As many of you know, we did a frozen embryo transfer about a month ago. Three weeks ago we went in for a pregnancy test and it came back positive, with a high number indicating a strong pregnancy. Today we went in for our first ultrasound to look at the heart and see how many there were. Unfortunately, there was no heartbeat. We have miscarried. We are devastated. There were so many miracles leading up to this that we thought for sure we were meant to bring this child into the world. I just want to know why. Why do we keep beating the odds when it is a bad thing! The odds of all three embryos surviving with the triplets were extremely high. Yet, all three survived. The odds of Grace having a chromosome error were high, but yet she did. The odds of her pushing the other two out and all three passing away, again, extremely high! There was only a 10% chance of us losing this baby, yet we fell into them. Why? I know that things will work out the way they are supposed to eventually, but I want answers now. I know that our family is not done yet, but I don't know what we are supposed to do. I would love to see the end of this trial and how it all works out, and I know it doesn't work that way, but I just want to see how I make it through this. Between this and job issue I feel like we can't get any more disappointment in our lives.
I know that I should now try to find the good in the situation, but right now I just want to feel sorry for myself. Just for a day.
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15 comments:
I won't state some whitty saying or give some great words of wisdom because I have none. I am sorry. I am lost for words other than I hope that answers come in some way or form. You are in my prayers.
I agree with Dana, I am at a loss for words. Disappointment, sorrow, pain, frustration, so many things I can't even begin to understand. I love you and both you are Rob are in my prayers, I hope the answers come.
Krista I am so sorry. I will keep you and your family in my prayers.
I'm so sorry Krista...yet I know I'm sorry sometimes just isn't good enough. You and I both know that in situations like this there is nothing that can be said to comfort your broken heart. Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. Please call me if you need anything. (801-798-1795)
I am so sorry! I am with the others having a loss for words. There is nothing more to say than I am so sorry, I love you and you are in my prayers.
Krista, I'm so sorry as well. You're in my prayers. You are a very STRONG person and your Heavenly Father knows that. You have been through so much already. Try to keep your chin up. Your girls need you to be strong.
So sorry to hear the news. Life has sure given you trials. You are strong and will make it through this one too. I'm praying for you!
I'm so sorry. I know all too well how this kind of disappointment feels. I know there is nothing I can say to make you feel better, but I want you to know I am here for you to talk when you want.
Kara
You can feel that way for as long as you want. I wish we could take away even a small portion of your heart ache. Know that there are lots of prayers being sent your way!
you get a day girl, believe me! I am sorry about the sad news. I wish there were something I could do, some major miracle. Please know that I am thinking about you. Keep your chin up and know that you are loved.
Hoping that you are able to feel the comfort that you deserve. I think all of us need a day once in a while, but if you take longer don't get too down on yourself. You've got ears to listen if you want them.
Michelle
Krista, so sorry to hear your sad news. I too have no words of wisdom or much comfort, other than know that you are in my thoughts and prayers and I think you are an amazing mother & person!
I am so sorry! I have been thinking about you so much. You can have more than a day, you can have whatever you need. You can feel however you feel. You are entitled.
Krista- I have really enjoyed following your blog. You do a wonderful job at it, just as you do at being a wonderful mother and wife. Your beautiful and compassionate spirit is apparent even over the internet. The Lord loves you and is mindful of that, just remember that. i have found that when nothing else brings solace, that sometimes bring a little. I love you and wish we were all a little closer as extended family to get to know and help and support each other.
Love, Jenny Schouten Lucero
I'm so sorry for your loss and that life seems to be tumbling down on you. Take the time you need to grieve!!! It's okay!!!! You're in my thoughts and prayers!! I hope your answers will come sooner than later!!!
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