Recuperation

Work lately has got me exhausted I suppose. I caught up with my sleep yesterday and today.

I feel like going to the dentist one of this days. Now I regret not having free dentist checkups like during secondary and primary school days.

School...Kinda miss it. KINDA. If I get into Uni, God's Willing, I think I'm gonna take up some sports activities. See how. Something that can make me maintain and improve my fitness. Hmm, I'm all on fitness nowadays. Hah.

I'm on a quest to find my wife to be. (insertLOL). Funny yea, to be putting this here. I'm not rushing but just on a lookout. Desperate? No. Just moving with the flow with that in mind. I just got to know one of my secondary school crush gotten engaged. The news hit me for a moment of course but from a friend view, I'm happy for her. Sigh, girls have it easy to get married at early age. For me, I hate to admit it but it'll be some time before my own wedding.

In 2 days, I'll be applying for NTU and NUS. Pray for me for the best.

Confession Of Love....woo~

I have a confession to make. How long has it been since I post about a girl that I like. Way too long. I'm in love with a girl since mid 2007. It wasn't love at first sight. It took awhile for me to realise her presence eventhough she's in front of me. I'm attracted to the way she move, talk, her laugh, her lame jokes and her spontaneous remarks. And she sure knows how to dress herself up. It's a one sided love. I can't tell her directly. Our love is impossible. We live in the same planet yet so far. The barrier that seperate us is too thick. For me to know her and her not me. But wait! Then another girl appears! One that is slightly older than her! More mature but nonetheless attractive! This girl is more outgoing, cool personality. She have a great voice and can sing very well. sigh. Can I fall for 2 women at the same time?



















The catch is? Both of them are singers and live in Japan.




=p

In case you guys haven't realise, I'm joking in this post. I'm just another fan of the girls. But wouldn't it be great if it were true. Ha hA HA...

Rota[tion] 2

I've finally start my shift. It's ahead of the planned schedule but if I don't start yesterday, I would've work 2 weeks straight with no off. After working office hour time yesterday, I continued to work till night so I can get 2 days off the following days. So, no work for today and tomorrow! Yessa! So this week schedule will be: Morning shift, 8am-6pm, Thurs and Fri. Night shift, 6pm-8am, Sat and Sun, Off next Mon and Tues. And the cycle repeats the following day starting with the morning shifts. And I'll be working on public holidays too.

I'm looking forward to this month's pay more than ever before. I'm expecting more pay this month.

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Man, I need a new watch. Both my black watches have flat batteries. I need a new digital watch with stopwatch function at least and is mainly black in color. Not too big in size, not too small. hinthinthint =p

Activate

I just got home this morning from work at 10am. I've been working for more than 24 hours with roughly 30 min of proper sleep. After work, I've to go to mu cousin's wedding which I can't miss. So yeah, I was groggy and tried to make a not tired face at the wedding just now.

The mobilisation yesterday was hectic. I was running all around, up and down the stairs, stand for hours waiting for nothing. That was from yesterday 12nn to 5pm. After that, 1 hour rest which I didn't even had a chance to rest. Then continue off to Mandai Training Village. This place is what you might've seen in TV/News when SCDF do their scenario at some run-down HDB buliding with rubbles. I have to stay there till the reservist finish their drill, at 3am! Then, back to the division, and control the vehiclessss movement till roughly 6am. You can't even imagine how exhausted and tired and sleepy I am by then. After the reservist were dismissed, I thought that was the end but something happen that I can't type publicly here and, damn, it pisses me off. And it made us stay until 9am! argh.

*EDIT*Not to mention, yesterday morning, I went off to work right after my morning jog, so yeah.

I'm gonna end this here now.

I'm tired

If I were to post about my work everyday, this will become a boring blog that only has post that contain "I'm tired". Therefore, I may not post as often as before unless something happening happen on that day or in my life. Or I feel talkative enough or I feel like crapping around.

24

I'm home, from a 24 hours straight work! So, off for today.

I'm beat.

