Feel Loved.
Saturday, September 20, 2008
It Feels really great when you realize that you're Loved, and Love.
Lately I have been having fun being single, and enjoying its perks.;) It kept my attention to itself that I haven't noticed the affection of People. I admit that I have Crushes sa campus, well, who doesn't have any? So I have been in the skies lately dahil na rin I've been bumping into them, lalo na yung tipong last year ko pa siya last nakita. Sugar rush talaga. And it's intoxicating. But these past few days, there are People who made me feel Loved in subtle ways:)
First of all, dorm mates, esp my dear socks, my room mates<3 They are like, a walking diary of stuffs that happen to me. I have been more open to them than my parents. I do not have any bestfriend because I choose not to have one.. unless may magpresenta diyan:P but i'd rather not have one, dahil na rin sa commitment to tell them everything in excruciating detail. It's that responsibility that I cannot commit myself. And I'm sort of traumatized by an experience with a former friend who was a sister to me. SO, my dear Socks:) I Love them though I do not tell them. I Love them though they may not feel it. I Love them though I hate them:) I Love them enough to worry about them at night. I Love them enough to worry about them before I eat my meal. I Love them enough to worry about them when they are sick. I Love them enough to worry about their problems. I Love them enough to memorize their class schedule more than I do to mine. I Love them enough to want to make them my biological sisters. I Love them enough to want to make them family. I Love them enough to think about them before I sleep. I Love them enough to be in my happiest dreams<3 that's how I Love them. I may not tell them these, but they are this important to me. I Love them enough to feel upset when I think of them leaving permanently. I may not be loved by them the way that i do for them, but i do not mind. I just want to Love them while they're here.:)
Then, my family, my parents, and my dear Lola:) I have been with you my lifetime, but i just realized how important I am to you. I Love you more now that I do not feel nagged when you text me when I am in Los Baños to ask how I am doing. I Love you more now that I brain consistently reminds me stuff. This involuntary thing made me realize that I see and Love you now, differently:) I Love you so much. I Love you mama. I Love you dadi. I Love you bro. I Love you nadia. AND I Love you Lola:)
Then, my dear friends, blkmates, orgmates, and most especially, dear ZeroNav. Though I am not expressive of my emotions, you are all dear to me:) I have grown to love you in the short span of time that I have known you. Madami akong natutunan sa inyo, mula sa inyo, dahil sa inyo. Nagbago din ako dahil sa inyo. And I thank you for helping me grow as an individual of responsibilities.:)
And my UPLB EngSoc family line: Kuya JC, salamat sa paga-allot ng time and money for family dinners:) i know that you are a busier person lalo na't you have a heavy job, so it makes it a big deal that you still have time for the organization:) Ninong Jay, hindi mo naman to mababasa eh, so wag ka na!:P wuaha. Joke lang ninong:P kahit minsan talaga sa tingin mo'y nawawala ang respeto ko sayo, wag mong isiping ganun yon. Tinatanggal ko lang ang boundary between us, so open tayo sa isa't isa. Napapag-usapan natin ang mga bagay bagay. Example, si Ninang! Este, SILA ninang:P andami kasi nila eh! Di ba RC? Andami na nating Ninang. Grabe na.:)) Balik sayo ninong;) Sobrang laki ng bilib ko sayo nung nagkaron ako ng inaanak. Iniisip ko nuon yung hirap at pagod mo nung nagfafinals ako. Grabe. Kaya wag mong iisiping hindi kita nirerespeto. Wag mong kalilimutan, ikaw si Boots, palaging kasama ni Dora:) RC, kinakapatid:) Alam mo ba na mula nung bata pa ako, gusto ko na magkaroon ng kuya, as in older brother? Mahabang Kwento yun, actually. But now na nagkaroon ako ng kapatid sa org, hindi man ako expressive, valuable ka to me:) Mataas ang tingin ko sayo, nirerespeto kita. Kaya nanghihinayang ako dahil hindi ako nakapunta nung reporting, delibs, at finals niyo, kasi hindi kita