts well too. Yayy. (((x He can speak english, italian, spanish and french too. He's kind of short though, only about 5cm taller than me. Haha. Aww, one hot boy anyway. Hurhur.
"A person isn't born with the intelligence to be with someone especial, you learn it, and you fail in the path of life, but you don't have to give up the chance to love."
"I believe fervently in the nature, in truth and imagination, I believe in the blood, in life, words, and motivations."
His personal quotes. (: Ahhhh. Sappy grin. Oh yeah and the show is really quite sad. The struggles of latin americans. The motivation for his later life's work, Ernesto Guevera. Mmmms.
Okay I think I will read elasticity on the bus. BAHH. My father wants to save petrol. Hmmms. I owe so many people money. Boo. And people had better pay me for shawn's present. Do I look like I spend a lot ? Jianqi, yunhui and hiebee think so. Erpx. Okay, even if I do, I don't have a lot of money to spend anyway. Though I do think that I am very very fortunate. Three dollars for a salad is not peanuts to me !!! Vvv, oh wells. Must get the next issue of 17. (:
Almost forgot to mention. Haha. I think I'm in love with my history tutor.
HAHAHAHA.
He gave me 13/25 for both my essays (which translates to a D, methinks.. HIP HIP HURRARMADILLO !!!!) annnd, he calls me bel. Which is UBER WEIRD. But I don't mind. Hurhur. If I were older, I'd fall for him. Hahahaha. Okay, am really high. No idea why though. Just like how wl said, if he were a girl, he'd fall for qy. Haha. I think I would too. Haha. Like, because I'm NOT a girl. Right terence ? Lolss. Whatever. The guys have this joke that I'm one of them. Ie, a guy. Oh huh. They so have not seen the bimbotic, girly, i-love-everything-pink-and-fluffy me.
Tuesday, September 13, 2005
♥ 11:26 PM
And so we got him a soccer ball. The black one which he apparently lost earlier this year. Wandering around sports link was mundane. Did see somethings I want to get though. The kelme or the bodynits/we are top. The former is mint green while the latter is lime green. Hurhur. My obsession with all things green. Not including my specs. Jianqi and denise have taken to calling me radish. Thanks alot. Lols. Charlene the chestnut and jianqi the mushroom. Haha, some lame vegetable tribe ? Sheeshness.
We girls are always having lame conversations during lunch and break. When we all sit together and start spouting rubbish. Hurhur. I always end up crapping with adel too. Lols. She talks about the foulest stuff, mostly during lunch too. Let's not go there. And the guys were just being erm typically male and rating girls. Erm right. BUT. I remember that xunny and qua and I spent our time at the compasspoint burger king doing that too ! WAHAHAHAHA. The list was hilarious ! We started rating like animals and cartoon characters too. Like aragorn's horse and stuff.. Oh man. Hurhurhur. Gosh, where is it now.. I just love making lists. I miss xunny and qua loads.. And the rest of p10 too. Ah sigh..
I just want to say that
I MISS LEMON TANG WEI CHIN ! (:
It looks like I, Ms Lemon Tang Wei Chin. Hahahaha. Tang tang tang tang tang. I feel so proud of him. He's finally grown up. Hurhur.
Okay, apparently we have to sing for our principal's farewell and andy kwek wants to hear us after assembly on friday. OH SHEEEEEESH. And why Irish Blessings ? I prefer No Importa though it might not necessarily apply to him. Oh bother.
SIIIIIGH. I fell asleep the moment I came back. Until 1030. No dinner nothing. Pbbffft. I heard we're doing the chacha for pe. Well, almost everything beats running right ?
