here i go again~

(This post was supposted to be dated 30th Dec at around 1100am)

Evrything about her fits my kind of girl. The more that i know about her, the more i like her. but yet, i can say we are not close. maybe a friend, we know each other but we're not close. so how am i gonna strengten our relationship? talking to her, meeting her. not online la. it's very hard to strengthen relationship online. it is possible i dont deny it cos i have a couple of frens that i'm close to becos we chat online often.

been a long time since i saw the rest of my frens. even longer since i saw her. and yesterday salman relek je cakap ngan aku, sambil tunjukkan hp die :"Man, kau nak gamba ni tak?" hahaha. wth sia. pikir aku mane pe psycho nk simpan gamba org yg aku suke tapi org tu tk tau.

nari dpt due appointment, Alhamdulillah. rezeki Jumaat. mudah2an dpt close deal. buat bisnes ni kene bnyk besabar. bersabar dan berusaha. so far prospect aku sume nk barang nye cume maklumla, rezeki dorg tkde.

buat bisnes ni jgk kene btolkan niat mcm mak aku ckp. mak aku actually tk bagi tapi aku yg degil. tk tau ah die redha ke tk. tapi tadi die tolong aku carikkan prospect, adik die. Thank You Ibu. so anw, psl btolkan niat. bisnes ni kene niat utk tolong orang. tapi susah jgk sbb bisnes plan die jgk yg buat niat kite nk jual produk. nk katekan blh menyeleweng kan niat ah. dari nak tolong orang jadi nk buat duit. ok ah, buat bisnes nk buat duit tapi dgn bisnes plan company aku ni, niat nk buat duit blh jadi top priority pastu blh kasi kteorng rase aslkan prospect belik sudah, tk kesa die manfaat ke tak. tu ah die. pade aku sepatotnye, buat bisnes ni first: manfaat kan kesihatan prospect second:buat duit.

tu ah die. evrytime klua rumah nk pegi keje kene btolkan niat. bile bobal2 ngan collegue (btol tk eja die?) psl carik prospect, nnt perbualan tu kasi kite nye niat tuka, nk kene btolkan balik. bknnye senang.

Hardwork, Determination, And to help people.

klw korg tertnye2 asl aku cam suke nah nk buat bisnes2 ni? actually aku mmg tk suke dari dulu. tpi aku nye goal in life ade jgk utk menjadi org yg berjaya, pastu blh tolong org lain. and dari goal tu aku tekad utk buat bisnes. so aku belaja la bnde yg aku minat, computer stuffs. so insyaAllah nnt da blh bkk company buat bisnes sndiri. dari company computer aku tu mngkin aku buat company bikin sofwe. sofwe utk tolong org Islam especially. utk tolong madrasah2 pat singapura ni. ni nasihat mak aku. ape2 yg aku buat, make sure orang Islam blh manfaatkan. lepas tu bile aku da jadi successful, blh tolong org2 Islam dan yg memerlukan financially. but then of cors la, anak mane tk prioritize family sendiri kan?...

tu ah die secare rambang tujuan aku dalam hidup aku ni. nk blg secare general lagi, aku nk berjaya Dunia dan Akhirat. ok ah, ni sume mcm angan2 je tapi angan2 klw u work hard for it blh jadi kenyataan. kite merancang, Allah menentukan. InsyaAllah if we work hard enuff, we can achieve wat we want. if we cant then, mknenye ade hikmah tu. Allah lebih Maha Mengetahui. klw die tknk aku jadi successful mknenye ade la perkara buruk akan terjadi pade aku atau sekeliling aku klw aku jadi org yg berjaya sngt.

phew...berfalsafah aku ni...

Wassalam

Just for the fun of it...

-Start off with 100%.
For every item below that you've done, subtract 1%.