nakilala ng mas maaga. Nanghihinayang ako dahil hindi kita nakilala deeper. Pero syempre, kapatid pa din kita:) hindi man biologically, but in some way, ikaw si kuya rc:) Luigi, ang inaanak ko:) alam kong alam mo na to dahil ilang beses ko na ring sinabi sayo, napa-aga ang pagkakaroon ko ng inaanak sa org. Alam kong may mga pagkukulang ako sayo, but i hope that you understand:) Hindi rin kita nakilala to the degree that i expected and wanted, but i content myself with what i know. Pero sana, kwentuhan mo ako kahit paminsan minsan para syempre, updated naman ako. Ang pagiging ninang ko sana ay hindi magtapos nung finals niyo. And I am sorry lalo na nung araw na ng finals niyo, because I didn't make it on time sa vega. Nanghihinayang din ako dahil hindi ko nawitness ang pagblindfold mo. I am sorry din kasi siguro natakot ka din nuon sa vega na hindi ako dadating, na magfafinals ka mag isa. Naaalala mo pa yung text ko nuon? Hindi ka magfafinals ng wala ako. Odiba? Bongga:))
And, my friends outside the UP system. Puyatan pag magkatext, magkatext kahit may exam. Nasa Field trip man o klase, magkatext pa din! Salamat sa pagtitiyaga:) Salamat sa pag-alala kahit na hindi tayo magschool mate man lang ngayong college:)
AND! si Greg. Natouch ako nung out of nowhere bigla kang nagtext at nangamusta. It was so unexpected since it was and is, hell week. So acads talaga inaatupag ko. Napakaliit na lang ng time na inallot ko for socializing. So, si Greg nga. Natouch talaga ako kasi it's exams season na, so expected talagang acads ang focus ng mga tao. But you, though you are at a far far place, you remembered to text:) I do not know what or why you texted me, but it's impression on me when i read your msg wouldn't change. And you cleared the fog at the bridge;) gets? i know you do:P basta, I am Thankful that I got a chance to know you sa college. It was a short span of time, we both know that. But given that fact, I am Thankful that you did not forget us, your blkmates:) I am Thankful na hindi ka nakakalimot. I am Thankful na nakilala kita. I am Thankful na mas nakilala kita last sem. I am Thankful na andun ka nung sem ender ng u2 dahil kung hindi, malamang lamang napainom ako ni Emerson:) You may not know this or you may not be aware, that you are one of the few whom I consider dear:) I value you that I trust you with my spirituality -if there's such a word. I Value you that I smile kapag nagjojoke ako na mananampal ako. kapag kakain ako ng eclair. kapag kakain ako ng cream puff. kapag may magaalok ng alak. kapag may nagyayayang sumama ako sa Bible Study nila. kapag nakikita ko yung Bible ng room mate ko. kapag may nakukwento tungkol sa diliman. kapag may nagyayayang sorority. kapag may nakikita akong naglalakad na nakabulsa lahat ng gamit:P ahaha. Eto seryoso, thank you for being there. Your presence may not be constantly felt, but I thank you all the same. Thank you sa pagtitiyaga sa pag eexplain ng mga bagay bagay. Thank you for leading me when I'm lost. Thank you so much for making me realize that I am on the bridge. Thanks:)
Aaaaaaaaaaaaand last but not the least, I thank Jesus:) I thank You for dying on the cross. I thank You for sacrificing himself for our sins. I thank YOU for suffering and enduring a great deal of pain for us. I thank You for giving me a chance to meet these important and dear people to me. I thank You for all. I thank You for being there. I thank You for helping me. I thank You for doing all that He did. I thank You for all these blessing that You have given me:) I am sorry that I sinned and sin. I am sorry for my shortcomings. I am sorry that I did not take time to open a Bible. I am sorry for those moments and times that I forgot to come to You. I am sorry that I have not acted on my religious life until now. I am sorry. I thank You a lot, and I Love You. I Love You with my all.
@ 12:17 PM
Cause we all just wanna be big rockstars
Saturday, August 23, 2008
Yeah. We all do. Others just don't know it YET.
I miss my new freshman schedule. It's so… clean.
Well, that's a nice way to put it.
I used to have a lot of vacant time, and now, I don't even know the meaning of "vacant time", and it SUCKS.