"Something To Talk About"
I've been dreaming
Of the things I've learnt
About a boy who's bleeding
celebrate to elevate
The joy is not the same without the pain
Oooh
Ipso facto
Using up your oxygen
You know I'm shallow
Calling out for extra help
You've got to let me in
Or let me out
Oooh something to talk about
Oooh something to talk about
Oooh Oooh Oooh
I've been dreaming
Of the things I learnt
About a boy who's leaving
Nothing else to chance again
You've got to let me in
Or let me out
Oooh something to talk about
Yeah something to talk about
Oooh Oooh Oooh
What a nice nice song. From the soundtrack of About A Boy. DUUH. I just love hugh grant. Hurhur. I want a new wallet. And new tops. Oh boy. Too many wants, too little time. And money. And space. Hrms. Everyone's being mushy nowadays. Not only my dear (or rather Janice's dear) tangy but also Flora, Herrick, Lp, Shawn.. Hahaha.
YAY ! About a quarter of 4i2004. Ah, I have a nice dimple. (*: Okay, I was apprehensive to stand beside goh. I think he can tell that there was something fishy. Lols. WHATEVER.
LONG LIVE CEDAR !
Okays, shall go sleep now. May tomorrow be a good day.. And as my very student conductor likes to say, Pax Vobiscum. ((:
Monday, September 12, 2005
♥ 12:00 AM
PANICS
cries.
I was just thinking about something. Growing older doesn't only mean losing your innocence. It also means losing your parents. ): I used to be very afraid of the dark and monsters and stuff. So I'd run to my parents in my pyjamas and they'd pray for me. Either that or I'd snuggle in between them on their queen sized bed. Somehow I felt so much safer, protected and loved. Now. Now I can't go to them with my problems anymore. Granted it's not so simple. But like, I was thinking about how my mother would react if I told her I was worried about the piano exam. She'd just say that I can only blame myself for not practicing. I miss the old days where they used to comfort me. ): Today, in response to something silly I did, my dad just said to me in an annoyed tone, 'Grow up.' And I just retorted back that I wanted to stay young forever. I know it sounds silly but I can't help it. I don't want to grow any older. The older we become, the more exposed we are to reality. To the real world of pain, suffering and anguish. ):
I want to stay young forever. Okay, am really tearing now. Sigh. Life was simpler back then. And I guess, I was a happier child too.
Sunday, September 11, 2005
♥ 1:53 AM
Strange. There aren't many people online despite it being a saturday night. Or rather, sunday morning. I look like an alien now ! I'm wearing the green/white specs. Vvvv. I'm a funny sight. Oh wells.
Remember the ipod nano I was talking about earlier ? Well, here's the beauty.
Please stop drooling. My floor is wet enough already. From my own drool. Lols. So prettyyyy.. Whines.
Yah, was feeling quite down just now. The thought of the piano exam. ): Hugs for sharon, wife and charlene though ! They tried to cheer me up and it was really nice of them. Thanks ((: Charlene gave me this verse, Matthew 6:25. About how well cared for the sparrows and lilies are and how we are worth so much more than them so we shouldn't worry because God will take care of us. I found another verse,
'You then, my son, be strong in the grace that is in Christ Jesus.'
2 Timothy 2:1
(: I'm technically not a son but I'm still the Lord's child. So yeah. (: Shall practice like some deranged psycho from woodbridge tomorrow. Today. Whatever. Yeah. Lots of stuff on my mind too. Like pw. ARGH. I feel so bad. Sigh. And work. Blah. Okays. Shall go sleep soon.. May everyone have sweet dreams of apple ipod nanos..
Saturday, September 10, 2005
♥ 5:43 PM
Rahhhhh.
I am feeling quite sad because my zen micro is in bad shape. That is, it can't even be turned on. Meaning, lest I want to let it go to waste completely, I need to bring it to Jurong for servicing. Or a replacement. I don't know. Sad. I wish I'd gotten an Ipod Mini. Or Nano. Rahh. It's so thin and pretty. Argh. It's so much more worth getting than a pair of ugly but limited edition nike dunk sneakers. Looks pointedly at shawn. But okay fine. Ugly is subjective.
You know how I love comics. I read the life section everyday faithfully. It's the first section I read. Sadly. Hahah. No wonder my GP is in a state of nonexistence. But anyway, I lovelove Foxtrot. It's just so funny and relevant. Recently the mom has been playing this game called Nintendogs. Little did I know.. It actually exists ! Was at causeway point yesterday and I saw it in some game shop ! But it's for nintendo DS. Not to mention that it costs 65 bucks. Bahh. I'm that much of a gameboy user as compared to my brother, sister and even my father but it's sooooo cuuuute. Swooons.