Smoked.Drank alcohol.
Cried when someone died.
Been drunk.
Had sex.
Been to a concert.
Given a handjob/gotten a handjob.
Given a blowjob/gotten a blowjob.
Been verbally sexually harassed.
Verbally sexually harassed somebody.
Felt someone up and/or been felt up.
Laughed so hard something came out of your nose.
Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend before.
Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend.
Been to prom.
Cried at school.
Gotten lost in a WalMart or a department store.
Went streaking.
Given a lap dance.
Had someone of the opposite sex in your room.
Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over.
Slept over at someone of the opposite sex's house.
Kissed a stranger.
Hugged a stranger.
Went scuba diving.
Driven a car.
Gotten an xray.
Hit by a car.
Had a party.
Done drugs.
Played strip poker.
Got paid to strip for someone.
Ran away from home.
Broken a bone.
Eaten sushi.
Bought porn.
Watched porn.
Made porn.
Had a crush on someone of the same sex.
Been in love.
Frenched kissed.
Laughed so hard you cried.
Cried yourself to sleep.
Laughed yourself to sleep.
Stabbed yourself.
Shot a gun.
Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day.
Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours.
Been online for 9 consecutive hours.
Watched an animal die.
Watched a person die.
Had sex and/or messed around somewhere with at least 1 person present.
Pranked somebody.
Put somebody in the hospital.
Snuck into someone's room and/or your own room after being out.
Kissed somebody of the same sex.
Dressed punk.
Dressed goth.
Dressed preppy.
Been to a motocross race.
Avoided somebody.
Been stalked.
Stalked someone.
Met a celebrity.
Played an instrument.
Ridden a horse.
Cut yourself.
Bungee jumped.
Ding dong ditched somebody.
Been to a wild party.
Got caught stealing something.
Kicked a guy in the balls
.Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend.
Went out with your friend's crush.
Got arrested.
Been pregnant.
Babysat.
Been to another country.
Started your house on fire.
Had an encounter with a ghost.
Donated your hair to cancer patients.
Been asked out by someone that you never though you'd to be asked out by.
Cried over a member of the opposite sex.
Had a boyfriend/girlfriend for over 3 months.
Sat on your ass all day.
Ate a whole carton of ice cream all by yourself.
Had a job.
Gotten cut from a sports team.
Been called a whore.
Danced like a whore.
Been mistaken for a celebrity.
Been in a car accident.
Been told you have beautiful eyes.
Been told you have beautiful hair.
Raped somebody.
Danced in the rain.
Been rejected.
Walked out of a restaurant without paying.
Punched someone/slapped someone in the face

-(My score is 73%.)

Aim for 3 days ME!!

here's wat happened to me last 3 days minue 1 day

went for an interview at Venture Era to work as a Marketing Agent..or Businessman..watever u want to call it. I took the work...not got, but took since it's up to us whether we want the work or not.

Today i had the training and evrything and the first client is gonna be my parents. so wat do i need to do? arrange an appointment for me and my superior to meet with them and present our company's products. You have no idea how hard it is for me to set it up.

When i reached home just now, i had to tell my parents dat they will come tmrw if my parents are free. as i expected, my mom was ok but my dad straight away said no. it was then i started to feel shaky...so i try to persuade him again. he said no. he dont want to get involve in this kinda thing. he said nnt die rase kesian org da present penat2 nnt die kene belik. so i told him just listen. he said the same thing again. then it leaves me with one choice. u told him i want the product. then he said wat kinda product it is? i told him Health product...then he said okla, okla...and i was like..phew....THANK GOD! hahaha Alhamdulillah

ingt nk call up my grandma, tapi kene tepon makcik cos they live together. i hope it's ok...

