These 2 days "get-out-of-home" trip have really enlighten me is so many difference way...and definitely, bring books along for any trip is definitely worthy~ :)

(The above picture is the anime)
Well, I have been watching this anime called "Ano Hi Mita Hana No Namae o Bokutachi wa Mada Shiranai" which means "I still don't know the name of that flower that day".. have to say it is indeed a good anime that I haven't watch for a while... but the main point is the moral of the story, it somehow links to this book that I have been reading, which is call "leap before you think".
The reason why the title why caught my eye, is simply because it is the reverse row of "think before you leap" but the author explained his point in its introduction and have wrote very much about meditation and having a healthy mind :)
Well the link between this book and the anime is that, both stated one very sub-conscious fact that we, most human would not face..in most cases, what we want for others is mostly for our own benefit and not for others, ask yourself if you truthfully doing it for other?
E.g: You may calm that you want to help others score well in studies, but deep down, your bothered that "what if...they score better than me?"
Then when your unhonest about this you start finding reason and explanation, to cover up what you want...and for in this case, your doubting the friendship~ and refusing to teach 100% to your friend.
Anyway I want to say something also: I realized my love for you was driven because I thought I could take care of you completely and all the happiness you can get, but everytime things doesn't turn out good, I lose bit and bit of confident in myself, till I given-up...