Ahh, no money. I'm just not the saving sort. I'm an impulse buyer. Which is so bad. Gah. Sigh. There's still loads of rubbish that I want to get. Like new pants and jeans. And shoes. I should stop getting bags and earrings. Shirts will be good. I haven't gotten a new pair of shoes in a long time. I want shades for some weird reason. Ooh, I like the 'C' pendant from Bits and Pieces. Ten bucks. I need stationery too. Like, a darn stapler. It's like, I want more stuff but my house is cluttered with too much stuff. Look at my room ! All the wires and papers and junk everywhere. Ergh. I dislike disorder but I'm too lazy to neaten my room up. Oh gah sigh. And my parents bought a new projector thingy. It hasn't arrived yet. I don't know what they were thinking. Obviously, they should've consulted me, an important member of the household. Haha. Denise's birthday has passed I think. Am not too sure. I don't think she'll ever read this but anyways,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR PONG PONG ! (((:
A huge THANK YOU for all that you've done for pw.. YOU ROCK !! (:
Yayy, love her ! She's always been so nice and encouraging. I'm so fortunate to have her as my pw groupmate.
Watching trailers now. Just watched the Da Vinci Code one. Nothing much. But I have got to watch the movie. I want to catch Brothers Grimm too ! Andd.. Chronicles of Narnia. Okay.. Brb..
Thursday, September 08, 2005
♥ 12:45 AM
Caustic. My entry got deleted. Ho hum. I shall spout a bunch of random comments.
1. Randomness rocks. People who cannot be random are not fun. Haha.
2. Econs tomorrow. Ah sigh. Piano and pw too. Sighs some more.
3. When I woke up from my nap, a sense of fear gripped me. And I really mean fear. But I don't know. There are too many distractions.
4. Lord give me strength.
5. Pw must die. Kill the school. Kill MOE.
6. Terence and WL come out tops in the 'shortest replies ever' via sms contest
7. I need more time
8. I absolutely hate it when holidays end. It just means that I have to go back to reality. Face the world. Return to the life I hate. I've always been an idealist.
9. History essay plus two tutorials by friday. ARGH. KILL ME PLEASE.
10. Which reminds me, I have geography, econs and wayyyy overdue maths which I'll probably do in my next life. KILL ME AGAIN.
11. Reminds me of clarence lim's msn nick : Now setting E.Y.E. Someone kill me pls Wahaha, so cute lahs. But I think he's scared of me. Oh bother.
12. I turn on the air conditioning every night because it's too stuffy when my windows are closed. My windows are closed because SOME BLOODY IMBECILE SMOKES EVERYNIGHT. Gawd, smokers are evil and dumb. Hates cigarette smoke.
13. I am so disappointed in you. I never thought you'd ever be like that. And all people see is that sweet, unassuming, quiet girl. Thanks so much for ditching me. For being the friend I never really had. I so regret now telling you really private stuff when you never appreciated me. And for goodness sakes, YOU ARE USING MY WORD ON THE VERY PEOPLE YOU ABANDONED ME FOR. Thanks again. I can see right through you now. All this fakeness disgusts me. You want to play it your way ? Fine, we'll do it your way. Dammit. I thought I could trust you. I thought I could trust so many people. Well, I thought wrong. You are evil, looks are deceiving. I of all people should know that. How many facades have I put on. I realise that too many people aren't what they seem and I become more and more like them because of how jaded I've become. Because of them. Yeah, some confusing vicious cycle. Why bother having a personality when no one's going to care anyway ? I'm going off the tangent here and maybe this isn't so random anymore but I'm hurt and I've been disappointed by people whom I've cared for. Some people, I still care for. Maybe I think too much. That's just me. But hell, I'm only thinking about it so deeply because I care too damn much about it. I care too much for people who just don't deserve my concern. Maybe it's time that they learn that it's something they have to earn from me. I have a basic respect for a lot of people but once it's lost, you've got to learn the hard way and earn it. There's a price to everything in life. And I don't mean price like costs and stuff. I mean a price like the sacrificing of emotions and feelings because there are always limits even though wants might be unlimited. Argh. I really don't know what to make of you anymore. I am just.. so disappointed, that I am at a loss for words.