Wassalam...

dam-Ss <--random title

just felt lyk posting about this

adik ppn aku, satu2 adik ppn aku, nk msk preu mwti. die dari maarif. asl die nk msk sane? mak aku ckp sbb mwti ade econs, marip tkde.

how do i feel about this?

well, cam bangge gitu ah, adik aku msk preu mwti kan...cam sambung legacy aku gitu, ahaha. dulu klw tk sec 3 die nk transfer sane abih tk jadi. aku pon cam resent jgk ah die msk mwti time tu...sbb aku tngh sch sane and blm pasti nk sambung poly ke, sambung preu academic mwti. klw die same sch dgn aku at the same time susah ah nnt...hahahha. abis tebongkar sume rahsie aku yg aku simpan dari kluarge aku..ahahaa.

so, bsk adik aku nk amik form...sch bkk lagi seminggu. agknye camne la nnt eh die msk sane...aku mcm rase2 org mesti leh cam ni adik herman. ape tk nye. klw name bapak korg satu2 nye name pat sch tu, sape yg tk akan kenal seh. sedang kan adik llk aku yg last msk mwti mingguan org ofis da kenal, ape lagi klw adik aku msk preu mwti full time?

The Listener

wat does it mean when sumone said u're a good listener? i dont get it. it's not that i have sumtin against it or what...

u see...i'm not complainin or braggin or stuff lyk dat...just need some sort of clarification. i tend to listen ( or read if it's MSN) ppl problem/s. i dont mind at all. they need someone to share thier prblem/s and i'm glad to be of help. they need to lighten their burden. maybe dats y. so when are u a good listener?

k, aku cam slenge kan kadang2 ( heh...more lyk most of the time)

one time, there was this girl name u-donno-who. evrytime she's online and saw my name she wld PM me (Private Msg, it's wat u do when u click on ure contact's name and start chatting with them) so this girl was like throwing ALOT of hints that she like me...or had a crush on me...i dunno. but there was sign that she like me. i know...but it was too late..ahah.

time tu aku baru je lepas break ngan ex kan...so tk expect ah ni sume. otak yg function die suro carik matae tngh shutdown. so aku nye mate pon bkk 1/2 je. and den u-donno-who came and throw me all sorts of hints evrytime she chat to me and some of it is kinda obvious but i overlook it cos i didnt xpect her to feel that way to me cos she's just too good for me u noe. and there's also one time when we went out together...on her invitation of cors. (toldja that part of my brain was off). to me it was like a fren-fren day out. so it was normal for me k. but to her it was a date. i mean, she paid all the foods and drinks (cos i ask her to..ahah) even the movie tix! and when it's time to go home, she asked me to accompany her. and i didnt. like i said. brain. off.

so when my 'seek girl' brain part starts to warm up again after a couple of months...i just realized it. she was after me and i was like...'doh....All of these might sound like i'm being SS (syok sendiri, perasan) but i'm not. there was once that she half jokingly said she likes me. i can sense it in her tone. but again, didnt took dat seriously...

yeah2....post ni buat aku cam org prasan ade org suke aku tapi aku tau la. aku leh bezakan yg hak dan batil. ahah.

so i was too late. but wat to do, some ppl are always one step ahead of me. and i'm always one step behind. (lyk duh...)

thus makes me kinda slenge sumtimes...not just in this case but several others...

wassalam...

(....and to think this post was about wat it takes to be a good listener but i guess i got carried away...ahah)

boohoohoo

kenapela kau nk kene buat hal time die nk bobal ngan aku wahai internet...

baru je nk bobal2 ngan die, kau asik dc~ je....pastu tkleh connect msn langsung...haiz...

skrg da leh connect balik die da offline..

kenape? kenape?? kenape???

Ouh..oh..o..k..ouh ok.