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Awaked. Refreshed. Hungry...

This was why I had to work 24 hrs, from 8am yesterday to 8am today:

It was during our dismissal roll call (6pm, time to go home), the Personnel Branch said there will be house visit. House visit is just what it is, visit house of reservist because Pers couldn't get through them by phone to tell them they have to do reservist. A provost has to be accompanied for security reason for house visit. So, it was time to go home already so who wants to volunteer themselves to go right? Everyone wants to go home. But the seniors, being the seniors they are, push the work to us juniors. Now this is what I was frustrated about yesterday. I was damn pissed off because of this.

By tradition, seniors would give the juniors the hard work so they could learn. I don't have a problem with that. And when we do our work, the seniors would 'rest'. I don't have a problem with that too since I understand the seniors have gone tru the same as us now, they would want to relax too. So the whole freaking day yesterday after all the work, we should be tired by the end of the day and the seniors should have enough rest that they don't need. So logically, if they are humane enough, they should have pity us and go for the house visit and let us go home right? wrong. The senior-push-work-to-junior still applies. I can argue with them about this point right then there but it would turn into pointless arguments and it will be a losing battle for me. The night shift can't take the job since they were on duty and what's more, two of their men were on MC so they can spare any men. It was either me or another junior. The other guy have gone tru a hard day, getting bullied and pick on and all...yeah. And I just don't feel I should go because of my points above. I felt like forcing this other guy to go but I pity him after all that picking on. (I was half guilty too for laughing along =p). So, feeling pissed off and so not in the mood to argue, I told him to just go home and I'll take the damn freaking job.

7 houses to visit! That is alot! All the way along the ride to the first few houses, I don't have the mood to talk, joke or laugh. I was trying to keep my temper in check constantly. I don't even have the mood to go home at all. So it brought me the idea that maybe I should just cover for one of the night shift provost since the night shift are lacking in manpower and then I could get Off duty today. But I thought it was a much of a hassle to inform my NCO that I quickly forget about it.

It was the 2nd or 3rd house when the IC for the night shift called me and ask whether I want to cover for them. I replied yes straight away. He had called the NCO earlier and said I could get an off today and he would give me lighter job since I've been working for the whole day. =))

I return back to the Division about 11pm! Bought some food, eat, joke around with the night shifts peoples, had a 10 min quick nap, then do my job from 1am-3am, switch with another provost, then slept for less than 4 hours and woke up at 6am because the room was damn cold (aircon).

In the end, I forget about getting pissed. I got my off, I got my extra meal allowance, I got my rest.

So will be back to work as usual tomorrow morning, and the start of the preparation for the reservist coming this weekend. Expecting hard work tomorrow.

k nk mamam.

lawl

Work today was laughter all the way. We laugh at stupid things, make fun of people, laugh at stupid jokes, make fun of more people and laugh for no reason. In the end, 5 of us was told by Encik to run around the parade square 5 times because they were caught sleeping. LOLness again.

This Thursday,Friday,Saturday and Sunday I will be on standby. Meaning anytime my phone was called by my NCO, I need to come down for work. Anytime. Even Night.

My mouse is spoiled, yet again. Every year I need to buy a new mouse. Sigh. Just when I thought I can save some money.

Keep your wrongdoings to yourself.

The Prophet (peace be upon him) said, "All the sins of my followers will be forgiven except those which are disclosed to the people. For example a person commits a sin at night and though Allah screens it from the public, in the morning he says. “O so-and-so, I did such-and-such evil deed"

Sahih Bukhari Hadith No. 980 Book 78, Chapter 60 Narrated by Ibn ‘Umar (r.a.)

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The conditions or way to seek sincere Taubah or Repentance from the Merciful Lord is:

One is aware that he has sinned, and feels sorry and ashamed at his sin.

Makes a solemn covenant and promise with Allah that he will not repeat his sin again.

Turns to Allah and seeks forgiveness, before he has met with his appointment of death.

