GAHH!
mt oral was dumb for me!
er, no i think i felt dumb, hahaha!
i was like nervous knowing that i dont speak malay much. i actually misintepreted the question and started blabbering away! hahaha, good thing the examiner explained it to me again. gah so dumb!

the O's are in less than a month's time and it's practically study study study for everyone now. there'll also be even stem till 9pm! and i can say that i'm not gappy with my results. but yah, i can do better. think positive :D and oh, im more confident with maths, hurrah!

just cant wait for the O's to be over!

out with churchies to have dinner before ate avie leaves!
miss her now!

pic from alane

omg, i can't believe it.
i passed d&t can!
the d&t theory paper which i suck at!
I PASSED,I PASSED!
=D =D
i thought i must have been dreaming.
it's dee&tee eh!!

and oh nowadays i leave the house for school late.
so beth and i were rushing to school when i clumsily fell down!
oh my clumsyness!
ahh haha!
and my knee hurts =(

HAPPY 11th BIRTHDAY TO MY SIS, JEMIMA!
(she's the one on the right)

yay!
one more paper to go on wednesday!

so i'm happy with today :)
finally went to catch a movie with beth.
been ages since i went to the cinema!

and i've also cleaned up room.
i'm guilty for not cleaning up since aug i guess?
it was such in a mess.

and!
i'm gonna take a break tonight.
watch TEEVEEEE!


and before i go watch the wonderful telly, i shall show you my dream phones.

then here's the limegreen version!

meet the black versio of K500i!

then here's my second dream phone;

and meet W910i!

Ooooh! I can't wait to get my hands on one of these phones! but my dad agreed to buy for me my dream phone on one condition. on the condition that i eat his specialty dish- the sweet and sour fish!!!!!!!! no wayyy! i so hate fish can! :(

on the other hand, it'll be sad to change my phone my old phone for a new one. the old phone of mine brings back old memories. crazy memories and crazy messages =D

wala na, wala na. wala na ang nating nakaraan.

amo an ang gin think gid kagina. ha! indi nami ang situation sa gin lantao ko. okay ah, paslamat ko nga gin hagad ni lao ako mag gua. pero... pero indi na daw sa dato! balan, balan ko nga mag lain na gid man pero tani.. tani konting try lang? te nag halin ako. ha! nag kaon koya sang ice creammmm! :D pero pasalamat lang ko sa lalaki nga na, kay balan nya kung ano ang na feel ko. indiiiiiiiii koooooo namiannnnnnn silaaaaaa ngaaa duaaaaa!!!!!!!

ah, bayda ah! pero, like i said, happy na ako. as in ho-oh! happy na ako :D indi na ako mag think sang ina or ini. kay ngaa pa? para ano pa? saino gidna sya ang gub-un ko ang sarili ko? kay na kita ko para ko nahimo inferior sa sarili ko, na down ako, na guba ako!! more like ako nag guba sang sairili ko? yes, she says. baida ah, total mature kag dako naman ako, ngaa bother pa? sinulat ko naman ang mga tanan to, pero wala naman effecto. para ano para ano?

for someone who has felt so strong it's amazing i'm completely gone
hold on it's tragic stumblin all through this static

ho-oh, para ano pa. daw self destruction ako. balan ko, get up suane, stand up. where did you go? you lost yourself. pero, pero indi nah. balik na ako to sino ako dati. na miss ko na dati nga pala kadlaw ako, daw bu-ang, miss kona sadto nga ma feel happy lang ako all day. indi na ako ma feel down. para anooo paaaa!

mag smile kag kadlaw na lang ako :D :D :D
why? kay para ano pa?
i'm so over it.


things to do;
- balik, balik sa sino ka gid suane!
- kadlaw, balik kag mag happy :D
- pabaida ah! lipatan na lang na
- focus na lang sa studies mo
-kag time management!


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wow that felt good.
it felt good letting those out :D
i'm not comfortable writing down certain thoughts that run through my mind, so there.. it's in ilonggo.

i've never blog like that before. i've never blog in my dialect before. it's ilonggo and it surprised me that i can type out the words easily just like in english! it's surprising to me cause i grew up, speaking deep accent cebuana. i'm originally a cebuana see. after being here in singapore, i didnt have anyone to talk to me in my dialect. my parents spoke in their in dialect and that's how i learnt it? and i'm not fluent in tagalog at all. i've only set foot in manila for an hour. haha!

gotta go, prelims are here.
and i'm growing fattt!

ice cream.
i'm getting addicted to ice cream!


i scream for ice cream!

ugrh.
i feel sick :(

i enjoy bus rides, especially long bus rides.