14. Well, three days left. I never had any hope that you'd respond to my ultimatum. But anyway, even if I did, it's all gone now. You can't force love.. You can't even force like. So yeah. Thanks for the nonchalance. The blatant disregard. Your pride is blinding you.
15. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh. Echos corinna's sentiments. Foolish as they may be for someone like me. But sigh. Sigh.
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
♥ 1:23 AM
It was unproductive to say the least. But it's typical so yeah hrms. Wl and Jq were approximately 45 minutes late ! Glares. We went to the esplanade. Quite difficult because there was only a coffee table and some couches. They have a small room with a piano for practice ! And it's not soundproof so we heard some really talented people play.
Bows head and looks at feet with dismay.
Let's not go there. Almost finished my Siam notes. I think. But there are tons of readings and blahhh. At least I now know what the Paknam Incident is. Hurrah ! What an achievement. Sarcasm ? Nahh, methinks not. We had dinner at the suntec foodcourt. Then we went to the arcade ! Herrick went straight to his capcom game as usual. We tried some REALLY DUMB percussion game. And jq, wl and I car raced ! Wooots ! I love car racing. I think I'm not that bad when it comes to taking turns, hoho. I was like, first 80% of the time. Until I crashed twice consecutively and wl shot ahead to win. Bahs. Hahahaha. But I drifted ! Like you know, the cool racing stunt featured in Initial D ? Hurhur, uber coolness. Yep, then we lamed around carrefour. Wl actually rode those tiny tricycle thingies. Okay, so they weren't tricycles. But it was funny anyway.
I actually contemplated taking the east west line instead of the nel because then I could have the company of wl and jq but decided against it because it was too darn long. Thank goodness I did. Who did I meet on the train but a certain recipient of the most inspiring teacher award ! Hahaha. Mr Lee ! He was actually sleeping but he woke up and saw me. He still remembers me from the first three months, herrick's birthday celebration at novena and the waffle stall ! Hahaha. Yeah.. Talked about hockey, choir, first three months, literature, living in punggol, ajc, mr seng, his form class, our class being nerdy.. He's a very thoughtful guy and a very nice one to talk to too. I'm infatuated with an old married man ! HAHA. Omg, sharon will laugh when she sees this. I learnt that he and the head of pe live in punggol too. Wow, and he takes a cab to school. Ahh, lucky him. I didn't realise he was with his wife. Haha. But anyways, it was really nice talkingt to him and all. (((:Econs tomorrow is cancelled. I hope ngps is okay. As much as I curse her all the time, I genuinely want her to get well. Mmmms. What shall my plans for tomorrow be..
Oh and this is quite funny. It all started during one maths lecture when I was crapping with adel instead of paying attention. I started going on about how I didn't know which subject to drop, how I was so annoyed with school and how I should just drop out of school. And then I babbled about adel and hz adopting me as their child so I wouldn't have to work. Was saying that I want to be some taitai. And I went, damn, should've gone to AC. Hurhur. That gave adel an idea. So now she wants to matchmake me with one of hz's rich friends. HAHAHAHA. I think it's quite hilarious because she's taking it quite seriously. I think. LOLS. The other day when I spent break with she and hz, she started naming his friends and asking hz whether they were cute, rich and available. And just on monday she said something about having found someone with the same frequency as me. LMAO. Thanks princess adel, my dear gossip partner. Hurhur.
Okay.. I am some tired. I should stop speaking like a bloody victorian. No offense though, wl, zx and ragen. Pbbfft. Shawn and wl are bad influences. They have rubbed off on me. Noooooooo. Shawn's birthday is coming. Hrms..