Honestly, i hate it when ppl reply 'Ouh ok', 'Ouh' in Msn or SMS...and den senyap...cam, i dunno...tk suke ah. tapi ade difference tau, klw reply die oooooh or ooooooo tk kesa ah. imagine ah kau bobal panjang2 pastu org reply 'ouh' aje. abih klw kau expect org tu reply sumtin interestin tapi die reply 'ouh'...tk ke kau rase bingit gitu?

on another unrelated stuff..

hmm...it wasnt this hard to confess to sumone before. the thing flow out quite easily last time but not this time...i want this to be my last confession if possible. honestly, this kinda stuff is troublesome for me but i have to face it eventually.

wassalam

August babies

i'll highlight wats true about me, in brackets are my komens on that personality compare to mine, i may brag here.:

OGOS
* Suka berlawak. (haa yee, aku suke dngr lawak ade la)
* Mudah tertawan padanya (tertawan abesss).
* Sopan santun dan mengambil berat terhadap
orang
lain.(maybe)
* Berani dan tidak tahu takut(Depends).
* Orangnya agak tegas & bersikap kepimpinan.( a bit)
* Pandai memujuk orang lain.(tk pandai langsung)
* Terlalu pemurah & bersikap ego. (so true)
* Nilai harga diri yang sangat tinggi.
* Dahagakan pujian. (sumtimes...)
* Semangat juang yang luar biasa. (tk bersemangat)
* Cepat marah & mudah mengamuk.(so not true, very10 hard for me to get angry, but when i do...)
* Mudah marah apabila cakapnya dilawan.(ditto here)
* Sangat cemburu.(mudah cemburu...)
* Daya pemerhatian yang tajam & teliti.(haha! no way man..)
* Cepat berfikir. (kadang2)
* Fikiran yang berdikari.(here too, not true)
* Suka memimpin & dipimpin.(suka dipimpin)
* Sifat suka berangan.(berangan tapi nk jadikan kenyataan)
* Berbakat dalam seni lukis, hiburan & silat.(i wldnt say talent, it's hardwork...not so sure about silat tho, hvnt tried my talent in that area to the fullest...ape tk nye, asik ponteng training je...)
* Sangat sensitif tapi tidak mudah merajuk.(tk caye?)
* Cepat sembuh apabila ditimpa penyakit.(and i tot i had some kind of power, ahah..Allah is Great!)
* Belajar untuk bertenang.(yeah right....malas nk blaja adela)
* Sikap kelam kabut.
* Romantik, pengasih dan penyayang.(ahaks...romantik abesss)
* Suka mencari kawan

credit goes to fr3ak cos took it from his blog.

Grandparents

when i was born, i was only able to meet two of my grandparents. my gramps on my mom's side and granny on my father's side. i didnt get a chance to know my other grandad and granmom.

my grandmom gave me my name, Muhammad Herman. at least datws what i've been told. the first and only grandchild of hers dat she gave a name. heh. cam spesel gitu. let's talk about my grandad first...

my grandad had a fierce face but he was nice. only once have i seen him gotten angry, eventho he scolded jokingly but still..i was too young to know the difference back then. i used to accompany him for his dental checkup last time near geylang just above the 7-11 beside joo chiat complex. last time, there was a private dental clinic on the 2nd floor. so after his visit to the dentist, sumtimes he wld bought me toys at 7-11. not just any toys. those action figures. there was this cartoon, Swamp Thing, i used to like dat cartoon and he bought me the action figures. heee...

sad to say, however nice he was, i was very naughty during that time. there was a time when he asked for my help. it was the first and last time. i was around primary one dat time if i wasnt mistaken. he asked me to help him put a thread tru the sewing machine pinhole. without even trying, i told him i cant and just walk off...man, remmbering it just making me regret.

i cant remember the exact date but on the year '94, he passed away. again, i blame my age for being too young not to feel sad when he was gone forever. honestly speaking, i even tried to force myself to shed tears but none came out. i followed to the cemetry and i can still remember my dad and i were the last one to leave by his grave. my dad told me to put some soil on the grave as a sign like i also helped to bury him.

several years later i regret for not helping him when he needed me. easy to say i miss him dearly. the only grandad dat i knew and i didnt even manage to get a chance to get close to him. seeing other ppl with grandad does makes me envious. Last two hari raya, on the afternoon of the eve of raya, i dreamt of him. i dream that my family and all my aunts and uncles on my mom's side when to his house like how we used to when he was alive. i cant remember the details of the dream but i do remember that tears was trickling down from my eyes. i guess meeting him after so long does have a great effect on me. Semoga Allah mencucuri rohnya dan semoga dia tergolong dari orang yang akan masuk ke syurga nanti. Amin.