Is a believer and does righteous good deeds thereafter
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No one should know what I did last summer. (that's a figure of speech, there's no summer in Singapore)

Voice Procedure

MIKE YANKEE NOVEMBER ALPHA MIKE ECHO INDIA SIERRA MIKE UNIFORM HOTEL ALPHA MIKE MIKE ALPHA DELTA HOTEL ECHO ROMEO MIKE ALPHA NOVEMBER.

Roger Out.

Spanish Romance


I'm 1/4 way through learning this.

Much has change this thousand minus 996 years.

I think I've changed alot after 4 years. Last time, 4 years ago, I can't do even a single push up. Now I've done 200 straights (not at my own wish of course). I can't run 1km without losing breath, now I can jog for 30 mins and can still continue a few sprints. Heck, last time I don't like to exercise, now I can't keep still!

One thing that doesn't change at all, I still eat a lot. And I'm hungry again right now. (Note: Last meal, about 30 mins ago.)

Tomorrow's plan: Puasa. Jog.....

endure, endure.

Smoke & Ashes

I used to ignore the smell of ciggies smoke like i have no effect to the smell whatsoever, but now, i learned to despise it. But what to do, most of my friends are smokers. I just have to bear with it. If they can't quit smoking, I have to deal with it. Some friend I am huh.

This saturday, Muharram, puase k?

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I can't be bothered to make a new post so i just add to this one.

I just realize something stupid. My friendster profile page is gonna display comments from 2 jokers for awhile. Make that, for a long, long, long time, it's going to get so stupid and lame.

I think it already is.

*pop*

these people kept popping out of nowhere into my life once again...

Damn it

I can't make it next week. 'nuff said.

Argh.

And Lyn dear, I didn't get the chance to tell you but you swear too much just now. Not pretty =))


For now. Sleep.

Bros

Going to Tamp later for some 'lepak' session.

I've not contacted my bros lately. Each with our own lives now. Especially those at overseas. They'll be back by April I guess. We used to joke about how we would still hangout even when we have our grandchildren. haha. I guess that's kinda unrealistic.

Us 10 have known each other for at least 10 years. If I were to count the longest one, that would be since primary 2 (since I enter the school when I was primary 2). That's about 12 years ago.

Hmm, I'm talking about my past in the tens already. When I'm 30 later (insyaAllah), I'll be talking in twenties! woo.



Didn't jog today. Damn shag. =(

Tadaah~

Paydaypaydaypaydaypaydaypayday~~~

Shoppingspree!! bye!

Ouch

Sprint training during wet condition is bad idea. Toopid.

Going into shift hours next month. yey, i guess.

Getting my pay tomorrow! woot! Psp slim too! yey!

Had Pizza Hut for dinner!...

My coughing series is back too!

bye!

*Self-reminder: Go jog tomorrow morning! SPRINT!*

*cough*

*cough* *cough*

1 more day~~

Am I gonna get my pay tomorrow or Saturday? The 12th falls on Saturday but banks are on haf day on Sat right? Whatever it is, by 2359 Friday, I'm gonna get my money.



sigh...I'm soo tired, of coughing.

*cough* *cough*

Serious

2 more days till saturday!!

I need to get serious. No more fooling around. Be serious. Seriously serious. From now onwards, I must seriously think what I need to do. Plan A to Z.

So...

Register for University again this Feb. This time, register for NUS and NTU. SMU no hope already eventhough I want that school (Near Bugis =p)

Get a serious relationship. But everyday I see Men in camp, so how? turn gay? hahaha. I saw this nice girl just yesterday. She's CD Auxiliary Medic. I don't know what's gotten into me or how I could be SO daring to come up to her by myself to talk with her. I wasn't like that before. Had quite a nice talk. Too bad I won't be seeing her everyday. CD Auxiliary means she's a volunteer so she'll only come during her free time. Nice and simple girl, easy to talk to. She rides a scooter okaay...

Next, what am I going to do as a career. Firefighting? Or IT industry? Or set up my own Company? Honestly, I'm not into IT as I am back in Poly. But I don't know if I'm still into firefighting 5 years down the road. I want a work that I can be comfortable with financially and mentally. (Money! I need it mostly for my next point.)