I deserve more than indifference. But arghh, I just can't stop thinking about you. 4 more days.
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
♥ 1:14 AM
Five days. A test of my self control. To see if fate will intervene. Five days, prove me wrong.
I swear my left foot is rotting away. And I scalded the upper part of my mouth. What do you call it ? Hmmms. So now it's raw and it hurts. My teeth hurt too. Mainly thanks to the wisdom teeth. ARGH. THEY ARE ANNOYING. Owch. ): Oh and my second earhole is bleeding too. Up till now, I still can't remove the ear stud. Wth.
And I'm supposed to have history tomorrow. But Seng tried to cram it all today. 8 to4. We survived the marathon ! Hahaha. So my tomorrow is free. Plans to go out weren't confirmed or anything so maybe I'll just spend some time alone and stuff. Maybe shop ? Hahah. We'll see. Ooh, I feel like having fish and co. Or maybe crystal jade la mian. Expensive taste, hehe. But wells, no moolah. Bahhs.
I need to photocopy the agriculture pdf. Hmmms.
Sunday, September 04, 2005
♥ 11:59 PM
Choose life. Choose a job. Choose a career. Choose a family, Choose a fucking big television, choose washing machines, cars, compact disc players, and electrical tin openers. Choose good health, low cholesterol and dental insurance. Choose fixed-interest mortgage repayments. Choose a starter home. Choose your friends. Choose leisure wear and matching luggage. Choose a three piece suite on hire purchase in a range of fucking fabrics. Choose DIY and wondering who you are on a Sunday morning. Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing sprit-crushing game shows, stuffing fucking junk food into your mouth. Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pishing your last in a miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, fucked-up brats you have spawned to replace yourself. Choose your future. Choose life.
- Trainspotting
why have i not watched this movie yet. until this unwarranted sadness fades then.
That was an excerpt from navleen's blog. Haha ! Why haven't I watched trainspotting ??? Ewan McGregor at his finest too ! Hurhur. Watching Whose Line is it Anyway now. OMG FUNNNNY. Hahahaa.
Doctor Seuss inspired pick up lines.
Come home with me, I'm not that scary
I'm really rich, my name's Drew Carey.
WAHAHAHA. (((:
And the hoe down was about being Ryan's Wife. Oh mannn. Hahaha.
...I became really high steppin'
And Mel Gibson isn't the only one with a lethel weapon
HAHAHA. Or something to that extent. Funnnny. Hoho. Was playing uno with samuel and amanda just now. I beat samuel 6-3 or something. Haha. Oh meow. I think I shall go to sleep. Meow..
♥ 12:28 PM
Was watching the shows I taped on thursday. My mother disapproves of The OC. Well, all I can say is that you watch your shows, and I'll watch mine. It's not like I'm going to go have an affair right now. Sheesh. Yeah, I'm having an affair with my internet connection and cheating on my studies.
And and, One Tree Hill is so uber sad ! )))): I didn't realise but it's the first part of the finale. )): Sob sobs. Okay got to go. See you..
♥ 1:41 AM
For the 2309582095th time, I've changed my layout ! Woots !
Well, what can I say. I am f.i.c.k.l.e. (:
The colour combi is so fruity and nice. I happen to like Gwen Stefani's Hollaback Girl too though the layout doesn't seem to have much correlation with the theme of the song. But who am I to give an analysis ? Hurhur. I want to go to the beach ! (((: Pretty please ! Let's all go to Sentosa. I know adel wants to. Hurhur. Let's let's !
Remind me never to attempt to organise a class outing. Bahhs. Nobody's fault but it's sad I guess. Meow. Remind me to update my other blogs. Am feeling quite lazy now. Yesterday, meaning friday, both my little brother (not meaning samuel) and my wife said the same thing. Roughly along the lines of
Hope for nothing and you will not be disappointed.
Okay fine, they didn't say that. They said something like that and coincidentally, what they mentioned converged with the above quote I read somewhere and the quote below I found by George Bernard Shaw.
He who has never hoped can never despair.
