Thanks.

thank you Lord. for giving me trouble, that i might grow. that i might depend on you. that i might open my mind. =) praise God. wahaha =D gonna keep trying. and... thanks Harry for designing this new blog!

God... its really hard to disciple someone. give me the strength and determination. i've really tried. im up to my neck. im tired. school is adding to the burden. but i know that i can always go to your secret hiding place. Father Lord... help me. all the way for you.

life.

life is a gift, not an obligation. God didn't give us our life for us to waste it away. God didn't die for us so that we can splurge on his sacrifice. well, hols are coming up. i'm gonna give it all to God. a full 2 months of pure spiritual growth. heeez! that sounds great actually =) its not a time to sin... but a time for cleansing. i believe God has it all readily installed for me. whee! starting to save money. >.< p.w. coming up too! i hate oral presentation.. ppftt. so to do all these. i gotta S A C R I F I C E. which is actually giving till a point when it hurts. i believe i can do it. im gonna be hurt for God, for he will comfort me when i am troubled. =D hurray!

-you can't feel happiness till you've been down-

Just let me say.

Just let me say how much I love You
Let me speak of Your mercy and grace
Just let me live in a shadow of Your beauty
Let me see You face to face
And the earth will shake as Your Word goes forth
And the heavens will tremble and fall
But let me say how much I love You
Oh my Savior, my Lord and Friend

Just let me hear Your finest whispers
As You gently call my name
And let me see Your power and Your glory
Let me feel Your spirit's flame
Let me find You in the desert
Till this sand is holy ground
And I am found completely surrendered
To You my Lord and Friend

So let me say how much I love You
With all my heart I long for You
For I am caught in this passion of knowing
This endless love I've found in You
And the depth of grace, the forgiveness found
To be called a child of God
Just makes me say how much I love You
Oh my Savior, my Lord and Friend
Oh my Savior, my Lord and Friend

Just makes me say how much I love You
Oh my Savior, my Lord and Friend

hmm... this sudden revelation. haha quite hard to get those kinda thingies in my head. we gotta know and love God with all our heart and our mind. we tend to just... love him with our feelings. when we don't feel like it, we tend to turn away from God... that's the flaw about feelings.. they're not unwavering. so when feelings let us down, we gotta let our minds take over. loving God with our minds is actually convincing our minds with the facts and truths God has presented to us. because the truth is unwavering, we can let our minds take over when our hearts fail. vice versa, when we cannot understand or comprehend God's love, we gotta let our hearts take over..
Mark 12:30 Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.'

second thing... God's kingdom is really going to be built upon relationships. a good relationship with God will build strong Christians. similarly, a good relationship between shepherd and sheep would increase growth as well. in the bible, the shepherd often knew the sheep very well.. like a close friend and all... i guess that's how our shepherd/sheep relationship should be.. be it upwards or downwards. relationships matter.

F R E E D O M! L I B E R T Y! J O Y!

though i may not do well for all my exams... but i think there's alot to be thankful for... i think i improved from my common tests.. wahaha! i can get promoted! yay~ i dun think i'll be able to take S papers though... >.< oh well, i guess God just wants me to work on my ministry more~ whee!!!!!!!! so many things to do... i wanna thank God for everything! mcqs all the way!!! Amen!

exams.

its almost 12.. i think im done with chem. i hope i am and i dont forget anything. i'm done with maths! yay~ thank God for sending me through the maths paper... i felt so zonked after coming out of the exam hall... if God didnt give me strength, i'd prolly faint or something =D 3 more to go... im very scared. God help us. [Psalm 56:3 When I am afraid, I will trust in you.]