MASS UPDATE!

PHEW!
the week was over in no time, over and done with it!

i thought i would be so so busy, but thank God my time was well managed. So no more presentations for this semester, exams are around the corner. The meeting this week was kinda disappointing though!

Let us look back the week!

Thursday
Bio Practical = FUN!

we took our own blood samples and checked our blood types!
i did mine twice for fun and i got more confused. at first i was AB + then second try was B-. So i asked mom, i am actually AB+! i thought i was an O+ all along!

Antigen D!


blood!


Lynna being poked by Wen Yang!





us girls!

Thursday (the previous week)

We went to the stadium but without Wen Yang, to unwind and to study for bio. Whoo! the stadium is such a cool place to hang out lah!

Lynna studying

Lynna!

with Thiviya

After so long, we finally found a family for our project! So last minute, we actually did the interview a week before our presentation. Good thing we managed to do everything within a few days!

Off we went to Aljunied!
Lynna was so funny. There were lots of stray cats we met along the way to the place and she named them "nana, bobo, lola.." and she named one more cat after being annoyed. The name was.. Wen Yang. HAHA!

and and! on the way to Aljunied, i actually met Zheng Yi!
He was so enthu can! and he looked so much different now, couldn't recognize him at first! Oh those band days!

with the family

FRIDAY
DATE WITH KAIYING!

again, we counted how long we haven't met up for some crazy night ou t! Love friday nights with her! Rock ballz manzxz!

took a long nice bus ride to town to kill time before meeting up and headed down to plaza sing where she pierced her ears.
then off to our turf- vivo city!

we had wanted to try out all the restaurants on the 1st level, but so far we only had dine in a few of them! we could not make up our mind at that time, and we finally settled on Fig & Olive's.

Which is right beside Earle's Swensens. Haha! i met a few of the people since we were seated outside. Ma'am Hoi Foon and one of the aunties from the kitchen. Haven't stepped in since almost 2 years alsready.

then to our favourite picture taking spot!

HAHA!
this is crazy, but it isn't the craziest!

<3

Picture Credits: Lynna, Aeen, Kaiying

YAY!

i am on cloud 9!
happy, but exhausted mood.
i think i might fall sick soon!

reasons why i am contented and happy?

firstly, our family & community health presentation went smoothly, though we only had a few days to prepare because of the very last minute interview of our client. and i was very confused on the structure of it, and finally got the gist of it on the eve of presentation.

and at the end of the day, when everything went so smoothly, i feel so happy and contented that the efforts & time we as a group put in did not go to waste.

secondly, a week or two before bio science practical test, i felt guilty to myself for being so undisciplined that i get myself studying for the test. and i can say, i am very pleased with my results!


i am all smiles now.
well, only that i am too tired and exhausted.

look at my lovely socks!
i have three more of this!
cool right?
:D

It's a stay home Saturday!

I have so much to do, did not know where to start at first! But phew! I finally sat down, sorted things out and did what i have to do. I think i sent out a lot of emails today. It felt like i was working in an office, minus the business suit.

Meanwhile, i while blog as in detail of the past few days.
I AM BURIED IN THE AMOUNT OF WORK TO BE DONE!

I am dig, digging myself out!

i foresee dark days ahead,
busy days are here to come & linger!

a cup of hot chocolate, great music and the cooling night is just perfect for one to sit down and do some studying. that's what i did, after another night of strolling around the neighbourhood. this time, accompanied by brother & sis.

but on the other hand, music sucks in a way that it makes you feel all nostalgic and brings about emotions. it kinda made me feel nostalgic, and empty in a way. nostalgic, because i miss everyone else whom i was close too, and had lost touch with. i always blame myself for being bad when it comes to keeping touch with friends despite the advanced in technology where we can just say hello to a friend in a matter of seconds. much more when it comes to sending an email or replying smses, it will take me time to persuade myself to do it. Tsk tsk! There was a time, when a good friend migrated the U.S. when we were just 9 years old and a few months after she migrated, she had wrote and sent me letters twice, to which i had not replied. I wonder how she is now. It's been what, 11 years?! Teehee.

i feel empty, because it seems like everyone is moving forward yet i'm kinda stuck here. like time is on a standstill? empty, because it feels like something is missing. Like a big part i'm missing out on. It's a mystery i'm trying to unlock.

Well, i kinda miss the days too when Bethany was still here and those heart to heart talks we used to have. and i wonder how's she doing now, hope she could come visit us all here again!

and till now, i'm disappointed still. i treasure friendships, despite not keeping in touch, i do. but, whatever happened to being friends till we're old with white hair? i know it's been so long already. i have always regarded you as someone whom i have so much respect for and admired of, and of course, as a good friend. i've tried to be there when you needed. but.. it seems like i don't know you anymore..


i don't know, i think i'm only harping on these thoughts while everyone is all moving on. i should too.

and i'm not feeling emo. i'm just putting my thoughts into words. i always have plans to say out my thoughts and all, but the moment i do so, the thoughts & feelings are no longer valid. HAH!

what a slow, relaxing day!
and a cool, refreshing night to feel the night breeze on your shoulders as you jog and look at the starless sky! i finally got my lazy bum out of the house and had some exercise done. YAY!

well, yes. adequate hours of sleep do actually helps a lot. like my mood! it feels great to be not moody and feel shitty. i feel great! well, till i was reminded of the exam timetable which was just released.

