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I'm been feeling kinda emotional the past few days. i juz have this feeling tat alot of my frenship wif pple have been kinda drifting, maybe they dun feel it but i dun feel as close to them as i was b4. it's like when i see them in church i dunno wat to say to them, we may act as if we're still close but i definitely dun feel it all the time.
i dunno why i feel like this maybe it's becos i moved to the teens & it's hard when most of my frens r in the east, i kinda noe this would happen but it's still not easy. it feels like i'm no longer in the grp of frens tat i feel close to. it's not like they drifted away but it was me who drifted from them... now it feels like when i join them, i'm like visiting them, there's this distance between us, i cant help it but i do feel it.
maybe it's time i build new frenship, wif the teens i feel like no matter how hard i try i'll still be a teen worker, wif the teens workers it has been ok juz tat we can be so different from each other tat it feels hard to be close.
I ask myself who do i feel close now, the answer is i dunno.
Maybe i'm juz emotional, maybe i'm juz falling into self-pity....
Maybe i juz need some assurance, maybe i didnt try hard enuff as a fren...
Sorry for being a lousy fren, tat's really how i feel...
Friday, June 29, 2007 at 10:51 AM
CONFERENCE
After such an awesome conference, i really felt abit emotional & inspired. I have been taking the past few days to think abt wat happen during the conference and going thru all the lessons and all the notes i taken.
I was so moved by the good news sharing of the mongolian brother, the sincerity of what he shared made me feel so wretched & sinful. I have lost the simple love for Christ, the heart to serve Him without hesitation. For me tat was the simplest yet moving sharing i have heard in awhile.
Besides tat there were also many inspiring and challenging lessons & i really appreciate every moment of it. No matter who preach or shared it melted my heart. i really feel so humbled, tat we were once so sold-out for God yet now we drifted not really knowing where we're heading. It's such a treat to hear Dinesh, Mark, John, Wee Keong, Harlem & Vincent preach.
Though i admit i do feel burden but i noe i'm too faithless & i'm trying to play God telling Him wat i can't do but not letting Him do wat He wants wif me. Overwhelmed by the blessings yet guilty of my ingratitude.
I need to be broken, shattered & humbled to be re-moulded by God again...
I need to pray....
Tuesday, June 19, 2007 at 6:08 PM
Brilliant Acapella Game!
Friday, June 15, 2007 at 3:11 PM
Are u ready for Conference?
Conference is only 2 days away and i dun feel ready for it. there're so many things to be distracted wif. i was juz thinking how busy i was this past weeks, there was a mini retreat to Ubin then the following week was roger's wedding & now conference. Also we have been rehearsing quite alot for the songs during conference. But the worst thing is i'm falling sick so i might not be able to sing afterall...
But i'm really missing a point here. i'm not ready spiritually! i'm physically drained & spiritually unaware!. So i decided to take some time off tmr nite to have a prayer nite & a good QT wif him. I guess it's abit last min but better late than neva. So r u ready for conference? is ur heart ready for God's word to change u? i admit i'm not... but i wanna do something abt it.
Truth is i saw many more pple who r also as busy if not busier than me. we're all doing our parts to make this conference great but i guess at the end of the day we juz need to honor God. So slow down, pray & reflect on wat this conference is all about!Tuesday, June 12, 2007 at 4:35 PM
focus!
Last saturday was at Ubin wif the teens having a funtime. we had a treasure hunt we had a blast thx mostly to the campus for joining us & helping us wif it! all is well until i realised tat i lost my phone... to keep the story short i couldn't find it. Then at nite i was having dinner wif my mum & this guy called up to ask if i lost my phone. i was thrilled and at the same time grateful!!! This is the 2nd time in this yr tat i lost my phone & gotten it back. i invited the guy to church but he declined but still i'll perservere.
But i'm not so lucky today, juz realise i made a mistake at work, i was careless & have to pay for the loses... but i think the company lose more money... haiz i can only pray tat i be more alert & focus whle working... i think it's so easy to be careless & complacent, thank God the consequences is only paying for it. i still feel the pinch though. i juz need to more focus & pick up my scattered brain.
Tuesday, June 05, 2007 at 4:46 PM
