Missing you...

My heart aches for you

I want to be able to take your hand in mine 

and hold it forever.

But that cannot happen anymore

I cannot see your smiling face

I cannot hear your words of wisdom

To the world you are just a memory

To me, you are my Nanny.

The pain you went through I cannot begin to fathom

The burdens you bore on your body 

should be something that no one ever experience.

My life will never be the same without you

The everyday does go on 

But there is still something missing

I pray you are happy and pain-free

I pray you will remember me forever

I pray you will never forget us.

Amanda Newton July 20th, 2011 

Nanny, 

We miss you...we all miss you...Grandpa especially...I know he thinks about you all the time...we usually have a little conversation about you when I'm at his place...every week I get to spend a little time with you while I clean up the guest bedroom...your pictures are there...it doesn't even seem like you're gone...it just seems like you're away for the day...and that you're going to walk in the door any minute...but you don't. 

I can't believe it's been four years already...so much has happened...Trenton is getting so big...I remember when you were laying on the bed with him, and he was sucking on your finger! 

And I have a little girl, Jocelyn...She's got a lot of your spunk so Mom and I ask her if you and she had tea parties together in Heaven! She usually says yes! 

We know you live on in your great grandbabies, each one that comes into this crazy-wonderful family of yours...your spirit will never die even though your earthly body is gone. I had a cup of tea this morning and said a little "cheers" to you! 

Love you Nanny...missing you lots but I know I'll see you again someday...