Tuesday, July 29, 2008
ha... now feelin so dam F up... lost my *** box... dam sad now... the feelings... its been with me since i started ******... wad the hell... SUPER NO MOOD... sian sian... todae work at MS[marina square].. tml is david's bdae.. so we celebrated at night todae... bought a cake... n gave him a surprise... happy for him coz his lucky tat ppl even celebrates his bdae for him... dun noe how many years since i ate my bdae cake NOT bought by myself... sian... diff life from the rest... tats y i hate my bdae... its nth special at all... just a dae to make me feel worst... makes me feel even lonelier... haizx... tats my life.. i should just sae im frens with loneliness... if u all think tat im always emo... den too bad... coz im the pessimistic me... this is me... im no more the laughing person tat goes around laughin at nth... i just feel like cryin every min... why cant i hav c***** n die or something... its hard livin in this world.. dealing with feeling n emotions...
12:40 AM
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
haizx... suddenly feel emo... maybe coz of all the watchin of love shows... it just makes me sadder... but i still love to watch them.. at least i can cry openly.... its been 2 years... but i dun noe why i just cant let go... even though i noe its impossible between us.. i can sae i like other ppl... but u nv left my heart... i wan to noe why too.. after wadever u hav done.. i dun wish to forget everything.. but wish i can forget the hurt... but not the happy moments... even if there were almost none... at least i can imagine n dream some.. i wan to see u... but i dun wan u to see me... i wan to secretly watch over u.. noe everything bout u.. see u happy... even though i noe i wont be happy... ppl can call me flirt or wadever they wan to call me... but at least for now... i noe deep inside my heart i cant forget u at all..
my bdae is comin soon... but i hate it... always being alone.. getting into trouble... causin others to be unhappy... no one remembering my bdae... it makes me feel even more full of shit n lonely.. buyin cake for myself.. celebrating it alone... is tat the best way i can enjoy tat dae.. "THE SO CALL THE MOST SPECIAL DAE OF ONES LIFE".. all full of shit.. its nth but trouble n more sadness... forget it.. getting too emo to continue... freak..
1:13 AM
Saturday, July 05, 2008
29/06-3/07
MEL CAMP
for happy moments first..
everydae was fun.. know new ppl.. got closer to ppl who i already noe..
the food there was super gd...
the soup..
the main course..
the desert..
the breakfast for almost every morning..
MORE PICS...
charlene-alicia-me...
me-very pretty korean gal...
aza-me...
justin-me...
me-alex...
clarence-me...
me-felicia-audrey...
candy-me...
felicia-me-charlene.. [cabin-mates]
audrey-mary-candy-me...
me-cool korean guy..
me-audrey..[the wind was dam strong]
me-audrey..[captains cocktail]
audrey-me...
candy-me...
me-audrey...
our group... [the hens.. KFC]
our group+ben..
our full group.. [the hens..KFC]
wei qing-me... =P
me-benjamin
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~time for the emo part...
wishin tat was u n me... [but its not]
thinking of u...
thinking of u again..
thinking of u once again...
before i go for the camp i thought of u..
wondering i will miss u anot...
the truth is tat when i was there...
the lonely environment..
i thought of u... i miss u..
but when im back.. when i saw u..
i dun noe y i reacted this way... like i didnt even thought bout u..
i reacted like i didnt wan to see or tok to u...
i didnt even noe y..
is it becoz a change of heart... or a change of mind...
or maybe izzit coz u give me a feeling tat everything is not true...
or i just didnt noe how to tok to u...
or i just didnt noe how to trust.. ... ... .. ..trust love...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
ive wondered alot bout love ...
but somehow i just feel lost...
i can tell others... but i cant just do it myself...
either thinking bout the past or future...
i just wan to hav one-sided love..
at least i noe i love one before...
at least i can keep nice memorise bout us when we r just frens...
8:42 PM
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