So much to do, so little time.
@ 11:41 PM
UP Article
Saturday, August 02, 2008
INTEGRATIONS
maya baltazar herrera
Voyage
There are no children here This week, I went to a meeting at the UP School of Economics and I came away with renewed belief in the value of the UP experience. If you speak to anyone from UP – student, professor, alumnus - you will get no Latin slogans or apologies about how the school teaches values in spite of its outward materialism. This is not a student population that thinks about basketball games or memorizes school songs. This is not a school that chooses one statement to drill into the minds of its students. This is not, of course, to say that UP does not care about values. It is that UP, in its own inimitable way, believes that values cannot be force-fed. The statue of the naked man that guards the entrance to the campus in Diliman best represents UP's approach to all education and the respect for students that is the center of its educational philosophy. All who come to this university, regardless of origin, bring themselves naked, carrying nothing but their thirst; like the proverbial empty teacup, making an offering of self, waiting to be filled. *Adults* For many students from private schools, the first lesson that is learned here is that this is a school for adult education. There are no children here, and that is why no parents are allowed either at freshman orientation or during enlistment. The spirit of the oblation lies not in a mother or a father offering up his child to the world, it is that of the newly adult, freely offering of his self. I remember quite vividly that moment that drove home how different the UP education continues to be. It was my daughter's first semester in university and she had invited a group of her high school friends to our house. One of them asked a classmate whether she had gotten her parents permission form approved for that weekend's outreach activity. From the UP population around the table came the mock horrified responses of: "Permission? " and "Outreach?" I thought about it and realized that all of these students were, in fact, legally adults. I thought it interesting that only the UP students appeared to appreciate this fact. Even more interesting was the "outreach" comment. I think back to my own university years and the last three years that my daughter has been in UP and am certain there is no lack of civic activity. There are medical missions, house building projects, tree planting, community work and barrio work and so on. I realize now that the reaction was not to the activity as much as it was to the use of the word. One of the most important differences of the UP campus from all the other campuses my children considered going to is that this campus has no walls. Many parents fear this. They are afraid their precious children will not be protected from the ills of society in a campus that is so open to the rest of the world. But UP is open to the world in more ways than just not having the physical walls. *Community * Being in UP means much more than being a student. This campus is enmeshed in a community. This community is made up not only of the transient population of students who go home each night. It includes the many, many students who lay their heads on dorm pillows each night, enduring time away from families in the firm belief that this campus will bring them closer to their dreams. This community includes the families of faculty and employees who live on campus. It also includes the many people who work not for the University, but nevertheless work on campus. This community includes the lady who remembers the brand of cigarette you smoke and automatically hands it to you in the morning. It includes the gentleman who remembers you like pepper on your egg sandwich or the one who knows you will dip your fish balls into two of his sauces, who patiently waits for you to eat your three sticks before being paid. It includes the woman who saw all her children through college by selling peanuts every day on campus. To a UP student, the daily heartbeat of the school is never far away from the realities of the country. The word outreach suggests that civic activity is something outside of the normal, something you do once in a while. It must be immensely difficult to think of community as a thing apart when your campus experience brings you face to face with all of the world's realities every day. *Character* All of this probably explains that unmistakable sense of self that you will find from students who come from this campus. Here is a campus where all have the same opportunities to learn. But, also, here is a campus that will give all the same opportunities to fail. There are no guidance counselors who will chase after you because you have been skipping classes. The attitude this university takes is that you must take the initiative – for learning, for seeking help, for realizing you need help. That is not to say that no help exists. But it is help that is not forced upon you. This is a university rich in both introspection and conversation. On this campus, the student is constantly exposed to people – faculty, administrators, community members, other students – who care deeply and passionately about the world. The conversations are almost never purely cerebral. A single graph can provoke comments about government policy and its effects on people. As a result, UP is home to a student population that looks at the world and cares. It is easy to see pictures of protesting students and dismiss it as radicalism. But there are few campuses in this country where students go beyond a passing curiosity about what is happening in the world beyond their own lives. There are even fewer universities where students not only care but also actually believe they have a responsibility to make a difference – not in some hazy future – today. And that, I believe, is what truly forges character. Character is not molded by speeches or long classes in ethics or theology. Character grows from within. It begins by being handed the keys to your own self and being told you are in charge; you now have power over yourself and your own actions – and with that power, you take on responsibilities. Each student in this university goes through his own unique voyage of discovery. On his voyage, as he decides what he cares about, what he will fight for and what he will sacrifice, he crafts his own personal values. That is what education is truly about.
