ARGH. my eyes are dry again. i super hate them when they're dry and squinty. GOD! ACTIVATE TEAR GLANDS. THANKS

God's hand is way bigger than where you can fall.
You may stumble, but you'll never fall out of His reach.

Psalm 121: 3 He will not let your foot slip, he who watches over you will not slumber;

In the shadows my spirit's weak
Love broke through the darkness and lifted me
And i know, You'll never let me go

In the storm, in the raging sea
Love conquered the fear and delivered me
And i know, You'll never let me go

Oh Love in the shadows,
be the Light who leads me on
Your Love i will follow
Be my guide Your will be done.
Oh Lord.

In the arms of the One unseen
Love carried the Cross that was meant for me
And i know, You'll never let me go.

Oh Love in the shadows,
be the Light who leads me on
Your Love i will follow
Be my guide Your will be done.

Oh Love i surrender
Now forever i'll belong
in the Love of the Father
You are Faithful, You are strong.

So hold me now.

In this life as i walk these streets
Love open up my eyes
Show me what You see
And i know, I'll never let You go.

love breaks through the darkness to set me free.

am repeatedly reminded of this prophecy. one of the Word washing over a heart of stone.

Jesus says that you dont need to go back to the start where you began.

My Redeemer lives!

was running yesterday. its so true. its extremely hard to keep going uphill, its a breeze to go downhill. similarly in our Christian lives. its super hard to keep growing, but when you fall, its as easy as a snap.

sleeepy.

i slept from 830 am - 4 pm. and im sleepy again. =X

was reading Kim's blog earlier. was suddenly reminded of how Jesus died for me. in the simplest of essense, as we (man) get busy with the things we do, we tend to be caught up in the work we do and certain truths lose their impact on us. God help me remember. help me to be constantly grateful.

was looking for some stuff in my room last night. i realised that i have birthday cards from harry since i was 15. =X even before i got to know God, he was already writing to me as if i knew God all along. telling me to look to God for strength when i'm weary. dear harry has been sowing on me for so long~ i realised... that i've known harry and ben for 7 years. thank you guys for being in my life. i've known DERRICK SEE for 11 years (even though i was victimised by him in pri school and only became his good friend at 14 years old). thank you derrick. i've known raphael for 6 years. han yang for 6 years too! really got to know dan and matthew only for about 5 years.

haha, we've grown old together. we've all grown in so many ways. amazingly, God used a game called "clandestine" and dota to bring raphael, derrick, han yang to this church. it's cause of the friendships we've built by playing together through our sec 2-4 life then when one came to know God, the rest followed. thank You Lord for allowing me to serve with my best friends. we've all grown in so many different areas.

God, help me remember and not dwell upon the past, help me keep my eyes focused on You. move on strong and live our lives for those who are to come.

watched "the wind that shakes the barley" with shirls on sunday. its... very documentary-ish. at the start of the show, we were like :O. speechless because the irish accent was so THICK. they were like, speaking in semi-tongues. lol. it was a very shouty movie and yea, was about the civil war in ireland. the irish fought, and fought, and fought. even between their own brethren. initially this group fought the british, then when the irish took over, they fought within themselves, then finally, there was this guy who had to execute his friend whom he was brought up together with.

can you imagine? if you had to shoot your own friend with a gun. someone you grew up with, you know his parents, you've stayed at his house before. you guys shared the same food, played the same games, went to the same school. i... don't think i can do it. if i did it, i'd probably die emotionally/mentally. the guilt. the shame.

you know, this actually would be the same for true Christians. people who really really know God. if you really really knew Jesus, and He became your best friend, confidant, Lord, if you lived with Him for the past few years, knowing that He loves you, knowing that He has been continually watching your life, moulding you, speaking to you, reaching out to know you. your friendship with Jesus can be so deep, that you would know Him so intimately as if He grew up with you. when temptation comes, you can't sin because of the one fact that if you do, it be basically putting Jesus on the Cross all over again. the same comes with persecution, if someone tells you to deny Christ, would you do it? knowing that if you do, you'd be denying the reality of this friend, the reality of his death. i can't.

Lord, help me remember that what i've been through with You. how You've led me through the many scenarios in my life. my O's, my A's, my falls, my victories, my ns. help me remember that in my loneliest and most helpless moments, You were always watching my feet, never letting me out of Your reach. How You've always given me things which are not beyond me that i may stand up against them. when i fall, Your grace is sufficient.

