wah... just came back from choir. Today's practice was practically the HOTTEST practice ever. No, it was not hip, no it was not cool. it was just HOT. PLAIN HOT. almost died... even the fan was blowing hot air at me and i was in full grey... almost fainted. the heat took a toil on everyone, including usually cheerful and chatty Miss Lim... she got quite pissed lah and we were kinda underperforming for the time restraints.

after choir, miss teo came up to us and asked who brought the keyboard around for monday's practice... then i realised that it was me. shucks man.. i mean like, i was really try to help flustered Ashleigh with anything i could help her with... since i couldn't really help her with the notes and teaching, i guess i could only help out by carrying stuff. then after bringing the keyboard to the LT, i totally forgot about it and went home after prac cuz i was like almost dead tired... i mean like it was after a whole day of running about in the hot sun and all. so today i realised that BIG mistake of being utterly irresponsible. bah... talk about screwing up on first try. thank God the string orc people returned it... or else i would be $$less again. well... at least i'll remember to keep the keyboards now... haha!

Met Wei Qi in the bus.. had a short chat with him lah, i suddenly felt so immature. like, i felt that he thought alot lah, as in... was very perceptive. kinda made me feel IGNORANT... and that my judgement and the way i saw things was really quite shallow... WAH~~

oh well...okay here are lots of shoutouts! not in order of merit and sorts.
[Bing Quan] Happy birthday! hope you enjoyed gorging yourself at nydc...

[Ashleigh] i hope you won't get any more fainting spells anymore... haha i think you're really amazing and your passion for singing is really uplifting.. inspirational in fact. haha thanks for being so helpful in so many ways, for offering to teach me and stuff. thx!! oh yar... and i hope i helped today by talking with you... he's waiting for you!

[Chye Keong] Hey... im not ignorant about your blog ya? haha i drop by occasionally... haha thanks for being so encouraging all the time... i really wanna thank you lah, cuz it's really not an easy job teaching us tenors and for teaching me lah, practically from scratch since i dunno anything. and BIG THANKS for making all the midis!!!!!!

[Hon Seng] You're really kwel lah... and quite funny too :D thanks for being the back up sound for all the lost tenors by standing at the back... haha we kinda depend on you alot... although we sometimes can hear CK from the back(which is amazingly loud lah), but you're GREAT!!!!!

[Harry] Hurry up manz! NJ!!! lets turn Nexus grey... BWAHAHAHA!!!!!

[Eugene, Jun Kai & Richard] SO SORRY!!! today i was very edgy during mah jong... got really agitated easily, ended up screaming and rushing you all lor.. and Richard im so sorry, im more like a single player... and when im obessessed, im obessessed.

[Quan Bin, Kian Long & Joshua] Aiyo... i've really been so busy with school choir that i've kinda like neglected you all lah... i hope you guys understand... i'll make it up to you all soon lah! as soon as i get time... remember to call me anytime when you need to lah, im always free for you guys. or at least i will make time. Easter's approaching... do your best!! jia you!!

sensitivity.

have you ever ever came to a moment in which your eyes are suddenly pried away from your usual schedule and you are forced to think about something else in the distant corner of your life? you suddenly get enlightened on the painful truth and reality of the world we're living in. you get saddened by all the on going things around you. that's what just happened to me.

life is so fragile. why do people go for abortion? i think the death of a person is so tragic... moreover a child who has never tasted life, laughed, cried, breathed the air through his/her lungs, lived... it's really saddening to find out... i wonder if Jesus has prepared a place for them... that i will find out once i reach heaven...

yay! so long never update... im so tired, just settled down from the long day today... wow school reopened with lots of new people coming in and going out of the school... the chinese high guys are actually kinda nice, but still clickish except for bobby... oh well.. hope to have chris in my class! haha... he's quite fun. okay... do everything as though everything depends on you, pray as if everything depends on God... c'mon man, Easter's coming!

its really hard. so very hard to live a life that really honors God. i don't know how we can do it, but i believe we can... cuz God wouldn't set tasks that we cannot do, that we cannot overcome. It's all about him, and the world he promised.

too many times, i've forgotten the vision. forgotten about the promises that i make to God. i pray that i would be able to live each day worthy for God, to use my life to the max... never to forget the promises that i make. Thank God that he is faithful or else he would be like shifting shadows... not steadfast, not trustworthy. that's why we can trust in him.

time is really passing along so quickly, memories are becoming a distant dream. love and treasure the things you have now before they disappear and you'll only get to see them again in heaven. i dun wanna live a life full of regrets. so far, for the past year or so, i have not really regretted coming to know Jesus. its like, though sometimes i look over to the world on the other side, but comparing it to the things i would miss, the presence of God, the friends i made, the lives i've changed, the impact im making. compared to the these, those temporial highs though alluring, seemed outshined... i pray that i'd be able to use all my time well...

well, i wanna thank God for many things! firstly it's the four services that he saw the choir through... i managed to come out being still able to SPEAK. hehe that means i didn't lose my voice, thank God. but i'll still pray for healing to be upon our dear leader Shirley who lost her voice...