@ 6:18 AM
Buod ng dula -mula sa playbill
Saturday, March 22, 2008
Ang dulang Bagong Cristo ay binubuo ng tatlong tagpo at may temang sosyalista. Pinangungunahan into ni Jesus Gatbiaya na siyang magtatanggol sa inaapi na ipagtanggol ang karapatan laban sa mga sakim na panginoong-maylupa, negosyante at burges-komprador. Sa pagdaloy ng dula, ang mga manggagawa'y mahihimok na bumuo ng sarili nilang unyon. Ang dula ay nakabase rin sa mga aral relihiyoso o ispiritwalidad ukol sa buhay at naratibo ni Hesukristo sa bibliya. Dahil sa kanyang mga pangaral, dadami ang kanyang kaaway na kapitalistang may-ari ng kumpanya at manganganib ang kanyang buhay.
Ang pinunong si Jesus Gatbiaya na kilala rin bilang Ang Bagong Cristo ay magsisilbing lider at tagapagsalita ng mga mamamayang inaapi. Ang kanyang papel sa dula ay kahalintulad ng papel ni Hesus sa banal na bibliya at may mga pangaral patungkol sa hustisya at pagkapantay-pantay sa lipunan, liban pa sa kabanalan. Si Jesus Gatbiaya, bilang Hesus ay isang makabagong pagsasabuhay ni Aurelio Tolentino ng isang tagapagligtas at bayani ng mamamayan.
Samantala, si Dolores, bilang ina ni Jesus Gatbiaya ang siya namang tumatayo bilang si Mariya. Dala-dala ng kanyang pangalan ang hapis at kalungkutan na tila bigat ding inaako ng ating inang bayan. Karamihan sa kanyang eksena ay kahalintulad ng papel ni Maria sa banal na bibliya.
Kasama rin sa dula and karakter ng kababaihang sina Donya Salud, Neneng at Biheng. Si Donya Salud ay ang kapitalista subalit sumusunod pa rin sa pangaral ni Jesus Gatbiaya. Neneng, ang iniibig ni Magdangal ay isang magandang dilag. Bilang isang masunuring alagad ng Bagong Cristo, tinalikuran ni Neneng ang yamang alay ng kapitalismo - at ang pag-ibig din ng kapitalistang si Magdangal - at ibinigay ito sa kawanggawa s akatauhan ni Biheng, isang mahirap na ina na kinailangang magsanla (o magpa-alipin) ng mga anak kay Magdangal. Sa pagtalikod ni Neneng sa mg agahaman at pagsunod nila Donya Salud at Biheng sa kaligtasang dala ng Bagong Cristo, isinabuhay nila ang mga aral at prinsipyong dala ng bayaning si Jesus Gatbiaya. Sila'y waring ang tatlong babae na dumalaw sa puntod ni Hesukristo ayon sa banal na bibliya.
Si Kabesang Andoy ang ama ni Neneng, isa sa mga manggagawa at alagad na sumusunod kay Jesus Gatbiaya. Siya ang mabuting tagasunod kahalintulad ng mabuting apostol Pedro na marahas na namatay tulad ng pagkakapaslang sa kanyang maestro. Samantala, sina Kapitang Berto at Magdangal ay ang mga makabagong pariseo o mga huwad na relihiyoso. Sila'y mg gahamang amo at kapitalista na ayaw magbigay ng tamang pasahod at benipisyo sa mga manggagawa. Tutol sila sa mga pangaral at panghihimok ni Jesus Gatbiaya. Sa pamamagitan ngi Limbas, manganganib ang buhay ni Jesus bilang ganti nina Berto't Magdangal sa kabila ng pagkakaroon ng batas sa katauhan ng Huwes at ng estado/Gobernador.
@ 12:40 AM
Week after valentine's week. Week after FebFair.
