woo im at the airport now. free internet roxxor.

thank you derrick, louis, hui juan, joleen, jiayi, gwen, matthew, harry, ian.

you guys made a difference.

>_<

warm and fuzzy feeling now.

haha

will share more when i can =D

1 hour before i leave my house for three weeks.
feeling terribly emo right now. gonna miss people, but yet i know 3 weeks will fly.

God, lets go on this trip together. =)

its gonna be a time of retreat! Choir peeps, do well for next week! the rest, dun miss me too much..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AMELIA AND YU SHAN!!!!!!!!!!

sorry i missed your birthday... but yea, HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

I exchange my emo-ness with Your Peace.



Haha, today had a swim with shawn, wah... he swim so fast.. now im aching all over. we talked... abit. i think its too little. heh. den cooked lunch for gwen. jed and shawn. sorry jed, i hoped to spend more time with you. its okay, we'll spend time together when i come back. AS NSFs!!! HAHAHAHA. =X i feel so evil. but yea. then we played MAHJONG. and ian proves to hardly win, but he won at the end. walmond... erm. haha. JIANCONG. he is how scary la. he seems to be like an animal magnet. all 4 creatures FLOCK TO HIM. ALL THE TIME. its rubbish. lol. and gwen... pretty much watched alot of tv.

had a great day, but goodbyes make me even more EMO.

that's why i have to run to God

metamorphosis yesterday... God it was GREAT seeing people being baptised. It's seeing Your Spirit breathe new life into us.

I thought metamorph day was such a busy yet fulfilling day for me. i met like, 1000000000 people. nah, that's an exaggeration. lol. i met samuel at 10, gwen at 12, shuz at 1.30, daniel at 3. am really blessed by all the meet ups. it really was like... a day of recharging. God speaking constantly to me through people. there was mutual encouragement, and of course, enjoyment of each others' presence.
daniel and shuz, you guys never fail to encourage me and spur me on.

this word has been ringing in my mind. Obedience. Obedience through Godly fear will reap blessings.

God. Your will above my pleasure.


met harry on monday. i enjoy your company too much. =)

listening to "Glorify Your Name"

when i write, i grasp a little more of my soul.

when the silence begins.
when all my friends are sleeping.
when there's no one listening or looking.
when loneliness decides to make yet another visit.
when my past comes to haunt me.


this is when i find refuge in your sanctuary.
God, lets go. =)

lemme consolidate my thoughts. many things God has injected into my mind for the past few days.

it falls together. as usual, God's amazing timing and work.

Thank you Ravi Zecharias. for your many sharings.

basically for those who don't know, i'm held back by many many things. these things draw me back all the time. to look back. it's difficult to move on because it was a lifestyle. a lifestyle which i haven't left entirely since i've came to know God.

God wants me to move on.

Ravi Zecharias shared this amazing analogy.

We're called to be salt and light of the world. Imagine if we're really literally salt. living in a huge salt shaker which is made of beautiful tinted glass, with perfect ventilators on top.

One day, one salt grain finds himself thoroughly enjoying himself in the fellowship of fellow salt grains. saying "oh its so great to be a salt grain! all my friends are with me, i'm comfortable and happy".

then another salt grain comes along and says.
"wait a minute. before you get too happy, can you see the pot of soup boiling outside on the stove? look through that great stained glass window and look at the pot of soup with carrots and radishes and potatoes. you do realise that everytime after a pot of soup is cooked, a few of our brethenmen are tossed out those ventilators above and never come back? i dread my life as a salt as i face the possibility of being tossed into the next bowl of boiling soup. to be eaten up by all the potatoes and radishes and carrots."