And, staying fit and healthy! This is my longtime goal. I'm so motivated right now. Aim for gold IPPT! woohoo!

*cough* *cough*

boo

Reached home at 10pm today. What was I doing I wonder~~

3 days till weekend!

Follow the steps

Step 1: Look at the picture below

Hey yo

There was Commander's Parade today. Basically, it's a parade with the Commander. Pretty much like National Day Parade.

The new firefighters and Section Commanders just arrived today. I'm waiting for the next batch of SectComm, which will be my batch in ERS. Mwahaha. Tekan them!

Payday on Saturday! woohoo!

And I'm liking the school reopens for Secondary and ITE students. he he he. washeyeswasheyes.

Yey

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Make me like to go jogging EVERY weekend. Make me think think that jogging is fun. Make me think that I'll die if I don't do cardio whenever I have free time.

I went for a jog again today! Yey for me! The cold bath helps. Thx for the tip yah :)) Although I didn't went to Punggol Park this time 'round but just around my home. And it made me familiarise with my home area. After 6 years living here, only NOW did I manage to find time to get to know Punggol!

School reopens tomorrow for some ppl. heh. Have fun at school wherever the fun is! And remember our promise! ;))



Sold off my PSP. Slim PSP, Here I come! or rather, come here!

So, what's the point?

this is really a pointless post. It is soo pointless that the point of this post is no point. But the point is that I'm making this post pointless so that This blog will have at least one pointless post that is straight to the point of it's pointlessness.

To make the point even more pointless, let me point you to something else that is pointless. This. See? It is pointless.So what's the point of pointing to you the pointless thing? No idea. This IS a pointless post. Might as well make it even more pointless right? Point noted.

so how many 'points' can you count in here?

Reminiscence of my old post

Post dated Monday, January 23, 2006.

This post is about how I deal with my anger and jealousy. I don't know if it's the same now though but this was how I deal with them back then. I've change now. It's been over 2 years since this post.

"Usually when i feel angry i wld try to keep it from escaping from my body. It's not as easy as u think. if u never done it b4, mari aku bagi korg gambaran cmne rasenye klw simpan prasaan marah tu dari terlepas pat org lain.

imagine a very wild beast, a four legged beast. imagine it look similar to a huge lion, with claws and fangs, yellow eyes with slit-like pupils, covered with long course fur. Imagine the beast is reddish in color. now imagine a metal cage, the kind of cage that circus keep thier lions. now the cage will be u and the beast will be u're anger. the beast, who likes to be free, of course didnt want to be put in the cage. but who cares, let's put the beast into the metal cage. The beast is VERY furious right now. the anger itselfs has it's own anger and it is trying to break free of the cage. The cage shook wildly as the beast is trying to escape but the cage still try it's best to keep the beast from escaping and harm other people. the metal cage is strong but sooner or later the beast will break free of the cage by itself. all it has to do is keep it from escaping until The Anger gives up.

That's how i do it, keeping my anger from exploding. you need a will as strong as steel and determination as strong as....err..strong determination. don't let u're emotion gets the best of u, u're mind is in control not u're emotions. all u need to do is remember that u are in control. when u're angry usually the brain will not function properly so the way out is to THINK. yup, use u're brain. make that brain of u're working, send all those electric signals jolting around the brain. Use the brain to think u want to calm down. better still, use u're brain to 'create' a new emotion, Calmness.

So that's more or less how i deal with my anger tho u can just take wuduk evrytime u feel angry.

Now about jealousy. I confess that i have this feeling often, especially when there's sumone that i like. To feel jealous (about love) is good and bad. Married couples are encouraged to have this feeling to show that they care and love for each other. But of cors la, jgn melebih2 pulak cemburu tu. jgn sikit2 nk jealous. istri bobal ngan llk lain sikit je da jealous, tu da mrepek ah tu.

