Crazy Beautiful Life of Karen

here's the continuation from my previous post and am here to tell my story...

Our love...

Me and Joey my future husband...

I had my first love and first relationship way back in my 2nd year in college. But speaking of TRUE LOVE, I already sensed it when I'm on my first grade.

Joey and I were classmates since grade one in a public school in my hometown Binalbagan. By that jiffy, I commence fervor on him. I was thinking "If given a chance to opt one person whom I covet to partake my whole life with, it woould be him" (over diba!? I was just 7 years old and already have thoughts like that!hehehehe). Since then, I'm ceaselessly praying to God to save him for me... though I know it's impossible but I guess it's never askew to be hopeful... right?

I'm apprehensive with my prayer's that one day God will concede it and he'll discern me. We were parted during 3rd grade when he transferred to another school in his hometown and we loss contact. our paths crossed again when we entered 1st year high. and that made me jocund to seeing him again. However, we parted ways when he again transferred to another school. By chance we met at their school when my mom was invited to become the chairman of the board of judges at his school where my mom is also an alumnae.

4 years later since we last see each other...I stopped studying due to financial dearth and decided to work as a secretary and data encoder at the company where my uncle is one of the supervisor. I was at work at the moment when I receive a text message from Jom2x a colleague, but the message wasn't from Jom2x it was sent by Joey who happenly with him at an internet cafe near their school...(OMG! my heart is palpating faster...I've waited for him so long and I can't believe this is happening now....wheewww). I thanked God for granting my plea at last.

It was 24th of June 2007 when we're officially on. We both enjoy each other's company for couple of months, until one day I received a text message from him...(OUCH! he's breaking up with me). At the moment, I didn't know what to say, so I just cried my heart out and asked permission from my boss to go undertime. I went to see him at his school to know the reason why he's breaking up, but he didn't showed up and haven't given me any explaination. Then I saw him with his new girl and that's more enough seeing him happy with another woman. So I decided to respect his decision and moved away from him. Then I gave myself a chance to find someone who could help me forget and moved on easily, but it didn't worked out...for me "Falling in love is like looking at the stars, if you pick one out of the billions and stare at it long enough...all the others just fade away."

3 months after we broke up, I just found out that the love we've shared gave life to a cute little angel. So I disclosed it to him, but he disown to acknowledge our baby and I can't force him to accept it, maybe he's not ready at that moment when he heard the news and was just confused and doesn't know what to do about it or maybe b'cos he had his new relationship and that he doesn't want his current gf to knew 'bout it. After hearing that from him, I thought of getting rid of my pregnancy because I was afraid if my parents will know it, but God is so good, He was my Savior, He lead me to the right direction, and that to continue and take responsibility with it even without a father. So I continue working to save money in preparation for my delivery.

And on the 8th of May 2008, I gave birth to "Chin", my babe...8 days later, me and my best friend Aruba were heading to our house when she received a text message from Joey, he was asking for my number (what will I do? I was cold and clammy). Aruba asked me if I would allow her to give it to him... I said "yes"...(even though I'm not prepared at the moment to seeing him again). He texted me asking my permission for him to see our baby, and I allowed him. After all he's still the father of my baby and I can't take that away from him even if he had rejected me (syempre I can't deny the fact that I'm hurting still cos' I loved him so). When he and Roxan (his friend) arrived at our house, we talked after seeing our baby and he asked pardon for everything he had caused me and I forgave him. He asked me to gave him another chance to prove himself again and I did accepted him...(and that means he'll be leaving his current gf for us, but I didn't forced him to do that..it's was his personal decision). He make a vow to love no one but me and our baby. From then on, he had proved himself to us...being a loving husband and the best dad in the world.

As of now, we're living together with his family, yet we're unmarried, but we're hoping one day we'll exchange vows at the altar all in His time...we're enjoying living and loving each other, creating memories together with our baby. At the moment, he is working at the hospital at the city as an OR nurse, so we only get to bond during his day-off yet we never forget to keep in touch through texting. And I was the one looking after our baby and was happy at the moment knowing that I passed my Nurse Licensure Exam and just had my oath yesterday, so I am now a newly registered nurse. What we're planning at the moment is to have stable jobs in preparation for our future family.

"We used to think that life is a fairytale...full of magic, excitement, vivid! But that was long time ago...Now we know that there's more to life than just HAPPILY EVER AFTER...We've learned that we get wiser each day and no fairy can lead us to a happy ending...We decide, we struggle and somehow we begin to understand that we have the power to make each day better than yesterday."

One thing I've learned from experience, that we should never give up in whatever we do, in whatever we aim...in the things we've always prayed for, we should never stop LOVING and BELIEVING for great thing comes to those who were PATIENT in HIS plans for us. Everything will just happen all in God's perfect time...:)

Stay in LOVE eventhough you're HURT..

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