12th August- Safety in Health Care (Not confirmed yet!)
20th August- Psychology
24th August- Foundation in Nursing & Lynna's Birthday!
27th August- Biological Sciences 1A & Kaiying's Birthday!!
28th August- Family & Community Health

first paper is on the 20th August! and it is Psychology!
Oh great, i have not done much reading up on the module though i really like it and find it interesting. and try as hard as i did, i still fall asleep during lecture for psychology. I wonder why. Maybe it's because Lynna rests her head on my shoulder to sleep (she says it's real comfy!) and unknowingly, i fall asleep too!

A MONTH MORE TO GO TO EXAMS!

i'm so happy with myself!
*beams*

for the past week since Wednesday, i have made the effort to sleep earlier. So i can say that i have at least 6-7 hours of sleep now! and yes, to have enough hours of sleep, i did not doze off in church today and i listened attentively!

WHEE~

and i had a relaxing weekend, and had some studying done. Surprisingly, dad allowed to sleep in later than usual yesterday. Which was surprising cause he'd usually wake us up at 7.30am on Saturdays! and last Friday, when i woke up at 7am with plans to go to the poly clinic early to get a jab done, he told me to get some more sleep. Hahaha! Surprise, surprise!We woke up at 12pm, just on time for lunch.

but the weekends are past over, the days ahead are DARK! After days, weeks of searching for an Elderly and family to assess and interview, Wen Yang finally found a family! Phew! I thought this was the end for us. But we can only have it on Thursday, so everything's gonna be in a rush. Sleepless nights are ahead. HOPE NOT!

i am going to get adequate hours of sleep every night!

AND THIS REMINDS OF SOMETHING!

this morning, on the way to church, my sister and i were on the bus sitting on the seats which were meant to be given to those who need it more. It was a relatively crowded bus, and we saw an elderly woman boarded the bus. We kept in looking at her direction with the intention of giving up the seat to her (my sister does not wanna sit without me), when we stood up, we have not even left the seats, some inconsiderate selfish woman rushed forward and pushed her way through and took the seat. WITHOUT giving it to the elderly! Wah, so angry know!

Tsk tsk, inconsiderate people.

Beautiful days
My master gave to me
This sky beautiful
The trees rooted in the ground in the street
Has sprung
I am so glad
Those beautiful days are here again
The sun gives me the lift I need
I am glad for this
You brightened up my days
The birds are flying
They are flying away in the sky
The sky looks lovely and peaceful
The beautiful days are longer now
And I thank God for this beautiful days
God can make miracles and I saw already all the miracles that God Can do

Aldo Kraas

Omg!

I just read an email forwarded by Aeen and it made me never wanting to for the next few hours.
I am going to be a nurse, seeing corpses should be nothing appaling to us. But i still cyan't stand seeing other human beings or i'd rather call them cannibals eating up another human being's flesh and meat!

omg, who can stand it anyway?
it's human meat.

the other day before, our lecturer showed us this video where the chefs are in a cooking competition and they are to cook live animals. as in, cut them up and fry while they are still alive and wriggling!

there was a snake being cut up and when put on a plate, it's body was still wriggling OMG! that is purely disgusting but not as cruel as the fish. it looks like a pomfret if i'm not wrong. its scales were taken out a few moments after out of the water, then it's lower part of the body was being fried in a frying pan. SO CRUEL okay!

they should stop all this nonsense.

ANYWAY.
i had a not so sweet day.

UGH.

Get well soon,Anira & Yanti!

Today is just not my day.

I woke up in a rush again because i had pressed the snooze button and woke up an hour later than i was supposed to do. What a bummer can.

Woke up one hour later still not so bad, but situation got worse when i did not like what i had planned to wear at first and i had to get back in the house to change again. Then i realised i was really late for our group's discussion (approximately half an hour late), so i took taxi again. ARGH!

Then come presentation time. I was somehow excited for the psychology topic we were doing because it was emotions such an interesting topic. weeks ago, i was doing so much reading up and research on it yet the presentation was postponed and my brain cells seemed to have died out, and the amount of other work we have to do just prevents me from concentrating on psychology and everything is so last minute now, even as i did the slide editing. brain seems to be not working today, lack of sleep?!

so today's presentation, i am so frustrated because i could have done so so much better. COULD HAVE DONE SO MUCH BETTER, BOOO :'/ although some said it was good, but i think i am too.. perfectionist on this? well, considering the amount of work put in, it'd be a disappointment that i kinda blanked out just now!