My grandmom. well, she's still alive. the one an only grandparent that i have. she's around 50+ rite now, coming to 60. when my grandad was alive, i didnt hang out around her dat much (heh..hangout..klw dlm mlayu da mcm lepak..lepak ngan nenek. haha). she used to fetch me from kindergarten and buy me ice cream and finish it before we get a taxi and went home. during my mid teen, i like to go to her place. cos during dat time, i was in mwti and mwti and kallang is very near rather than bedok ( i was living at bedok until sec 3). once i ran away from home when i was 15 cos i was trying to get away from my parents who i felt that they always scold me (teenagers...wat do u expect?) and ran to my grandmom's place. her house has been like my 2nd house. basically, when i am at her house, there will be no one to nag at me so my day will be quite peaceful. my grandmom is soo nice to me that my aunt and uncle and my parent call me her favourite grandchild. i dunno about that...dats wat they said. i am so used to staying at her place already that it didnt even occur to me one very important thing...

one time when i was about to go to school(mwti) she told me one thing (i was tying up my shoes at the doorstep: " abang (most of my family members called me by this) skrg klw ade pape terjadi blh balik rumah nyai (javanese for granma), skrg nyai tngh ade, nnt bile da tkde nnt..." she left it hanging there. after hearing that i was stunned for awhile. it never even occoured to me once, not even once dat she wld be gone one day. on my way to sch, i kept thinking, where wld i go when she's gone? there will be no one to shelter me anymore. i need to learn to bare with that no matter what. but for now, i need to treasure her. i wld not repeat the same mistakes. i don't want to feel the regret that i had with my grandad when she's gone one day.

so dats about it. about my grandparents. i still have a lot to talk about both of them but have to restrain myself. ahah.

til then...wassalam

TupSomeBong

farah, aku curik gamba ko eh....

gamba kteorng lepak pat spc fri lepas (aku tau gamba besar sngt, malas nk edit):



ni pat coffee bean, tngk Russell Peter buat lawak. tawe cam nak mamp..




wooo...laptop sape tuu~~


tu la die, Russell Peter..


....


ni pat LJS, batt laptop dabis, so pindah sini curik power supply, ahah..


tuan pnye laptop..

wassalam...

H is for h3rman

asl ppn yg aku suke so far secare kebetulan sume start dari H?? termsk skrg ni da 3 org da..

Haircut

bobal2 psl rambut freak tadi, tepikir balik aku nk potong botak. klw tk botak pon paling2 pendek 1cm ah. nk 'format' rambut~ ahah

baru balik dari melepak2 pat s'pore post ngan salman, min,farah. secare kebetulan aku bwk laptop gi sch tadi sbb nk copy file game Prince Of Persia: Two Thrones dari kwn aku, so time lepak tu kuakan ah laptop. duduk pat kofi bean tngk Russell Peter. abih sume ketawe mcm dunia ni kte pnye. pastu smangat lak tu ble batt laptop nk dkt abis, carik power supply. ingtkn pat mcD ade tapi rsk. salman ngan min da smangat belik mkn pat mcD. pastu pinda LJS, pakai power supply pat sane. pastu connect wireless connection mcD pnye..ahah~

da lama tk buat keje melepak ni sume, skrg pnat giler ni, dari kol 9 tadi sch sampai kol enam. pastu lepak lagi...bsk sch pulak...sat pon sch. tu ah pepandai amik Japanese kan....

kk cukup. aku nk tido lepas abis mesej memesej org ni.

wassalam.

can i just say AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH!!!

bile die offline aku tunggu die online. bile die online aku tounge-tied lak...or finger-type..watever la..

tepon pon tk, msg pon tk...cmne nk progress gini??

tu je, wassalam

My Cars!!.....in NFSMW...

