Sunday, June 05, 2011
haizx. feel like such a failure. wads the point of havin a crush on someone. its like his too gd for me. im too lousy. he will not fall for me. apparently no one will really fall for me.
u said u like me. but in ure heart i will not be more den ure ex gf. coz she is always in ure heart. so dun need to say or do anything. i noe ive hurt u. but we r just frens.
when we broke off. i ever thought of still goin back again. i thought u still had feelings for me. but im wrong. tat gal nv felt ure heart. now at last ure happily together with her. but hav u thought tat u changed my life! ive changed for the worst. grown fat n everything. lose fate in love. its all ure fault. yes i took the wrong choice of handling the failure. but u werent fooling around with ppls feeling. non of this would happen. i may hav more courage to go for the guy tat i like. i wouldnt be in this state. yes. im putting the blame on u to make myself feel better. but u seriously hav changed me. i lose hope on love. now i dun even attract anyone for who i am. n u happily with the girl tat broke ure heart so many times n tat may break ure heart again n again. but wad has it got to do with me? nth. ure the only one tat i regretted letting u into my life. without u. maybe so many things wont be this way now. i hate u. i hate u andrew.
just so afraid of getting hurt again. but seeing those tat u like with others hurts too. or tat they are not around u anymore.
3:03 AM
Sunday, May 29, 2011
im a bitch n i hate myself... god just kill me already..
11:35 PM
Sunday, March 13, 2011
haizx.. y do i always fall for the wrong guy... so hard liking someone.. rewatchin one litre of tears again.. in the show she doesnt wan to die... im suppose to treasure life even more after watchin this kind of show.. but somehow i still do wan to get sick.. not normal sick but serious sick.. if possible i wish im the one sick instead of my family.. im such a useless piece of shit.. not worth being in this world.. y am i so dumb.. hate it..
12:20 AM
Friday, March 11, 2011
haizx.. dammit.. im hoping for the impossible.. i knew it was impossible.. i knew it wasnt me.. but i still kept the hope there.. dammit.. now it feels worst den ever.. cconfirming tat its not me.. who am i to hope for.. u wish she would reply ure sms.. like how i wish u would reply me too.. u wish she would tok to u like always.. its like how i wish u would tok to me more often too.. how i wish reality wont sit in.. so many thoughts.. so many feelings.. all this just makes it a lonelier night..
1:39 AM
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
haizx... dun noe is feeling stress or guilty or i dun noe.. just full of uselessness.. tat makes me wanna cry.. in like 15 hours time is fyp.. DIE!!!.. i noe my group ppl take me in kindly coz i was like a lost dog with no group.. den i myself prove to them tat im useless.. i didnt help.. i still kp coz of a dumb reason.. i suppose to prove to them tat i will do work.. but in the end.. im useless.. i only noe how to leech of others.. y y y y .. y cant i even live up to half of my name.. just do the basic... the closer to gaduation.. the more afraid i am.. wad am i goin to do in life?. i dun hav a firm future for myself.. i only noe how to waste my life away.. im gd for nth.. cant seem to do anything right.. i hav a gd life.. but i fucked up my life..
12:38 AM
Saturday, December 25, 2010
haizx.. its christmas.. but so wad.. its a lonely night.. not a holy night.. there is this song All I Want For Christmas Is You the lyrics goes something like tat.. "
I don't want a lot for Christmas, there is just one thing I need. I don't care about the presents underneath the Christmas tree. I just want you for my own, more than you could ever know. Make my wish come true, all I want for Christmas....... is you! " i really do wan to hav a "you" .. y r u 2 years younger den me.. if not i may hav more courage.. haizx.. merry christmas ppl..
1:48 AM
Saturday, October 30, 2010
IM A FUCKIN LOSER!!! i can nv ace in anything.. i can nv get things right the first time.. wads wrong with me.. if im such a loser.. wads the point living.. oh.. the only thing i can do right at times is laugh n act fine when im dyin to cry inside... im a freaking loser loser loser... i really feel like giving up.. give up everything.. its so tiring.. its so tiring to live in this world.. its so tiring to hav my name.. its hard to live up to it..
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