Then i rushed for work. It's been ages ago since i went to the office, say 3 months ago? Anyway, ust came on time for briefing and we have to do an on-site survey. Definitely not my cup of tea. It is not as easy as the non on-site one. Would not want to come if not for aunt Nancy. But at least i got one succesful interview- a 1st year poly guy who was reluctant at first to to do the interview :D

and now i'm in an uber dilemma.
WITH SUCH RESPONSIBILITY GIVEN, HOW TO QUIT?!


and urgh, my uneven stack & messy clothes makes me more frustrated. How i wish i can abracadabra it to be neater and do away with untidyness. and why do bathroom/washrooms get dirty so easily, wonder?!?! i hate the sight of a dirty toilet and i always make sure it is clean and now it's back to a dirty toiley. i'm too tired to bother!

guess it's all about the emotions eh?

but then on the other hand, looking on the brighter side, ONE PRESENTATION DOWN, ONE MORE TO GO!

ONLY ONE MORE, ONE MORE!

picture credits: Lynna

i'm thinking of quitting.
forget responsibilities, i want to priorities what's important.

to quit, or not to?


everybody & things has changed anyway.

What a friday.
ROAR!
i was late again. Yes, again.
Gotta kick this bad habit!

You know, last night was the earliest time i had slept in how many weeks. I slept at 11pm! and my usual bedtime is atrociously late, like in the wee hours of the morning. Bad, i know =/

BUT! i slept early last night, and i still could wake up an hour late! Impossible! I panicked after i saw the time. Then i wonder to myself. Late already. and i had indecisive thoughts whether to rush and take a cab or just give the tutorial a miss (after all, the next lecture is only at 2pm!). So i just took my own time, no rush in going to school. and i arrive in school, 30mins late. Haha, i told Lynna i won't be coming yet i came for tutorial and we both gave contradicting statements to the tutor why i was late and why i was "absent". heehee!

and i am so pissed/disappointed!
WHY ONLY GET AN AVERAGE B!
i put in a lot of effort for that module!
ROAR!

went to junction 8 with the girls, Lynna & Thiviya couldn't make it. We wanted to watch Obsession at first, but we ate at KFC instead, where i spilt coke onto my dress. Luckily it is black, otherwise i'd be too embarassed to go to school!

then we saw bishan's library!
So nice inside!
i wanna go there and spent a whole day there, one day!

oh did i ever mention that Yanti has the nicest dress?
it has the stripey and lovely colours!

up, up to the lift.

stoopid hair.

i was always wondering how the watermelon with milk from the fruits stall would taste like. i finally get a taste of it today.
AND I LOVE IT!
i keep thinking of its taste in my tastebuds!
can't wait to buy it again!
muahahaha!


picture credits:Aeen

Our tribute day.
We all wore b l a c k.
cool eh?

i rushed out of the house and took a cab to school only to have myself sitting outside the lab for 2 hours doing nothing productive while the others were having their assessments. I could have saved the money rather than took a cab!

had lunch with the girls at our usual favourite spot!

we jumped, jumped and JUMPED!

so cool, we were all wearing black :D

Wednesday

i came a couple of minutes late for lecture. Phew, i gotta stop this bad habit of lateness. I actually woke up at 8.30am yet i only managed to get out of the house at 10am!

today's wednesday was longer than the usual wednesdays. we start at 11am, end the last lecture at 1pm and our test starts at 5.30pm!

we went to a couple of places to study. HARHAR, study?
anyway, we went to our favourite hang out, but it was occupied! so we went to level one which was an unusual to have our packed lunched there. We passed by the stadium and Thiviya and i thinks it's great idea to study there, with the sun and the wind.

second stop, we went to the library's discussion rooms. Anira & gang had booked a room, so it was perfect to study but we ended up talking- about Michael Jackson. Haha, how productive!

and now notice the very prominent finger sticking out behind us.

haha!

picture credits: Aeen

Dear Suane,

i'm so disappinted with you.

What happened to you? You have lost yourself, immersing yourself into the worldly. Where are you, who was once so focused and cherished the people around you? You are now taking things so much for granted. and being complacent and not caring about anything. What happened to doing things you used to love and do? Why have you become so anti-social, pushing the people away who are close to you?

You talk about your new found passion and your no regrets for the new path you've chosen. Then why are you being so complacent and not doing your best for your it? Discipline is what you need, Suane. and not excuses to yourself, you'll only have yourself to blame. Don't be a disappointment to yourself.

and i'm sorry, for abusing your health. I stay up late, sleeping just a few hours a day with no compensation for the few hours i sleep. ignoring the fact that you'll have rashes all over when your immunity system is down. Sometimes, you feel your liver hurts, but you still ignore your health. and stop taking panadol with ice lemon tea when the headaches come!

oh suane, you have to learn to stop and feel your emotions. sometimes you try to ignore and forget the not-so-nice feelings you have. you run away from your problems without facing it. like what your friends say, don't keep everything to yourself.

Oh i'm sorry suane for being such an undisciplined person. I am sorry i have been abusing my health, and been a disappointment to you. Do something about yourself and stop living like a walking zombie.

have a change.

yours truly,
Suane.

Sometimes i forget.
Sometimes i forget my emotions.
Sometimes i forget the people in my life.
Sometimes i forget there must be self discipline.

Sometimes i forget.

i've had enough of people using my stuff and not returning it.
or worse, taking them away.

i've had enough.

and enough of trusting people so easily.