Saturday, February 16, 2008
Tuesday. Part two, third lone exam sa Math36. Horror-er.
Wednesday. No sleep night. Lab exam kinabukasan sa Chem15.
Thursday. This is it. The big moment. 7-9p, PSLH-A. Second Laboratory Examination sa Chem15. HORROR-EST.
Friday. Math36 NO CLASS again. Smilesmile:):)
Quite a horrific week, eh? Let's get to the happy side.
Monday, yeah right. Day started with that quiz sa stat1 lecture, and ended with that exam sa math36. But at least nakabalik ng Los Baños yung mga nag-field trip sa corregidor that weekend. They were supposed to be back Sunday night, or afternoon, but they got stranded because they can't ferry out into the water kasi masyado daw maalon. One blockmate and one dorm mate of mine were included, so thank goodness.
Monday 7pm, deliberation ng nominees for next term. It's an organizations thing. Nagpaka-bibbo ako dito. I asked quite a lot of questions kasi naman it was a deliberation nga eh there were moments na quiet and nobody was raising questions. Well, somebody had to get up. I did. So ayun. I also saved a brod from getting too much. Nakakaawa na kasi siya, nagigisa na siya sobra nung iba, so I had to make a move, as a sis. And it was a really chilly night, I wanted to get it done already.:P
Tuesday, yeah, second exam sa math36. I cut my chem15 lecture class to study for this specific exam because I didn't get to study the night before. The exam was okay-ish. I almost got the correct answers. Palaging may sablay eh. bwisit. Tuesday night, I forgot to eat dinner. I guess I was just so spaced out. So nung nabasa ko yung text sa phone ko if I had eaten dinner, bigla kong naalala na hindi pa nga pala ako nagdidinner. HAHA. So we just ate out. It was only an hour, but it made my day end fairly.:)
Wednesday, I had Pappu's for dinner. Then I had a really painful tummy afterwards. So malamang yung dinner ko ang may kasalanan nung tummy ache ko. I just had tea and the pain was gone. Good thing I have tea sa dorm. I was planning not to take a wink of sleep, but it was hopeless. I had been reading the same thing for hours too long that it was making me sick already. I slept at 2am.
Thursday night, the big CHEM night.Grabe yung exam, GRABE. Yung tipong gagawin kang manghuhula though malamang may scientific solutions naman. Hopeless talaga yung exam. Kahit talagang mag-aral ka and all, wala. WALA. Grabe. Alam naman natin na papel lang yun pero talagang wala eh. Nakaka-degrade ng sarili yung exam. Papel lang yun eh, PAPEL!! Pero grabe, GRABE!!! After nung exam, naisip ko, alak. inom. gin. beer. Masaya yun. Kailangang makalimutan ang pesteng exam na yon. Kaso umaambon nanaman eh. Nakakatamad. So I just took a long stroll pauwi ng dorm. Tas naalala ko, hindi pa pala ako nagdidinner. Takte. Screw dinner. Matutulog na lang ako since wala rin naman akong mayaya mag-inom. >:) Ito talaga yung moment na sa tingin ko, sobrang vulnerable ako to any form of happiness. I needed a drop of a happy moment badly.
Friday, wala ulit class sa math. Nagtext si Greg, may itatanong yata sa math. He asked if I had eaten breakfast. Yeah, I had. I'm watching doraemon na nga on TV eh. He was given a special exam sa math36 kasi hindi siya nakapagtake nung monday because he was "stuck" sa corregidor. So I said na why not over lunch na lang since 2pm pa naman yung exam niya, and I can go home any time I want kasi wala naman akong class. Nahihiya daw siya. Naman! Matatapos na ang sem, mahihiya pa rin? He obviously needed a nudge. So sabi ko, lunch na lang niya itanong. Tas after lunch uwi na ko, then he'll go take his exam. It was a done thing so I had to get on with fixing some things sa room before I leave. So may tinanong siya sa math, then we ended up eating lunch sa Selina's. Masarap dun eh. Haha. Eh I got to pick the place. So syempre dun ko siya dadalin. Then sumakay na ko ng jeep, then he walked back sa campus for his exam.
