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whee! many people must be wondering why didnt i blog about Germany right at the point when i reached home. well... i really wanted to have some time to settle down and prepare for horrid school. haha! Germany was a cool place. Literally. =) well, the first impression i got when i landed after 13+ hours of flight time, was that Germany looked like Australia... just that the temperature was cooler. the trees looked kinda dusty all the time... no idea why but the leaves looked greyish >.<
 
the second thing i felt was the jet lag. i was dizzy for 2 whole days. giddy spells and i would almost fall after O Nata Lux when all the high notes were held for some time and i would go out of breathe. bleah. haha.. we kinda checked into our hotels on the first day and had some practice with Ms Lim. the hotels were COOL! it was practically small chalets in the forest. the whole house was ours and we could scream and run about through the night =D
 
it was practice for the next few days and it wasn't too good as i was kinda dizzy all the time. well.. we went straight for contemporary music category and sang REALLY well. it was amazing. then we kinda got tired in the afternoon, was prepared for sacred category, but ended up screwing due to stupid arrangement mistakes and we were all depressed after that. =(
 
results came out, we ended up with a Gold V for contemporary qualifying and silver IX for sacred, missing Gold by a few marks... i mean, we could have gotten into sacred finals... bleah!
Ms Lim cried that night cuz we wasted 6 months of our time practicing for the sacred songs. everyone was really really really really sad, that included me as well. but we had another category for contemporary finals on the next day... so... we had to pick up.
 
The night before going for the finals, we met up to do quiet time together and Ms Lim stumbled upon us. We all shared and realised that not getting into finals for sacred could have been a good thing as we would have gotten a bronze. well, i think that that was kinda true. but it was really God's plan for us not to get in. i mean... we sang badly not because we didn't practice much, but just because we went up the platform wrongly and that the last row was swapped left with right. That was the MOST stupid mistake i ever ever heard of and is quite impossible unless it was really God's doing. Important lesson learnt from this, to be able to give thanks in ALL circumstances.
 
Sang for contemporary the next day... we did quite well, not as good as qualifying but still good. then we really could say that we sang with NO regrets. We came out of the church into the practice room and started hugging everyone. it was really a moment of sheer happiness. there was a tinge of sadness which lingered in the room as well because it was the final major performance with the j2s. =( We sang and almost cried. We'll miss you J2s!!!!!! we took a group photo after that... and it started raining.. =X haha then we ran to Die Glocke after that to change out.
 
Die Glocke became our FAVOURITE place after the first three days as it had decent toilets. whenever we toured Bremen town, we would always linger around the market square and visit the Glocke when we needed the loo =D hehee... there was nothing much there, except the CHOCOLATE SHOP! yummies...
 
we ate pizzas, hamburgers, sausages, taco wraps and ICE CREAM all the time. haha so fattening. Germany is kinda boring actually, i love it for the weather... nothing else. shopping wasnt too good... only bought chocolates and some random stuff... the churches were BEAUTIFUL. really amazing. i could feel the love from the Christians who spent their whole life building them... i mean.. the church took like 300 years to be completed.
 
well! im back in singapore now! haha im happy and sad at the same time. back to school for me and i received kinda bad results.. i got B4 for GP, C6 for Chinese, C for Chem, E for Econs, O for Maths and F for FEESIXS.. oh man... really gotta buck up. what a bad day to receive my results... i mean, it's my birthday. lol.
 
wahaha! i received LOTS of birthday messages!!! i love you guys, never felt so blessed and loved in my life. haha only had lots of happy birthdays... the class forgot to get me a card which they usually do, oh well... but... when i reached home, i found a MOGU!!!!!! I LOVE HARRY AND MATTHEW!! wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. really happy birthday =D thanks everyone!
 
okie... i gotta go out like, now for music practice for this sat! whoot! service! haha!! bye bye!!!
 
 

God gave me a vision of someone dancing in his Glory. i wanna be that. cool vision to get before going to Germs... haha! might be a good sign from God!!

IM GOING!! BYE BYE!

[Sheep] take care ya! God's with ya.
[everyone else] i'll be back =)

Day before going to germany.

Put the Father first and everything else will fall into place.
During this trip, i'm going with a heart of confused feelings. it seems like a temporary escape away from all the school work, away from my results. God, i don't think i ever got over the bad results yet. Maybe studies has always been an area i could actually excel in, God really tore me down by putting me as the last place... i really need to start working, maybe this is God's call to tell me to be dilligent.

Sji ain't very healthy. But im going to submit it to God and we'll grow together.

