sometimes, we're asked to give up things which we really want to have. things which hold so much prospects and possible gratifications.

what if i had this?
is it really a no?
maybe you're wrong.
i shouldn't let my life be decided by others.
perhaps i can convince people to my side of the picture.

i think the worst thing to do, is to wrestle with yourself in your mind. knowing what is right and yet feeling totally against it. i can imagine my left brain and my right brain trashing each other out. maybe after this i'll be brain dead.

God, let me settle myself.

you grow when you realise how near God really is to you.

God, my life is so puny. just do something with it. make an airplane out of a nail.

christmas! card chionging frenzy. @_@

i feel the air tingling.

i'm expectant because i know im going to meet God.

woohoo. camp here i come

woohoo! grades are out. some things are good, some not so good. haha, ironically, the subjects which i thought i'd ace i got bs and the opposite was true. goes to show... don't be ya ya. study hard and just do it for God!

satisfaction comes from faithfulness.

know why you're doing what you're doing and you'll find your satisfaction.

Having my holidays now. I was watching BBC's Blue Planet.

Here's a pic of dolphins hunting a school of fish. basically they work as a group and scare the fish towards the surface. till they're one huge ball waiting to be feasted upon because they have no where else to run.

Then hundreds of Albatross (a kind of sea bird) starts diving from above, like missles shooting into the deep, picking off frantic fishes.

soon the seals and sealions appear, joining in the feast of the school of fish.

finally, even a large whale appears to join in the feeding frenzy.

When you watch ecosystems function, habitats, prey and predators. Don't you realise that it is so intrically woven? every single creature is affected by others.

i find it hard to even just organise my resources, my man power. its extremely difficult just to chase for songs and to get the choir on stage once a quarter. at least i find it so! haha.

and yet God puts all these processes/lifestyles/seasons/cycles so nicely together. piece by piece. creature by creature.

that's the difference. God and us.