1st week back

So this week has been...ok. I didn't do as well as I wanted to, but I did better then past weeks. So I guess as long as I'm progressing that's good. I did track this whole week which is a BIG thing for me. It always amazes me how much I don't realize I'm eating until I track. Lots of forgotten calories for sure. I weighed in this morning at 189.8...which I'm not really sure how that happened. Yesterday I was at 187.2 and I didn't eat a TON of food or anything yesterday. I also didn't work out yesterday either though so maybe that was the reason. I only ended up working out 2 times this week. I did try to go to the gym Thursday night but my IPOD was dead when I got there and there isn't much with cardio that I can do without my IPOD at 10:00pm so I came home. Saturday morning I did a 3 mile run and then a core class for half an hour. And Monday I did a lifting class for 45 minutes, a core class for 30 minutes and a cardio class for 45 minutes. My HR monitor said I burned 956 calories. Not too bad! I realized this week that I do NOT work out well at home (unless it's a run). I need people there to motivate me and push me to work harder. I give up way to easy if I'm working out alone. I have to remember this whenever I tell myself, "Oh I'll just go home and do a workout video instead of go to the gym." Usually it doesn't happen (i.e. Friday) because I get lazy and have tons of other things to do when I get home that I don't want to work out. So anyway, this week wasn't horrible, but it wasn't great either. Definitely lots of room for improvement. I'm a little worried about this upcoming week because I'm going up to Utah from Thursday to Monday. I'm going to have to make a large effort to eat what I know I should, and try to get some exercise everyday. Fruit is going to be my saving grace I think. I need to eat as much of that as I can. We are taking family pictures in October and I really want to be at my lowest weight. I would love to lose about 10 pounds before then. That is what I have to keep in mind everytime I want to eat something I shouldn't.
Every month my friends and I have a music exchange where we pick a theme and have to make a playlist which we then share with everyone (give to everyone). This months theme was "workout mix" so I have tons of new songs to work out too! I can't tell you how excited I am about this, I've needed new workout music forever!
I REALLY don't want to weigh in tonight but I know I need to. I just know I'm going to be up and I hate that feeling but I guess I just have to do it and get it over with. It's just easier to stay in denial if I don't actually weight in with Weight Watchers even if I am weighing myself at home. From here on out it'll be down!! I love the picture at the top. It's so true! Everything about weight lose is hard, but being overweight is also hard. I choose to lose weight, that will be my "hard." I will try to write more this week, if for no else then just myself. Maybe it will keep in on the right path if I'm thinking about it more.