but i get motion sickness too, especially if i travel on a full stomach. and yesterday was horrible. i went on a longgg bus ride to chua chu kang and it made me feel all dizzy and wanting to puke! and today i felt almost the same. firstly, i didn't have enough sleep and i guess i ate a lot today and also was busy travelling here and there. i feel like puking now!

i hope i'll feel better soon, tomorrow is our science practical exams!!


but other than that, i had fun today :D
we took many pictures for our souvenirs/remembrance of our aunt before she leaves for philippines tomorrow. we took pictures at a studio and some neoprints. i had my eyebrow trimmed too! and oh, my aunt almost lost her $500 when she left it at the studio. thank God it was still there on the staff's table when we came back for it!


and tonight marks the end of the one week holidays. no more late night mugging marathons!
goodbye holidays, hello prelims!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASPER!

gahh.
im having a bad headache :(

must be because of the mugging marathon kaiying and i had! yes you heard it, we call it our mugging marathon! haha! and it starts at 12 midnight all the way till the wee hours of the morning, till 5am for me and for kaiying, 7am or 9am! and i think this is how i'm gonna gain more weight, cause i'll be eating ice cream which i know is so fattening and some other snacks. omg, see i tell you, i'll be gaining all the fats! fatsss!

just came home from a farewell dinner for ate avie. it was supposed to be a farewell lunch. but like erica and i had expected, one of us would call up last minute to say she can't turn up, or one of us would be late. this time, i was the one who couldn't make it at first, but eventually made it, but was late for an hour. heehee. i went ahead to their house at first, to have black pepper crabs. it was finger lickin indeed cause my hands smelt of crabsss! and as usual, after much discussions, we decided to eat at spageddies. i shouldn't have ordered the penne alfredo lah! it was like eating at pastamania!

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and right now, another problem surfaced at home.
gahh :(

again, it was also unexpected. couldn't things be just handled in a right way? it was an ugly scenario and i have seen another side of the someone whom i thought i knew. why does it seems like everything came to a halt after the month of may or june? after these two months, things seems to go haywire, like i'm losing what i used to had. i fear that last june was the last family reunion that we had together, i feared that when i come back from the philippines, i won't know how to face some situations. and now i fear that i won't be even here in singapore next year, but in philippines for good. i can't imagine living in philippines for good! i've lived here like for a longg time and it's gonna take some time to adjust! and i'll definetely miss the people & palces here!

gahh!
perhaps i think too much lah. i know i shouldn't, especially when prelims are just around the corner.

and he said ''it's how you handle take it''
right.
:)

don't ask me why, but i take back my words and here is my blog again, opened up with a new skin. i guess shall stop putting up posts saying that i officially closed down my blog, cause my indecisive mind will surely urge myself to publish a post although i now i've closed it down. hah.

will chords that were broken vibrate once more?

i had posted this question of mine some time ago, and it still rings in my head. reason being is that i'm still not over the issues and the changes that has taken place. i know i'm someone who reads deeply into things that takes place and so some might say, yes i'm sensitive. i'm very much affected by it, though i try not to.

maybe i have some unsaid words which should have been told, maybe i did not really treasure the times we had, maybe i'm just too plain sensitive.but it somehow made me feel caught in between, sandwhiched. but really, i just really want everything to be back the way it was, and the way we were. i just so wish all this, the the issues between both of you did not take place at all because it led on to another issue and drags on.. it broke apart what we once shared, it brought about sensitivities and uncertainties in us and the people around us. can't we just sit and talk and smile at one another and say hey, let's make a fresh start shall we?



firstly to you

i'm someone who'd keep quiet and isolate myself from the people around me when i'm pissed. i wasn't really angry at first, i just didn't feel like talking. which kinds of explain how another issue started. yes i can't control emotions well, i shouldn't have made it worse when you tried to make things work out. bad timing i guess? i was still pissed off and had influences of negativities. but after all this that had happened and the cold shoulders i give, i'm willing to work things out. like i once said, it takes to hands to clap. i just hope you'll feel the same way too you know. cause i'd never once thought this would happen and i wished it didn't ever happen at all. you know who you are.

and you

i may not know what really had happened, i may not really know what words were exchanged between both of you and to another party, but really i see no point in what you're trying to say. no one is benefiting from it, including yourself. are you sure you want to let this, this issue and i'm afraid to say- your ego, overpower you yourself and the friendship you both had? i'm not trying to justify anything, but it wouldn't have happened if some words were not said and emotions a little, a little controlled. you're pushing some people away. i know, i'm not saying anything much to you till now, but i'll hope you'll come to realise things which you should have and look at things at another perspective point of view.

