you know, God just spoke to me regarding my previous post about how hard it is to be salt and light.

basically i quarreled with my mum this morning, over really menial things. den i blogged about it in a subtle manner, making her look like she's in the wrong, she's irresponsible, she's stubborn and
wants to be right all time.

i was listening to a sermon and the pastor was sharing about his experience. which is the exact same thing i'm going through. God spoke to him through the experience "Do not murder, do not be angry with that person". i was angry with my mum, justifying myself with my blog, putting myself in a very good light, saying that hey i wanna be salt and light, but its hard. the fact is, i've stabbed her a few times with my thoughts. God doesn't want that.

God, i'm sorry. thank You for being so ever patient with me. thank You for re-illuminating the fact that i'm a sinner to me.

Wow time really flies. i still have tonnes of work to do. =O its scary.

shall not waste my time away sleeping today. i shall listen to a sermon and take down notes.

mmm, its tough talking to parents at times. ever demanding, hardly understanding. i guess everyone wants to be right all the time. i mean, who ever likes being in the wrong? i wanna be salt that would make the world taste alot better. be salt that makes my family taste amazing.

everyone's mugging for exams! God, i shall depend on You to be salt and light in my camp man. not too long ago, a bmt friend sms-ed me. he was sounding rather depressed and i think he really dislikes his current vocation. i told him to cheer up and all! (amazingly) and i even pointed out that we are... LESS THAN 10 MONTHS TO ORD!

he said "You're very optimistic."

i guess that isn't the spirit we should be imparting to people, especially ns dudes. there should be joy overflowing. i gotta find joy in my work, find God amidst all things.

MAN. its so hard to be salt and light. but i believe i'll be able to find joy in standing out for Jesus.

how can i keep from singing

there is an endless song
echos in my soul
i hear the music ring
and though the storms may come
i am holding on
to the Rock i cling

How can i keep from singing Your praise
How can i ever say enough
How amazing is Your love
How can i keep from shouting Your name
I know i am loved by the King
and it makes my heart wanna sing

I will lift my eyes in the darkest night
For i know my Saviour lives
and i will walk with You
knowing You'll see me through
and sing the songs You give

I can sing in the troubled times
sing when i win
i can sing when i lose my step
and i fall down again

I can sing cause You pick me up
sing cause You're there
Sing cause You hear me Lord
when i call to You in prayer
i can sing with my last breath
sing cause i know
that i'll sing with the angels
and the saints around the throne


man, i love this song.

i realised that i've always been blogging about sad stuff. haha, it's true that whenever i blog, most of the time i'm doing it in times when i'm mel. now's a great example too! i'm in camp -_-

heh.
Let me share about what i've received in taiwan.

how about... knowing that i'm blessed beyond anyone else. i know i am loved by the king! i'm always the so called "lucky one" who gets the best stuff.

how about... looking out into the night sky when i'm above the clouds. once again, caught by the splendor of my Creator. the sky, dazzling with stars. words can't really explain the vast expanse of darkness embedded with countless stars. it's just amazing. and God takes a further step to capture me, a further step to make me fall in love even further. He throws a shooting star in my 30 seconds of staring out of the window, on the left side of the plane. =X how can i ever say enough, how amazing is Your love.

i guess you can always look at life like a coin, for every event, you can look at it positively or negatively. in both scenarios, you have one constant, that would be God is present in all circumstances. So actually, every circumstance, you can look at things positively just for that fact that the King who loves you is watching. even when you turn your back on Him. so for that, God. i'm handing You my problems. i will trust You for the challenges ahead.

SAVIOUR, HE CAN MOVE THE MOUNTAINS. You are more than able to move MY mountains.

God i know You'll never let me go!

Labels: undeniably God.