Thursday, July 3, 2008 . 9:54 PM
*sighs* With what is possibly the worst exam result in my whole entire life, I can safely say that, in order to do anything close to well, effort needs to be put in. To be honest, I have never liked the education system in Singapore; the scatterburst system, where one spends so much time to study subjects just to forget them two years later. The phantoms of history, geography, literature, and biology gives this accusation shape and solidity; subjects I have learnt vaguely about the past years and have almost completely forgotten now. It is hard to deny the fact that education here is inherently flawed; it's like a journey forcing you to carry heavy, heavy bags, and to drop some of them unopened at checkpoints. And soon, chemistry, and economics would join the festival of ghosts, haunting me as I think of time lost; which I could have used for an inifinite amount of things.I strongly feel this way, but unfortunately, the more I think about my views, the more I realize that... no matter how correct they maybe, there is no point in sodding about them. After all, for the likes of me, and many others, our system is the only sure step forward. The road may be long and winding, but it's the only clear one. All other paths, such as entrepreunership, lead into dark forests of the unknown, which may result in people falling into ditches or getting eaten by leprachauns by something; though I guess the wary do make it out with money faster than those who go by education. But... there's no complaining about it... I have to do well, because I have no alternative. I maybe gifted in compososition, but the truth remains that there are many better than me out there. Same goes to story writing or programming; education is the only sure step forward. And I have to abide by that path; due to my environment; there's no way around it.
This is not to say that I agree with education even on the most basic level; I consider a composed song; a story written, worth a day of school, and there are instances where I have skipped school due to mild discomforts for the sake of finishing these pet projects. No one can blame me for this, for material that can be looked back on with pride more than compensates forhalf-filled lecture notes and lost 'going through time'.
*sighs*
Okay, this rant has no point at all, as I have stated, since there is no other way to go it. It probably indicates, however, that I have lost the drive to study anything quite a long time ago; and the fact that the method worked (to some extent) for the 'O's did... encourage me a little. It is sad, but the truth remains that I must work harder, with great reluctance, in order to score well enough to fight another year. Perhaps some subjects could be worked on; perhaps I could do some psychological tricks for motivation; perhaps I can set certain people as the benchmark to aim for. Either way, I have to do something about this; being able to spell BEES with grades is not a good thing in any sense.
Labels: rants
Monday, June 23, 2008 . 1:10 PM
This, is stupid.
Whut
Right.
I don't know about you guys, but genuinely, I think that this sucks. Here I am, a composer, a notecharter, submitting works to allow the server to grow and have more exclusives to entice people, and yet, they do not allow me to use the loading art that a friend made for me, and which I think is awesome and fits the song perfectly. I'm the artist, and notecharter, and in the future, I'm going to spend many, many hours to notechart and compose various songs for contribution to the server, partly because I want to watch it grow and relive the O2 Jam experiences that I have not felt for a long time, and partly because I want to promote my own works and have a sense of pride to see them being played by others. Thus, logically, since I receive nothing, other than the above, for this, I should have jurisdiction of the loading art of the songs. If I like it, I use it. There's absolutely no harm in that. After all, it's only there for less than ten seconds each time the song is played. This isn't an unreasonable request; to let every composer and notecharter choose whatever loading art to use; it's more of a basic right of all artists.
Of course, I'm sure many of you can see the irony presented here by what I've said, but do focus on the subject matter for awhile. D=
Know what they said?
No.
Instead, they throw up stupid excuses like 'it's empty', 'let may do it!' in order to deter me from using the piece of art that I want, and it's somehow already very unclear as to what the fate of Atmosphere's loading art shall be.
What some members of the forum, and the admin, are trying to do here are to insist on the use of their graphics team, and make them responsible for all loading arts of RO2 Exclusives. In a way, this is fine, if the composer and notecharter lacks the friends or the expertise to make the loading arts for them, then okay, they can use the graphics team. Evidently, it's not as if every notecharter already has a loading art at hand from some other source. Moreover, they have duties other than to make loading arts, such as making jamming arenas, starting templates, and other things. There are not going to be rendered useless by what I request, though some short-sighted fools fail to see this.
And ironically, they allow the composers and notecharters to ask from modifications so as to let the loading arts made by them suit their needs. Ha, ha, ha.
What I'm lobbying for is for composers to choose whatever loading arts they want, be it from the graphics team, their friends, other sources, and such. MO2 has done this, and it's not exactly their number one reason for going bankrupt from all of us. I'm not saying that the graphics teams are incompetent in their art (though they can be incompetent..., in other things); in fact, they are all better than what I can ever be. But bleh, they should not be the end all be all of loading arts. Down with this stupid restriction; down I say.
