its been the longest time since i last talk to JJ online or on the phone.. and now i'm talking to him online.. and i'm getting bullied..

he said that the most ma fan person in the whole clique is MELODY KUAN!!

make me so sad lah.. and he said that sherman was enjoying himself to see me getting tortured.. and sherman said that JJ did a good job.. and after when i 'screamed'.. he said that JJ did a bad job.. all the guys are against me once again.. but oh wells.. its been a long time since we last did all this kind of crap together.. haha..

oh wells.. i'm jus hoping i can see you guys soon.. :)

its the end of week 7 of TEP.. omg.. we are having another 2 more weeks before the end of MSC!!

to diana: please take care of yourself.. update me when you are back.. rest well.. :)


anyway.. the atrium in school had the stomp aids thingy.. didn't have a chance to go.. haha.. but its ok.. i'm not interested in it yet.. haha.. but basil brought back a story book about a group of guy friends and yah.. how 2 of them ended up with sexual diseases.. made me kinda worried.. and started going round asking questions.. haha.. interesting..

oh wells.. dan came down.. and we started talking about guys having funny kinds of fetish for girls.. like some like hairy girls.. some like girls with braces.. haha.. and they came to a conclusion that some guys are starting to like plasma tv girls.. thanks guys.. (if you don't get it.. its ok.. ) -_-"..

haha.. oh wells.. anyway.. some ppl wonder why i'm so secretive.. but i'm not obligated to tell you some stuff.. and most of the stuff is jus said online here.. so you want to know.. come here and see.. my parents would believe me cos they trust me.. so what you say to them.. is jus nothing..

going to the airport tmr.. going to take a look at T3 together with layteng and teng yao.. yay!! i'll need to look for my camera and get it charged!! tataz..




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i was looking at some folders in my com.. and it brought back many old memories.. and it all started at my OGL camp folder.. apparently.. i hid 2 things inside there.. which i won't be showing here.. but yah.. it jus brought back so much memories.. until i don't know whether to smile or to cry..

one of the memories that made me hold on was crossroads.. i think only a few would know.. some would have forgotten.. but jus that period of time made us look deeper and give some things some thought.. it was jus poems after poems until we decided that poems wasn't the way we should communicate any longer..

i don't know why.. but i'm jus suddenly missing those days.. where i chased you around cos you bullied me.. where we messaged non-stop everyday.. where we had our harsh times.. where we were so innocent.. where we were afraid what lies ahead of us.. where we wanted to know what each other were thinking.. where we said almost the same thing to one another.. where you initiated once our poems all started.. where you asked for my add to mail something but it never came until months later.. where we sat along the bleaches sweating in silence thinking who would start on the main topic instead of something else.. where we watched people on the dance floor while we sat on the dance floor talking.. where we went to the airport and knowing something was happening.. where you sent me home and we sat under the void deck to talk for coming to an hour before going home.. where it all started while waiting so long at the airport.. where it all ended when we asked someone.. where it felt weird when we met again and decided to start...

all these days.. jus made me so happy.. and though there are ups and downs.. you were always there for me.. thank you so much..



Happy birthday Leong..


thanks for everything.. =)

i've got my licence!!


as they say it..



its a licence to freedom..



so i better treasure it..




i'll be getting my real licence in 2 weeks..




by registered mail...

every moment of life is precious,
treasure every second of it.

to those who lost their loved ones,
be strong.

to those who left,
May you rest in peace,
May God continue to guide you.

there goes another month and its the 7th already..







happy 7th anniversary.. :)

i'm so free today.. wanted to do my reports but my mum is using my laptop to play games.. so i have to use another computer.. i'm so bored lah.. woke up.. watched tv.. went back to sleep.. woke up and i'm online for like 3 hours not doing anything useful.. anyway.. i chanced upon some stuff.. and it jus made me think..

many relationships work in many different ways.. our perception on a person's relationship will be different from that person in that relationship.. and its vice versa..

some relationships take the areoplane.. some take the train.. some take the car and some.. jus sit on the tortoise and let the tortoise walk.. haha.. fast.. medium and slow.. haha.

what seems like a healthy relationship to you.. may not be a healthy relationship to me.. what you think should be shown off doesn't mean it should be.. what will other ppl think of you??

on the random side.. have protection.. some thing may jus go wrong..


anyway.. it all jus concludes that everyone's opinion is different.. and if they are jus stubborn.. no matter what we say to them.. there is jus no change.. all i can say is that..


LOVE IS BLIND..


not all hearts have eyes.. unless you cut it out from paper and start drawing faces on the hearts.. but that's imaginary heart.. not the heart in you.. (no wonder love is blind.. ok.. lame.. NEXT)

those who are in relationships are blinded by love.. (unless their relationships is on the rocks or coming to an end..) so those who are blind.. no matter what you tell them.. they may not accept.. so what can you do??

sit down and cry your heart out..


haha.. i'm jus kidding.. jus hope that one day someone will shake and wake them up.. :)



actually.. i'm not sure whether i have any idea on what i'm talking about in the first place.. haha..