Feast your eyes on these!! The cars that I own in NFS!! This isn't all though, there's gonna be more...after I unlocked the rest of the cars. Starting from the first one that I own till the latsest at the bottom:

Porsche Cayman S

Mazda RX - 8

I'm currently playing Need For Speed: Most Wanted Black Edition. Thus NFSMW:BE.

Wanna see my ride?? heee...

Owekubu;a Aukcwe...

Title tu encrypted. Kalau pandai decrypt ah. Hint: Keyboard.

k, da belik. tinggal nk bagi je.

smalam pagi aku mimpi. mimpi bersih ah. mimpi die happy pastu cam jealous nye mimpi. begini la cite die...

"Once a upon a time in a land far2 away..."

aku mimpi kteorng (aku ngan bdk2 ex-klasmate aku yg laki ngan ppn ngan a certain ppn ni...ehem) tngh tunggu bas sewa pat terminal die. tk tau ah cmne blh pat situ tapi aku rase sbb kteorng pnah jln raye same2 naik satu bas (& also itula first time aku feel ape yg patot di'feelingkan') so dats y aku leh mimpi situasi cam gitu eventho kteorng tk kene tunggu pat terminal die...

so anw, tngh tunggu driver dtg lame sngt, kteorng lepak ah buat hal sndiri pat terminal tu. imagine terminal tu mcm interchange cume kteorng je pat situ. den aku da start boring. so aku teringt la cite Tom Yum Goong tu kan, yg Tony Jaa main, Muay Thai. uhuh. cite lwn2 tuuu... den aku teringt satu move die buat ni. yg tony lompat, pusing 360 pastu tendang kepala lawan die. Headshot!

so dlm mimpi tu aku pon nk try ah buat gitu. lepas beberape trial and error aku dpat buat ooi! Tony Jaa buat satu hit, aku buat due hit!! so happy ah. pastu carik mangsa buat move yg aku BARU BLAJA SENDIRI dlm mimpi tu. MFR jadi mangsa aku...sori eh mfr, time tu kau lalu dpn aku, so aku amik kau. den lepas satu try, driver dtg...so kteorng pon naik la bas... Part selepas ni la yg buat aku sakit ati tros tebgn dgn rase sakit ati...

so aku naik bas...nk carik tempt duduk. aku pegi blakang skali, skali aku tejmpe a certain girl ni.....with one of my fren!! duduk same2!! yg buat aku sakit ati bkn psl ddk same2. psl a certain girl ni blh melendet, manja ngan kwn aku yg tk interested pon ngan die...tros aku tebgn....

aku tau la tu mimpi...lagipon aku blm komfem ape yg aku rase terhadap a certain girl ni cam...mampat ke tak. mampat eh...eheh

cam dissapointing ah gitu. tapi lepas brape minit aku da lupekan. ni aku baru belik sumtin utk sumone. skrg nk bagi je ni. ingt nk bagi nari, tepon die, asik not avail je...

phew...pe panjang aku type nari.

wassalam.

X-Zos 3rd

X-Zos 3rd...hehe. cam style gitu eh. tngh penat2 leh come up pekataan style2 gini.

aku nari happy semcam ntah kenape ntah. smalam moody, nari tibe2 happy lak.

sejak keblakngan ni aku dpt tau 3 lurker pat blog aku.maybe more. nk tau lurker tu ape?

What the hell am I thinking?

u noe wat? maybe i shld just forget it. It wouldn't work out the way i wanted i to be...for now, i shld just let it go...just follow the flow of the current...

i still like her tho, mind u...but from the way i see it. it's one sided...so...dah la. malas ah nk pikir2 ni sume...

wassalam

Paiseh2....

peninsula pat orchard pe...

Cured

da baik da...

Alhamdulillah. Praise be to Allah. Segala Puji bagi Allah

bye.wassalam.

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