| Friday, April 30, 2004 searching non stop |
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today had to prepare for the fun fair..7.40 then left sch..so late...so tired..went parkway wif hwee, cheryl n eldon....hwee n cheryl led eldon n me all over parkway lah! we were lyk dancing or something lyk dat....walk up n down...walk from left to right...search for stuff n juz a shop lyk mad..torture man..and cheryl lost her sock that she put her hp in...n went hysterical abt it..really peered into the dustbin cos she tot she might haf thrown it in..hehe shld haf juz kicked her n see her fall into the bin..that wld be so funny!! ok i being mean..hehe...then bought darts n all the stuff n went back to sch to help out...was so last minute work but managed to do it :)..unity is strength! though not all the classmates helped...
so...searched for stuff non stop today... looking forward to tomoro's funfair...will see many of my frens!!! miss them alot :) issit true that we often take the people we cherish for granted? lyk when we are stressed up or pissed...we usually vent out frustration on the pple we treasure? cos probably these frens or huever are the ones we feel comfortable while expressing ourselves? wadever it is...is good not to think so much as we often complicate matters...smile oways k? searching hard for how i feel...wad i want..issit really so hard? maybe i complicate things maybe is...."pot calling the kettle black" |
| Wednesday, April 28, 2004 Prize presentation |
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today went for prize presentation
to yvette: sorry ah..accidentally push u then make u hit ur head...damn guilty lah....if anything wrong muz tell me k...sorry...n come to vj yah!really sorry x 1000000000000000...... then so many cedarians n seniors...so we took photos n cheered lyk crazy...really miss cedar alot alot alot.....felt so comfortable when i was wif them...saw my coach....felt so happy... went swensen's after that to celebrate sinyee's bday..alot of pple in my team born in april lah! buy presents until broke le lor... some song lyrics for u...hopefully u will feel better "Don't lose your way With each passing day You've come so far Don't throw it away" "Live your story Faith, hope and glory Hold to the truth in your heart" "I'll be right behind your shoulders watching u I'll be standing by your side in all u do and i would nv leave.." be strong |
| Tuesday, April 27, 2004 A lifetime is not too long to stay as friends. Friendship would nv end |
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y cant relationships turn out the way we want?
wadever it is...hope u are ok..will always lend a listening ear to u whenever u need it juz remember " A lifetime is not too long to stay as friends. Friendship would nv end" i duno where i got this from...but i noe i wrote it in my prelims compo haha..still, is a meaningful phrase..n is from the bottom of my heart k..support u always anyway tq n i were passing notes today...damn funny lah..u obviously need to improve on ur chinese lah....i was correcting ur chi all the way! quit chi summore lah humph.. thousands of thoughts running thru my mind....so many 'what ifs'...sometimes...juz hope i dun haf to think so much |
| Monday, April 26, 2004 thoughts |
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juz read cheryl's blog...god it really made me ponder...maybe leaving this place is a form of escaping n true...hu noes whether i wld be happy at the other side of the world? where i wld be all alone...no family no frens by my side..yet indeed..we wld not be lonely unless we actually chose to be...yeah..wad abt those hu care for me here..guess the only thing holding me back is the wonderful memories i haf here...the frens i haf..the family i haf..n everything...
hwee posed an interesting qs today.."why do people ignore those who adore them yet adore those who ignore them?" it is actually qt applicable to some of us...isnt this weird? why cant things be perfect..isnt there something called fate? why muz these people get 'tortured' and get hurt this way...not juz in relationship..even in ccas..some take their privileges for granted or wadever n onli wake up when they realised that it might all be too late..guess it is time to treasure wad i haf n not regret my choice.. damn tired today..probably cos i din sleep well...haven finished my hist essay summore..bleah I've been looking for that special one I've been searching for someone to give me love When i thought that all the hope was gone A smile and there you were and i was gone I always will remember how i felt that day A feeling indescribable to me.. I always knew there was an answer for my prayer will u be the one? though this song is qt old...i still love it! |
| Sunday, April 25, 2004 work work and work |
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wad am i doin here man??? i am supposed to be doin my essay! that is supposed to be the reason why i am online...n now wad am i doin huh? getting more slack each day..chun yim asked me juz now wad do i do now after training had stopped..so naturally supposed to be more free right? well..apparently not..i feel the same lah..my goodness...i dun even noe wad am i busy wif..after this i better make sure i go n do my work!! argh..life is such a misery..:(
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| Saturday, April 24, 2004 :) |
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yesterday was sports day...lynz got 2nd...ursa was 1st..qt exciting but towards the end got a little boring....did mass dance at the last part! then became fun again...though i practically forgot all the steps..but nvm juz anyhow dance haha..