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watched enchanted on wednesday.. and i like this song.. here's the video on youtube.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hv350WPnBNk&feature=related


How does she know you love her?
How does she know she's yours?


How does she know that you love her?

How do you show her you love her?

How does she know that you really, really, truely love her?
How does she know that you love her?
How do you show her you love her?
How does she know that you really, really, truely love her?

It's not enough to take the one you love for granted
You must remind her, or she'll be inclined to say...
"How do I know he loves me?"
(How does she know that you love her?
How do you show her you love her?)
"How do I know he's mine?"
(How does she know that you really, really, truely love her?)

Well does he leave a little note to tell you you are on his mind?
Send you yellow flowers when the sky is grey? Heyy!
He'll find a new way to show you, a little bit everyday
That's how you know, that's how you know!
He's your love...

You've got to show her you need her
Don't treat her like a mind reader
Each day do something to need her
To believe you love her

Everybody wants to live happily ever after
Everybody wants to know their true love is true...
How do you know he loves you?
(How does she know that you love her?
How do you show her you need her?)
How do you know he's yours?
(How does she know that you really, really, truely-)

Well does he take you out dancin' just so he can hold you close?
Dedicate a song with words in
Just for you? Ohhh!

He'll find his own way to tell you
With the little things he'll do
That's how you know
That's how you know!

He's your love
He's your love...

That's how you know
(la la la la la la la la)
He loves you
(la la la la la la la la)
That's how you know
(la la la la la la la la)
It's true
(la la la la la)

Because he'll wear your favorite color
Just so he can match your eyes
Rent a private picnic
By the fires glow-oohh!

All:
His heart will be yours forever
Something everyday will show
That's how you know
(That's how you know)
That's how you know
(That's how you know)
That's how you know
(That's how you know)
That's how you know
(That's how you know)
That's how you know
(That's how you know)
That's how you know
(That's how you know)
That's how you know!

Giselle:
He's your love...

Man:
That's how she knows that you love her
That's how you show her you love her

Giselle:
That's how you know...
That's how you know...
He's your love...





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its the last day of the TEP week.. yay!! it felt like today was such a long.. dirty.. and dusty day.. jason, basil and i counting OLD stocks.. and i really mean old.. cos these stocks haven't been touched since 1.5 years ago.. and now they make us take it out to count it??!! it was super duper ultra dusty.. when they take the box down.. you see the dust flying everywhere!! argh!!

even the cleaning aunty was wondering what we were doing.. haha.. anyway.. i went up to the msc outlets to breathe some fresh air.. and when i went back to the room.. i started sneezing.. omg.. its like the dust lah.. no matter how many times i sweep the floor.. the dust is still there.. its a dust infected room!! someone pls do something about it!! we are all becoming dusty!! haha..

anyway.. that aside.. its a very tiring day also.. don't ask me why.. i woke up this morning and asked myself.. whether is it sat or fri.. and i told myself its sat.. and the next moment i was like 'shit.. its friday..' haha.. but thankfully its friday!! next week will be week 7 of TEP.. that will be another 2 more weeks!! yay!! i'm looking forward to the end.. haha..

ok.. i guess that's all for today.. maybe i'll have an early night like yesterday.. :)





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if that's what you think i am...
so be it.









every night i tear..
cos i miss you..
but what you said..
jus tore me..

i skipped dinner once again.. i think if i do this every other day.. i'll lose a lot of weight.. haha.. maybe i'll be underweight by then.. haha..




or maybe.. i'll jus disappear..

have you seen a kid so lost?






i have..





just let me be..

listened to this song in my brother's car.. and i fell in love with it.. feels like it relates to me somehow.. :) its the weekend already.. jia you ppl in TEP!! 4 more weeks.. :)


Corrinne May - Little Superhero Girl


I feel like a little girl
Trying to conquer the whole *wide* world
Everybody wants a piece of me
And I just don't know where to *turn*
I've got work piled up to my head
All I want to do is jump into bed
And wash away my troubles with lemonade
Play hide and seek with the boy next door
Take a trip to Singapore
And imagine how i'll make the world a better place

All I need is a good disguise
One where nobody can recognize
That I'm feeling so small
All I need is a secret weapon
I've gotta have faith
Zapping monsters into outer space
I'm gonna be a Superhero

Na-na-na-na...