For me, personally i wish to eradicate some of this feeling cos sumhow, if jealousy is tangible (check u're dictionary), then i think i have too many inside my body. unnecessary jealousy. i wish i can just throw those unneeded jealousy away. it's irritating u know. i can't help it. furthermore, jealousy makes me think unnecessary things....AKA سوءالظن. And jealousy is also the reason i started this considerably long post. all those messed up thoughts in my head right now. Damn it.

How have i tried to manage this emotion? well, i havnt. but one thing for sure, jealousy leads to anger, so i can manage anger, InsyaAllah. Just now i tried to do wat i did for my anger management by using my brain to take over the emotion. it works but for awhile tho. cos those messed up thoughts are hard to erase. a few seconds later they would emerge again with a wicked smile on it's face (if they have one) as if trying to say "You'll never get away from me...you can run and hide wherever you want but i can still find you...". When i get jealous, messed up thoughts form in my head and when messed up thoughts form in my head, i came up with messed up conclusions. and when messed up conclusions came up, i do messed up things and when i do that....well, I'm messed up. one thing for certain is that the things that made me jealous is if i think that think that happen is to my disadvantage.

Oh how I wish some part of me is a software that i can just delete and install whenever i want.

That is all for tonight."

So proud of myself!

I woke up by myself at 5.45am, prayed, watch some videos,7am, bathe*With cold water! =))*, cycled to Punggol Park, did a 2.4km slow jog, cycled back home and bathe again *again with cold water!! =))*.

*feel so proud*

But see how long I can keep this up. Heck, see if I do this again tomorrow! If not there's no point.


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There's a news about an Army major died after a 1.2km run, and today in the same newspaper on the forum section someone voice out that rather than focusing on speed to do 2.4km in 10min for IPPT, they(whoever that's responsible for planning the IPPT) shld focus on endurance instead.

I couldn't agree more. Speed is important, I don't deny that but I think endurance is more important. I used to think that if you are fast, you conquer. That was when I was doing martial arts. Now I'm focusing on lasting long. The guy that wrote the article above said that they probably should make the IPPT run 4km or 5km and do it in a timing of 20min to 30 min.

Well...it's not impossible to do 4km in 20min. My friend, an ex-SISPEC instructor, taught me this training for running. Do a sprint for 30sec, rest for 30sec. That's 1 set. Do about 10set. I hvnt tried it yet though.

Runrunrunrun.

HAH!! I WAS RIGHT ALL ALONG!!!

Read this!

[ Q ] Can drinking plain water help me lose body fat?
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It sure can and lots of it. It's widely known that drinking room temperature to warm water can hydrate you more efficiently than ice cold water. But did you know that by drinking ice cold water you can actually burn more calories.

Before you start reaching for the fridge you must adhere to this rule of making sure your body is always internally saturated with water. Remember warm water will hydrate you better but providing you have plenty of ice cold water (3 liters of water per day at least) you will stay just as well hydrated.

By drinking ice cold water your body will go into overdrive just trying to heat the water to a temperature that your body will be able to absorb. Because your body cannot adapt and lower itself to this icy cold temperature your body's core temperature will act like a kettle element and heat up the water. Because this is your involuntary muscles doing the work to heat up this water, you are burning off calories without even breaking into a sweat.

If you have ever read any fat burning product labels, you can see many of them work by raising the body's internal temperature (these are called thermogenics) above the normal 37 degrees. By drinking ice cold water you are practicing the same procedure only this time you are raising your body's internal temperature from below the normal to normal body temperature.

Remember that every time you eat food this also increases the bodies core temperature, so add a very good fat burner to this equation, you have a fat fighting trifecta that will tone you up in no time.

So you're not thirsty? Doesn't matter, you can't trust your sense or your body on hydration. When you're thirsty, your body has possibly already started to dehydrate thus limiting everyday performance and energy levels which can cause cramps, headaches, dizziness, nausea and heat exhaustion. Stay away from alcohol, coffee and caffeinated drinks especially before a workout as they act as diuretics.