Ah, how true. The higher you get your hopes up, the larger the impact when you crash back to reality. Sighh. ):
And about my current and fleeting obsession with George Bernard Shaw, blame it on One Tree Hill. They have the nicest quotes and the most beautiful music. Go download Hear Me You by Jimmy Eat World. Oh and I also recommend Sleep by The Dandy Warhols. Unless you're looking forward to something noisier and up tempo, those two are really nice. (((:
Saturday, September 03, 2005
♥ 10:54 PM
There must be something in the water because something is seriously wrong with me. Hahaha. I went to get new glasses today and guess what. I was convinced by my dad to get this green pair. GREEN. And the sides are like white. WHITE. What was I thinking !!! Rolls around. I am so going to be dubbed the alien in school. Lolsss. I mean, I love green and all but it is so not my kind of colour. I'm more suited to maroons, navys and blacks. Oh bother. I really want contacts, erpx. Haha.
And I got my hair cut. It's mostly just shorter. I'm left with a pathetic excuse for a ponytail. Hahhs. Watched Bring It On Again just now. I'm inspired to be a cheerleader. But sigh wells, I totally can't make it. No taut body, no nice tanned legs, no sense of rhythm or coordination whatsoever. Plus a fear of heights and a billion calories that need to be burned just from my thighs alone. Bah.
I'll have to go back to school for the whole week practically. Bleagh. Tons of makeup history. An 8-5 marathon on monday too, BOOHOO. I cannot even take 2 hours of seng. Imagine enduring NINE. Groooooaaaaannnnnssss.
I watched the trailer for Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. WE HAVE GOT TO WATCH IT WHEN IT COMES OUT IN NOVEMBER/DECEMBER !!!! AHHHH ! Screams. (((: Fleur and Cho aren't pretty at all. Quite disappointing really. And Cedric and Viktor are just okay. Krum looks as if he wants to murder someone. Hoho. I can't wait. (x
Okay, am looking at blogskins now. Feeling all girly. Meaning roxy/billabong-ish. Hahaha.
Thursday, September 01, 2005
♥ 9:14 PM
Jiayi, Joanna, Zinuan, Flora, Shiying and I. I MISS MY FLORA GONG !!! ): Sob sob. And yay for the tallies !
We're so crappy, it's embarassing ! HAHAHA. But I so totally don't mind. I love my fellow cedarians. Joanna, Sook, Sharon, Saph, Mich and Xunny. 'Training' towards potong pasir.. Hurhur.
Michhy tangyy ! Hahaha. We love CEDAR so much, we're even hugging the pillar outside AS2. Reminiscent of choir..
See ! Ronnay is avoiding us ! HAHAHAHA. Thanks to the spastic letter we wrote. Hurhur.
LOOK ! Some love letter for hock heng. AHAHHAHA. Could it be from xunny, president of hock fan club who uses his toilet ?? HAHAHA. Xunny, don't look so indignant. We've found you out dear. Hurhur.
XUNNY BABY ! Hahaha. My boo. I miss this girl, my nel partner. Hurhur. She has a busted knee, thanks to hockey. Oh that rhymes.
JUMP !!! Charlene, Sharon, Me and Wengyin. Hurhur. It was so darn fun.. Haha.
WAHA ! MR CHANNNN ! My pe teacher in sec4 and sec 1 and my chinese teacher when I was in 1O. Hurhur. He still remembers me. He totally rocks man..
Sooook ! Hahaha. (((: Mrs Mortensen ! My dearest sister in law. Hehe. I miss her loaaads.
Charlene, Teresa, Wengyin, Sharon, Joanna, Ada, Geraldine, Huiling, Belinda, Weiting1/4 (thereabouts) of 4i o4 ! ((:
Belinda and I !! Hoho ! I love berrrr. (: She's wearing jocelyn's vj uniform. I look tall ! Haha. Jocelyn took the picture, trying to be artistic here. Hehe.
Cedar's toilets rock. So so so clean compared to AJ's. Here's a photo with sharon in the bookshop toilet. Hurhur.