If I were a little girl
Trying to clean up the whole wide world
I'd kick the bad boys back to school
Teach them fighting's just not cool
I'd give every kid a teddy bear
Turn starving people into millionaires
Break glass ceilings with dynamite
Sprinkle a little sugar and spice
Turn the bullies that terrorize
Into pink poodles that bark but don't bite

All I need is a good disguise
One where nobody can recognize
That I'm feeling so small
All I need is a secret weapon
I've gotta have faith
Zapping monsters into outer space
I'm gonna be a Superhero

Na-na-na-na...

Little Superhero Girl
Little Superhero Girl
Save me
Little Superhero Girl
Little Superhero Girl
Save me from myself

I feel like a little girl
Trying to conquer the whole wide world




am i your little superhero girl??

its coming to the end of the week already.. and i don't get to see my diana tmr cos she is on leave.. :(

but its ok.. i had breakfast with her.. haha.. she messaged me while i was bathing this morning about having breakfast with her.. haha.. so i did.. :)

anyway.. today was a slack day.. as what i told ms ho.. i decide to declare today a day of slack cos i'm too drained out by school.. haha.. i spent 1 hour before lunch at value shop talking to wayne.. it was quite fun.. haha..

after eating lunch.. had a great time talking to ms ho along the staff corridor.. haha.. she's such a nice staff in school.. so sad that she isn't my teacher or supervisor.. haha..

i can't remember what exactly happened during the 2nd half of the day today.. all i know that it took awhile to pass.. an the last half and hour was spending talking to audrey outside IM room.. haha..

came back after school.. at dinner.. and i'm starting to feel hungry.. and i'm talking to darren and sherman now.. OMG.. its been ages since i last talked to them or met them.. i really miss PAE times.. haha..




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everytime my phone lights up..
i'm always happy..
but sometimes its not the person i'm waiting for.

sometime i thought my phone lit up..
and i was hoping..
but it was jus my imagination.



i guess i was wrong..

*edited 9.54pm*
sorry nicholas chan.. i haven't been on msn for the past 2 days.. so i didn't see your message on msn.. :)


the year 3s are back in school.. but i haven't been seeing many of them.. only a handful.. but its better than nothing.. at least i know they are healthy and alive.. :) stupid tee jun said that i was too short to be seen when i called him.. ass.. happened to meet ash during lunch break.. and he has been saying this sentence ever since i started tep ' wow.. you're alive ah.. i thought you died already.. cos i don't see you around.. ' thanks ash.. haha..

anyway.. i've been labeled as an ah lian.. it can be explained.. haha.. but oh wells.. i always get stares.. (even from babies..) and i don't understand.. but a few secs after that.. i understand.. haha..

oh wells.. its been a crazy week since this week started.. i think everyone is getting on the stress side already.. any anti-stress methods?? haha..

and the best thing ever.. first time ever in my life have i ever been cut by the side of a cardboard.. -_-".. thank God that it has stopped bleeding.. thanks xue ting for the plaster.. it was kinda pain.. but i controlled.. my dad told me to put a plaster on it.. haha.. but i've been lazy.. maybe when i shower.. i'll wear a plaster.. haha..

hmmm.. i jus hope everything goes fine..




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i've decided to label myself as a typical ah lian.. but that doesn't mean samgan can call me an ah lian.. only tmr will i say why i'm an ah lian.. or maybe monday.. but by tmr.. some ppl will know already.. oh wells..


welcome the new ah lian of november.. :)

i talked to mich online.. its been awhile since i last talked to her.. and even longer since i last saw her.. haha.. and she said something.. that made sense..

out of sight.. out of mind..


that phrase beat my phrase of 'absence makes the heart grow fonder..' haha.. but oh wells.. like i told her.. its what you do at different situations..


to cherish??
to forgive??
to forget??
to let go??


cherish the good.. forget the bad.. haha.. oh wells.. she'll be back in dec.. i can't wait!! haha.. hope that i can find time to meet her.. and the rest of my other friends.. it has been ages ppl!! :) we can start singing the school song in public.. and they will all know where we are from.. haha.. :)





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i went to michelle's blog after so long.. and then i found this link about uncle hock seng.. the drinks store uncle.. and at the same time bus driver.. haha.. i suddenly miss MG.. and i want to go back.. but i haven't gotten a chance to go back this year.. darn.. i think i better make a trip back to school next year during my long break that i have after TEP.. haha.. anyway.. below is the link about our famous bus driver uncle hock seng.. :)

uncle hock seng

ok.. so much for uncle hock seng.. i bring good news.. and i'm going to write it big.. haha..