today was lyk gardening...reach sch at 7.55 juz to do gardening! juz to pull out some weeds....goodness..haf to destroy my beauty sleep haha..but it was qt fun lah...hwee n i had lots of fun yeah? pull until no more grass lah..of cos not me..it was hwee! i tink i am qt talented in gardening wahhahaha...can be a gardener next time...then after gardening, cheryl n me went to hwee's house..cheryl was mad lah..playing wif hwee's soft toys...hwee was lyk 'cheryl i noe a reason why i wun let u come to my house next time' haha..but was qt cute lah..then we went parkway to eat at fish n co...think we were too hungry..finished our food so fast..then went back for the principal's tok that we din even listen to..waste of time after that fariza keith n me went to do pw at burger king near borders...aga aga done lah haha so good for us..:) its really sweet..lyk wad tq said 'tang2 zai4 zui2 li3, tian2 zai4 xin1 li3' come to this stage..juz lyk wad u said..there's no turning back.. |
| Thursday, April 22, 2004 juz feel lyk blogging... |
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the quotes are from kelvin's blog..juz borrow hor..thanks :)
"What makes a man a man? His origins? Or his doings? Where he came from doesn't matters. How he decides to end matters determines him." sounds familiar? yeah...from hellboy....really meaningful phrase..sometimes i juz feel lyk starting all over again..juz leaving the country..this coutry...n juz change my life...maybe i wld become a happier person...yet is juz not easy to give up everything here...i would be lonely over there...or maybe...i am already used to it.. "how do you measure love? you measure love by the hole it leaves behind"...when wld this be such a great impact on me? seriously...i dunno...n hesitant abt it... "And I don't want the world to see me because I don't think that they'd understand" i think i really feel this way....i dun open up...n i dunno why i refuse to...perhaps is the incidents that happen around or even to me that made me this way.... when wld i not feel this way anymore... "When we love and believe from the bottom of our heart, we feel ourselves to be stronger than anyone in the world." I agree with this.. "every smile hides a hidden sorrow" thats wad i am feeling right now...... but why |
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Econs sucks...think my test die le...completely answered crap..think i am gonna fail..trying to do econs tutorial but of cos i noe nuts abt it...no mood
went bugis today wif cheryl hwee n jia...realised that my shopping skills cannot make it...think jia is a shopaholic..walk non stop without feeling tired..n we took neoprints..very nice hahah..as jia said, "we all look so pretty" hhehee being bhb here bleah :P duno why i feel qt lonely at times..feel so empty.. why... |
| Saturday, April 17, 2004 at last is over |
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at last is over....we lose to RJ 3-1..but i felt really proud of my team..the unity, the "dun give up" spirit.."never say die" spirit..all displayed during the matches we played against hc as well as rj...though rj won...they were pretty shaken by our spirit n of cos the large support we haf...so overall we are 2nd..at least we maintained...later gonna haf a treat from mr wee at merchant's court! heard that the food there is fabulous....yummy!!