Pagdating ko ng atc, I got myself a pair of havaianas. Haha. Pampalubag-loob after ng tatlong madugo-dugong exam sa isang linggo. My parents picked me up, then we went to Dra. Paulino's clinic sa BF. Dapat si Nadia lang ang magpapa-injection eh. But since madalang lang ako sa vicinity, I also had mine. Dalawa nga yung sakin eh. Chicken pox booster daw pati the one for meningo. I suggested the one for menigo kasi nagkaroon last last week sa los baños ng bata na taga-Grove na dinala sa infirmary. May meningo daw yung bata, so malamang andun lang sa los baños yung virus. I was pretty scared that night I heard of the news. I didn't want to get scared again so I suggested the vaccine to be given to me. Then sinundo namin yung kapatid ko sa school niya then we all went to SMBicutan para mag-grocery, then we got home.
Homesweethome.
Ansakit na ng arm ko. Kanina pa ko type ng type.
Tomorrow, Sunday, magbi-birthday daw dito sa bahay yung cousin ko. Her family, I think, will also sleep here tonight. Hm. Maybe I'll update you on that later na lang.
xoxo,
@ 6:27 PM
lovelovelove.heartheartheart.
Nothing out of the ordinary when I woke up. Well, there was a ton of valentine text messages. Oh wait, it was a SINGLE'S AWARENESS DAY.:P haha. My schedule for the day was okay. start at 7am, then a break from 12nn to 1p, then 1p to 4p. Last class til 4pm, then I, Ian and Greg [blockmates ko na classmates ko sa last subject ko which is math] went to Men's Dorm. Open House kasi nila. A couple of our blockmates stays there so it was like a visit and a reunion of our block. It's called only Men's Dorm, but it's actually a coed dormitory, though hiwalay ang unit ng girls sa boys.
We played a couple of pusoy dos sa Bayabas unit- the engineering unit, or whatever it is. They all have this green shirt with the word "Bayabas" on it, so I guess it's bayabas unit. The consequence of losing is sasayaw dun sa table. HAHA. Oh, when I said we, I meant Me, Marian, Emerson, Rj, Miro, Stephen, at ang nakikisabit sa block kahit hindi naman blockmate, Joe. It was fun, really. A lot of times I thought I'd lose, but NO! Trained yata to sa EngSoc kung pano mag-laro ng pusoy. HAHA.
Afterwards, it was like a block-treats night. Greg came back from his meeting/class/whateveritwasiforgotalready thing. Emerson stayed in the dorm with some of his girl friendS. I treated them shawarma, Marian got the drinks. Then umalis nanaman tong si Greg dahil may meeting pa yata siya. Tas dumating naman si Stephen, na nanlibre naman ng burger, tas si miro naman, iced tea. Grabe sobrang busog ko na nun that I couldn't finish my burger. There was this kid who asked if he could have my iced tea. I said he can't, but he can have my burger instead. Hihi. A nice way to go for unfinished food.
Time went on until apat na lang kaming magkakasama, Me, Marian, Muriel, and Ramir. Our other blockmates got busy with their open house so there was no point in asking them to stay with us at the fair. By 10pm, we all got home to our respective dorm. I had to get back to my dorm because I had no more battery left on my phone, meaning to say di ako nakapag-paalam sa aming dorm manager.
When I got back to the dorm, grabe! Walang katao-tao sa floor namin. Then I remembered na manonood pa ko ng concert ng Typecast. I'm not a fan, but since it's free and for fun, why not? So tinext ko si Greg kasi ang alam ko manonood din yun. By 11pm, I left the dormitory again. Akala ko nga hindi na ko papayagan ng dorm manager kasi it's an hour past the curfew already. Eh FebFair naman, so I guess she understood.
