had singers retreat today, haha an interesting experience it was ice skating. and we welcomed YAN MING, FLORENCE, JOAN, REGINA and GAVIN!!

welcome to the team man.

at the end of all the sharing and all, sharlene encouraged me so much by when she said she felt very pastored by my leadership and how blessed she is by the singers team. i was reminded about last night when i was talking to jiayi, these 2 words came into my mind so strongly once again. undeserved influence. like how God places you in places which you don't really deserve such widespread influence over. its scary but exciting! to the singers if you ever read this, i'm very blessed to be leading a bunch of amazing people who are committed to God. this includes all those who weren't there for the retreat. seriously, i want to hear about how God's moving in your pastoral ministries as we work to flourish this ministry as well!

shar asked me to blog about my 2 random sharings with her.

haha, God presence. God's presence has 2 forms. the first would be like His Glory coming during praise and worship, His presence is so tangible and thick you can just tell in praise and worship. it's like a flood, a tsunami, when you're just immersed in it. the second would actually be like rain, God's presence comes in little droplets, in our everyday quiet time, in our constant awareness of God through the day. drop by drop, it falls on us till we're totally drenched and dripping with God's presence. so these are the 2 forms of God's presence which i learnt about. and guess what? God told me about this when i was walking in the rain.

the second is a dream! i dreamt of a fat fat man running after me. he's a blundering murderer! so creepy. so when i woke up, i asked God, "what on earth does a fat man chasing you mean?" and God kinda replied "this guy represents your sin, he'll never catch up with you because you've already won. but don't let your sin catch up with you. if it does, you're dead." then a few days later, i dreamt about the same thing again. and this time, it was abit different. the fat man kept running after me and he lost weight. the intepretation goes: when you first overcome your sin, it actually is a huge huge obstacle you've overcome. as you continue to struggle powerfully, your sin has a smaller and smaller hold on you over time. the same principles apply, it can never catch you if you keep running. but as your sin gets thinner, it actually runs faster. so we can never let our guard down even know we have already overcome areas in our lives. satan is ever waiting to strike you in areas you'll never know.

so... one thing for singers. discipleship. growth.

i love you guys man singers. =D

oh, here's my list of wants.

i want books to read. interesting ones, after sitting in the book shop downstairs of cathay and reading "For One More Day" by Mitch Albom, i want to read again.

i want a yellow graphic t so that i wont be out of clothes when singers wanna wear yellow, AGAIN.

i want really nice white/black v neck ts to go with my berms.

i want nice polo t shirts, please dont go super bright colours.

i want a pair of beige loafers from lacoste.

i want a table lamp

i want to walk for 3 hours down some nature park.

i want nice chinese dinners.

I WANT TO EAT CURRY WOK.

when people meet God, lives change. in 2 chronicles 30 - 31, this was a story of people meeting God and making radical changes. God, let me meet You once more. one more time. one more time.

oh btw, i dont like wordpress. kinda confusing. i've decided to just a new template! lol

i actually typed out a more detailed post... but somehow i lost my 3 hour post.

i believe in this camp, God shook many hearts. He stirred hearts like a pot of boiling soup. God is rising up a generation which cant be contained in singapore. i went into the camp knowing that i'd be serving alot. i was asking God so much for Him to use me tangibly and HE REALLY DID.

on the first night, i responded to REALLY being willing to be cut by God's word. God just kept asking, are you willing? are you willing? are you willing? seriously, i don't really like the idea of being cut through bone, marrow and sinews. well, what's happening is that i actually agreed to lead more for pnw. so to lead more meant that i had to grow so much more. in so many areas i have to give up or to just grow in. relationships, lust, giving, time management. i also caught an attitude of being spiritually greedy. to be like jacob, super kia su, not letting go till he's blessed. i wished that the night could have been longer. but there was a strict time limit for downtown east... so we just ended the altar call there and then.

2nd day. God moved again, super super moved. Pastor Jeff taught about character traits of leaders. he told us specifically think through the points he taught during the teaching. i could only remember integrity and humility. to always be teachable and to be living the same life at home and else where. it's tough but yea. by God's grace we'll do it. God then gave me a word through Pastor Jeff to reaffirm my decisions i've made on first night. Wow, i thought that was a powerful night and God moved so strongly in our hearts.

i think after this whole camp, it's evident that God is real, that God is big, He is so worthy of our lives. the Great Commission will be fulfilled in our lifetime, what are we doing about it? how are we running the last leg of the race, with all our hearts? with all our minds? with all our strength?

My aunt just passed away today. it's quite freaky because she dealt with mediums and all. so, there's a greater sense of urgency for me to save my parents. GOD PLEASE DO SOMETHING.

dear beyondlife.blogspot.com,

you have been with me for what... 4 years.

time to move because i see a new phase of life ahead.

www.nijnaiq.wordpress.com

hohoho. God i need Your lead.