Things Don't Always Make Sense... Now

I am sure most everyone reading this blog post is aware of the struggle I have faced over the last couple of weeks with losing my job. It was something that completely took me by surprise and left me trying to catch my breath. I had worked for my former company for the past six year since graduating college. When I started I was the forth employee, including the owners of the company. During this time not only did the company grow but I felt we had all become like family. I have spent more time with my former bosses/co-workers than with anyone else. So needless to say things have been rough for me. I admit I might be a bit more sensitive than some people and took this personally even though I know it was due to the declining economy and our slow industry.

I have asked God the "Why me?" question numerous times. I just don't understand. But here is the good news, I don't have to understand. I just need to rest in Him, seek first His guidance and He will take care of the rest. I know he has a plan for me through this and that alone brings a huge smile to my face. Jeremiah 29:11 says, "I know the plans that I have for you, declares the LORD. They are plans for peace and not disaster, plans to give you a future filled with hope. (God' Words Translation). This verse has been the anthem of my life during other phases in the past, times when I have felt even more confused and knocked off balance. I have already felt God's hands working in me and His peace in this and that is incredible! John 14:27 says, "Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid." (NIV) Only He can give the soothing comfort and purest hope.

Have I found a new job? No, not yet. I do not want just another job. Brian is so supportive and agrees that I should use this time to search for a job that I will enjoy. I want to invest my time and my energy into an organization that speaks to me, that has meaning and a purpose to me personally. Honestly, I don't know what that will look like but I am hopeful I will find it, that doors will be opened for me and that with God's help I will be directed to it.

I want to thank all of you who have been so supportive of me through this journey so far. Your kind words of encouragement has been so uplifting and truly inspiring. XOXO