have you really thought about what was said?
it really hurt so bad that i had to hide my tears most of the time when they were around..
i cried.. not just outside but inside.

am i not worth something to look forward to during the weekends?
i've really tried my best..
i don't tell you much about my week if it's bad or good because i feel that it will take up too much of your studying time..

i know you have many things on your hand..
that's why i'm trying my best to do all i can to make you feel better..
i wait many times during the weekdays for something that i may or may not have..
but the moment i see it.. i'm more than happy to know that you are fine..

if you think that you are tight for time..
i'm ok to give up my time..
i can understand..
but please.. don't make me feel so guilty every week..

if you do not want to see me..
i'm ok with it..
you just need to let me know..
i don't need to receive a call or message everyday.

my colleagues and your friends take pity on you..
making me feel that i'm the one who is taking up all your time during the weekend..
maybe i am.. that's why i agreed to share..
i was so tempted to say no..
but i just didn't want you to get tired out and i didn't want to be selfish..

your words just keep replaying in my mind..


i feel so ______...


1 John 4:19
"We love because he first loved us."

It's been a long time since i last stayed up so late to blog.. haha. i can't even remember when i last did that too.. oh wells..

don't know why i can't sleep.. maybe the 1 hour nap i took when i came home from work...

it's finally the weekends.. and i'll be away.. don't miss me too much.. i'll be away for a short while only.. will be back soon!!




1 John 4:19
"We love because he first loved us."

it's been so long since we last celebrated a monthly anniversary..
maybe i agree with what idayu used to say..
'after awhile, you will count by years.. not months..'

haha.. quite true.. but it's always good to have a small reminder once in awhile. :)

happy 2 1/2 years. :)





1 John 4:19
"We love because he first loved us."

my back is aching only at one side..
it's making me have difficulty in walking.. :(
oh wells..

another new week is going to begin..
and it's the sign of the end of the month..
and this means the year is going to end soon..
and christmas is coming!!

don't know whether there are so many things to look forward to..
be optimistic!





1 John 4:19
"We love because he first loved us."

some guy from one of the ministry made me not want to see him again.. (which is unlikely..) but he really made me so angry i could have scolded him on the spot..

i will call him HF in short..

INCIDENT ONE

HF: can we pull out the plug and switch of the lights to tell them that it's over?
me (talking to my colleague): how about i go to the main switch and shut down everything in the hospital.. and i see who will die first.. you or the ICU patient..


INCIDENT TWO

HF talking to the hospital HOs and MOs at the eating area: Next time i teach you all how to ask question.. the best is don't ask so many questions..
HOs and MOs: looks at him quietly with some rolling their eyes and whispering to their friends..
me (thinking to myself): no wonder their feedback form always comes back saying that their problems are not addressed because there is an idiot like you who tell ppl not to ask questions..



I know that we are working late.. but this is the last day they can ask questions.. how can you tell ppl not to ask questions? if you want to go home.. by all means leave.. even ppl know that you are slacking when you are suppose to be in the session but you are outside eating food?? What kind of representative did the ministry send?? this is terrible.. I won't be respecting you because the attitude you give is just wrong. You aren't the only one working late.. no one is complaining.. why must you? if you are not happy to do this kind of things.. i will quote from what a doctor wrote in the forum.. 'GO BE A BROKER OR SOMETHING ELSE'.. don't be in this industry..



and i got locked out of my own office because i stayed back way after office hours.. -_-" thanks security..




1 John 4:19
"We love because he first loved us."

why do saturdays have to end so quickly??
i have to get used to this for 9 months..
patience.. haha!!



1 John 4:19
"We love because he first loved us."

so much for my excitement..
it wasn't welcomed..




1 John 4:19
"We love because he first loved us."

finally another week is coming to an end..
somehow or another.. i'm getting a bit tired..
but yet.. i can't deny that i don't like work..
i think work is great so far..
i have great colleagues..
i meet all sorts of ppl..
it's just interesting..

if you ask me whether i missed school life..
i would tell you not yet..
i'm still away from school life..
oh wells.. maybe i just have a different perspective.. :)

to all my friends studying out there.. JIA YOU!
don't give up..
to those who are working and in army..





1 John 4:19
"We love because he first loved us."

i just realized that it has been a long time since i last came here to blog.. talking about ppl abandoning their blogs.. i think i nearly abandoned mine without knowing!!



anyway.. i'm getting used to leong being stuck in OCS and not being able to come out.. oh wells.. but it would be much better if he could come out.. hmmm.. it might be a good training since he will be sailing next year.. i have to get used to him not even contacting me at all!! :(



but i guess i can't do nothing about it and stare at photos of the both of us..

leong is having guard duty once again this week.. :( why is it always a nice weekend has to be given up.. :( boohoo.. anyways.. so glad that darren cheong, alexstine aw and jun cong are all in OCS.. haha. so happy for them.. maybe they are all in different parts of OCS.. haha.. leong in navy, jun cong in air force.. i wonder where darren and alexstine posted to.. haha.

jia you guys!! you can do it!! it's like going back to poly and seeing all those familiar faces once again.. :)

1 John 4:19
"We love because he first loved us."