lastly, to you too

and lastly, i shouldn't have gotten angry with you, maybe i was a little sensitive, maybe i was blinded by anger for i blamed you for something which had happened. i guess it also started cause i blamed you and i didnt want to give you attitude that's why i didnt talk to you. i didnt really know what to do. i guess i've misunderstood things and did not try to understand why things had happened this way? but yah, i shouldnt have treat you this way. er, sorry? i've been wanting to talk to you, but dont know how to start. heehee.


those were my unsaid words to the three people i should have told all this to. for some, there were too much words exchanged, words left unsaid, many 'sorrys' said. but did we actually put our words into action and make the effort to clear uncertainties and work things out to make everything alright again? i know for sure i did not put my words into action myself. i'm doing my best now. let's all make it work shall we? i'm tired of all this. i don't want that only the pictures we took and the memories we had are all that is left of our friendship. i pine for the good times.

and i don't want to be the only one holding one to it.


omg, i know i sound so emotional. this has to be the first time i've opened things out like this so openly. but ahh i let it all out! i dont care if i set tongues to start wagging. this is the only way i know i've figured out to reach to you guys, cause if i do it the way i know how... er i dont know?

omg, i've been indulging myself with sweets treats while mugging!
i think i've grown fatter!
i get these hunger pangs and i've been craving for ice cream all day!

i want ice cream!
i want ice cream!
i want ice cream!

ice cream? i don't know why, but i wasn't so fond of ice cream before.

and whoa i woke up at around 12pm today. i don't usually wake up this late often you know. last night i was mugging and i was trying to mug all night and sleep at 6. which is somehow similar to what kaiiyng did last year. but alas! my dad woke up at 4am and asked me to go to bed!

so i woke up to answer michael's call who reminded me that there'll be a poa lesson at 1pm today! 1pm and i was still in bed at 12-ish! i decided then to stay at home instead x)

I'VE LOST MY IPOD'S USB CABLE!
AAAHHHHH!!

:(

Weird.

I've been feeling weird all day probably as a result of inadequate sleeping time. I've been at home most of the time now and I think my body's not really used to it that's why I feel weird not having long hours in school. I was having a my tuition awhile ago and I cannot function properly because I am losing it. Haha :)) Math's a pain the ass. Good thing my tuition teacher(actually i still dont know her name) was patient enough to give me more time explain on my queries.Thank Heavens. just want to sleep, but I CANNOT sleep if the room's untidy! and I hate it when the phone rings and I am asleep and I have to wake up, answer the phone only to talk to a person who dialled the wrong number. I've been feeling sick today and I'm to the extremes- either I'd be very loud, nonsense, and insane OR I'd be very pissed and I talk shit.

the cold rainy weather makes it so comfy to have a nice hot chocolate and absorb what you've been studying.
and when it's raining, I always think I'm in some other place, like in Ilo-ilo. haha :))

I have been feeling this thing for weeks and I don't know what this is. I think I need paracetamol.

isn't she adorable?
she's my cousin's doggy and she was so adorable when i came over to visit.

i'm bored!

[A]- AVAILABLE: yeah
[B]- BIRTHDAY: 29 april
[C] - CRUSHING?: nah, none
[D] - DRINK YOU LAST HAD: ice lemon tea
[E] - EASIEST PERSON/s TO TALK TO: my sister
[F] - FAVORITE MUSIC GROUP: dashboard confessional, snow patrol
[G] - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS: worms please!
[H]- HOMETOWN: lapu-lapu, cebu city and banate, iloilo city
[I]- INSTRUMENT(s): THE CLARINET :)
[J] - JUICE: orange, mango and lemon
[K] - KILL SOMEONE: not in this lifetime. hahaha
[L] - LONGEST CAR RIDE: ilo-ilo to boracay, such a pain in the ass, haha
[M] - MILKSHAKE FLAVOR: mango anf avocado please!
[N] - NUMBER OF PETS: my doggy died :(
[O] - ONE WISH: if I had one wish... hmmm...
[P] - PERSON WHO CALLED YOU LAST: none. I am not into phone calls
[R] - REASONS TO SMILE: no idea
[S] - SONG YOU LAST HEARD: home by daughtry
[T] - TIME YOU WOKE UP: 10.35am
[U] - UNDERWEAR: orange :D
[V] - VEGETABLES: boiled brocolli and cauliflower
[W]- WORST HABIT: staring into space
[X] - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD: countless
[Y] - YOUR FAVORITE ANIMAL: DOGS DOGS DOGS!
[Z] - ZODIAC SIGN: taurus

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