Saturday, December 27, 2014

homesick
The smell of a fresh pine tree reminds me of Canada and makes me yearn for the pine forests and cool temperatures of the Canadian wilds.

Just feeling really homesick right now.

27 December 2014


|| When you feel that he has left you, he is carrying you ||

Thursday, April 22, 2010

will the self loathing ever end?


|| When you feel that he has left you, he is carrying you ||

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

why does it feel that, no matter where i go, no matter what i do, no matter what situation i am in, im the third wheel?

no use
no function
just, useless


bp


|| When you feel that he has left you, he is carrying you ||

Wednesday, November 28, 2007

hold my breath and count to 10 and hope i'll never breath again


|| When you feel that he has left you, he is carrying you ||

Thursday, August 23, 2007

i love airports


|| When you feel that he has left you, he is carrying you ||

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

This goes out…

…to all the white guys learning Japanese just to get with Japanese girls

…to any education system that neglects its obligation to teach about other nations

…to all those who think Chinese Japanese and Korean are all the same

…to you, you, you, you, you…us, them, who?

I speak Japanese when I’m saying something bad about you

That’s right—everything you suspected is true

Raw fish was just a joke just to see if you’d eat it

And you get all-you-can-eat ‘cause we succeeded

Small part of our revenge for those who got sent to detention camps

Citizens born and raised on somebody’s “home and native land”

This supposedly multicultural international tapestry

Just a great white northern fallacy

Some have the audacity to say “don’t take the history personally”

But don’t you see? Back in the 40s they’da taken my life from me

Sign of continuing times when it still bears saying

That Japanese-Canadian is still Canadian

So don’t ask me why I don’t have an accent

Why don’t you have an accent? We all got accents

From small towns to cities shore to shore

This country is as much not mine as it is not yours

Just listen to the soundscape—I catch Japanese all the time on the streets

And we’re not just tourists here for the week

The Asiatic is more than a design element for your tattoos

It’s relevant to you

This goes out…

…to all the people who believe that Japanese girls are all yellow cabs

…to all the Japanese girls who give people reason to believe that they’re all yellow cabs

…to all the girls who think Japanese guys aren’t good enough…I’m not bitter…

…to you, you, you, you, you…me, us, them, who?

Knock knock, who’s there? Elections Canada

Here to make sure that every eligible voter is registered

This lady looked at me then looked past me and asked me

“Any of your roommates Canadian?”

What about me?

The hypocrisy of descendants of immigrants

Complaining about immigrants in the national element

As if the coolies aren’t the ones to hammer the last spikes

Out of sight, out of mind, outside of being white

It’s color-coded and not because I wrote it

I’m just making it easy for those who can’t see me as a regular human being

I’m just an exotic attraction

A monkey up on stage rapping

I’m not a man, just a body of evidence

My presence proof-positive of Canada’s worldly benevolence

An Asian face to go on your pamphlet covers

Next to a black guy, a brown girl and some other Others

The truth is undercover—we are not as advertised

And it’s not just the tourists who believe the lies

My civics lesson is based upon my cynical aggression

It’s not social, it’s personal shit that I’m addressing

This goes out

…to Tom Cruise for being the last samurai

…to David Suzuki for being one of CBC’s top ten greatest Canadians

…to those who wanna discriminate against me but use the wrong stereotypes

…to you, you, you, you, you…us, them, who?

…to all the pioneers who faced racism and stood their ground

…to those who think that the existence of minorities is something to be tolerated

…to the oppressors and to the oppressed who can sometimes be one and the same

…to the yellow the white the brown the black the full the mixed the half



The Ubyssey Online
-UBC Newspaper since 1918


|| When you feel that he has left you, he is carrying you ||

Friday, May 18, 2007

Feeling damn emo as i write this at 0615 Saturday...and no, i have not slept yet, been starting to pack and listening to: Sa Rang Hae Yo, 只对你说 by LJJ over and over and over and over again.

Dunno what to say la....damn sad about leaving sg....like, feels damn weird to say goodbye so much...like some tourist, when i know sg better than darren (besides for bar locations near and in the CBD). Zhuang Shu Tian Shi by Tank just came on. The music is agreeing with my mood sia...

You guys have been so "accomodating" over the past 3+ weeks...i bet that da ge don't go out that much normally...lol... I DON'T spend alot of money when we go out together...lol it just seems that way, cos i volunteer to pay first...

I don't think i'll be joining you guys for dinner, BUT, i'll provide some drinks, if i can get them to ED. Maybe i'll drop by at 3-5 am and say hello before going home to take my bags to the airport and che zhao chan with you guys...if too shagged to come dun tax urself on my behalf and then die at the airport...i dun wan to have to kill myself for causing one of ur deaths (ask ed why)...

If i die...and only If i die for some reason or another, in addition to the will on my blog, you guys get my stuff...lol


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WISH LIST
-learn to play guitar (well)
-be a good boy
-find God's calling for me
-Survive in Canada
-My own Guitar
-Fender Stratocaster
-Learn to drive
-Learn to snowboard and ski
-Get a dog
-Library of Bibles
-Go to Australia for my post graduate studies by getting a scholarship from the singapore government...ahahah
-Go back to singapore for christmas









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