Thanks for reminding me about all that through the rummaging of my cards last night.

was reading Kim's blog earlier. was suddenly reminded of how Jesus died for me. in the simplest of essense, as we (man) get busy with the things we do, we tend to be caught up in the work we do and certain truths lose their impact on us. God help me remember. help me to be constantly grateful.

was looking for some stuff in my room last night. i realised that i have birthday cards from harry since i was 15. =X even before i got to know God, he was already writing to me as if i knew God all along. telling me to look to God for strength when i'm weary. dear harry has been sowing on me for so long~ i realised... that i've known harry and ben for 7 years. thank you guys for being in my life. i've known DERRICK SEE for 11 years (even though i was victimised by him in pri school and only became his good friend at 14 years old). thank you derrick. i've known raphael for 6 years. han yang for 6 years too! really got to know dan and matthew only for about 5 years.

haha, we've grown old together. we've all grown in so many ways. amazingly, God used a game called "clandestine" and dota to bring raphael, derrick, han yang to this church. it's cause of the friendships we've built by playing together through our sec 2-4 life then when one came to know God, the rest followed. thank You Lord for allowing me to serve with my best friends. we've all grown in so many different areas.

God, help me remember and not dwell upon the past, help me keep my eyes focused on You. move on strong and live our lives for those who are to come.

watched "the wind that shakes the barley" with shirls on sunday. its... very documentary-ish. at the start of the show, we were like :O. speechless because the irish accent was so THICK. they were like, speaking in semi-tongues. lol. it was a very shouty movie and yea, was about the civil war in ireland. the irish fought, and fought, and fought. even between their own brethren. initially this group fought the british, then when the irish took over, they fought within themselves, then finally, there was this guy who had to execute his friend whom he was brought up together with.

can you imagine? if you had to shoot your own friend with a gun. someone you grew up with, you know his parents, you've stayed at his house before. you guys shared the same food, played the same games, went to the same school. i... don't think i can do it. if i did it, i'd probably die emotionally/mentally. the guilt. the shame.

you know, this actually would be the same for true Christians. people who really really know God. if you really really knew Jesus, and He became your best friend, confidant, Lord, if you lived with Him for the past few years, knowing that He loves you, knowing that He has been continually watching your life, moulding you, speaking to you, reaching out to know you. your friendship with Jesus can be so deep, that you would know Him so intimately as if He grew up with you. when temptation comes, you can't sin because of the one fact that if you do, it be basically putting Jesus on the Cross all over again. the same comes with persecution, if someone tells you to deny Christ, would you do it? knowing that if you do, you'd be denying the reality of this friend, the reality of his death. i can't.

Lord, help me remember that what i've been through with You. how You've led me through the many scenarios in my life. my O's, my A's, my falls, my victories, my ns. help me remember that in my loneliest and most helpless moments, You were always watching my feet, never letting me out of Your reach. How You've always given me things which are not beyond me that i may stand up against them. when i fall, Your grace is sufficient.

Thanks for reminding me about all that through the rummaging of my cards last night.

Devotion.

I've been running, trying to be one who sees
I've been working Salvation out on my knees
There is nothing better than knowing
That we are redeemed

I'm believing trusting in Creative Hands,
I am praying for our world to bow to your plan
And this one thought is unmistakable
I take up my cross and follow you Lord

When you stand the tall trees and mountains bow
When you speak the fiercest of oceans is still
And I see the sinner seek devotion
The lost become chosen,
and I fall to my knees

I'm forgiven, by a Savior who did not deserve death
He was blameless and I was lost in shamefulness
I'm delivered, but it doesn't seem right
Unless I keep my eyes focused on the Savior who gave His life

In the middle of a world that denies it's beliefs
It is breaking apart at the very seams
There is one thing to be alive for
And it's to take up my cross and follow You Lord

I will take up my cross and follow Lord where You lead me
And I will take up my cross and follow wherever You go

i think this song is amazing.

is it me, or is blogger's layout super weird today.

anyways. will try to post amidst the queerness.

this thought came into my mind.

when someone says "i love you", there is many levels of love.

sometimes, people say i love you for the sake of saying it. it has no heart, it has no essense. that's what i often face actually, especially with respect to singing in the past. worship songs to God, saying "i love You" were just... words. i gotta continually engage my wayward heart and focus on God before i say/sing anything at all. that is worship. engaging the heart. its so so important. when you engage your heart, when you engage your mind in remembering what God has done in your life, you will meet Him in worship. God, don't let me get too familiar in Your presence.

sometimes, when someone says "i love You" and that person really means it, you can feel it. its not just lip service, it isnt just words. gah. the receipient should know it. haha.

God, thank You for loving me. Despite of what i am. despite of how small i am. You never intended to love me only when i'm perfect. thanks for that.

less of me, more of You.

God i wanna be busy serving people, busy loving people. busy loving You.