It was a fun night. I got to meet Greg's cousin na BS Nutri. His name's Constantine, yata. Basta yun nga yata yung name niya. Then his cousin told me [while greg was ordering his zagu] that he pities himself because there was less than an hour left of valentine's at wala pa rin daw siyang kasamang babae. Haha. So he left us later on. So kami naman ni Greg, nagpunta sa Bayabas. Some of our blockmates came to us later that night para din sa concert ng typecast. Tas nung Typecast na yung nasa stage, it was, uhm, okay. HAHA. Okay:) We were all standing under the drizzling rain. Oh and btw, ako lang pala yung girl sa group namin that night. I didn't even know more than half of those people with us na evidently, mga taga-Bayabas. But I don't know, I didn't feel out of place, or left out. I guess what I had at that moment was way more than what I need to be happy:)
I got back to the dorm by 2am already.
I only had one class the next day, but it was cancelled. Hoorah for me:)
You don't have to have a date, like intimate date, just to be happy on heart's day. You can just be with people you care about and be happy.
*winkwink*
@ 6:27 PM
You gotta be KIDDING me.
MONDAY, it was practically a normal start. You know, the alarm rings at 5.15a but i snooze it off until i get sleepiness out of my system which is often around 6am already. Then eat a cookie or two, drink milk, bathe, get dressed, get a sheet or two of 1/4 yellow paper, get pen and i.d., half-dry hair, spray on perfume, change slippers, then off to BioSci bldg for the first class, STAT1. Some of my classmates in this subject don't take a bath. haha. Siguro vacant naman nila after. Well, that's normal for a 7am class. In UP, that is. Pero ako kahit vacant ko 2hrs after this class, di ko pa nattry yun. kadiri naman kasi eh. Di ba?
So class started with a quiz, as usual. Our lecturer never fails to give us at least one every meeting, except for when it was our midterm exam that night. FYI to those who don't know it, departmental exams such as lab exams and stat1 exams, are conducted at night, 7-9pm or 7-8.30p.
After stat was a 2-hour vacant for me so I get to eat a decent almulunch -almusal+lunch. My next class every mondays and wednesdays after stat is a 10am-4pm series of classes, so if i don't wan't to get a rumbling stomach, i load up on my almulunch.
10am, I have an engineering science class so it's definitely in our college building -CEAT. The building is being renovated. Well, pinapaganda nila. Tinatapalan nila yung cracks sa walls, rotten ceiling plywoods are changed, and the walls are repainted. Hopefully, the rest rooms are next in line. LOL. This 10a to 1p class is a drawing class, so I bring with me all the engineering students definitions -triangles, tech pens, templates. I don't bring a t-square yet because the plates we're working on doesn't really demand it. When we get on big things, that's when I'll bring mine, but for now, i'll just settle with triangles. Carrying around a t-square from 10am to 4pm is not a joke, believe me, lalo na kapag umuulan. Argh. Tas sobrang nakakagutom tong class na to. ewan ko ba, di naman kami tumatakbo. :O
1pm, eng1 class at humanities bldg. It's kind of a long walk from CEAT but it's fine to be running a little late kasi late din naman ang instructor namin in this subject. Classmate ko sa subject na to si mirra, a college friend with whom i share maldita moments. Haha. We hang out at mcdo after our class kasi we're usually dismissed at 2pm, which is an hour prior to my next class. Then she goes with me to my class in math building. Her apartment kasi is near math building and i have classmates in my math class who were her classmates in high school, so it's kind of a twice a week reunion of theirs.
Math class. Nothing much happens here. Three of my sisses [batchmates] are my classmates in this subject, so kamay-kamay. Sometimes we don't do the handshake anymore.
After math class, I walk home to the dorm. Usually alone, walking really fast, or sometimes slow. Sometimes with blockmates na classmates ko sa math, but sometimes dumederetso ako sa tambayan namin sa ceat, that is if i don't have anything to do.
First day ng FebFair sa school. I spent a lot of time sa booth namin sa field that night. I even went past sa curfew ng dormitory. But that's ok kasi may kasabay naman akong dorm mate pauwi.
TUESDAY, I didn't come to my chemlab class. We were supposed to have an experiment. But what the heck. I got back on my laboratory groupmates. Usually there are only three of us doing the experiment when there are supposed to be five of us. So we almost always get something wrong in the experiment. Crap di ba? I had to get back somehow. I know that I'll miss the experiment but it's just a matter of give and take revenge. AAAAHHH. I'm so mean.
