packing my stuff. am moving house.

looking through the tonnes of notes from my jc life, the sudden revelation of me being twenty sinked down like pebbled diving towards the depths of a lake.

man. almost seems like i don't want to grow up.

love lead me on.

this is my CAREGROUP

there was this question posed to me during my birthday.


"what does minops mean to you?"





i took some time to think about it.

but i had the answer all along.
they're my FAMILY
we work together. we serve together. we lead together.

all under the leadership of mama shuz and papa daniel xD LOL

i love this family of God.

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the big 20

i'm twenty already.
wow, i have so many things to thank God for

thank You Lord for the past 4 years with you.

thank You Lord for daniel, harry, gwen, bao wei, sharlene, shirls, shu zhen

thank You Lord for debbie, dai xuan, kim, mau, jency, yu shan, joyce, shawn, sam, star, xiang, jon & louis xD

thank You Lord for raphael, derrick, han yang, yao

my life would not be what i know it to be today without these people. especially my singers.

let me share a blessing in my life.

a few weeks back, some of you may know, my dad lost his job.

man. it was tough. seriously tough. but yesterday, God showed me how He's been walking my family through this.

my dad has been a part time real estate agent for some time, he was like. moonlighting =X anyway, he turned full time after he lost his job. and now, he has close quite a number of "deals" and we're having some income. i really think its God who prepared him to turn his job so quickly. i mean, he's been working at his previous company for what...30 years? a sudden change of environment would throw anyone out of their routine life.. haha! God answered my prayer about my dad being able to cope!

my family has been paying for this house i've been living in for the past 7 years? and seriously, to those who has been to my house, you would know that its literally underground and i think its quite hard to sell. anyway, blessings started like, 3 months ago. my neighbour upstairs, their pipe leaked and that affected quite a fair bit of my ceiling. so, in the end, they ended up paying us like 6k for renovations and we got the house done up abit. even after doing 7 years of payment, we still had an outstanding debt of about 100k ++ and i dont think its really easy to pay off this big debt. thank GOD for the blessing in disguise, for the ceiling leak which allowed for us to afford some renovations. well. my house got sold YESTERDAY. though we sold it at a loss, but at least its getting a load of financial burden off. and the best thing is, the latest resale prices of houses in my area was 680k for a house my size and it wasnt the ground floor. my house was sold at approx 770k. like. wow. and its actually this period whereby my dad lost his job.

THANK YOU LORD.

though my parents say that its their god that blessed us. but evidently, only You can craft such a beautiful blessing. Thank You Lord for holding me through this period. xD thanks for growing me in love and trust.

We give thanks
We give praise
For we know that all things work together for our good
We give thanks
We give praise
For by faith we know Your Grace will see us through.

xD

was reading day 17 of connect journal. (i know, i'm super lag behind... i just don't write! but i do follow the sequence). anyway, the chapter was about being SALT and LIGHT.

SALT.
first thought was about this line. if salt loses its saltiness, it becomes worthless and should be trampled by men. hmm.. is there unsalty salt? if it is, then its just tasteless sand. then God helped me realised that the saltiness comes from God Himself. else i'm just tasteless sand. i remember sometime back, i was listening to Ravi Zecharias and the salt and light story.

"when the salt goes into the soup, the soup would never taste the same again."

our "saltiness" comes from God. its all from God. i, TAN QIAN JIN, were thrown into the world without this saltiness, i'd probably be just adding volume into this churning soup. so... Thank You Lord for Your saltiness. through my life, change this soup i'm in.

LIGHT.
God likened us to be a city on a hill. has the realisation of how freaking obvious a city on a hill is? that's how obvious we are to everyone around us. people are constantly watching. people are constantly evaluating, constantly criticising. haha, especially for those on stage ministry. this is what Veron said "stage ministers practically live in an aquarium, your life is being hawked by everyone else, if you're not on stage for like 2 months, people might think you've backslided".

At this point, this realisation came to me. Light is best when it's consistent. flickering light isn't good light. so similarly, consistency is key in our lives. Walk the talk. live it. make your private life the same as your public life.

We do all these, i.e. be salt and light, to achieve what's at the end of the chapter. So that all men would see your good deeds and praise Your Father in heaven.

mmm. change the world's flavour through me, lead people to Yourself through Your light shining through me.