so now...haf to concentrate on studies..sad..no more excuses for me not to do work or listen in class...:( |
| Friday, April 16, 2004 nothing is impossible :) |
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yeah!!!!!! we won hc!!!! oh my god.....it was lyk one of the scariest matches i ever played...my opponent was actually my senior...n we lost 2 matches b4 that...luckily my senior was not as steady as b4 n i managed to win her 3-2..nearly died...nearly lost in the 4th set...was behind by at least 5 pts...but i guess thanks to the support i had from my teammates, i managed to win her..it was still a close match after all
my seniors were damn gd lah!! again..they played against their own sec teammates from cedar...so it was lyk an "internal conflict"(quote from sihuan)...hannah was damn zai lor!! then of cos yeowmay played the decising match n won 3-0....her opponent was pretty steady but not as steady as her...so all the way! so the overall score was 3-2....close match :) tomoro against rj.........even tougher but we will still try out bez :) |
| Wednesday, April 14, 2004 i hope i can do it...and not disappoint u all |
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won NJ 4-1...with that...we are in the semi finals..gonna play wif HC on fri...damn stress...i feel as if i cant breathe..the pressure is on me...if i lose...we probably lose...we were lyk discussing for lyk more than 1 hr today lah...is really felt the pressure....nv been in such a situation...not even in cedar..it wasnt as critical as this..i hope i can win...is a 50-50 chance...pls let me win..
thanks for calling me up today..really appreciate it... to lijuan: i hope u are really fine...dun over exert... |
| Friday, April 09, 2004 Good Friday |
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good friday today..supposed to be a public hol..n yet hardworking ME went back to sch for training...pratically crawled out of bed today..had training at 8! when other pigs are sleeping...shagged...is nuts training everyday...sure lose momentum lah hiaz...
tomoro against SA..apparently they haf very strong fighting spirit waha but i tink vj better in that..but it was damn surprising that they beat tj..so qt jittery abt it actually..match is at 10.15 but we goin there at lyk 8.30 juz to see SA play against Nj...see how the both schs play...hopefully we win..cant afford to lose...can juz go bang my head against the wall if we lose i still haven done my hist essay!! argh! feel lyk sleeping when i look at it...is so sian...really qt behind time lah..damn it |
| Wednesday, April 07, 2004 the draw is out :) |
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won aj 5-0..so went to ballot for the next group..gonna play against sa n nj...lucky not the other grp which comprises of rj, hc n jj...that grp can die lah
so yeah..pretty lucky...we most prob in top 4...juz a matter whether we can get into the finals...yup! :) |
| Tuesday, April 06, 2004 irony |
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juz finished econs
toked to my fren juz now... isnt it weird? when u are in a relationship wif someone, u dun treat her well n hurt her so many dozen times...when u broke wif her...u missed her lyk mad..then u patch back again n break again...on n off...now is finalised...n feel so heart broken n everything.. y muz pple onli treasure wad they possessed onli after they lost it? y muz pple take for granted that the person wld wait for him/her forever? dun they haf other choices? dun make them wait lyk this...its a terrible feeling... |
| new blog! |
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ok thanks kelvin..no need say until lyk dat lah haha
damn sian...gotta do hist essay n econs soon...lucky i asked for extension for hist essay..so now not so cham... :) tomoro is my next match against aj...i better buck up lor...really underperforming...hiaz! :( |
| testing testing.. |
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test.. lala.. blah blah.. easy busy lemon squeezy.. =) |
| Monday, April 05, 2004 complain and complain and complain.. |
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complain n complain n complain non stop
k juz finished hist outline...darn...still haf hist essay but not gonna do now..probably ask for extension..thats wad kenneth did n miss tan agreed so yea..gonna try that too! this whole week will be damn busy lah..everyday training n so much work...stupid...cant they give me a break?? ok fine..everyday i am complaining...a way to de-stress myself.. today rain again....qing ming shi jie yu fen fen..haha gd chi! now my blog something wrong wif the other entries..lyk cannot open..kelvin , u muz help me again! dun juz keep saying i com idiot k...juz help haha i wish all my juniors gd luck for tomoro's match..i noe is a tough one but well juz give all out yah! dun be too upset..support CGTT always! to my dear cousin, gd luck too! steady k! |