You'll never know how much God loves us until you really sit and wonder. i feel like going out tonight. to sit under the stars and stare at them. If God created the whole world, created everything, why does he choose to love us instead of the stars or something else? i mean, the stars shine brightly for him, the trees grow tall for him... but us? we only make him sad by sinning. why does he still love us? that's the extent of unconditional love.

things don't usually work out. yesterday i went for the central e matthew party. was really tired while i was waiting for the bus. matthew spoke to me lots before that and i was really sad that i wasn't there with him earlier to share his burden. when i walked out, i was in a low negative mood. lamenting about all the things that im going through, and thinking why am i still going on? while i leaned on the bus post, was really really tired... in many ways. then Harry came along and he just stood there with me. i thought that was really nice. nothing else but his company really mattered. thanks Harry.

Well, im leaving tomorrow... 10 days away from njc. haven't touched project work for some time... i hope i dun burden my group. to 04s08. you guys really really made things fun and crazy through this tough time. especially the hilarious mean girls. =)

well... CENTER STAGE is here. whee i hope to get more people from SJI... but i think that maturity is more important now... joshiee... you're gonna get it from me.

i'll be back! =D and i'll miss you guys!

CENTRAL B!! HIT GOAL FOR JESUS! jia you mans... =D

i realised that sometimes, peoples' lives seem SO perfect. they go chasing all the fun stuff, they supposedly have great friends, through it all buddies and basically have fun leaving a legacy or taking care of juniors in school. don't they realise that creating memories and having fun all the time won't last? one day, your supposedly through it all buddies will leave you. one day, you will grow old and not have anymore fun anymore. one day, people will forget you. one day, all the things you have been chasing will just crumble and you will be shattered.

people are concentrating on the wrong things! haix i wanna say this to someone, but he prolly would say "stop pressuring me!" that kinda stuff or something to that extent. you should know who you are if you ever read this. you can't sort out your life without God, cuz you wouldn't have a direction to sort it out to begin with. and if you're trying to sort out your life being a half hearted Christian, God will spit you out of his mouth because you're doing things your own way.[Revelations 3:16] nothing is going to work out for you, people will probably misunderstand you and you wouldn't know who to turn to. it's no use just reading the bible without opening your heart. because it will only just be words. with no meaning, with no direction.

Service is something that everyone shouldn't miss. besides having fun and learning about God's word, it is basically a time of building spiritual covering and protection. God didn't ask you to meet him and live under a coconut tree in some deserted island. he told you to meet up together to get to know him. [Matthew 18:20] Only with God's presence, then we will be able to meet God to a deeper extent. If you don't grow spiritually, you are basically drifting away from God, because there is no such thing as being stagnant.

Revelation 3:16
So, because you are lukewarm–neither hot nor cold–I am about to spit you out of my mouth.

Matthew 18:20
For where two or three come together in my name, there am I with them."

was pissed off yesterday, too many things spoil the brew altogether. its like when you're feeling sulky, more things add to the fire and blow it up even more. oh well, got over that. whee.

a few more days to germany... gotta settle some stuff with my sheep. =) shepherding on thurs.. whee.. that's tomorrow. im happy. i can't wait to get to germany! i'll miss you guys... maybe not, but im missing some people now.

wow. finally the common tests are over. lol, there goes my results as well... gonna be the last in class prolly. bah... always hated that feeling. oh well, im glad that i even survived the cts. seriously, i was really kinda depressed cuz i couldnt do alot of questions. one day... i think on tues, i felt like i was harry potter facing dementors. if dementors sucked out all happiness, i would have known how that felt. lol! i started eating chocolates then! it really helped =D made me a feel a little better. whee.

haha.. had a headache today, after the paper, i kinda dragged my feet to hq to have my first shepherding with Ethan... hahaa found him sleeping =X no surprise =p. apparently they stayed over last night at hq to watch Euro.. =S. anyway, we then went to ngee ann poly to have lunch. the food is CHEAP. 3.20 for large plate of rice, fries, coleslaw and half a spring chicken. maybe it's just because dewen was there... haha. had fun eating with matthew, dewen, livi, peng chuan, and ethan. when i walked into ngee ann poly, i saw many people pointing at me. it was really really freaky cuz because i was walking in with the njc uniform. lol, i was really an eye catcher, then everyone was pointing at me like i was a zoo.. lol felt weird but who cares, spring chicken rocks.

BAah... cannot go for service cuz of germany.. but nevermind. i'll be back!