One cup of coffee can dehydrate you as much as 3 equal cups of water. Check to see if your urine is clear. If it is colored dark or cloudy this is usually an indication of dehydration. Don't despair if this is evident early in the morning or when an individual is taking large amounts amino acid supplements, at this time it is common to have discolored urine.

Water makes up 60-70% of the human body so it goes without saying our body would not function adequately without a sufficient supply of water in our system. Water carries our nutrients to required parts of the body whilst acting as a cooling system just like a radiator to a car. If you don't have enough water in your car, it increases the risk of over heating or more importantly burning out all together, especially when being pushed to the limit. So take care of your body the same - keep it hydrated.

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I told you! Plain water all the way!!

This is how u say idiot in japanese: Baka!

How would you know if I miss you or not? I didn't even say anything~ =p I don't even know if you miss me or not. =))

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I still think firefighting is cool.

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My 'lil cousin caught the eyes of my fellow provost! Wooo~~ Told ya you have many admirers.

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I still think it wasn't fair to get kicked out of ERS. And I'm still thinking what my life would be if I sign on as a firefighter officer after I get my degree (InsyaAllah). My officer said to just get a job at the IT industry. He said he would do so if he have my diploma. (Note: All officers are degree holders). Well, yeah, it's kinda waste of my diploma (or even degree later on). I dunno, i'll see if I still think firefighting is cool 5 years later.

Boo! Its alyn again! =p

Oke look at this latest photo of mine. Excuse my friend lar. Huhu. Kay look! Im fat! Boohoo!

Crawlies in the backyard

I found a real life wild snake at the back of my workplace! Hahaha! macam2 menatang ade tau pat tmpt keje aku.


So besides that, work today is 'mencekik darah org'. Just when I thought 5 person was alot, today, 17 people were charged for not coming to Remedial Training!! And then I need to stay back till 8pm to help out with some small event.

Going to shift worktime soon. But I dunno exactly when.

bye.

Photoshopped?

I was browsing tru my pictures in my pc and went tru the pics of my so called date with my cousins and I noticed something. Lyn, most of the pics that has ure face are like copy & paste from one single pic, LOL =p

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It's 2008 and my first day of work in this new year. 5 people were charged for various offences in a single day and the guardroom was really packed. That kept me quite busy for a day. Then during the last hour of work, the fire alarm went off. Probably a false alarm, I don't know.

Everytime the fire call alarm sounded, I'm always fascinated by the response of the firefighters. And I would just wish I could join them to the fire call. And every morning, when they do their drill, I would wish I could join them. Though they most likely would want my type of work.

One of my seniors have told me to maintain my fitness. Don't be like him, he gained 5kg already. Well, I hope I won't. I just need an exercise/jogging partner, that's all. Is that too much too ask? Yes it is! Who would want to exercise nowdays?!

But if any of you can spare at least 2 days a week with me to exercise, call me! I'm desperate! HAHA!

Grr

OK!! I've had it!! So let me get this straight so people won't bother me about this anymore, I'm sick of it. I am single and I don't have anyone in mind right now! I'm still straight mine u. So just stop bugging me about this.

Damn, now this makes me look stupid to post about this kind of thing.

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Everytime I see my ERS friends pictures and their progress in the firefighter course, it pains me. Envious. I guess I'm still not quite through about getting kicked out from the course.

Maybe most people would say their NS life was great. Me, so far, it's just like any normal day in my life.

Sigh.
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Spanking is a commonly-used form of corporal punishment, consisting of one or more sharp smacks applied, often on the buttocks, but sometimes on other parts of the body.

......so all this while it was a corporal punishment! *gasp!*

How I feel right at this moment

I feel so uneasy,restless,unhappy that I feel like tearing my hair, I feel like punching something, kick it, destroy it to it's nonexistence.

I feel so violent cos I'm restless. Don't get me wrong, I don't feel like killing someone, not ever.

All this due to boredom.

Boredom destroys.


argh!

EDIT: So that's what I need! A laugh!

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