I went over to Raphael's house on Sunday after 2nd service. went there to apparently go for his maid's bbq cuz she was leaving... well, didn't eat much and i actually fell asleep at will on his bed, on his almost wooden bed. hehe. thx Raphael for letting me sleep there. We then went over to Derrick's house to stay over and catch up once again. All four of us kinda squeezed unto the bed and i was squished in the center. Raphael went off to sleep on the carpet and i was stuck between Derrick and Han yang. Han yang sleeps like a log, i tried to push and move him further out, but to no avail. so i decided to choose to come out of the little space and sleep on the floor, unfortunately, it was very cold. so, it was either the coldness or the squeeziness, i chose the squeeziness, resigned myself to being a sardine between 2 people. ugg ugg... hardly slept.

woke up at what... 10. i was suppose to go beach cleaning, but apparently, so many people didn't go as well... oh well... i rushed down to NJ for choir and then went to meet them up for dinner again. We went to Cafe Cartel for dinner. Ordered like some weird fried food platter, wedges and carborana. everything was quite good except for the chicken cutlets and the carborana, which tasted distinctively like the chef accidentally spilled the whole bottle of salt into the small dish. it was SALTY. we complained to the manager and they agreed to change a plate for us or at least change the dish. then he came back to us and told us that he tried the dish and it was suppose to be THAT salty. but at least they agreed to change the dish for us... if they didn't i would just tell the manager to try to finish the whole plate of carborana himself, we'll see if he has to finish the whole tank of water to clear the sodium out of his system. one suggestion, dont order that.

oh well... so many things to look forward to, so many things to look back on. i hope the future will be more interesting. with God, all things are possible.

Hahaha... Today is like the second last day of school and everyone is in SLACK mode. Bridge bridge bridge... everyone is playing that game... i better find a new game to play man... heehe... i hope im not missing any tutorials man... i've been kinda lost in the hustle of stuff. hehe! oh yar... i got nominated for a students who suits Loyalty with Integrity cuz i wore the school grey uniform first... lol! so funny... im really amused :D and tomorrow's the last day... might not see anymore of my class mates... so sad, but hope they will enjoy themselves else where!! HEEZ! God bless~~~

Church aniversary coming up!!!!!!!!! im sure it's gonna be a great service! lots of work put into this... i believe hearts will be touched, lives will be impacted cuz we've been through 13 years after all and look where God has brought us to... time to celebrate!!!!!

Worship is not just about the songs, the words we sing. It's actually bringing JOY to GOD, which is basically what we do with our lives... i really want to a different life. one that's not set by the world's standard, but by God's standard. God doesn't sets us through situations that we cannot survive, even if it's those kinda situations, he's waiting for us to depend on him for help, never on our own strength.

well... 2day we went to bugis village to buy clothes... walked until 10... almost died of the heat. then ah... i got lost in bugis. i couldnt find the 67 bus stop and i ended up walking a whole round around parco... i feel so swah ku lor.. getting lost in BUGIS. hahaha anyway, i gave up walking and took a cab home in the end... heez...

Today is the last day for submitting our JC choices... There are alot of doubts flying around... Hui Ren is like considering to pay $10 to remake his choice to go to HC instead of NJ... So sad... Sometimes... i do wonder why aren't i in RJ with Derrick, Raphael and Han Yang. I MISS THEM! And today, i heard Joey is not coming over to NJ. Really pissed with Jun hao... i just wanna slap him... you can guess why. Oh well... life still goes on...

Recently, God's reallie been urging me to go for Water Baptism... well... to actually speak the truth, i was not very certain about going for it. its like... a public proclaimation of our commitment to God.

Firstly, my parents aren't that supportive of me even going to church. Somewhere deep down in my heart, there is this deep yearning, that they will accept me one day... and i wanted them to witness me being baptised as a mark of their acceptance.

Secondly, it was a public proclaimation. i have many many many many doubts. Will i be able to keep this commitment? what if one day i just turn away from God? there are so many whats, whys, hows, all floating in my mind. So i actually decided to give myself more time, to really make sure.

However~ It seemed that God is stamping my foot, telling me that this IS the time. So he sent Ethan to speak to me. Many things, or at least he tried to understand and reply my broken and unclear messages which i was sending in school with this antique handphone which technically prevents me from smsing. It was the whole of yesterday i guess... So i just decided to go for it.

As i look reflect and am blogging now, i realised that there really shouldn't be any whats, hows, whys... cuz the future is not uncertain, its just unseen... God has it all in control. No doubts now, just faith. So, my final question... Joel/Nathaniel/Benjamin? =D