well well. seems like the big PRELIMS are over. i dun really know how i did, cuz all my gut feelings are ALWAYS wrong. haha. but i can thank God alot for how He's helped me through the whole period. too many people to thank. and... i felt very joyful serving today. i have no idea why, although my knee hurts when jumping or when im running down nexus stairs, i feel happy doing things for Jesus. really, it pays off. i guess at the very very end, we'll see that its worth it. -glory-

blessed be Your name
in a land that is plentiful
where the streams of abundance flow
blessed be Your name

blessed be Your name
when im found in the desert plains
though i walk through the wilderness
blessed be Your name

every blessing You pour out
i'll turn back to praise
when the darkness closes in
Lord still i will say

blessed be the name of the Lord
blessed be Your glorious name
blessed be the name of the Lord
blessed be Your glorious name

blessed be Your name
when the sun shining down on me
when the world's all that it should be
blessed be Your name

blessed be Your name
on a road marked with suffering
though there's pain in the offering
blessed be Your name

every blessing You pour out
i'll turn back to praise
when the darkness closes in
Lord still i will say
blessed be Your name

blessed be the name of the Lord
blessed be Your glorious name
blessed be the name of the Lord
blessed be Your glorious name


You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord blessed be Your name

frankly speaking, i think it's really hard to praise God in all circumstances. but somehow, i managed to do it through this exam period. its really been taxing, tiring, draining. however, all i could feel was joy. its the joy of knowing that even if i fail my exams, i still have a greated purpose beyond exams. its the joy of knowing that im loved even though i may prove myself to be stupid. its the joy of knowing that i can actually be used to bring glory to the one who made the stars. i know my future is in God's hands. and whilst i hold the very same hand which holds my future, the more i tightly i hold His hand, i'll have more glimpses of my future. my future in Jesus, my Yaweh.

i need help from the I am. the One which no word can describe. i need help from my Yaweh. My Shepherd.

help.

i think, God created me to listen. i believe with all my heart that God made me to be ministered through music. its always through songs which God speaks to me. always. today, i kinda learnt about being wholehearted. frankly speaking, it never occured how half hearted i am, till today. i often sing about wanting to give fully, words like, take all of me, give you my all etc. these are only words, empty as it gets till you really really really mean it.

recently, i've been undergoing alot of changes. new circle of friends, new faces, new challenges, new trials, new environment. frankly speaking, i have no idea how i pulled through. the only thing that really stays is God. its like... everything in my life revolves around this one person. Yet at the same time, i want to tear away from all that i'm doing now. i can definately tell that its the worldly side of me wanting to pull away. that kinda means that im not totally convicted for God. my heart isnt given totally to God. isn't it? i'm sure that everyone will feel what i feel some way or another. but i know that God is more than we ever needed. so much more than we can ever ever expect. so much more than we've ever known. i want to live fully for Him.

I live to worship You Lord, my King of Glory
Brought me to life, gave me wings to fly
You are Holy
Heaven and Earth declares Your praise
Both now and evermore,
I'll Glorify Your name

Lord, let me see the dust trails of Your Glory, its more than enough for me.

and thanks to all who has been there around me.

hmm... it seems like i have alot of work to do. it just dawned upon me, that im nearing my doom. the best thing is, i've just awoken from holiday mode. i'm really stressed. really. if you haven't seen if written all over my face yet. you'll be seeing it in no time.

amidst the changes, amidst the all the pressures, i know that God is my Lord and my refuge. forever.