hmm... seems like im on a posting spree. but God just taught me something again. there are so many burdened people around, people who needs encouragement because things are getting tough. past fervour is burning out, helplessness comes in. but it is in our times of helplessness, when God shows himself as our Almighty Father. People out there reading this, remember to encourage your team mates out there, encourage your leaders, encourage your sheep. i believe that encouragement is a very powerful tool which God can use. =) you dont need to wait till birthdays to write cards. haha! [Galatians 6:2] "Carry each other's burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ." yea... i think, you need to share your troubles with people too. that's why Shirls taught about Biblical friendship. i'm so glad for my spiritual buddies. they are always there like how God is. =) don't be afraid to share cuz when you keep things to yourself, you have no one to look out for you, no one for you to be accountable to. that kinda leaves you vulnerable to satan's attack. yeaa. here's a prayer i wanna make.

Lord, i pray that you would help me see through your eyes. help me realise that life is not about me all the time, but about You. about Your family. help me be a blessing to those around because they have been a blessing to me. I thank You Lord for all the people you have put in my life, my unit, my shepherd, my sheep, my budds, the fantastic 4, some classmates. help me share their burdens as you commanded us to. help me love. spread Your love. amen.

heeyy... its 3 am. on easter sundae! well, in the last 3 days, everything revolves around life and death. today, its all about life. all about living. the question would be... how do we actually live? people think living their own life, the life that they want is the best way of life. well, looking at the life of gangsters. they may want to take drugs, to live in the "brotherhood". the question is. are they really happy? well... i never felt happier meeting God la. nothing else beats the feeling really. i know that God gave me a purpose, that is to be loved by him and to love him. yesterday shu yi mentioned something about being a child of God; just being loved by him and i saw her face light up lah. i could really relate to her because i feel the same way as well. =) i realised that "Sing", the version in "For all You've done", is so beautiful. so so beautiful. singing of God's love. i hope that i will never ever forget the fleeting sensation of being embraced in God's presence. i dun think i ever will because i enter it all so often. the feeling of joy. that feeling actually evokes tears in my eye sometimes. a grateful and thankful heart. what kinda love, transcends all time, all races, all ages, all people, all sinners, especially one like me. its really amazing. the more i think of it, the more i wanna jump into it. i think... you really need to experience God's love before you can actually say anything about it. its like the "chye tau kueh" analogy which daniel gave last time... i can tell you all about something. its the best carrot cake ever! and im telling you because i've tasted it. however, you have to taste it yourself before you'll know if its really the best carrot cake ever. you have to take the risk, the risk of using your $2 to choose between this or your trusty chicken rice. the chicken rice is like your comfort zone. the opportunity costs and risks. when people try to promote this chye tau kueh to you, will you do everything to burn that person and promote your chicken rice? tear him down till he looks like nothing? because i know some people do that. and sometimes, all they can think of is that people eating on the same table, think about what you eat all the time and dont like you because you eat chicken rice. i dun think that's the case and its more of insecurity. security can only be given by God. knowing that you are accepted as a person, your habits dont make you a person, your sexuality doesnt make you a person neither. God loves you as you. God loves the sinner, not the sin.

recently, there's been lots of thefts. kinda reminds me of satan, coming to steal kill and destroy. especially when it was on Good Friday. the Cross showed man's ugliness, like how a theif comes to steal, kill and destroy. but it shows that God cares enough, to die for us. yea. i hate thieves. really, hate them. i pray that God will do what he will with them.

anyway, im really tired. brains are aching. maybe its called a headache. yea. i think that's it. haha, i wanna thank God for showing me how to live. because, i never felt happier.

Sing.
It used to be darkness,
Without you.
I lived my life in blindness,
Now i'm found.

I'll sing, sing I love You so.
I'll sing, because the world cant take away Your love.

You found me in weakness,
Broken.
Came to me in kindness,
Now i live.

I'll sing, sing I love You so.
I'll sing, because the world cant take away Your love.

I'll give my life for you Lord.
For all you've done.
I'll give my life for you Lord.
For all you've done.

I'll sing, sing I love You so.
I'll sing, because the world cant take away Your love.
I'll sing, sing I love You so.
I'll sing, because the world cant take away Your love.

I love You Daddy.

omg. the long post i wrote. got deleted. im not retyping it. hahh. but i wanna THANK GOD FOR GUIDING ME THROUGH THIS EXAM. was a horrible one lah. almost resorted to red bull. yepp. thank you Jesus!

Find me at the Cross.

I wanna walk,
I wanna walk with you my King.

Here I stand forgiven.
Here I stand, Holy and Righteous.
You paid the price when you laid down Your Life.
Jesus I surrender all.

And I'll walk with you, with my heart.
And I'll walk with you, with my heart.
Find me at the Cross.
Down on my knees,
Thank you Lord for Saving me.

Hallelujah. Hallelujah. Hallelujah.
Here I stand, forgiven.

find me at the Cross. down on my knees. thank you Lord for saving me.

whee~ study

More than a friend.

In the quiet,
Of my soul.
In the stillness,
I hear your voice call.

And I am overwhelmed.
And I am lost for words to describe.

Jesus you're more than a friend.
Jesus you're more than my heart could ever express.
Your Love and your Grace never fail me,
Merciful touch always heals me.
You bring Joy to my soul.
Joy to my soul.

My heart longs to worship,
You my king.
And I long to bring you,
A pleasing offering.

And I am overwhelmed.
And I am lost for words to describe.

Jesus you're more than a friend.
Jesus you're more than my heart could ever express.
Your Love and your Grace never fail me,
Merciful touch always heals me.
You bring Joy to my soul.
Joy to my soul.

more than i could ever express. that's what i feel.

wahah~ exams around the corner. took a day off from school today. have mc~ whee! i slept till 11. got up. ate abit, studied abit. went back to sleep after medication kicked in. and ate again. gonna take my medicine like now, wonder if i'll fall asleep again. lol. i spit out a chunk of brown mucus today. it was really a chunk, still in the same of my nostrils. long, brown, 80% solid and 20% liquid. YUCK man. i never knew my body produced such stuff... bah. wanted to go to harry's place to study, but its raining now~ how to go out... *sobs* nevermind bah, can stay home and do some reflection... hardly have time to do that nowadays...

E. A. S. T. E. R. !

yep... the question is: where has my sheep gone to.

yea, i doubt kian long would read this lah, but he's the missing one. i dunno why, but he's been avoiding me. what have i done. i've tried calling his hp a gazillion times. but there isn't response. i talk to him on msn. he goes offline. haish. Since God started the work. he will finish it. it's about Him.

where has my sheep gone to... got c6 for chinese... yea. kinda shitty =X

welllllllll. chinese coming out later... kinda scary isnt it? one year has passed so quickly. not sure if pw comes out though... =)) tired. God, help me do what you want me to do.