"oh."

and yet another salt grain comes along.
"hey i know that our fate is quite inevitable to be eaten up by those potatoes, radishes or carrots. but i'm not afraid, because when i get into that bowl of soup. it will never taste the same."


and that's God's call for us.
the world may be harsh towards us. but when we're thrown into the midst of boiling soup. we're to make a difference. to change the taste of the soup.


then during CPM. the main word for us all was to look forward and stop looking back.
God i know that this word is specifically for me, it's the very simple answer i needed to help me move on.

to move on with courage. to look forward with hope. plus! i got a promise from God. now i have a goal to set my eyes upon. Lord, i dont want to give up my soul for temporal pleasures.

listening to "Secret place" Planetshakers.

lemme consolidate my thoughts. many things God has injected into my mind for the past few days.

it falls together. as usual, God's amazing timing and work.

Thank you Ravi Zecharias. for your many sharings.

basically for those who don't know, i'm held back by many many things. these things draw me back all the time. to look back. it's difficult to move on because it was a lifestyle. a lifestyle which i haven't left entirely since i've came to know God.

God wants me to move on.

Ravi Zecharias shared this amazing analogy.

We're called to be salt and light of the world. Imagine if we're really literally salt. living in a huge salt shaker which is made of beautiful tinted glass, with perfect ventilators on top.

One day, one salt grain finds himself thoroughly enjoying himself in the fellowship of fellow salt grains. saying "oh its so great to be a salt grain! all my friends are with me, i'm comfortable and happy".

then another salt grain comes along and says.
"wait a minute. before you get too happy, can you see the pot of soup boiling outside on the stove? look through that great stained glass window and look at the pot of soup with carrots and radishes and potatoes. you do realise that everytime after a pot of soup is cooked, a few of our brethenmen are tossed out those ventilators above and never come back? i dread my life as a salt as i face the possibility of being tossed into the next bowl of boiling soup. to be eaten up by all the potatoes and radishes and carrots."

"oh."

and yet another salt grain comes along.
"hey i know that our fate is quite inevitable to be eaten up by those potatoes, radishes or carrots. but i'm not afraid, because when i get into that bowl of soup. it will never taste the same."


and that's God's call for us.
the world may be harsh towards us. but when we're thrown into the midst of boiling soup. we're to make a difference. to change the taste of the soup.


then during CPM. the main word for us all was to look forward and stop looking back.
God i know that this word is specifically for me, it's the very simple answer i needed to help me move on.

to move on with courage. to look forward with hope. plus! i got a promise from God. now i have a goal to set my eyes upon. Lord, i dont want to give up my soul for temporal pleasures.

wow.

to leave my past behind.
to look forward to my future.

God. i heard from You.

thanks for the answer. =)

and of course. Your promise!

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what John Orthberg says is true.
Every decision you make will either draw you closer or further away from God.
Every thought you process will either draw you closer or further away from the Living God.

Help me find You in my thoughts.
Lead me in Your way, guide me in the way everlasting.

God, i want to make You mean everything to me.

time seems to fly. especially when you're out of working hours.

today. i blew up at my colleague. if i were to give excuses, it was definitely a combination of lack of sleep, laggy computer systems and his irritating attitude. after the whole drama of rejecting him giving me work to do, i reflected and never thought i would grow to be so... "jue" if you guys dont know what that means, it means heartless/ruthless/unfeeling/cold in a sense. Because i just gave an outright rejection. NO. ENOUGH. you're pissing me off. kinda tone.

God, teach me how to love. expand my heart. help me focus on You and look beyond my circumstances.

this is my shepherd.
His name is Daniel Leow
He is 2* years old. (Sensitive issue, but he is NOT old)
He is YWAM's CL, a Praise and Worship Leader and a student.
He loves... CHICKEN, PAUL BALOCHE. more importantly, JESUS.
I follow him because he follows Jesus.

Thank you for teaching me how to love.
Thank you for helping me carry some of my burdens
while encouraging me through those I must carry on my own.
Thank you for always speaking God's truth into my life.
Even when it wasn't easy to take in.
I'd thank God, because God uses you to give me what I need, not want.

Labels: Y-HOPE SHEPHERD APPRECIATION