1 week of TEP has finished!! 4 weeks of TEP down.. 5 more to go!!! YAY!!!!

haha.. i feel so evil.. i can always remember how i dread MSC.. but coming to think of it.. i think MSC time will pass faster than FSRC some how or another.. haha.. i think i'm going to miss MSC since i'm starting to make quite a few new friends..

oh wells.. today's field trip was a bit of an eye-opener for the dressing room.. other then that.. my legs were aching.. that's all i know.. haha.. at least i wasn't the only one.. there were others whose legs were aching too.. haha..

i really don't know what else to say.. i'm having mixed feelings.. about what i have no idea.. anyway.. i guess that's all for today.. year 3s are coming back next week already.. hmmmm.. that means they will be graduating soon.. and i can so imagine su yu saying 'when will we graduate.. still got such a long way more..' haha.. su yu.. time will pass.. i'm sure we will be over and done with it soon.. :)

i guess that's all for today.. :) the weekend is here.. and it will pass very quickly.. i don't know why.. haha.. tataz..




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Happy Deepavali to all those who are celebrating..

to those who aren't celebrating.. enjoy your public holiday..

tmr is a very busy day in school.. i don't know how to complete everything before going to the field trip.. i hope it will be possible.. AH!! oh wells..

quite a lot of stuff happened this week.. but can't remember them.. anyway.. this entry is jus a short one..

i don't really like the weather. :(




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spent my whole weekend at worship team retreat.. i don't think i regretted it.. i had a lot of fun and no doubt i'm tired..

retreat made us know one another better.. allowed us to share our views and thoughts about CM and how kids react and what we can do to improve. and 1 thing that uncle simon said that i felt was very true is not to judge people too often before knowing the full story.

this happens very often. i won't said that i'm don't judge people. but i guess it jus doesn't leave a good impression the first time we meet the person or some stuff happens. but i hope that i'll change and not judge people too often.. everyone is not perfect and i'm not perfect either..

on the fun side.. we played 2 games organised by derek.. it was quite fun.. and to think that derek can come up with such cheem debriefs after the 2 games.. its so interesting.. i think its a good game to be done during LTC.. but it won't be a game that can last very long..

wasn't suppose to stay overnight for this retreat.. but in the end.. we youngsters did stay overnight.. so the staying overnight participants were as follows : samgan, adena, simon, derek, nicholas, wei leong and me. the girls slept upstairs while the guys slept downstairs.. and we watched 2 movies in a day.. ok lah.. considered very little but we had a lot of sharing time.

samgan, nicholas, leong and i were playing Big 2 while derek, simon and adena went to swim and when we were watching a movie.. haha.. and our dinner was settled by leftovers from lunch.. haha.. and we still didn't finish all.. thanks stef for baking all those cupcakes though the icing was very sweet.. but the designs are so jus cute!! haha.. i love the CM logo.. jus that i didn't get the chance to eat that.. i ate the one that said wesley.. haha..

samgan and i didn't sleep much.. sam was sleeping on the floor in my sleeping bag and she ended up aching in the morning.. for me.. i kept waking up once in awhile cos i was afraid that my alarm would wake adena up.. and i guess sam felt the same too.. haha.. cos we didn't want to wake adena up and let her have more sleep.. haha.. she's sleeping for 2 ppl.. haha..

anyway.. we had quite an enjoyable ride to church.. suaning derek and nicholas along the way.. haha.. fire drill today made my little boy angry.. haha.. kids these days always fight with girls.. haha.. but i guess he was ok after awhile.. :) played for worship.. swopped with sam cos i seriously can't play cheem chords that are not of my level.. haha.. my fingers and wrist jus can't adjust to them.. haha..

spent the whole day out.. jus came back home.. and i so need to shower.. and so i'm going to shower.. let my hair dry.. and off to bed i go.. into my lala land and get ready to start a brand new week of TEP in which i'm not sure whether i'm looking forward to it.. hmmmm.. goodnight ppl.. :)




i look up into the sky and think...

i remembered at the beginning of this week.. i was so wishing that it would be the weekend the next day.. don't ask me why i so didn't want to go to school.. i jus didn't want to i guess.. but surprisingly.. the week passed very quickly.. and its already the weekend.. i'm always hoping that life will only stay at weekends.. i jus don't know why.. i guess i really need a long break from school.. haha..

yesterday was my off day from school.. went out in the morning and for lunch.. came back and slept all the way to 5.30pm.. at night.. slept at 12plus.. and with so much of sleep.. i woke up today still feeling a bit tired.. and when my dad came home after work.. he asked me why i'm still tired.. haha.. i have no idea myself..

anyway.. tmr's worship team retreat.. :) i'm kinda looking forward to it.. and i spent almost an hour talking to sam and nick on msn.. its been ages since we last did that.. i don't care.. tmr must take band photo.. turn out don't seem to be many.. but i'm hoping to be able to see many other ppl.. and getting to know the rest of the worship band.. cos it has always been the same few of us..

oh wells.. i found out from some secret agent of mine once again that someone has been watching our every move.. and then report to some other ppl.. please.. can we jus have our own personal life.. and don't check up on us jus cos we have an extra.. but oh wells.. it has never stopped i guess??

weekends are here!! tataz folks..




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