Tuesday is a 7am-4pm day for me. 7to10am was the chemlab class, which i skipped. So classes started from 10am for me. 10am, STAT1 Recit class. It's one of those boring 3-hour classes. The instructor teaches us and then we answer the exercise then we leave. After this class is my chem-lecture class. One and a half hour large class lecture. I doodle a lot in this class, sometimes i text people even if i know that the lecturer could definitely see everything from where she stands. But after life at parsci, you'll learn to sneak stuffs like this. Then I go to my daily 3to4 math class. After which, Shelly and I went to the EE Building to return to the office of the college secretary our mini-checklists. Then dumeretso kami sa field for the fair. ayun. happy happy.
Wednesday wasn't much of a day. I got past the dormitory curfew again kasi open house ng vet dorm, and the brods prepared something for us sisses.
OMG, uuwi pa pala ako ng Los Banos ngayon. I'll have to cut this off. maybe I'll blog again later tonight, oh i don't know.
got to go dudes.
@ 6:27 PM
Sworn sisters is better then blood sisters. Sworn brothers are better than blood brothers.
Friday, November 30, 2007
Here it is:
Monday
7-8
Stat1-Lecture class
10-1
ES10a
1-2.30
Eng1
3-4
Math36
Tuesday
7-10
Chem15-Laboratory class
10-1
Stat1-Recitation class
1-2.30
Chem15-Lecture
3-4
Math36
Wednesday
7-8
Stat1-Lecture class
10-1
ES10a
1-2.30
Eng1
3-4
Math36
Thursday
7-10
Chem15-Laboratory class
10-12
PE1
1-2.30
Chem15-Lecture class
3-4
Math36
Friday
3-4
Math36
Ayaaan. It's so crammed up even if I already cancelled one subject which has lecture and recitation classes. I barely have time to even eat my lunch. I'm okay with the fact that I have to walk from building to building after every period, but at least give me some break. Now I guess you can imagine how I look like at the end of the day. Add to that the fact that I am an applicant of a student organization. It's gonna take a lot of my time after 4pm for about two weeks, but after that, I'll be a member of it and everything will be worth every haggard moment I looked like.;)
Fster shoutout: "I know it'll take most of the time that I've left,but I also know that after every passing second, every haggard moment, every tear, every paltos, every P12 jeepney fare(to&fro), every scream I'll take, every shoulder I have, it's gonna be worth it."
wish. wish.
PARSCI NEWS:
Mang Deuda, our friend at the gates at ang nagpapalusot sa'tin kahit di pwede dumaan ng gate, ang di nakakalimot mangamustang kaibigan natin, died last Nov. 25 due to heart attack accdg. to Sir Dids' post in the fster bulletin. Let us all pray for his soul and those that he had left behind. His burial will be one Sunday, Dec. 2.
so sad. soooo sad. If you have spare time, dear parscians and his friends, please do come sa lamay niya at their house. Sir Dids Morales had posted in the fster bulletin the directions to their house.
@ 6:18 AM
Over You by Daughtry
Monday, November 12, 2007
Now that it's all said and done
I can't believe you were the one to build me up and tear me down
Like an old abandoned house
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath
I felt as if I was in way too deep
Guess I let you get the best of me
Well, I never saw it coming
I should have started running
A long, long time ago!
And I never thought I'd doubt you
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know
I'm slowly getting closure
I guess it's really over
I'm finally gettin' better
Now I'm picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through
I got over you!
You took a hammer to these walls
Dragged the memories down the hall
Packed your bags, and walked away
There was nothing I could say
And when you slammed the front door shut
A lot of others opened up
So did my eyes, so I could see
That you never were the best for me
Well, I never saw it coming
I should have started running
A long, long time ago!
And I never thought I'd doubt you
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know
I'm slowly getting closure
I guess it's really over
I'm finally gettin' better
Now I'm picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through
I got over you!
Well, I never saw it coming
I should have started running
A long, long time ago!
And I never thought I'd doubt you
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know
I'm slowly getting closure
I guess it's really over
I'm finally gettin' better
Now I'm picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
Well, I'm putting my heart back together
'Cause I got over you
I got over you
I got over you
The day I thought I'd never get through
I got over you.
@ 6:18 AM
